SEA OF AUSTRALIA
I grew in you
I was your first-born
You protected me in your womb from the world
you gave me life after nine months
Meningitis infected me like a plague after three months
You let me believe your hands were clean
Oh what a fool was I
You and two-mask face wore cloaks of arrogance
Took me out and gave me into the arms of the night
My whole life changed
Cerebral Palsy hacked my brain
Arms outstretched like the wings of an aircraft
Legs of steel unable to bent
A language filled only by sounds
Golf balls swam in my mouth
Cold winds between you and I
Unable to connect with each other
You sent me to an ice-cold galaxy
I was too time consuming for you
You breed two others
they were with you in your own sphere
God unlocked my brain, but you didn't care
You never had dreams for me
I was only a burden on your shoulders
You left me with the wolf
My innocent was ripped in a murderous frenzy by him
He sliced me open for three years
Two mask-face started when I was eighteen
I had to barricaded myself from him in my room
Still his haunted voice came through the door;
"I can see you."
Naked and dirty tears rolled from my eyes
Invisible waste and dirt covered my body
When you realized I was gold-worth
You chained me to you
I lost my adulthood
You built an iron gate around me
Only you had the key
or so you thought
The most precious gift you took away from me
Hitler was in your voice
For years I danced to your Hitler's voice
No one wanted to hear my help-call
You knew exactly what two-mask face was doing
You caught him in the open bathroom door over the years
Still you turned your face to the blood-invested sun
I slept on AIDS-needles
too scared I might wake with his bells
In Hitler's voice you told me;
"It's your duty to look after us; you'll never get married"
Red waves were in my eyes
You even told me you’d lock me away with no brain
For years I pleaded with Heaven; "please take me out of this Hell-Prison"
God unlocked my iron gate
I flown on a freedom-eagle
Why questions still rushes through me
Why didn't you protect me from your evil-circle
Why did you turn into Hitler and crucified my freedom
Were you an evil clone
Mother, the scars you gave me will never heal
Never will you and I be one