Songs Of My Soul by Dr Ram Lakhan Prasad - HTML preview

EPILOGUE

It is a sad thing in life is when you meet and begin to love someone very dearly and who begins to mean a lot to you and then suddenly you find out after an enjoyable period of living together for over half a century that it was never meant to be forever. Your beloved passes away and you are left alone to face the new life alone. So what do you do? Lament, grieve, become devastated and go berserk with pain and sorrow of loneliness or you just have to let go.

I had no choice but I had to go on living because it was her command. The hardship, sadness and inability to tolerate the loss cannot be fully understood by anyone but you yourself.

This presentation has been designed to heal my sufferings and these have assisted me to overcome my sorrows somewhat but I have a long way to go to fully recover. I may not be able to succeed until I join My Pretty Lotus in the next life. Until then I was told to keep living, loving and thinking of her. That is what I am doing and will continue to add to this volume as my feelings and sorrows dictate and enable me to do so. There is no end to this publication and after my death this should be published by my children as a memorial of our instinctual and unconditional love. The people could then read and appreciate the love life of Saroj and Lakhan

This is a therapeutical golden treasury of some of my fond memories of my Pretty Lotus, my beloved wife, Saroj Kumari Prasad. I have been creating these as a loving tribute since her passing away on 14th March 2013. This is a book to grow on and it is also a book to grow with for our family members, relatives and friends.

In this collection, I have poured my heart and soul out to remember all the fond memories of a devoted wife, a loving mother and a pleasant grand mother. These creativities will become part of the Prasad Family as long as even one member remembers the fame, glory and presentations of such a fine and perfect personality. This has been a therapeutical and a healing exercise for me.

My readers will have the choice to like, appreciate and laugh at some of the creativities but by and large these present the instinctual love life of a couple who were madly in love with each other for over half a century. Their unconditional love was nowhere near the traditional love stories of Romeo and Juliet or Laila or Majnu and the like but far exceeded the romantic aspects of those lovers. People will invent a new episode of romance after reading the items in the collection to call it the Affectionate Love Life of Lakhan and Saroj.   

All the items in the collection are meant primarily to be enjoyed and appreciated but there may be some aspects that will inadvertently leave some deep human feelings of love, compassion, loneliness, sadness and sorrow. There are many lessons to learn from our experiences of love if the readers can read between the lines and interpret the thoughts, symbolism and images.

Enjoyment and appreciation are personal aspects and any creativity that is written in a variety of moods and at many different levels of humanity could provide its own particular pleasure and understanding. The reading in these pages is not very easy because of the emotions that are hidden in the compositions. Many are very personal feelings and emotions that would be difficult to fully comprehend unless the characters and the protagonists were well known by the readers.

I commend people to read and then find out what I mean. The themes, forms, rhythm, rhyme and imagery are all so deep and heartfelt that can bring tears to the human eyes. If these do not move anyone then the deeper meaning of love has not entered that soul yet.

In the beginning, everyone tells me that there was nothing but joy in the world. Everything was bright, new, peaceful and full of love and affection. The earth and the sky were created and human beings began as children, living in a paradise, which was a cross between a great garden and a divine playground. Every morning and everyday were fresh surprises. Our life, the love life of Saroj and Lakhan began with romance in the paradise as well.

My beloved wife told me many times that all beginnings have had the same radiance, the same colour and the same beauty but the different human interactions over the years have either added beauty or spoilt these and polluted our atmosphere. However, she said that unconditional love was still the essence of complete living and heaven is still there for those who believe in living with instinctual love, deep compassion, good understanding and solid empathy for each other.

A good human life can be a happy song and become an echo of the completely happy world but often times we refuse to stay on the given path of humanity and create religious and political indifference thus making our living a real hell instead of a peaceful adventure. I do not want to paint a picture that Saroj and I were unique but we were serious with our love life and tried our best to understand and appreciate the feelings and attitude of each other.

The result of our interactions can be seen in the pages that have so much to offer for everyone. However, for anyone that feels otherwise can create and add some more to enrich this collection. The Prasad Family is a living example of the dedication that this faithful angel, Our Saroj provided all of them. I loved creating these presentations and I hope my readers will like reading them and getting something out of the collection. The collection has helped me heal my pain, sorrow and loneliness but this would certainly inspire other poets to join in and create their pieces.

Some of these creations are expressions of love, others are a collection of fond memories and then there are some that depict some elements of repentence but they are all my personal emotions and feeling for a person I loved so much in my life. There would not be another such angel in my heart.