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If you look to others for fulfillment,
you will never truly be fulfilled.
—Tao Te Ching - Verse 44
Three strange and buried memories surfaced during my last meditation:
But one day my mother stopped visiting that friend, and I never saw that girl again. So the feeling of no longer being an outcast was taken away by the very person at the root of my feeling like an outcast in the first place. And that was when I developed a resentment toward feeling out of control.
I wished my parents had never split up, but that was out of my control.
I wished I could have kept seeing that girl, but that was out of my control.
I wished I didn’t feel like an outcast, but that was out of my control too.
At least, that last one was the story my subconscious mind had been holding onto.
But here, I was able to shine conscious awareness on the notion that someone else can lessen the feeling of being an outcast and instead actually let go of feeling like an outcast.The difference is that the former is never under our control: you can’t control the way you feel about someone else; you can’t control the way someone else feels about you; you can’t control whether or not you find love at all; and even if you find love, you can’t control the fact that life can often interfere. But what is in your control is letting go of the attachment to things that are out of your control while trusting that God has everything under control for you.