When I look in the mirror I can see the remnant of the blush, shit but why did I blush on seeing him. Huh, it must be all the remembering and thinking. I stop thinking and start getting ready. Surprisingly, I am ready in 15 minutes instead of the 10, rushing towards the door where Abhi and Rahil are playing Ludo as they wait for me. I stop at the door observing them together which brings Rahul to my mind again but there is just fondness there and no pain. So maybe I too have been moving beyond the loss and pain without actually realising it.
Well ….
“Okay dokey I am ready shall we leave or are you no longer hungry muffin.”
Immediately they both get up and start walking out the door. As I turn to lock the door all the time hearing Rahil shout “food, food, food let’s go, let’s go”, Abhi stops me, turning me around he asks me softly
“You okay to go, you know we can do dinner some other day.”
He remembers what day it is today, it is there in his eyes.
I close my eyes to calm my already jiggling nerves and palpi-tating heart which has been going haywire all of a sudden.
After a few seconds and a couple of deep breaths I look at him again I see his eyes shining with sooo much love, care and concern all for me that I just know this is it (it was like Rahul was encouraging me towards this, strange I know).
I suddenly hold his hand lightly and look him in the eye and say softly ‘No, no I am ready, very very ready’.