YOU WERE MINE FOR REAL
You gave me your heart because you were
proud to trust me,
I needed you by my side and wanted you to
give me comfort,
You found and nurtured all the deep human
emotions in me,
You made me laugh and smile when I felt all
sad and distort.
I loved you for your thoughts and being always
in your mind,
I loved you for helping me to discover the part
I couldn’t find,
I loved you for the way you were and how you
made me feel,
Most of all I loved you because I knew you
were mine for real.
MY TALKING HEAD
O darling, just keep sitting in front of me,
This will give me the greatest joy you see.
The more I see you the more I admire you,
My thoughts will transmit my love to you.
Lovely face of my pretty lotus would shine,
She’ll dwell in my heart and I will feel fine.
I long to hold you tight and steal your kiss,
That will be all I need so that I get my bliss.
If I do not feel at ease without you, what shall
I do?
If your pretty face shines before me what shall
I do?
You insist that I should forget you but this I
can’t do.
If your fond memories keep haunting what
shall I do?
My whole life feels empty without you what
shall I do?
I’ve forgotten myself searching for you what
shall I do?
If your eyes keep giving me your love, what
shall I do?
If I see your image in every mirror here what
shall I do?
I pretend to live my life without your presence
here
This is like living my life that is full of guilt my
dear,
You are my inspiration how can I live with you
here,
My heart dies many times in search of you, my
dear.
People say I’m alive but I’m living with guilt my
dear,
The loneliness is my only curse, I don’t like it
my dear,
My soul cries for peace and my eyes shed
tears my dear,
As if, I’m carrying my corpse on my shoulders
my dear,
I’m afraid to give you any blame cos I love you
my dear,
The fear has kept my lips all tight; I keep quiet
my dear.
Eventually I had to change many of my
thinking,
With the masses of the world, I started
walking,
Real enlightenment came after my heavy
heartburn,
No one that leaves this sinful world will ever
return,
It was my duty and responsibility to look after
her,
The life she lost I had to sustain all the pain of
her
It seems I have created thorny route for my
future
I had to crush all my feelings so wanted the
nature.
All that the broken heart said my teary eyes
saw it all
Once again, the sorrow and the pain came out
to stroll
Whenever she returned in my dreams, I
created a call
Every night of my dreadful life seemed dull
and small
All her fond memories kept coming with many
questions
A sight of my pretty lotus tore open all my
great emotions
In the hope of winning her heart back, I forgot
to resolve
That I was lonely and the pain was too much
to dissolve.
Come darling, I want to decorate your song on
my lips
It’s my real wish to bring your loving words on
my lips
I long to drop a few of my tears to convert
them to pearl
I’m now tired of waiting for your return, my
lovely pearl
You are thinking of me I know this from my
hard hiccups
I’m all ready and willing to enjoy your love in
my teacups.
Lasting Image
My heart slowed down after so much rejoice,
My family life has given sorrows left no choice.
My vision has shivered with a shooting star,
Life’s bringing me fond memories from afar.
She is lost in the heaven typhoon in my mind,
My life is left with pain that is of unique kind.
The one who was the centre of my heart beat,
Is lost in the oblivion putting me in cold seat.
All my wishes of living have been lost forever,
Silence looms in my solitary life like a fever.
The shines of life have turned into loneliness,
There’s no hope left, gone are my brightness.
She has left a lasting image in my lonely life,
Heaven is happy after burning my flowery life.
My love that has passed away is haunting me,
There are tears in my eyes, days hurting me.
She lives in my thoughts and melodies all day,
I miss her heaps but find it difficult to say.
From our two bodies we lived just as one soul,
To love and cherish each other was our goal.
What I’ve lost cannot be found ever in my life,
When darkness falls, she shines as my lite.
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IF THERE WAS…
If there was one face I ever wanted to keep admiring all my life,
That was so beautiful, so pure and so loaded with truth and beauty,
That one smile that always made a difference to my entire life,
If there was one touch that I longed to feel everyday when on duty,
If there was one joy, one passion and one love that I never wanted to part,
It was none other than My Pretty Lotus, my world, my life and my heart.
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MEMORIES GALORE
I have memories galore of the past loving
years,
There are words and thoughts of creeping
fears.
The route ahead now looks all confusing and
dark,
Walking alone is painful without that lovely
mark.
I am lost in that forest searching for that lost
life,
Every moment I long for the lost love of my
wife.
All that was given to me has shattered and
gone,
Dark clouds on my horizon nothing can be
done.
All moments lead me to a state of utter
confusion,
There’s no life here my fate is denying
conclusion.
There’s no one to guide me now and lead the
way,
I am looking for my beloved every night and
day.
