I was recalled to consciousness by a smell. More accurately a cacophony of smells. I opened my eyes and shut them against the unbearable pain of light; I groaned at the equally unbearable pain in my skullbones. Feverishly and against my will I tried to identify the walloping odors around me.
The stink of death and rottenness was thick. I knew there was an outhouse—many outhouses—nearby. The ground I lay on, where it was not stony, was damp with the water of endless dishwashings and launderings. The noisomeness of offal suggested that the garbage of many families had never been buried, but left to rot in the alley or near it. In addition there was the smell of death, not the sweetish effluvium of blood, such as any country boy who has helped butcher a bull-calf or hog knows, but the unmistakable stench of corrupt, maggotty flesh. Besides all this there was the spoor of humanity.
A new discomfort at last forced my eyes open for the second time. A hard surface was pressing painful knobs into my exposed skin. I looked and felt around me.
The knobs were the scattered cobbles of a fetid alley; not a foot away was the cadaver of a dog, thoroughly putrescent; beyond him a drunk retched and groaned. A trickle of liquid swill wound its way delicately over the moldy earth between the stones. My coat, shirt, and shoes were gone, so was the bundle with my books. There was no use searching my pocket for the three dollars. I knew I was lucky the robber had left me my pants and my life.
A middleaged man, at least he looked middleaged to my youthful eye, regarded me speculatively over the head of the drunk. A pale, elliptical scar interrupted the wrinkles on his forehead, its upper point making a permanent part in his thin hair. Tiny red veins marked his nose; his eyes were bloodshot.
“Pretty well cleaned yuh out, huh boy?”
I nodded—and then was sorry for the motion.
“Reward of virtue. Assuming you was virtuous, which I assume. Come to the same end as me, stinking drunk. Only I still got my shirt. Couldnt hock it no matter how thirsty I got.”
I groaned.
“Where yuh from boy? What rural—see, sober now—precincts miss you?” “Wappinger Falls, near Poughkeepsie. My name’s Hodge Backmaker.”
“Well now, that’s friendly of you, Hodge. I’m George Pondible. Periodic. Just tapering off.”
I hadnt an idea what Pondible was talking about. Trying to understand made my head worse.
“Took everything, I suppose? Havent a nickel left to help a hangover?”
“My head,” I mumbled, quite superfluously.
He staggered to his feet. I slowly sat up, tenderly touching the lump over my ear with my fingertips.
“Best thing—souse it in the river. Take more to fix mine.” “But ... can I go through the streets like this?”
“Right,” he said. “Quite right.”
He stooped down and put one hand beneath the drunk, who murmured unintelligibly. With the other he removed the jacket, a maneuver betraying practice, for it elicited no protest from the victim. He then performed the still more delicate operation of depriving him of his shirt and shoes, tossing them all to me. They were a loathsome collection of rags not fit to clean a manurespreader. The jacket was torn and greasy, the pockets hanging like the ears of a dog; the shirt was a filthy tatter, the shoes shapeless fragments of leather with great gapes in the soles.
“It’s stealing,” I protested.
“Right. Put them on and let’s get out of here.”
The short walk to the river was through streets lacking the glamour of those of the day before. The tenements were smokestreaked, with steps between the parting bricks where mortar had fallen out; great hunks of wall were kept in place only by the support of equally crazy ones abutting. The wretched things I wore were better suited than Pondible’s to this neighborhood, though his would have marked him tramp and vagrant in Wappinger Falls.
The Hudson too was soiled, with an oily scum and debris, so that I hesitated to dip even the purloined shirt, much less my aching head. But urged on by Pondible I climbed down the slimy stones between two docks and pushing the flotsam aside, ducked myself in the unappetizing water.
“Fixes your head,” said Pondible with more assurance than accuracy. “Now for mine.”
The sun was hot and the shirt dried on my back as we walked away from the river, the jacket over my arm. Now that my mind was clearing my despair grew rapidly; for a moment I wished I had waded farther into the Hudson and drowned.
