At the end of January, I returned from a weekend at Ýdalir to a big box on my doorstep. I carried it inside and lifted out its contents. My grandmother’s wedding dress was so beautiful. It would hardly need to be altered to fit me. A note of parental congratulations rested at the bottom of the box, along with another envelope – this one with my name written in Mormor’s handwriting. A faded sticky note on top of the envelope said, “Give to Kristia on her wedding day.” Wedding day, my foot.
I ripped open the envelope and started to read.
‘Dearest Kristia,’ it began. ‘If you are reading this letter, I did not make it to your wedding. I know you will make a beautiful bride. I wish I could offer you pearls of marital wisdom, but the truth is I just got lucky with your grandfather. I have every confidence that your choice in husband will be just as remarkable.
Kristia, a few months ago a woman named Elsie joined my bridge club. She only stayed in town for a bit, and just before she left she asked me to give you a note. She may have been a few pies short of picnic, but since I never saw her again, I’ll never know for sure.
Her message is in this envelope. She asked that I not read it, and I honored her request. Something about her made me feel that she really did have your best interests at heart. I hope I wasn’t wrong.
I love you very much, and I wish I could have been there to see you as a bride. Keep your chin up and your shoulders back, and enjoy every minute of your big day.
Jeg elsker deg,
Mormor’
My curiosity piqued, I reached into the envelope and pulled out a folded piece of paper. On the outside it read:
‘If Kristia is to marry a man named Ull, please give her this message on or before her wedding day.’ Well, that was weird.
The message continued on the inside: ‘Kristia, If your betrothed is named Ull Myhr, then my Ull has found you. Thank Odin! Your union is the key to saving Asgard and Midgard from destruction at Ragnarok. On the day you were born, I recognized your gift – you are a powerful seer. As a human this was probably inconvenient, but as a goddess your gift will allow you to travel through the realms undetected, to see present and future events. You will foresee the battle plans of Asgard’s enemies, and tell Odin how to fight them at Ragnarok. You are to be Asgard’s greatest protector.
Since I was never able to tell the Three Sisters about you, they still believe Ragnarok will mark the end of the gods. And as part of my punishment, I am forbidden from seeking out any Asgardian. But if you should ever need me, hold your grandmother’s necklace and say my name. I will find you.
I wish you and Ull lifetimes of peace and joy.
Elsker’
So I was right. My fingers clutched the two pieces of paper, one from the grandmother I’d loved with all of my heart, and one from a stranger who risked everything to help me find my destiny. I sat for so long, it grew dark outside. I pulled my sweater tight around me. Twenty years of crazy visions made sense now. I played my life back in rewind, thinking of all the things I’d seen that had come to fruition. I’d always thought I was nuttier than a fruitcake in a pecan factory, but now I saw my ability with different eyes. It was the key to convincing Thor I was an asset; my ticket into Asgard. But it wouldn’t come cheap – spying on Asgard’s enemies could cost me everything.
It was a price I was willing to pay.
“She said what?” I could hear Ull’s teeth grinding together through the phone.
“I told you not to freak out. She said what I’ve been trying to tell you all along – I’m meant to be a goddess. My visions are meant to help Asgard. I’m supposed to use them to spy on our enemies. And if I do, there won’t even be a Ragnarok. I was right.”
“No. Absolutely not, no. I cannot allow anything happen to you.”
“You aren’t allowing anything. This is what’s meant to be. This is my destiny.”
“I absolutely cannot agree to this. I do not care what you believe your destiny to be. Your destiny is not to run headfirst into what is obviously a trap. You could be killed, Kristia. And I could not go on if I lost you.”
“You don’t think I can handle this, do you? You don’t think I’m strong enough.” It was impossible to keep the indignation out of my voice.
“It does not matter how strong you are. You are to be my wife, and I will not have the woman I love put herself at risk. Ever.”
“You have to believe in me,” I pleaded. “I can do this. I know I can.”
“You do not know what you are asking,” Ull growled. “There are monsters out there that you cannot begin to imagine. You think the trolls from Mythology class sounded scary? Try facing down a battalion of irate fire giants. They burn anything in their path on sight; their uprisings rarely leave a single survivor; and only a handful of Asgard’s assassins have ever made it out of Muspelheim alive. And that is just one race. The dark elves have the power to remove your soul. The jotuns can freeze your heart. You have had no combat training – none. Do you really think you are ready to face the demons of our underworlds?”
