By Santosh Jha
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Copyright 2019 Santosh Jha
Smashwords Edition
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Acknowledgement
It was meant to be a usual long letter to my niece, Anu, with whom I share my consciousness and vice-versa. However, it went beyond and is now an over 100-page eBook. Words are always poor carriers of intent but if the ‘Connect’ is Compassionate, communications discover utility and worth. This persevered assurance has been the energy behind my 38th eBook in your hands. Thanks…!
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Navigation Blues
A humble admittance – Any word, however well meant and well spelt, is a possible suspect of misinterpretation. Simple reason is, people are in different consciousnesses and culturally as well as personally inclined to specific utilities. As a writer, it is a huge temptation to take liberties, with not only imaginations but also with the words, as against their common and popular use. Do kindly accept my latitude with language and personal coinages of words, as they may not always conform to popular usages. I share with you whatever is part of my consciousness; what I have internalized in my life. This may not be mainstream stuff; but may have utility in some meaningful way. I believe you shall enjoy this novelty and pleasant awkwardness of the writing.
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PREAFCE
Thanks for downloading this eBook. There is a way to proceed to get optimal utility out of reading this eBook. This enterprise of words essentially involves you as equal collaborator in deciphering a possible mechanism, which shall empower you in shaping your life-living wellness and successes. In this eBook, I am not saying, I know something and I am telling it to you. Rather, I am presenting to you a hypothesis and invite you to be my collaborator in arriving at a probable ‘Theory Of Reality’. The hypothesis is that our own consciousness has definitive Media and Communication structures, which we as Aware-Selves can use dexterously to lead our body and mind to specific life-living goals of wellness and success.
This eBook has two parts. In the first part, we shall talk about all those ideas that shall journey us into understanding in detail what essentially this ‘hypothesis’ is and how it stands to be a possibility. That is, we shall discuss the probability of how we can facilitate the launch of a ‘Conscious Enterprise’ to use the ‘Media’ and ‘Communication’ plexus of our body-mind to achieve whatever wellness and success goals we consciously set for our life and living.
In the second part, which may well be optional, there are chapters where some key issues and aspects, involved in first part, have been detailed to facilitate deeper understanding of this hypothesis.
When I say, I accept you to be the collaborator and equal partner in this enterprise; I mean to say that you should never accept anything I say, without assigning it to the energy of skepticism. I wish you to test the validity of any probability or hypothesis I am accepting in this eBook. Why I say this? Because, as a collaborator, you shall like to ‘Own The Finality’ of what this eBook arrives at. We are journeying a hypothesis to arrive at the destination of a Theory. When we reach there, you should be equally in ownership and possession of the finality, which I have realized and internalized. I am sharing with you what I have experienced and internalized with this very humble intent that you should benefit like me. This is possible only when you are my collaborator and equal partner in the enterprise.
What we are discussing in this eBook is still in the domain of scientific philosophization. As science is yet to arrive at a definitive theory about what we are discussing here, we are attempting to decipher a probability with all possible scientific objectivity and logicality. However, science is usually complex and given to its own objectives of theorization, not always facilitative of pragmatism of life-living experiences. What we are doing in this eBook is accepting holism of approach – assimilating life-living experiences with objective scientific reality and creating our own personalized model of reality for our life-living wellness and success.
Welcome to the enterprise and thanks for being my collaborator and equal partner…!
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At The Very Outset…!
It is said, in contemporary age of information obesity, it is tough for an individual to believe and accept something as true and right. There is a huge plexus of information coming to us from wide variety of ‘media’ and ‘communication’ platforms. The multitude of information is so contradictory and conflicting in nature that they leave people only with more confusion, conflicts and chaos. The media and communication are powerful but probably has already lost the sanity of trust. Our wellness has this critical requirement of trust in our milieus and as media and communication is incessantly splitting our singular trust, conundrum rules people as well as societies.
