The best way to explain the spiritual transformation is to explain a reconversion course. At first, I did not believe in God. But I was just wondering if it existed without finding answers. The beginning of my journey seeking God begins with scientific brainstorimg. Indeed, it is explained to me that to think scientifically is to emit hypotheses, to test them, including with the others, then we emits a higher hypothesis, which includes the other hypotheses. It has been explained to me that Plato has defined this scientific thinking.
With this truth's research, I use Plato to establish my truth's path. I then explain the experience of the balls' chaos that move in every directions. I am told that it is impossible for them to organize themselves. I find this valuable and therefore agrees that someone is trying to organize molecules that move in every directions. It's about souls.
Then I read Leibniz' monadology. It explains that there is a infinity's notion in life, because it is impossible for two living beings to exactly equal each other, even the twins. Indeed, there are heat differences between twins. The monads explain both the nerves and the soul, which gives something magical to leibnizian science.
Then, I believe that hell does not exist, so that paradise does not exist. But I can not find any answer about the life's meaning. If someone created us, it's good for us to go somewhere. I believe in heaven. I only wonder if souls can be recycled, as I thought before. I thought it less and less. Now, I tell myself that some souls will be restored to another universe.