Thursday morning, 05/06/04 Dear God,
The “fear of the LORD” is a difficult thing for me to grasp. It is hard for me to believe that You can be angry, yet still love me. Is my interpretation of “fear of the LORD” blocking You? Am I holding You at arms length because Im afraid of You? Love,
S.
Dear S.,
“Fear not, for I am with you” (Isaiah 41:10)
When you have the fear of the LORD, you do not have to be afraid of anything that is not “of God”. When your fear is “of God”, nothing can harm you.
Love,
God
that night
Dear God,
So maybe the name of one of the closed doors is “Fear of the LORD”. The key is beginning to form in my grasp, but I need more clarity as to how to use it. There are cut features in the key that I can already see: humility, willingness, surrender, and desire to know You; but Im still not sure how to put it together, or exactly where the lock is. I am not sure how to line this key up with Your priorities. What are Your priorities? Are they in the Bible?
Love,
S.
Monday morning, 05/10/04 LORD,
I have been reading the scriptures listed under “afraid” and “fear” in the concordance of my Bible. The message is that only You are loving enough to wield that kind of power. When I fear people, Im not trusting You. You said that the woman caught in adultery could only be judged by the One who was without sin. Jesus, You were the only One who was without sin, yet You had the compassion to desire her restoration rather than her destruction. Thats how You are. So why do I still go the way of least resistance, responding to my immediate fear of people instead of to You? This has to change. I can no longer tolerate the way of least resistance. You are the way. All else is idolatry. that night
Dear Jesus,
Help me to open the door named “Fear of the LORD”. Paint the doorframe with Your blood. Shine Your light under the door to overcome my darkness. Give me the courage to lift up the key, as You were lifted up. Guide me to pierce the keyhole, as You were pierced. Give me Your strength to turn the key, as in Gethsemane, when You turned from the temptation to avoid the cross. Thank You Jesus for laying down Your life for me. Love,
S.
Sunday morning, 05/13/04 Dear LORD,
What do You want to show me today?
S.
Dear S.,
I want to reveal My glory. God
Tuesday morning, 05/15/04 Dear LORD,
Why cant I see Your glory? What is still blocking You?
Love,
S.
Dear S.,
Your deepest fear has locked Me out. It is the fear of death, the fear of losing your Self in Me.
Love,
God
Dear LORD,
How can I overcome this fear? Love,
S.
Dear S.,
Lose yourself in praise. Its there you will find Me. Love,
God
Tuesday morning 06/20/04
My dearest small one,
You are growing in acceptance of Me. You are beginning to understand My ways. You are beginning to sense My love. You are beginning to know My heart. I am patient. You are growing in patience. I am trustworthy. You are growing in trustworthiness. I desire a right relationship with you. You are beginning to desire a right relationship with Me. Drawing you closer to Me is My first priority for your life. I love you more than you can imagine. You are growing in your ability to receive My love. I will never give up on you. I will continue to seek you. Dont give up on Me. I have chosen you. It is my desire that none would be lost. Come boldly.
Love,
God
Saturday morning, 07/03/04 Dear LORD,
My failure is Your success, when it is followed by obedience; because failure can only happen as a result of trying, and obedience happens when I try again. Progressive failure is the plowed ground that receives Your grace, and remembers it is dust. LORD, help me to continue to try. Help me to experience my failure, and rejoice in Your success. Help me to be happy dust in Your almighty hand, and to receive Your breath of life with gratitude.
Love,
S