A    Poetry collection    by    the   pen   of      Eman Nazir

                         

         

              Heart    Melodies

                                “   In the dance of life, let your heart melodies  guide your steps .”

                                             

                                                                             A    Tribute   to    my    old   self

                             

                       

                                                                              Dedicated to my best friends ;

                                                                          Khushi Nisar   and    Seerat Javed  

             who listened to my heart melodies and never get tired of it .

                                Table of contents  

Writer’s Intro:

Eman Nazir is  an inspiring  19 year old  girl ,a senior in college trying to manage her studies  along  with  writing. Heart Melodies is her first poetry collection that covers  and represents her  thoughts, grief and heart  melodies. She writes to heal herself along with an aim to heal others through her words.  

 

  (picture does not belong to me )

Writer perspective:

In a world where every heartbeat seems to echo with the resonance of countless stories, I found that my words have the power to make a difference. The ink-stained pages of my journey tell a tale of evolution, words that explains my soul.

I am a writer, not just by profession but by calling—an emissary of thoughts and dreams, a weaver of emotions into the fabric of existence. I discovered that every sentence I penned was a brushstroke on the canvas of my identity. The words I chose to embrace became the colors that painted my worldview.

 The pen, they say, is mightier than the sword, and I held mine not as a weapon, but as a beacon of enlightenment. Through my stories, essays, and quotes, I aspire to create ripples of awareness, compassion, and understanding .

HEART  MELODIES

Between the silence of  heartbeats,

listen closely;

there lies the sweetest melody.  

 “Heart melodies”

the rhythm of passion, the lyrics of longing.

Listen closely; they hold the secrets of your journey.

So;

In the dance of life, let your heart melodies guide your steps.

SUICIDE

As I held up the knife closer to my wrist ;

I realized …..

Not every suicide attempter wanted to die

They just wished their pain to vanish

                                                     

 

                                                             

ROAMING  DEATH

Despite of all the conflicts

I called you my life,

little did I know you were the death;

roaming around me.

I never   escaped till the last breath

And lived the moment.

even when you held the knife

engraving the stab deeper and deeper,

till my last drop of blood, I saw

my reflection in your eyes

Because ;

I called you my life.

                                                               

                                                             

                                                               ….♡♡♡….

The wounds of my heart are penetrating;

to the depth of my soul.

                                                                   

                                                                ….♡♡♡….

WHAT  SUICIDE IS?

They say “ what suicide is?”

I smiled and replied “it isn't always cutting your wrist

Or taking too many pills.”

It’s killing the person inside you who once wanna live.

It’s soaking up your pillow with tears

When they think you’re just asleep.

It’s not eating your favourite snacks anymore ;

And letting others eat.  

It’s all about little changes that nobody sees.

It’s not streching the rope around your neck;

It’s the realisation that your soul was so innocent to know;

what suicide actually is.  

ONE LAST TIME

I die every night

Yet I woke up alive.

Is this called life?

For once, just once

One last time!

Let me drink the poison in lime.

Cut my wrist open and

Let the blood flow.

Drop by drop it’ll take my life.

And I’ll finally rest in peace.

So,

One last time,

Let me attempt suicide again.

Maybe this try don’t goes in vain.

 

SHATTERED DREAMS

When shadows are cast by fading light,  

I walk alone, in endless night.

Under the street lamps I always thought,  

Dreams once held are now shattered and lost,  

For the survival I’m paying the cost.

Every step I take, a measured pace,  

As,  

Broken pieces are scattering wide.  

Whispers of what was, is now denied.

Reminders of dream  I couldn't fulfill,

Is haunting me now and aching still.

Yet in the middle of this misery,  

A flicker of hope is creating a light.  

From shattered dreams, new path is arised.

It’s a chance to heal, to find the peace.

So I’m gathering the shards, piece by piece,  

Finding strength in the chaos, for;

from shattered dreams, a ladder rise,  

To climb above the broken skies.

METEOR

“ why you love stars so much?”

“ I see myself in stars”  I wispered .

They light up the sky yet the moon is loved.

They broke into meteor to gave them diamond n gold;

Yet they love the incomplete moon.

Yes they love the jewels they got when the stars is broke

I guess that’s why they love to see broken stars ;

Get benefited by it; then love the moon w ith scars .

MY  LITTLE  LIFE

They say “girl get out of your fictional world!”

What if its the only world i have?

For a split second i came out of my world

Is your world worth living?

Is there anyone who can listen to me for hours

And say “its okay you can cry sometime too”

Is there ayone who can appreciate my efforts

And tell i did great

Is there?

Does your world have someone ;

Who can assure me that everything will turn out okay

No…..

Your world is crueler than my fictional villains.

Your world is harsher than the fate in books.

Your world doesn’t have happy endings.

You world don’t let me smile.

Your world is killing me inside.

So let me live in my fictional life;

As soft hearts aren’t meant for your world’s life.

Let me be happy over fictional things ;

And give a pretty smile .

Coz your world isn’t meant for my little life.

I NEVER MOVED ON

I never moved on!

I pretend to be ;

Kept a smile, have a busy life

but I never moved on!

When moon takes over the sun

And darkness swallow the light

I’m always in fright, always in fright

By the touch,

that left Scar on my soul  

I scream at the moon

Don’t come back, never come back

As I never moved on!

See the Sun shines bright,

I’m still in fright

You looked at me and pass by

But all I see is that evil smile

When you destroyed my life

And I never moved on!

 

LOST PIECES

and here I am ;

waiting  on the same bench

not for you but the fragment of me

that I lost when you left

Here I sit,  

On this old bench again,

Alone,  

Seeking not your return,  

But the forgotten piece of my soul,  

Left behind in your absence.

