FANTASY-CASTLE
Sit here all alone
Words play hide and seek in my snow-mind
Listening to ABBA songs
Wild dogs-fears gnawing at the corners of my heart
Bullet-questions shot through me
What's going to happen to me
Will I be in a safe castle
The quicksand of life is sucking me in
Anxiety walls show their teeth
Powerless encircles me again
Am I in my haunted pass life-house
Was I Hitler or Countess Elizabeth Báthory de Ecsed
Fatigue runs like poison through my veins
I'm not in my youth-years anymore
The survival-sword is getting heavier in my hands
I can feel my knees buckle
Will my Antarctica-journey end soon
Will my blood flow into the Nile
Will my final dream only be a fantasy-castle