Woman from the States in grey: My mind? Consciousness?
The Thesaurus says in part for State:
The noun: The way something is with respect to its main attributes.
The verb: Express an idea, etc. orally, in writing, or with gestures.
A replacement word: One of the words listed is “spin.”
Also, though the United States is another country, it is one without frontiers, so to speak, and easily accessible.
Photographs in black and white: A form of record.
Black and white: the past.
Picture of the two boys clowning at the beach: Similar to the picture of Jos. and Marc taken in Florida when Jos. was seven and Marc eleven?
Two best friends?
The two boys my mom said she had out of wedlock?
Picture of three-year-old: I recognized myself and started to cry.
Picture of me in the train: I remember going on a trip by train with the nuns when I was either eight or nine, when I was a boarder at the convent in St-Bruno.
Living room: Everyday life.
Crystals: Don’t really know, except I have been thinking of buying one. In my Feng Shui class there is a mention of adding a crystal to cure imbalance in a room.
Floating objects: Circle?
Man next to me: He grabbed the object and gave it a spin but it ended up against the wall; unbroken, though, and the object simply adjusted its trajectory.
Spinning: Method of chiropractics? Spine?
Backyard: Bare. Nothing growing. But it is spring (hope?).
Something hidden?
Building next door: The tattered shed on the parking lot of Hell’s office?
Stairs (second floor): Going up….
Mind - Consciousness?
(In another dream I was going down some stairs into a backyard. Is this an indication of a change in consciousness?) Overall feeling
The dream is dark with very little colour. Almost entirely black and white, or at least mostly grey. Very bleak.
I woke up feeling depressed and wondering whether I will ever know the truth about myself. About who I am really. About my past.
About my memories. About Micha.
A dark dream, like a dark movie — a black comedy starring a very bad actress.
April 18, 1999 (Computer Journal)