I bound myself to find those lost pieces;

that once completed me whole.

Now unable to retrieve leaving me shattered;

All alone.  

 

HOME

I thought I was the home;

Until I realized

You treasure your friends,

the games, the fun,

In their company, it seems, I'm outshone.

I mistook our moments,

thought they were real,

But now I see, it's their laughter you feel.

I thought I was your safe space,

Where you'd come to find embrace.

A place where your heart found its beat.

To escape the boredom, the day's dull drone,

To share a laugh, to call your own.

Now it seems;

I was just a flicker, not the light.

it's their laughter you feel, right?

How foolish of me to think,

I was your home.

Alas! I've come to see,

I was merely a shelter till you find

A new one to ease your mind.

How foolish of me to think,

I was your home.

QUEEN  WITHOUT  CROWN

Let me tell you, the big sister's tale,

Unseen sacrifices, her heart travailed  

She gave up her joy, her laughter, her time,  

To pave the way for her sister to shine.

Alone she stood, with a heavy heart,

Aching silently, and tearing hard.

She watched her sister laugh and play,

While she lingered in shadows, day by day.

No recognition for all she'd done,

No gratitude, no victory won.

She played her part, without a word,

Her heart's song, forever unheard.

Her childhood lost, in duties bound,

Her sister's happiness, her only crown.

Yet in the end, she stands alone,

An unsung hero, a queen without crown.

So here's to the big sisters, silent and strong,

Who sacrifice all, their whole life long .

GRAVEN   IMAGE

Before ;

The soul was waft into the graven image,

They say;

God showed us our whole life,

And asked;

“Do you still want me to send you there?”

I saw the glitters and glammers all around

The selfish people ,where I’m lonely in crowd.

In the blink of an eye

I saw my whole life.

I nodded ;

and my body was engraved for my soul

to be put in.

All ready to send me in the world.

Now ;

I see and live that life ,

And ask myself every night.

What did I saw worth living,

that strived me; to live this worldly life ?

( it’s me ,myself that I saw worth living for , So love your life )  

WHAT  IF THE TEAR THAT FALL  COULD WASH  AWAY THE  PAIN

What if dreams were the stars,

lighting up the night,

But in my broken soul, darkness swallowed the light.

What if my spirit,

once vibrant and alive,

Now haunted by shadows, unable to revive.

What if the tears that fall,could wash away the pain,

And bring back the innocence,

that will never be the same.

What if words were daggers,,

cutting deep within,

Leaving scars on the soul, a witness to the sin.

What if joy were a rainbow,

painting the sky so bright,

Yet in my world, the colours lost their light.

What if hope were a compass, guiding through the night,

But in my journey,

the compass shattered, out of sight.

OLIVE  GREEN   EYES

I meet a girl in my college life

A blessing in disguise

Beauty with olive green eyes

She smiles like a flower

And sleep like a baby

She’s like a cat, my little lily.

I gave her marks and she smiles like a child                            

Blink her lashes with joy in her eyes.

Yes she’s a blessing in disguise

Lighting up my world with her rainbow lights

Red in anger , yellow in joy,

pink like a flower

And olive green like her eyes

Yes I met a bestie in my college life

A mini cinderella with olive green eyes .

                   

#KHUSHAN

When highschool wasn’t easy

You were by my side.

You healed up my trauma

And showed your brighter side .

You hugged me when i wasn’t feeling right

Held my hand when i was about to bite ( self harm)

When I didn’t believe in friendships anymore ;

You showed me what friends are like

Standing side by side.

Do you remember sitting on ground ;

And having our fries ?

Ahhh i miss those days meeting and

Hugging each other tight .

But no matter how far apart we are

We’ll be #khushan for life .

WOVEN   WITH   GRACE

I’m enchanted, by words so sweet,

From a man unseen, my heart did greet.

He wrote, i read , a connection built.

No sight, no sound, just letters on a screen,

Yet emotions surged, like a love unseen.

His words, a melody, in the quiet of the night,

Capturing my soul, in my digital flight.

No image to see, no voice to hear,

Yet love blossomed, crystal clear.

His prose, a symphony, in the depths of my mind,

My love story written,remain undefined.

I traced his thoughts, like stars in the sky,

A mystical connection, as time slipped by.

In the echo of keystrokes, our bond did grow,

A silent love, a secret only I would know.

I dreamed of his eyes, though I'd never seen,

Imagined his laughter, in spaces between.

His words, the canvas, painting a face,

In the tapestry of love, woven with grace.

In the world of silence, where love took its chance,

I fell for a man, in a digital dance.

No need for presence, for touch or sight,

My love transcended, like poetry in the night.

I wonder if he would think the same,

But ohh he got alot of fame ,

He might think of me as another fan,

Crazy over him  for life span.

 

A  LONELY  HEART  ; DAY  BY  DAY

An introvert, who’s afraid to speak.

Afraid to ask, to take the chance.

Lost in thoughts, but refuse to say,

A lonely heart day by day.

In crowded places, have a lonely sight,

Eyes longing, and heart taking flight.

Words held back, like birds in cage,

Yearning for freedom, caught in stage.

Attempts to connect, are often in vain,

Love slipping away like drops of rain,

Oh my God, i’m lonely again.

Losing all and nothing to gain.

Words unspoken , a silent call.

Staying in mind, where they fall.

Letters are unsent, feelings untold,

A story of love left out in the cold.

Yet, in the quiet, a hope resides,

Breaking the chains where fear lies.

Letting words flow, embracing the light,

For love can bloom, even in the night.

So,want to take, the risk to say,

What my heart feels, don't delay.

In my silence, access the key,

To unlock the door, and set my feelings free.