CHAPTER 3
HOW GOD HAS BROUGHT ME OUT
A little personal word due to the seriousness of these doctrines and messages.
Because of my many years of experience, I do believe that “THE LAST CALL OF YHWH” is one of the most cunning, most deceptive religious cults there is. Especially once you are drawn into it, it is extremely hard to come out, since so many oracles—a mix of lies and truths, threats and judgments are used against you in the name of God. The end-time messages from “YHWH” that are sent out on a regular basis, contain a lot of CAPITAL LETTERS which makes it very intimidating.
There has been a progress in the LAST CALL messages, where the focus and heart of the letters have been centred more and more towards the leader. Everyone will be judged if they ever turn against her or against her holy child in the womb.
Here is what I witnessed in the progress of the position of the leader and what she taught her closest disciples:
She claims that YHWH God, Wisdom and the Holy Spirit will be born in the flesh, when she gives birth to the man child, the child will then be caught up to heaven (with his mother) and grow up quickly, then the man child Elijahu will come back to earth as YHWH in the flesh to judge the world and bring salvation to the Jewish people mainly. His mother will be the other witness. After their ministry on earth, they will both die in Jerusalem on a cross. Their closest disciples will also be martyred and die in Jerusalem.
John 19:30 When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.
Mark 3:29 But he that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness, but is in danger of eternal damnation.
Hebrews 10:29 Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?
Proverbs 30:5-6 Every word of God is pure: he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him. 6 Add thou not unto his words, lest he reprove thee, and thou be found a liar.
Revelation 22:18-19 For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book: 19 And if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and from the things which are written in this book.
MY MISTAKES
1) PRIDE
Proverbs 16:18 Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.
First of all I believed that the leader and her husband were the two witnesses. Then I bought the lie that I was so special and chosen for God and that He had prepared special chambers for me to have intimacy. I gave into the lie and had sexual encounters with “the Lord Jesus Christ” and “the ambassadors of Father God”. These had nothing to do with God, but were evil spirits manifesting themselves as God. When you allow this, it is very dangerous and there is a very high possibility that Incubus and Succubus spirits will come to you to have sexual intercourse. The leader purposely introduced me to all this, to send me a strong delusion and deception, so she could control me and then I would believe anything she would tell me. I had done an abominable thing in God’s eyes, and though I did not feel at peace with it at all, I chose to give into it.
2) IGNORING THE HOLY SPIRIT’S WARNINGS
Ephesians 4:30 And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.
Leaving behind our family and friends without any personal explanation felt very wrong and made me feel very uncomfortable. Breaking up all relationships for no reason was hurting and confusing many people. I was in the desert for many years, I felt alone, confused, frustrated, miserable and unhappy. Every day was a struggle to hold on and get through it. Everything I did felt uncomfortable and was a fight against the convictions in my spirit. Because many times I knew the things I was witnessing was wrong.
THIS was the Holy Spirit alerting me and waking me up to get help!
3) BELIEVING FALSE DOCTRINES INSTEAD OF GOD’S HOLY WORD
Hebrews 3:7-13 Wherefore (as the Holy Ghost saith, To day if ye will hear his voice, 8 Harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness: 9 When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my works forty years. 10 Wherefore I was grieved with that generation, and said, They do alway err in their heart; and they have not known my ways. 11 So I sware in my wrath, They shall not enter into my rest.) 12 Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God. 13 But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin.
Galatians 1: 6-8 I marvel that ye are so soon removed from him that called you into the grace of Christ unto another gospel: 7 Which is not another; but there be some that trouble you, and would pervert the gospel of Christ. 8 But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed.
Ezekiel 18:21-23 But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die. 22 All his transgressions that he hath committed, they shall not be mentioned unto him: in his righteousness that he hath done he shall live. 23 Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord GOD: and not that he should return from his ways, and live?
My daily repentance prayers before I became aware included:Luke 11: 9-13 And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. 10 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. 11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent? 12 Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion? 13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
It breaks the devil’s backGalatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, 23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
How was it that I never experienced any peace and joy and love when I lived in the house with the leader? It was even very hard for me to communicate with God over there, let alone to hear His Voice. Then, in my short breaks abroad in my home country and apart from the leader, I felt more peaceful and more at rest. I even started to hear His still small Voice again during those times. I never understood why I couldn’t feel and experience my familiar God in the place where the leader lived. If the leader was so holy, then why didn’t I feel holiness and not even God’s presence?
I felt miserable all the time, due to all the things I went through all those years, and because I missed my sweet husband—my friend, who was also sacrificing everything.
I prayed and cried out many times. I was desperate to know the truth and terrified at the same time to be deceived. Yet God heard every word and He showed me the truth.
MY EXODUS
Romans 2:4 Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?
End November 2020 – Breaking of the long fast – Urgency in me
Right after me and a few others broke a 100-day fast at the end of November, I suddenly got this "emergency" in my spirit that my husband had to come back home. I was physically separated for eleven months now from the leader. This was the first time I was separated for such a long time.
My husband was living abroad at the same place where the leader was residing. The last time I had seen my husband for only two short days, was ten months earlier. But now there was such a convincing fact inside of me by the Holy Spirit and I could not shake it off. I even rebuked my own flesh for wanting him to come back, as I was already told by the leader that my husband and I would never be together anymore until we were glorified.