Admitting any plans I’d had were nebulous and impractical, they had yet been plans of a kind, something in which I could put, or force, my hopes. My appearance had been presentable, I had the means to keep myself fed and sheltered for a few weeks at least. Now everything was changed, any future was gone, literally knocked out of existence and I had nothing to look forward to, nothing on which to exert my energies and dreams. To go back to Wappinger Falls was out of the question, not simply to dodge the bitterness of admitting defeat so quickly, but because I knew how relieved my mother and father must have been to be freed of my uselessness. Yet I had nothing to expect in the city except starvation or a life of petty crime.
Pondible guided me into a saloon, a dark, secretive place, gaslit even this early, with a steam piano tinkling the popular, mournful tune, Mormon Girl:
There’s a girl in the state of Deseret
I love and I’m trying to for-get.
Forget her for my tired feet’s sake
Don’t wanna walk to the Great Salt Lake.
They ever build that railroad toooo the ocean
I’d return my Mormon girl’s devotion.
But the tracks stop short in Ioway....
I couldnt remember the next line. Something about Injuns say.
“Shot,” Pondible ordered the bartender, “and buttermilk for my chum here.”
The bartender kept on polishing the wood in front of him with a wet, dirty rag. “Got any jack?”
“Pay you tomorrow, friend.”
The bartender’s uninterrupted industry said clearly, then drink tomorrow.
“Listen,” argued Pondible; “I’m tapering off. You know me. Ive spent plenty of money here.”
The bartender shrugged. “I don’t own the place; anything goes over the bar has to be rung up on the cash register.”
“Youre lucky to have a job that pays wages.”
“Times I’m not so sure. Why don’t you indent?”
Pondible looked shocked. “At my age? What would a company pay for a wornout old carcass? A hundred dollars at the top. Then a release in a couple of years with a med holdback so I’d have to report every week somewhere. No, friend, Ive come through this long a free man—in a manner of speaking—and I’ll stick it out. Let’s have that shot; you can see for yourself I’m tapering off. Youll get your jack tomorrow.” I could see the bartender was weakening; each refusal was less surly and at last, to my astonishment, he set out a glass and bottle for Pondible and an earthenware mug of buttermilk for me. To my astonishment, I say, for credit was rarely extended on any scale, large or small. The inflation, though sixty years in the past, had left indelible impressions; people paid cash or did without. Debt was not only disgraceful, it was dangerous; the notion things could be paid for while, or even after, they were being used was as unthinkable as was the idea of circulating paper money instead of silver or gold.
I drank my buttermilk slowly, gratefully aware Pondible had ordered the most filling and sustaining liquid in the saloon. For all his unprepossessing appearance and peculiar moral notions, my new acquaintance seemed to have a rude wisdom as well as a rude kindliness.
He swallowed his whiskey and called for a quart pot of light beer which he sipped slowly. “That’s the trick of it, Hodge. Avoid the second shot. If you can.” He sipped again. “Now what?”
“What?” I repeated.
“Now what are you going to do? What’s your aim in life anyway?”
“None—now. I ... wanted to learn. To study.” He frowned. “Out of books?”
“How else?”
“Books is mostly written and printed in foreign countries.”
“There might be more written here if more people had time to learn.”
Pondible wiped specks of froth from his beard with the back of his hand. “Might and mightnt. Oh, some of my best friends are book-readers, don’t get me wrong, boy.”
“I’d thought,” I burst out, “I’d thought to try Columbia College. To offer—to beg to be allowed to do any kind of work for tuition.” “Hmm. I doubt it would have worked.”
“Anyway I can’t go now, looking like this.”
“Might be as well. We need fighters, not readers.”
“‘We?’”
He did not explain. “Well, you could always take the advice our friend here gave me and indent. A young healthy lad like you could get yourself a thousand or twelve hundred dollars—” “Sure. And be a slave for the rest of my life.”