“Fine. Maybe I’m not ready to go to all those awful places. I didn’t say I knew how I was going to help Asgard. But I know I can help Asgard. I want to help Asgard. And whether you sign off on it or not, I am going to help Asgard. Now you can fight me all you want on this. But I have a piece of paper from a renegade Norn that says it’s my duty to protect you and your family. And by gum, I am going to do everything in my power to make that happen.”
“Why can you not just do as I ask? I am trying to protect you, Kristia!” Ull sounded like he might be shaking.
“Because it’s not about me anymore. Elsker put this all together before I was even born. You were always supposed to find me so you could change me. We were meant to be together so we could save our realms.”
“Be that as it may, I cannot allow you to do this. You are not to put yourself at risk. I do not know how I would live without you.”
It was hard to argue with him when he said things like that. I tried another angle. “Okay, but think about this. Ragnarok is coming, whether I’m a goddess or not. And if I’m human, according to that prophecy, we’re all going to die. So I’m a goner in that scenario. At least if we try Elsker’s way, we have a chance at a future together.”
Rather than admit I had a point, Ull spent a full minute muttering about how this entire situation was too dangerous and how dare Elsker risk his woman’s life for the sake of Asgard. It was kind of cute. But it made me realize I’d have to talk to Thor without him. If I was trying save the entire cosmos, I didn’t need father and son working against me.
I was grateful to see the number flashing on my mobile. I’d been planning strategy with Inga for the last hour, and it would be a relief to talk to Ardis for a while.
“Inga? Can I call you back later? Ardis is on the other line.”
“Sure. Talk soon.” Inga hung up and I clicked over.
“Ardis,” my relief was audible, “How are you?”
“I’m great!” Her voice was ecstatic. “I got the lead in the musical! I’m going to be Sandy!”
“Wow, that’s great – congratulations!” I wracked my brain to try to remember the play Sandy was in. My theatre knowledge was limited. “So you’re doing…”
“Grease!” Ardis laughed, a happy sound that lifted me from my mood.
“Sorry, I knew that. I think.”
“You did. We only watched it, like, a dozen times when we were little. Remember? We used to sneak the movie into my room, because my parents didn’t like the language. It wasn’t even that bad!”
“I do remember that. Sorry, I’ve had a lot on my mind.”
“Spill.”
“First, let’s talk about you. When do your start rehearsals?”
“Next week! The great news is that the show’s going to be at the end of the semester, after awards season so critics can come to see us! I might get an agent from it!”
“Oh my gosh, that’s incredible.”
“I know, right? The bad news is that it’s at the end of the semester, so I won’t be able to fly out the day after school ends, like we’d planned. I’ll make it in time for the wedding though, don’t worry.” She barely stopped to breathe. “The last performance is two nights before your big day, so I’ll catch the first flight out, and with the time change, I should be there a day early. I wouldn’t miss that for anything!”
“Oh, Ardis! What would I do without you?”
“Oh, you’d probably be in Nehalem working in your parents’ shop and pining away for some half-hunky lumberjack,” she laughed.
“That is a disturbingly accurate picture of what could have been. Thanks for the reminder.”
“Meh, what are friends for?” I could almost see her shrug, and suddenly I missed her so much my stomach ached. “Now what’s going on across the pond?”
“Nothing. Everything. I’m still trying to figure out how to make Ull’s parents like me.”
“You’ve got to be kidding. They seriously don’t like you?”
“Nope. Not even a little. Well,” I amended, “his mom is okay with me. But his dad is definitely not. So I have this… meeting with Ull’s dad. Sort of a last ditch effort. My friend Inga is going to help me sell him on why I’ll make a good wife for his son.”
“Wait, why doesn’t his dad think you’ll be a good wife?” True friend that she was, Ardis was indignant.
“Turns out he’d sort of planned on Ull marrying this other girl, Skadi, and he still thinks she’s a better fit for him than me.”
“Seriously? Skadi? What kind of a name is that? I’ll bet she’s 200 pounds and has messed up teeth.”
“Ardis!”
“Well, it’s probably true.”
“Probably.” I grinned, hoping fervently that Skadi was the first ugly goddess in the history of mythology. “But it doesn’t matter either way. Ull told him he wouldn’t marry Skadi – that he was marrying me, and that was that.”
