It was dreamlike. Not fluffy clouds or golden gates. Not endless amounts of sweets or sexual pleasure. Not butterflies and rainbows. Not big comfy beds with luxurious sheets. Not great peaceful mountains and crystal clear lakes. Not children laughing and babies sleeping. No. These were the heavenly things that existed and will continue to exist on Earth. It was only a taste. Only a taste of where I was right now.
I cannot explain my surroundings for they changed every moment, every second. And every second lasted forever. Every moment was overlapping, moving forward, moving backward and everything in between; creating not the most beautiful sights but the most beautiful feelings stirring within me, around me and everywhere else. Every moment of peace, harmony, love, joy, and compassion that I ever felt on Earth in all of my lives, were unwrapping inside of me, spreading and multiplying like millions of flowers, blossoming at once.
I felt like I could never get tired, yet I was in a total state of relaxation. It was peaceful like water, powerful like fire, comfortable like Earth and harmonizing like the wind. I didn’t have an urgency to go anywhere, or do anything. I had no feelings of sorrow or anger. I could not even remember what these things felt like. Yet, when I remembered my life on Earth I still felt overwhelming compassion towards Ruth, my mother, and everyone else including my father. I also felt the same loving energy towards every other living creature that existed in the universe. I never knew I could feel so much, for so many. I felt like a cloud, which had endless amounts of rain to give life to others.
When it came time to leave this place, I was not upset, nor did I resist. I went with grace, and sureness, of the feeling within.