That’s why you where never a mum Night or day
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A copy of a medical report from my files from social services showing my weight of 4st at the age of 13 years old.
For everyone who reads this book who has been in the care system will understand the heartache, suffering, neglect of what went on in my childhood and I‟m sure you will have a similar true story. When you say to friend that you have 228
been in the care system they seem to look at you in a different way.
Some of my friends who I had told thought I was an out of control child but when I told them why they understood me more and asked how I got through it and they say I don‟t look like a person who has had a bad upbringing. I just said I had no choice, yes I had my good and bad days, my ups and downs, but if you don‟t get on day by day you will end up cracking up and then your life will be ruined and I‟m much stronger than that. It‟s like being in prison you do your time and look for the gates of freedom. If not the care system will take over you and that‟s where your life will change, your personality, your outlook on life and believe me the other side is much better, you don‟t want to end up with the care system scares for the whole of your life that will never heal.
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If life is not so good time is a great healer, there must be millions of children all over the world are put into the care system with different reasons and circumstances. I‟m not blaming the care system, without them, well let‟s not go there. The fears and faults have now gone like a disappearing magicians act, only this is real not an act, it‟s not an illusion. There is a person who made my childhood hell, well I‟m not that skinny little child you can bully and push about.
There will be a time that we will bump into each other, it‟s a small world my friend, don‟t know when but lets see who can bully who. I‟m afraid it won‟t be you; I‟m a big boy now.
There is a song I have written about my life in relation to this book which is called “Looking 230
Back in Time.” It will be sung by my daughter Charlotte.
I have done the lyrics to the song and the music was composed by Norman Carney and produced by Scott Carney. Both Norman and Scott are professional musicians and have been in the music profession for a number of years.
The song will be on sale in the near future and played on local radio stations across Liverpool and other regions of the Northwest.
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