“I like this Ull more every time we talk. He sounds like a real man.”
“You have no idea,” I muttered. “Problem is, his dad pretty much disowned him for saying that.” I wanted to tell Ardis as much as I could without violating Asgard’s secrecy. “If Ull marries me, he can never go home again. He won’t have his family, and he won’t be able to be there for them if they ever need him.”
“Kristia. You know that’s not true. There is no way this guy’s mom is going to lose her son like that. She’ll make Ull’s dad come around.”
“I don’t think she can. His dad is super stubborn. The only way he’d change his mind is if I can convince him that I’m as good as Skadi.”
“Well that should be easy enough. First of all, your name isn’t Skadi. So there’s a point in your favor.”
I giggled.
“What? Just keeping it real. Second,” Ardis picked up steam, “Ull chose you. He knows his heart. His dad doesn’t, and he can’t force him to feel something. Especially for someone named Skadi. You know, I bet she has really bad skin, too.”
“I love you Ardis.”
“I know. And third, you are so way better for Ull than this Skadi chick. You’re smart. You’re incredibly kind. You’d do anything to help the people you love. You have fabulous judgment. And you have me rooting for you. You can’t lose.”
“That simple, huh?”
“That simple.” Ardis paused. “I am sorry he’s giving you a hard time though. That has to hurt your feelings.”
“It’s nothing I can’t handle.”
“Don’t worry, Kristia. He’ll come around.”
“Yeah, maybe. Now tell me all about your play.”
“Well, the guy playing Danny is super cute – and he’s straight!” With that Ardis was off, giving me a much-needed break from thinking about the task ahead of me.
“He’s coming – hurry!” Olaug, Inga and I scrambled into place as Olaug put down the phone that linked to Asgard. It was time. Thor was going to show up on the screen any minute, and this was my only chance to convince him to change me. If this failed, we were out of options. Ull would become a human, the gods would lose at Ragnarok, and Earth and Asgard would disappear forever.
Oh, and we’d all die.
We stood shoulder-to-shoulder in the secret room under Ýdalir, Olaug and Inga flanking my sides for support, our hands clasped together. As we stared at the screen we heard a muted thud followed by heavy footsteps. The sound came from the chamber Olaug told me led to the Bifrost, the passage between Asgard and Earth. We weren’t expecting a visitor – we’d been very careful to keep this meeting secret from everyone, especially Ull. Certainly none of us were expecting the enormous man with fiery red hair coming out of the chamber.
“This seemed like something that should be discussed face to face.” Thor’s gruff voice thundered in the suddenly small space.
You could have pushed me over with a feather. Thor was a hundred times scarier in person. He stood at least a foot over me, sinewy muscles straining against his clothes and an enormous hammer clutched in his left hand. His face was weather worn and his ruddy skin bore the scars of countless battles. But none of that bothered me. I knew what was riding on this meeting, and I couldn’t afford to be scared. I narrowed my eyes in determination. I was going to get through to him, no matter how much I wanted to turn and run up the stairs.
Olaug broke our silence. “I am sorry Thor, I did not know to expect you in person. What a treat for Ýdalir to have you. Would you care for a beverage?”
“I would love a cup of tea, thank you Olaug. Hello Inga.” He nodded to my friend.
“Hello Thor. Thank you for hearing us today.”
“I will hear you. It is all I can promise.” His hand tensed reflexively around Mjölnir.
“Sit, please.” Olaug motioned for us to gather around the table as she brought Thor his tea. It was an uneasy gathering. Thor dwarfed his chair, but still managed to sit with the agility of a jungle cat poised to attack. I willed my voice to work.
Thankfully, Thor spoke for both of us. “Miss Tostenson, it is a pleasure to meet you. I am sorry for this state of affairs. It pleases me that my son has chosen a companion, but under the circumstances, you can see why I am not in a position to celebrate your union. Losing Ull at this time is a travesty to Asgard, not a cause for revelry.”
I wanted to yell, Then change your mind! But I didn’t want to sound petulant. Inga gave me a nod. “Thank you for coming, sir. I know this is not a good time for you to be away.”
“No, it is not.”
“I wouldn’t have asked this of you if I didn’t truly believe that I could help.”
“Miss Tostenson, you are a human. Weak, fickle, and frail by your very nature. How could you possibly help the gods?”
“I can’t, not as a human. But I can if you make me one of you.”
