I’m Okay, I Think?
by
Colson Baker “MGK” & Robby Richardson
On a night like this across the water’s moon glimpse
Watching the ripples as mounting pressure triples
I can feel time fly watch these days fly by
There’s a fork in the road, lo and behold it hits and holds
Life swings and it blows, but can I blow back
And that’s where I’m at
On this bench by a small lake in this quiet town that quakes
Do I ponder this fork in the road
I never thought so much was at stake
I come at night to relax on a light when another soul catches my sight
Was he on the same page
Did he want to engage and find change in a voice that was strange
Tall and intimating hoping soon he’d be vacating
But approached with a quisitive rub to his throat
An approach down liked he rehearsed
I just wondered who would speak first
So what’s your story
My needle in my compass is faulty
I just came here to ponder days of glory
Well you can join, I could use the company
You mind if I light this up
This pick up I was about to have lit up...It takes it’s toll
Let this blazing fire calm down my soul
“Watch me take a good thing and fuck it all up in one night”
Uh-huh
“Catch me, I’m the one on the run away from the headlights”
Got to get out
“No sleep, up all week wasting time with people I don’t like”
No doubt
“I think something’s fucking wrong with me”
Something’s fucking wrong, some wires are crossed up there
Watch me fail when life becomes too much to bare
Set my sights to shed light and follow my own headlights
How can I keep my dreams in my sights
When all I see in their eyes is dead lights
I’m okay, I think?
No rest, head mess, wrapped around my dreams, I can’t chase
The note in a song they couldn’t erase with a drive from my heart they couldn’t replace
They said go chase stars, and far light gleams, travel them until you reach different galaxies
Traveled my own way, created my own path, now I’m creating literal star maps
Missing the time lost filled with large gaps
But you’re right these hills have eyes and these roses have thorns
And I can’t put stock in that life no more
I know the edge is close and the pull is too strong
I’m not scared no not at all...Not scared to take that fall
I’m scared of the draw to want to answer the call
The pull of the fall
“Watch me take a good thing and fuck it all up in one night”
Uh-huh
“Catch me, I’m the one on the run away from the headlights”
Got to get out
“No sleep, up all week wasting time with people I don’t like”
No doubt
“I think, something’s fucking wrong with me”
A soft whisper to a kindred prayer, a kindred spirit
On something that inhibits...A midnight stroll possibly in my head
A writer to a writer, kindred we walk onto green pastures ahead
So this is not good bye...Maybe see you later
I think everything will be okay
I’m okay, I think
Drown myself in drugs, that shit hugs the soul if you are responsible
But the cost always seems to grow some more, is our love soluble
I need some answers for my questions when I make this call
You’ve been silent and ignored my calls for far too long
Like Heaven’s call center where are dreams are chased forever
“But I guess it’s just my life”
So I’ll seize my moment
“And I can take it if I want”
So my kids won’t have to see you as an opponent
“But I cannot hide in the hills of California”
Unsure about my strength as I stand before them
I can still taste you on my tongue, always could cure what was wrong
I’ve been gone too long unlikely to feel this strong
My kids can tell that something’s wrong, my wife can see that something’s off
Gunna miss that cough, chasing ideas like Lara Croft
And watch the world we built fall apart
“Drown myself in alcohol, that shit never helps at all”
“I might say some stupid things tonight when you pick up this call”
“I've been hearing silence on the other side for way too long”
“I can taste it on my tongue, I can tell that something's wrong but”
“I guess it's just my life and I can take it if I wanna”
“But I cannot hide in hills of California”
“Because these hills have eyes, and I got paranoia”
“I hurt myself sometimes, is that too scary for you”
A kindred spirit that can relate to all of this
Understanding the desperation in a wish
Madness and deception in this world today
To kill off the soul and watch it fade away
That’s why I only trust people that journey that way
“Watch me take a good thing and fuck it all up in one night”
Watch me take a good life and fuck it all up just to feel right
“Catch me, I’m the one on the run away from the headlights”
Green lights, nothing but just go, no red lights
“No sleep, up all night wasting time with people I don’t like”
No rest, not worth my time to invest
“You’ll find me alone at midnight”
“Inside my mind, trying to get things right”
Kindred spirits, Northern Lights under star light at twilight
I don’t trust a soul that’s not all alone
Who hasn’t touched their soul on a midnight stroll
Who can’t find solace in taking a Wonderland journey
And in the end I’m okay...I’m okay, I think?
The End