Everything around me slows down my ear ear is ringing from being to close to the gun. I see the exact moment when the bullets makes contract with Gabe's skin. Everything feels like I'm in a movie only I'm not this is real. The sound of the gun shots snaps me out of my shock. “No!” I yell as Gabe falls down. I throw my head back hitting Mark right in the nose.
“Fuck Jane not again” he lets go of me. I run towards Gabe with my heart in my throat “Oh my god oh my god not you”.
I fall on my knees beside him and lift his head up to lay it on my lap “You'll be okay baby you have to be okay” my vision gets blurry with tears. Please not him please not him. I cup his face with my shaky hands. “Don't cry baby I don't like to see tears in those amber eyes remember” he reaches up and cleans my face with his bloody hand. I try laughing but it comes out as a snob. Leave it up to him to try to make me feel better when he is the one who got shot. “Shh baby please don't talk” I hush him. He needs to save his energy. I run my hand down his body trying to find where the blood is coming from. When I feel the womb I add pressure to it. I need some thing to help me stop him from bleeding. I look around the room but there is nothing . “Ugh!” he moans and places his hand over mine. “It's okay baby you'll be okay just put pressure on it” I press his head to my stomach. He has to be okay god can't be this cruel to me. “Baby,” it's getting harder for him to breath “I'm sorry I let you down”. I stroke his face “No you didn't let me down” I cry. I'm the one who let him down. This is all my fault. His eyes start to close “No,”
I say with a firm voice “Gabe open your eyes right now! Stay with me” I sob as I rock him. I can't lose him please not him.
Take me instead please take me. He opens them and I notice that they aren't the same green eyes that draw me in the first time I saw them. Instead they are darker and the fire that once were in them is starting to die down. I feel like some one is crushing my heart with their bare hands. My chest hurts so much all I want is to rip it open. I can't even breath right. “Gabe I'm so sorry this all my fault please forgive me” I cry out. Deep down I always knew I was going to end up hurting him. I knew it was a bad idea before it even started. I should of listen to my instinct. I drop my head on his chest and sob. This can't be the end of him he doesn't deserve this.
Not him not my Gabe. I press my ear over his heart trying to hear his heart beat. It's still there it's weak but still there. I hear him gasp for air “Run Muffin” he whisper into my ear. I shake my head there is now way I'm leaving him. “No” I lean in and give him a kiss. His lips are shaky and cold against mines nothing like the warm lips I'm use to. Oh god I'm losing him and I don't know what to do to keep him with me.
He cups my face with his cold bloody hands “Jane I will always love you” he smiles. I close my eyes and lean into his hand “Don't leave me”. The moment I feel his hand drop I know it's over. “Gabe” I whisper as I open my eyes I'm no longer staring into my favorite green eyes. “No!” I feel the scream ripping threw my throat. “Baby please” I wrap my arms around his neck and start weeping. Don't leave me please I can't do this with out you. Please wake up! “Please Gabe don't leave me not you please” I kiss his lips and are even colder than before. “What about our babies? You know the one with the amber eyes?” I place my face on the side of his neck to smell him. “Please not you please not you” I chant over and over again. His chest stops moving and he is stiff as a board. The little hope I was holding onto leaves me with my heart completely broken. He is gone. There is nothing I can do. I just watch him die in my arms. I lay right next to him I put my head on his chest and wrap my arm around him “Please wake up” I whisper just for him to he. What am I going to do now? I can't live with out him. I don't want to live without him. “Come on enough” Mark tries to pull me up but I refuse to move. I tighten my hold on Gabe there is no way I am leaving him. I don't care if he shoots me I have nothing to live for anyways. The only thing that meant something to me just died in my arms and with him he took my heart. He aims at Gabe's head “NOW!”. I can't let him do more damage to Gabe. He looks so peaceful if I didn't know any better I would say he was sleeping. I lean down and give him our last kiss “I will always love you”. My tears fall on to his face and I brush them off. He looks like a beautiful angle.
I carefully lay him down on the ground. Mark yanks me up and I lose it. “You fucking kill him you fucking bastard!” I push him off me. “Jane pl-” I punch him in the face before he can even finish. I'm so angry that I might just kill him with my bare hands. I push him and he stumbles back “I fucking hate you!”. I hear foot steps getting closer to us “You two over there and you come with me” I hear some one. Who ever it is they are close maybe they can help me. “Over here!”
I yell as I spin around. “Sorry I didn't want to hurt you” Mark says before everything goes black.
“Hey Muffin” Gabe smiles at me with his perfect teeth.