Every season looks dull there’s no happiness
here,
My sight has lost all the shines in the
atmosphere.
Ages have passed since I had any lovely
dreams,
I lament my loss and my bed makes the
screams.
The image in the mirror teases me to stay
away,
The stones in my hand cannot break that
array.
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WHEN THE SONG AND DANCES ARE OVER
When the songs and dances are over and I
have spilled all my emotions,
My day becomes a night and the deep
darkness surrounds my life.
Everyone prepares to go to bed and I stare at
the sky with devotions,
This becomes my moment of whisper to God to
care for my wife.
COULD NOT FIND MY LOVE
My heart longs to love but there’s no lover in
my sight,
My heart’s for sale but I can’t find a buyer
that’s right.
There must be someone who has the feeling of
sorrow and pain,
There must be someone who can erase my
loneliness again.
I can sacrifice my heart, soul and all my life
for the one alone,
The one who has the acceptance of my love in
the eyes shown.
I would forgive and forget all the stress and
strain of my life,
If I could just find that special being only once
in my strife.
I know not how many wintry nights I have
spent in the search,
I have written hundreds of poems for the one I
am in search.
I have gathered my hearty wishes and
knocked at many doors,
I have not being able to find the one I loved on
any orderly floors.
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ALL LOST AND SCARED
More of my imagination keeps hurting me
nowadays and I feel the freeze,
My imagination flies back to my farm and I see
the woods without any trees,
The Sabeto River is flooded from the heavy
rain over the Sleeping Giant,
But there is no sea where the river can drain
the water off the Sleeping Giant.
The forest is confused, the river is worried and
the mountain range scared,
Now friends can you imagine me without My
Pretty Lotus all lost and scared?
You Will Flourish
Millions of moths get burnt in search of
secrets,
Lamps are to give light not to burn the
crickets.
I am ready to reveal all my feeling and
emotion,
I loved her dearly always with my great
passion.
She’s gone but not forgotten I miss her very
much,
Those who go away don’t return I know life is
such.
Those who cry should assess their pain
properly,
Let not the tears fall but contain them
carefully.
Let me spill out all my pains and sorrows
today,
They keep on coming as punishment everyday.
I had a feeling she would return home one
day,
I have changed my mind to stay with her
today.
Light as many lamps and fly over them to
vanish,
Let the love last forever and then you will
flourish.
Memorable Life
The pain is unbearable to reveal all my
feelings for my love,
Many painful moments have gone but I’m
alone in my cove.
I was told that only lovers live in this world of
love and joy,
But my eager eyes are still waiting for the
return of my joy.
Tears drop and heart breaks, people have
given me names,
I am all broken and all the pieces have now
burnt in flames.
I have blamed myself for my follies but what
else can I do?
I am looking for that moment when I would be
ready to go.
The one who lived and loved and made my life
so adorable,
The Pretty Lotus is no more but I know her life
is memorable.
MUTUAL THOUGHTS
Every moment of my life is engrossed in your
loving thoughts,
This heart knows well that it has the backing
of your thoughts.
There is a mysterious feeling of fear that is
engrossing my heart,
Soon your loving thoughts will disappear
tearing my heart apart.
Sweet dreams comfort me but disappear when
slumber goes away,
The anguish is deeply felt when the heartbeats
skip and make me sway.
Taking every breadth is like dying bit by bit for
me, I cannot bear,
When you were around our love was
comforting and full of care.
Where have the happy times gone and why do
we long for love?
We need to wake up again from our dreams
and sing like a dove.
Your departure was unbearable and my
joining you is far away,
There is no explanation for all that have gone
wrong in our way.
Despite the difficult feeling, I keep my hope up
to meet you soon,
Until that happens, I know we’ll keep singing
our favourite tune.
Every moment of my life is engrossed in your
loving thoughts,
This heart knows well that it has the backing
of your thoughts.
No Fear To Be Restrained
All Mighty God please let my world become the
calmest ocean,
Where only peace and calm prevail and there’s
no commotion.
If this isn’t possible then make my weeping
eyes become stones,
So there are no tears of pain and sorrow when
it’s time for groans.
I haven’t seen You but have imagined the
images and kindness,
Come and reveal Yourself to me soon or let me
attain blindness.
I am fully contended and I do not desire
anything else to meet,
Let me live within my means to cover my feet
with available sheet.
If there are no worries for me and there are no
tears in my eyes,
It is all because I have accepted the worst and
changed my ways.
My joys are no longer with me and my sorrows
are all sustained,
If my life has to end let it be so, I have no fear
to be restrained.
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I had my echocardiography done today and the
cardiologist said that I had a perfect heart,
I agreed with her and silently said to myself, ‘it
is all because there lives my sweetheart.’