“Oh, indenting aint slavery. It’s better. And worse. For one thing the company buys you won’t hold you after you arent worth your keep. Not that long, on account of bookkeeping; they lose when they break even. So they cancel your indenture without a cent payment. Course theyll take a med holdback so as to get a dollar or two for your corpse, but that’s a long time away for you.”
An inconceivably long time. The medical holdback was the least of my distaste, though it had played a large part in the discussions at home. My mother had heard that cadavers for dissection were shipped to foreign medical schools like so much cargo. She was shocked not so much at the thought of the scientific use of her dead body as at its disposal outside the United States.
“Yes,” I said. “A long time away. So I wouldnt be a slave for life; just thirty or forty years. Till I wasnt any good to anyone, including myself.”
He seemed to be enjoying himself as he drank his beer. “Youre a gloomy gus, Hodge. Taint’s bad’s that. Indenting’s pretty strictly regulated. That’s the idea anyway. I aint saying the big companies don’t get away with a lot. You can’t be made to work over sixty hours a week. Ten hours a day. With twelve hundred dollars you could get all the education you want in your spare time and then turn your learning to account by making enough to buy yourself free.”
I tried to think about it dispassionately, though goodness knows I’d been over the ground often enough. It was true the amount, a not improbable one, would see me through college. But Pondible’s notion of turning my “learning to account” I knew to be a fantasy. Perhaps in the Confederate States or the German Union knowledge was rewarded with wealth, or at least a comfortable living, but any study I pursued—I knew my own “impracticality” well enough by now—was bound to yield few material benefits in the backward United States, which existed as a nation at all only on the sufferance and unresolved rivalries of the great powers. I’d be lucky to struggle through school and eke out some kind of living as a freeman; I could hardly hope to earn enough to buy back an indenture on what was left of my time after subtracting sixty hours a week.
“It wouldnt work,” I said despondently.
Pondible nodded, as though this were the conclusion he had expected me to come to. “Well then,” he said, “there’s the gangs.”
I looked my horror.
He laughed. “Forget your country rearing. What’s right? What the strongest country or the strongest man says it is. The government says gangs are wrong, but the government aint strong enough to stop them. And maybe they don’t do as much killing as people think. Only when somebody works against them—just like the government. Sure they have to be paid off, but it’s just like taxes. If you leave the parsons’ sermons out of it there’s no difference joining the gangs than the army—if we had one—or the Confederate Legion—” “They tried to recruit me yesterday. Are they always so....”
“Bold?” For the first time Pondible looked angry and I thought the scar on his forehead turned whiter. “Yes, damn them. The Legion must be half United States citizens. When they have to put down a disturbance or run some little cockroach country they send off the Confederate Legion—made up of men who ought to be the backbone of an army of our own.” “But the police—don’t they ever try to stop them?” “What’d I tell you about right being what the strongest country says it is? Sure we got laws against recruiting into a foreign army. So we squawk. And what have we got to back it up with? So the Confederate Legion goes right on recruiting the men who have to beg for a square meal in their own country. Well, the government is pretty near as bad off when it comes to the gangs. Best it can do is pick off some of the little ones and forget about the big ones. Most of the gangsters never even get shot at. They all live high, high as anybody in the twenty-six states, and every so often there’s a dividend—more than a workman makes in a lifetime.” I began to be sure my benefactor was a gangster. And yet ... if this were so why had he wheedled credit from the barkeep? Was it simply an elaborate blind? It seemed hardly worth it.
“A dividend,” I said, “or a rope.”
“Most gangsters die of old age. Or competition. Aint one been hung I can think of the last five-six years. But I see youve no stomach for it. Tell me, Hodge—you Whig or Populist?” The sudden change of subject bewildered me. “Why ... Populist, I guess.”
“Why?”