“Hey handsome” I run into his warm arms. There is no where in the world I rather be than in his arms. He always makes me feel safe. “I had a horrible dream baby” I squeeze him.“Tell me what happen Muffin” he strokes my back. I don't know want to tell him what happen. “It was horrible” I lift my head to look at him but he has vanish. “Gabe?' I look around but it's to dark. I start to panic my heart starts pounding as I look around for Gabe. Where is he? It's so cold that I can see my own breath. I wrap my arms around myself trying to warm up. “Gabe!” I yell. I run around looking for him but I can't find him. There is nothing but darkness and cold. I see a small light far away from me. I run towards the light and notice something on the floor.
What is that? Is that Gabe? I run to it. Oh god it's Gabe!
“Gabe” I finally reach him. I drop to the floor and lift his head up he looks like he is sleeping. “Gabe what's wrong?
Wake up” I shake him. There is blood spilling out of him. I lift his shit up trying to see where it's coming from but I can't find a hole. “Gabe baby please open your eyes” I begged. In a matter of seconds I'm surrounded by Gabe's blood. “Gabe please let me see those green eyes” I touch his face and he is ice cold.”
“Noo!” I wake up in a cold sweat. What happen? Where am I? I'm in a small room. How did I get here? My cloths are sticking to my skin and they feel cold. I look down and I'm cover in blood. It wasn't a dream everything is real. Gabe is dead, my father was arrested, Mark kidnap me, he is a traitor, and a murder!. I have nothing or no one to live for.
In a matter of hour my whole world came crushing down on me. Everything and everyone that was important to me is gone. All I have left is this emptiness in my chest that nothing can ever fill it. Tears start rolling down my face and I clean them right away. I need to find a way out of here I need to go find Gabe. I jump off the bed and reach for the door and to my surprise it's unlock that's weird. I open the door and I see Mark sitting down. I look around and now I understand why the door was unlock. I'm in a fucking plane!
“Nice to see you awake,” he smirks “take a seat we have a long trip ahead of us” he motions to the seat next to him. I lean into the wall “Where are we going?” my voice sounds scratchy. “I have no idea I just got the order for us to board the plane” he takes a sip of his drink. He is acting normal like nothing has happen. I stare at him and I feel my blood boiling all I see is the killer of the man I love. “You killed him” I say with clench teeth. My hands turns into fists at my side I'm ready to attack him. I want to make him hurt like I'm hurting. “Jane,” he puts the drink down “it was either him or me”. Is that suppose to mean something to me because it don't. If it was up to me he would be the one dead right now not Gabe. “I hate you so much Mark not only because you kidnap me but because you killed the one person I had ever loved” I feel like breaking but I won't not in front of him. I refuse to let him see what he did to me. “You're young Jane you'll find love again” he calmly says. I feel my anger raising.
Is he serious right now? What the hell does age have to do with the heart? “I hate you so much” I scowl at him. “I'm sorry to hear that but since we are sharing feelings,” he walks towards me and I put my hands up to put distant between us “Jane I love you”. What? My arms drop to my side he is out of his mind? “I been in love with you since the moment you sat next to me on that plane”. He tries to reach for me but I slap his hands away all I feel is repulsive for him. “Love?” I sneer “You call kidnapping me, killing the love of my life, and taking me to who knows where to some one who might kill me if I am lucky enough love? You call that love?”. He is unbelievable. I wipe my nose on the back of my hand “That's a fucked up way to love I rather you hate me than to have your love” I walk away not letting him get another word in. I close the door and lean against it for support. I honestly don't know how much longer I am going to survive with this pain. All I want to do is die to be with my Gabe. I thought it couldn't get worst but I was wrong very wrong. I cover my mouth with my hand trying to stop the crying. How am I suppose to look in to Sophia's eyes and tell her that because of me Gabe is dead? Oh god Sophia! She is going to hate me and she has every right too. Oh god what if she relapse and goes back to using drugs that will be my fault too. No I can't let that happen I made a promise to Gabe that I was going to watch out for her and the least I can do is keep my word. I'll fight for Sophia I owe her that much.
“That's my Rambo” I can almost hear Gabe say. I never understood why Juliet decided to kill her self to be with Romeo when she was young and had her whole life ahead of her but know I understand her because I am her. This pain is the real deal there isn't a pill I can take to make the pain go away. I actually have to live with this all my life. I would rather break every single bone in my body then to deal with this ache that I can't escape. The only thing I have left of Gabe are my memories, my bracelet, and the love I have for him. I lay back down on the bed and I cried my eyes out until sleep came. “Jane,” I feel some one stroking my hair “Wake up we are almost there”. I open my eyes and see everything blurry. It takes me a few second to see clearly and then I see Mark. “Don't fucking touch me” I slap his hands off me. “Are you ever going to forgive me?” he drops his arm.
I give him the direst look I can manage. How can I forgive him for killing Gabe? “I guess not” he backs away. “We will be landed any minute now” he informs me like if I give a rat's ass.