“I thought I made myself clear on that topic. You are not fit to join Asgard.”
“Yes. I am.” Thor’s brow tensed; he was not used to objections. “I am more fit than you know. Sir,” I added as his eyes flashed.
He stood to leave. “I have no time for insolence. Olaug, see that my energies are not wasted again.”
“Wait!” I ran in front of the enormous man. He frowned as I blocked his path. “I can save your realm.”
Thor’s snort bordered on derision. “Miss Tostenson, what can you do that all the forces of Asgard cannot?”
“I can see your enemies’ battle plans. I can discover their strategies and report to you. Or I could, any way, if you would make me a god.”
“I do not understand.”
“Here,” I fumbled in my pocket until I pulled out Elsker’s note, “This explains everything.” My lungs hurt for lack of air until Thor read the note all the way through. The crease on his brow deepened as he read it a second time. He folded the note and handed it back to me.
“This means nothing. Elsker is a traitor.” Thor turned and moved towards the Bifrost.
“What are you talking about?” I jumped in front of him again.
“She mingled Ull’s fate with a mortal. She was cast out with cause. Now, if you will excuse me.” He tried to move around me but I blocked his path. His eyes turned black and he gripped his hammer. It was time to pull out the only card I had left.
“Elsker.” I gripped my grandmother’s necklace as I said her name. “Elsker, Elsker, Elsker.”
“Oh, my.” Olaug stepped back as the old woman appeared next to her. Elsker stood four and a half feet tall, tops. Her white hair was pulled up in a bun, and her wrinkled skin had a soft glow.
“Elsker?” I stepped toward her. There were a million things I wanted to say, but only one mattered right now. “I need your help.”
“I should say you do.” She marched to Thor with surprising dexterity for a woman who looked so frail. “What exactly do you think you are doing, Thor? Shame on you.”
“Shame on me?” Thor stepped back out of the Bifrost. “Shame on you! You meddled with my son’s future. Cast his fate with some human? You deserve your banishment.”
“You always were a pigheaded prude. Even as a child. Oh, I remember you well.” Elsker stood inches from Thor with her hands on her hips. “You are lucky I was not your Norn.”
“We agree on that at least.”
“What are you doing, Thor?” Elsker asked again. “My prophesy for Kristia is true. Her visions will save us. But you have to change her.”
“I would never go against the Three Sisters. They gave you one rule, Elsker. One rule. And you could not follow it.” Thor’s eyes blazed.
“You are right. I found The Seer. Would you have turned a blind eye?”
“The Seer? That is not possible.” Thor’s gaze shifted to me and back to Elsker.
“It is, and I found her. Read the note more carefully.” Elsker folded her arms.
“What’s going on?” I whispered to Olaug.
“The Seer was one of the first prophecies proclaimed by the Three Sisters, but the identity of The Seer has never been revealed. So much time passed, most of us began to doubt The Seer’s existence.” I wasn’t entirely comfortable with the way Olaug was looking at me.
“What’s so special about this Seer?”
“He or she will be able to see everything – past, present and future. Absolute knowledge of the nine realms at all times. It will be an unconquerable power. Odin thought he was The Seer. He gave his eye to Mimir in exchange for knowledge. But Odin was not the chosen one – his sight is vast, but he can only see the present.”
“And they think that I’m… that I can…” I was the product of an ancient prophecy?
“We do not think, Kristia.” Elsker stopped glaring at Thor long enough to look at me. “We know. Even Thor must know, if he can get over himself long enough to admit he is wrong. Touch her necklace Thor. Go on. Touch it.”
“I will do no such thing.”
“Why should he touch my necklace?” I whispered to Olaug.
“Because if it’s the necklace from the prophecy, to anyone else, it is just a necklace. But when The Seer puts it on, that necklace channels Mjölnir’s magic. They were forged from the same piece of metal.”
“Touch it, Thor.” Elsker was brave. I’d never be able to order Thor around like that.
“Fine. But only to prove what a liar you are.” Irritated, Thor marched away from the Bifrost and held his hand to my neck. “May I?”
“Sure,” I whispered.
Thor held the charm between two fingers. Nothing happened. He turned to Elsker, still touching the silver. “See you old woman? It is as worthless as your word.”
As he spoke a faint beam of light came from the necklace.