“Oh ... I don’t know....” I thought of some of the discussions that used to go on among the men around the smithy. “The Whigs’ ‘Property, Protection, Permanent Population’ —what does it mean to me?” “Tell you, boy, means this: Property for the Confederates who own factories here and don’t want to pay taxes. Protection for foreign capital to come in and buy or hire. Permanent Population—cheap native labor. Build up a prosperous employing class.” “Yes, I know. I can’t see how it helps. Ive heard Whigs at home say the money’s bound to seep down from above, but it seems awfully roundabout. And not very efficient.”
He reached over and clapped me lightly on the shoulder. “That’s my boy,” he said. “They can’t fool you.”
I wasnt entirely pleased by his commendation. “And protection means paying more for things than theyre worth.”
“Taint only that, Hodge, it’s a damn lie as well. Whigs never even tried protection when they was in. Didnt dast. Knew the other countries wouldnt let them.”
“As for ‘permanent population’ ... well, those who can’t make a living are going to go on emigrating to prosperous countries. Permanent population means dwindling population if it means anything.”
“Ah,” he said. “You got a head on your shoulders, Hodge. Youre all right; books won’t hurt you. But what about emigrating? Yourself, I mean?”
I shook my head.
He nodded, chewing on a soggy corner of his mustache. “Don’t want to leave the old ship, huh?”
I don’t suppose I would have put it exactly that way, or even fully formulated the thought. I was willing to exchange the familiar for the unknown—up to a certain point. The thought of giving up the country in which I’d been born was repugnant. Call it loyalty, or a sense of having ties with the past, or just stubbornness. “Something like that,” I said.
“Well now, let’s see what weve got.” He stuck up a dirty and slightly tremulous hand, turning down a finger as he stated each point. “One, patriot; two, Populist; three, don’t like indenting; four, prosperity’s got to come from the poor upward, not the rich down.” He hesitated, holding his thumb. “You heard of the Grand Army?”
“Who hasnt? Not much difference between them and the regular gangs.”
“Now what makes you say that?”
“Why ... everybody knows it”
“Do, huh? Maybe they know it all wrong. Look here now—and remember about the Confederate Legion riding over the laws of the United States—what would you think ought to be done about foreigners from the strong countries who come here and walk all over us? Or the Whigs who do their dirty work for them?” “I don’t know,” I said. “Not murder, certainly.”
“Murder,” he repeated. “That’s a word, Hodge. Means what you want it to mean. Wasnt murder back during the War when Union soldiers was trying to keep the country from being split up. Taint murder today when somebody’s hung for rape or counterfeiting. Anyhow the Grand Army don’t go in for murder.”
I said nothing.
“Oh, accidents happen; wouldnt deny it. Maybe they get a little rougher than they intend with Whig traitors or Confederate agents, but you can’t make bacon out of a live hog. Point is the Grand Army’s the only thing in the country that even tries to restore it to what it once was. What was fought for in the War.”
I don’t know whether it was the thought of Grandfather Backmaker or the unassuaged guilt for the miserable figure I had cut only three days back that made me ask, “And do they want to give the Negroes equality?”
He drew back sharply, shock showing clearly on his face. “Touch of the tarbrush in you, boy? By—” He bent forward, looking at me searchingly. “No, I can see you aint. Just some notions youll outgrow. You just don’t understand. We might have won that war if it hadnt been for the Abolitionists.”
Would we? I’d heard it said often enough; it would have been presumptuous to doubt it.
“The darkies are better off among their own,” he said; “they never should have been here in the first place; black and white can’t mix. Leave ideas like that alone, Hodge; there’s plenty and enough to be done. Chase the foreigners out, teach their flunkies a lesson, build the country up again.”
“Are you trying to get me to join the Grand Army?”
Pondible finished his beer. “Won’t answer that one, boy. Let’s say I just want to get you somewheres to sleep, three meals a day, and some of that education youre so fired up about. Come along.”