I sought the Lord in prayers and tears to know exactly what He was trying to tell me. However, I already knew what He was going to reveal to me… His spirit already told me without any words. Yet I was very afraid of being deceived. The battle inside of me was still there, but not for much longer.
December 14, 2020 – Huge revelation
Matthew 7:16 Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?
One of the first things the Holy Spirit told me was to look at the fruits of the ministry. If you feel you are in a similar situation, make a list of the good fruits and a list of the bad fruits. Pray and seek God and He will show you the truth.
John 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.
I finally had the courage to sit down and pick up my Bible, after many days of just crying out to God to show me the truth, “Only Your Truth Lord!! If I am wrong I will repent!” My Bible was THE ONLY TRUTH I had and I begged God to please show me. He showed me many scriptures in only a few hours and He told me to look at the fruits and to make a list, something I had never done before as I was always too fearful to do so.
Then a little later, while I was walking in the woods near our house, still praying and crying out, I finally heard a still small voice that said:
“There is deception”.
I also heard it was time for things to be exposed, and that we would help many others by testifying of the things we witnessed, as many are under this type of deception.
I answered: "For sure You do not mean the leader? (I mentioned her name) Your Bride, Your Wife....?" He said "Yes!".
I heard this scripture out of Revelation 2: “Notwithstanding I have a few things against thee, because thou sufferest that woman Jezebel, which calleth herself a prophetess.” The Lord also said: "I gave her time to repent."
I was so under the fear of the Lord, I didn’t even dare to listen anymore. But I still heard: "At the mouth of two witnesses, or at the mouth of three witnesses, shall a matter be established. I shall give you three witnesses." I was upset and fearful at the same time, and replied “Well, then give me three witnesses!”
When I came home, I looked up the scripture in Revelation 2 and it further said: 22 Behold, I will cast her into a bed, and them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds.
(On July 5, 2018 the leader had a tragic accident where she broke her leg and had been bedridden since that time, as she didn’t want to see a doctor)
Within 24 hours I got three witnesses of people who received the same scripture and they all knew it was talking about our leader. And I didn’t share anything beforehand about all this. This is how we (me and a few others who had been part of the ministry) started to talk and pray about the revelations God was showing us now, while we fasted and asked others to please pray also (brothers and sisters in the Lord that we did not know personally). They all confirmed us in ways hard to deny, and we knew this was God trying to tell us something very serious. We continued to pray and a key scripture that we all kept receiving was that “God would open the Red Sea”.
The following days the Lord kept confirming me and the others that we were dealing with Jezebel. Our leader, a Jezebel??
A CULT?!?
By now we all had the revelation that we had been trapped in a CULT. All these doubts inside of me, the resistance in my heart and spirit, the continuous unrest and fear, not experiencing any love nor care from the leader. . .all these things were not “that old person” in me manifesting.
IT WAS THE VOICE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT WARNING ME!!
Oh how precious is that still small voice! Please if you hear it, don’t ignore it!
For 8 ½ years I had tried to destroy my own soul by doing very strong warfare against her, I fasted food hard-core most of the time and slept very few hours. I had given up my whole life to God, my house, my country, my comfort even in all the physical pains that I suffered. I worked hard most days and was many nights without sleep. I gave up my sweet husband with a broken heart and in obedience all those years, because I was taught I was not worthy and ready yet to be with him—not until “that old person” was cast out of me. I broke every relationship in my life. I cried out to God every day to crucify my flesh and destroy all the evil inside of me… Yes I was still deceived.
THE REPENTANCE I LACKED
The repentance I didn’t do before, meaning confessing to others, and turning around one hundred per cent, had broken the curses and spells from years of deception.
John 8:10-12: When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? 11 She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more. 12 Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.
After eleven months of separation, I started to hear that still small voice of the Holy Spirit, that convinced me to the core of my being, even without words at first, that something was very wrong and that my sweet husband was in danger, so I cried out to God in all seriousness for several days. I did not hear anything, no voices, it was pure silence. I thought that God had forsaken me.
Then one day, while I was praying outside in the stillness surrounded by beautiful nature, the Holy Spirit made it very clear to me with very few words what was going on. He gave me one scripture that said it all and He gave me three witnesses within 24 hours.
I started to repent immediately, to God first. I broke with the ministry (Cult) and made a list of people to whom I needed to confess, so they could understand what happened all those years. I confessed to the family, to the church, and to anyone else who had been hurt or damaged in all this. Now I was doing the repentance according to my Father’s will.
Psalm 32 Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.
2 Blessed is the man unto whom the LORD imputeth not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile.
3 When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long.
4 For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah.
5 I acknowledge my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the LORD; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
6 For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found: surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him.
7 Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.
8 I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye.
9 Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee.
10 Many sorrows shall be to the wicked: but he that trusteth in the LORD, mercy shall compass him about.
11 Be glad in the LORD, and rejoice, ye righteous: and shout for joy, all ye that are upright in heart.
SOME THINGS I LEARNED
Ephesians 4:29 Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.