I think the dream is about my demotion; no doubt about it — going down the stairwell; Max.
But what is it about, the fire in the hotel? The corridors were okay and even the doors, without handles but with keyholes, were not locked to me and could be swung open both ways: In/Out. I think the dream is telling me that I will be staying at my workplace for another three years at least — it would be wishful thinking to think three months (August, September, October). I had hoped I would not have to swallow my pride and accept the post of bilingual receptionist. The fire in the hotel probably indicates how upset I am about this.
The fact that the fire was obviously put out shows that I am probably beginning to accept that there is nothing I can do (no door handles).
Going back probably means I will stay and take the position. What
smarts so much is not that I was removed from my position, but that they didn’t even take into consideration my skills and my know-how. Seeing someone junior get promoted to bilingual secretary really upsets me. It seems that they have no intention of making things easy for me. I have started to grieve over this and I have told Eddy, so he will understand my mood swings (giving the remote to the young man?). I am allowed to cry a little, am I not?
Aug. 1, 1999 (Computer Journal)