Note 2
You asked me, who I truly am after reading my first letter. I am still thinking about that question, even now as I write this letter. What should I answer? What can I say? I don’t know who I am sometimes. I will tell you what I am not then you can identify what I am from there on.
I am not Batman or Superman. I have no superior powers to control things. I am not Messiah, the savior of the world. I am not Romeo, a hero of romance. I am not Spartacus, that I can fight without a sword and still win, nor am I Samson to use a bone to kill a thousand men in a few minutes. But hey, I am not weak. I just fear violence that much.
I am not Judas Iscariot to betray for a silver. My heart is not driven by the lust for wealth but integrity is a virtue I am every day without failure teaching myself. I am not Peter, to ran away when a friend is in trouble. I am not a Pharisee to pretend that I love you by a word of lips yet in my heart I am playing games. No. romance, affection and love are not things to play with, nor are they things to just speak when you want…they are things that sprout from the heart. And from the heart they turn to actions. Love without action, is like faith without action, in the end it breeds nothing but only broken and wasted hearts.
I am not Bill Gates, that I will build you an empire. I am just me. I am Hitler, that I will kill for you. I am man of moderation and peace. I am not David, a man so devoted to God…I fail a lot and I struggle with committing myself to the work of the cross, but that doesn’t mean that I hate God. I am trying my best to do what is right and remain in His presence.
I am not Mozart that I will play for you classics that will always rejuvenate your heart. I am not a dancer, I am not a singer. My voice is terrible, so if one of your desires is to have a beautiful voice, then I am sorry, in that desire, I have already failed you. If I can’t play, sing or dance, it doesn’t mean that our life will be boring. I can’t promise, but I assure you that our lives will be more joyous than you ever known before.
I can’t say I’m good or bad in bed. As for that you will judge yourself when the ultimate day comes. What I can say, is that you will never forget that first day all your life.
My love, if you ask me again who I am, remember these words. And if there is a place more confusing to your heart, then don’t be dumb, send me a note.