Understanding Juggernaut
I have also explored the considerations motivating this essay in a 17-minute suite in six movements entitled Juggernaut.
The composition has originally been inspired by a dreadful string of incidents involving a rented house shared by six young and not-so-young adults, unannounced extensive renovations, and miscommunications of all sorts.
Orchestrated for a progressive rock ensemble, the piece is currently only available in demo format.
Procession and Steamroller respectively constitute the third and fourth chapters of the opus. The two sections are instrumental, and the first two poems presented in the following pages have been penned to complement the music.
The third poem, Understanding, was written while completing On the Meaning of Sin, and recapitulates the matters discussed herein.
Procession
where does this thing come from
it was not here before
obstacles make me glum
does this maze have a door
why doesn't this work out
it should be straightforward
leaving me in much doubt
how this have i incurred
what is this sensation
how come i feel so low
deflation impression
what is causing this woe
why are you mean to me
what have i done to you
why all this cruelty
and challenging undue
why is this happening
don't i deserve better
you claim to be loving
free me from this fetter
here an irritation
more annoyances there
push and prod vexation
is more than i can bear
distraught and deep in thought
drowning in resentment
confused and overwrought
and deaf to the moment
a lifeful of pointers
unfolds before my eyes
useful indicators
intended as allies
blinded by the blinkers
i do not recognize
lost in all that occurs
i avoid and despise
discounting as bothers
what's meant to make me wise
i deem as imposters
those wanting me to rise
inexorable force
standing tall on my course
inspiring my remorse
pointing me to the source
the calf on the altar
i respond in anger
unaware the mirror
heralds a steamroller
Steamroller
how have i slipped this time
how have i missed the mark
no reason nor a rhyme
i am left in the dark
how did i end up here
when all was flowing well
what have i failed to hear
why did you not foretell
you've pushed me didn't you
you've tripped me i recall
you've crushed me i hate you
and by anger i fall
forgetful of the threat
now i cry like a loon
and my fault i regret
moonchild on a full moon
i may have crossed some lines
that i must have misread
oblivious to the signs
i ended up misled
too caught up in the run
too hungry for the fruits
in striving for the sun
i neglected the roots
though the lesson is hard
there's comfort in process
and so i raise my guard
and resume my progress
i can't go wrong for long
that you course-correct me
i am blessed by your song
musical sympathy
whenever i do need
proof of divinity
this caring i do heed
restores my clarity
Understanding
and here i go again
a man on a mission
to achieve by mere pen
identification
of all errors and then
their elimination
so all can hear the wren
sing of liberation
in hindsight i recall
throughout my history
icons and figurines
of the virgin mary
gradually fading
out of reality
and how my bad habits
down to sleep had laid me
remove those obstacles
o eastern deity
the knight of pentacles
i vow to embody
persistent truth seeker
devoted to study
the implicate order
and synchronicity
up the tree of knowledge
hybrid trajectory
immeasurable mileage
towards my destiny
occasional slippage
reckless apostasy
reformative passage
humbling recovery
punished by my anger
selfish hamartia
cruel doppelganger
acts in absentia
inveterate scorner
chronic paranoia
in the naughty corner
constant metanoia
then the meaning of sin
prompted the deduction
hinted the principle
revealed course-correction
traditional wisdom
incomplete depiction
the alternative you
asserts redirection
setback or deterrent
helpful mechanism
experience abhorrent
same automatism
progress in merriment
transcends dogmatism
your own experiment
doesn't need an ism
error is the killer
suppressing the corrupt
thanks to this redeemer
sin will no more irrupt
don't let consequences
inspiration disrupt
resume your advancement
while evil goes bankrupt
of the deadly seven
the root is obvious
whether proud or lustful
glutton avaricious
indolent or wrathful
or merely envious
the all-important self
disregards the gracious
everything comes from mind
for it is in the lead
none can escape the bind
that follows every deed
leave the poisons behind
ire folly and greed
know the ones who are kind
in happiness succeed
to elude the dust cloud
simply uphold the five
intoxications shroud
decoherences prive
resist the disallowed
towards your goal do strive
stay true to what you've vowed
and you will find you thrive
predestined for freewill
construct your adventure
swarms intuit the truth
living architecture
galactic overmind
superconscious structure
error-free dynamic
creating the future