“What?” Thor spun around. The necklace shot nine beams in quick succession, each stronger than before. The last beam was so bright I shielded my eyes. When I lowered my arm, the light had dimmed. Inga’s hand was over her mouth and Thor was staring at me.
“Great Odin,” Inga mouthed. “You’re The Seer?”
Olaug bowed her head, then looked at me with awe. My legs shook. Whatever this meant, it was a very big deal to the gods.
“It cannot be. The Seer is human?”
“I have been trying to tell you this for eighteen years.” Elsker was impossibly smug.
“And you brought The Seer to my son?”
“Yes. They are the perfect fit. It would take an extraordinary heart to warm Ull’s. And it would take an extraordinary warrior to protect The Seer.”
“You might want to sit down Thor,” Olaug offered.
Thor lowered himself onto the leather chair.
“You too, ladies.” Olaug gestured and we sat on the couch while she retreated to the little kitchen and returned with a fresh pot of tea and five cups. Inga and I distributed them quietly.
“What happens now, Elsker?” Thor lifted his cup.
“First of all, you lift my banishment, you nitwit. And apologize.” She was a sassy one. I liked her a lot.
“I am sorry Elsker. Odin was wrong to cast you from the realm. I will make sure this is rectified.” Thor sounded sincere.
“Thank you.” Elsker gave one nod. “Now, agree to change Kristia. The Seer isn’t going to be very effective as a human, is she?”
Thor looked at Mjölnir for a long time before he spoke again. “You will use your gift to protect Asgard, Kristia?”
“Yes, sir.”
“You will be good to my son?” His words were gentler and something almost like tenderness crept into his eyes.
“Yes sir, I will.”
“He has seen much pain in his life. I expect you shall treat him with kindness.”
“Of course. Ull is the best thing that has ever happened to me.”
He paused again, closing his eyes as he fought against his impulses. Everything he knew was being challenged and I knew this decision cost him. “Then Miss Tostenson.” He extended his free hand. “Welcome to Asgard.” I winced at the firm handshake. “Ahh, so fragile.” He patted my arm. “Well, not for long.”
“Thank you, sir,” I gasped. I looked at Inga, my eyes wide.
“I shall speak to Odin about our conversation. Of course Kristia’s conversion will be known in Asgard, but I think it best if we keep the details of her gift a secret.”
“Agreed, Thor. As far as we are concerned, the fewer who know of this the safer Kristia will be. Odin shall be fully briefed, and Ull and Gunnar of course, but no one else.” Olaug picked up a notepad and began writing.
“Excellent. And I will ensure you are granted entry to Asgard, with full apologies from my father.” Thor stood and rested a hand on Elsker’s shoulder. “I cannot believe you found The Seer.”
“I cannot believe you ever doubted her.” Elsker shook her head.
“I apologize, Kristia.” Thor turned and entered the Bifrost. “I am needed in Asgard. You will train her, Olaug? Prepare her for life as a goddess?”
“I shall do my best.”
Thor nodded once. “Very well. Inga, Kristia.” he nodded to each of us in turn. “I shall see you at the wedding.”
“Thank you,” I called feebly as he disappeared into the chamber. Good gravy. What had I gotten myself into now?
The moment he was gone, I turned to Elsker. “You’re amazing! I can’t believe you stood up to Thor like that!”
“I had to. He was being inordinately stubborn.” We smiled at each other.
“It’s nice to meet you. Er, see you again I guess. I don’t remember meeting you the first time.”
“You were a cherubic baby.” Elsker touched my cheek. “I am so happy Ull went looking for you.”
“Oh, no. Ull.” We’d gone behind his back and convinced Thor to change me. I wasn’t sure what scared me more – fulfilling some ancient prophecy as an all knowing visionary or owning up to Ull about what I’d done. “Um, Elsker? Do you think you could stick around for a couple of hours? Help me soften the blow for Ull? He wasn’t very happy with the idea of Thor changing me. He’s really not going to like knowing I’m... I’m…”
“The Seer,” Elsker said gently. “It is a tremendous honor. And a tremendous responsibility. Are you all right?”
“I think so.”
“I will help you.” Elsker rubbed my arm.
“We all will.” Olaug nodded her assent.
“I’ll tell Ull,” Inga laughed. “Serves him right.”
“And of course I will stay.” Elsker patted my hand. “I have waited a long time to see you and Ull together.”
“Well, you won’t have to wait much longer.” Olaug cocked an ear toward the stairs. “He is here.”