My brother-in-law stayed in Washington while we went on a weekend trip to the Big Apple. We arrived at Grand Central Station in New York and walked to the Taft Hotel. Since the new girlfriend didn’t show up as planned, I witnessed Derek’s first tantrum. The threat was traumatic. I had not lived with my sister for a long time, and I had idealized her, hoping that she would be the one to help me with my homosexuality. But the woman had changed. As a teenager, she was beautiful and very similar to Rita Moreno. But now she had cut her hair short and had crazy tantrums. Being yelled at to go back to your house on foot, without money, without knowing the language from Washington to San Jose, was the first of many abuses I would receive from her. How do you get to Costa Rica from Fifth Avenue? I looked at the signs to see if there was a bus that went there.