There is vocal communication from different media that this world has become a better place to live and continuously evolving to excellence. Equally potent and persistent is the communication just contrary to it that gradually, humanity is moving towards its doom and final extinction. What an individual should believe and trust is precarious. Facts are complex and advocacy of both viewpoints is almost always ‘missaionary’ and reactionary. We can say, we should trust science as it probably is the sole objective and logical fact domain. But even among scientists, there is dualism of reality. Moreover, usually science is so complex that average person stands more confused when confronted with scientific findings.
For example, a section of scientific communication tells us that we as humans now stand as genetic dumps and evolutional junks, on the wrong side of timeline, facing almost imminent extinction because of our obsolete and faulty physical-mental designs, subsequent sedimentation of overwhelming deleterious genes; as against our popular perception that we are the finest and loftiest creatures made by God and, modern human, being highly intelligent and omnipotent in his physical-mental abilities. It says, humans are at their worst stage in evolution terms, the degradation starting almost 10,000 years ago. We have a skeleton design that is best suited for four-legged creature but still we carry it with loads of trouble, being on two legs! Our genetic make-up has over 97% as junk and already 15000 genetic defects have been catalogued. All this has made humanity a warehouse of deadly and crippling diseases and untold miseries as most of these genetic defects have affected our mental capacities as a cultural being. Genetically, we are designed not to be purely intelligent but only be somewhat intelligent on top of our almost entirely instinct-driven personality. Etc.
On the other side, there is hugely encouraging communication and visuals about glittering world around – big malls and multiplexes with brilliant technological devices and gadgets. Scientists are making breakthroughs in medical research, space technology, mobility, energy and communication techniques, etc. Then every day there is encouraging information about technology becoming cheap and penetrating downwards, making it affordable to more and more people. There is peripheral reminder that we are living in most peaceful and prosperous times, even when constant media outreach shows us how wars are on, trade tussles are surging, democratic idealisms are withering, terror is spreading, wellness challenges are enhancing, billions are still poor and malnourished, etc.
The fact of the matter is there are always grains of truth in both sides of communications. The world is good and bad, right and wrong at the same time and has been like that. The trouble is usually one side of communication seldom accepts the truth and reality of the other side, even when everyone knows that good and bad always exist side by side. This world we live is surely getting better but this betterment is in parts. Similarly, things are also getting bad but they also are only in parts. The holism of reality always has this ‘equilibrium’ of good and bad. The golden wisdom is to be aware of both good and bad, right and wrong and then, very consciously align ourselves and our life-living energy to good and right.
What we have to be interested in is the positives we humans have for our better future. One might say; if the above-mentioned words are fact, then in such disastrous circumstances, it looks almost impossible to say that there is still some hope for humanity; but there is. Actually, as trends have already started to show signs, future may be better for humanity if cosmic systems otherwise allows enough time-frame of 500-1000 years for humanity to correct its inherent faulty genetic design and degenerating ways, embarking on a path that is aimed at species intelligence and suitability for not only survival but overall excellence of all lives in the universe. We do not have to go into details of all this here. Few shall have the patience and interest to go through the advancements made on molecular biology, nanotech, space tech, quantum mechanics and other breakthroughs for eugenics as genome and cloning. But then, it is a good reality that all these technological advancements hold key to the better future of humanity.
What we intend to do here is to sum up what we as individuals need to do to stay as truly intelligent beings and create a personal space (also collective space, if possible) for us which ensures not only our survival but excellence in the lives we live and leave for generations to come. And, despite huge deficiencies and defects in our own genetic and instinctive make-up as well as degeneration and chaos in the physical environment and socio-economic-political culture we live in, we as individuals do stand a chance to do so. How?
The first and foremost requirement is huge courage, determination and resilience. What we are today, physically as well as mentally, is largely a product of years of brain and body evolution. Our consciousness, this definitive sense of me or ‘I Am’, is also now accepted as hugely precarious and at the root of most troubles of humanity. Similar is culture and our mind-training. Our mind training is not what we desired or what real knowledge wished. Humanity has been equipped with sanity of objectivity and logicality, which critical scientific knowledge has made possible, only in the last few centuries, which is a timeline too small when we compare it to the fact that we humans have been on Earth for over 4 million years, in our current form.
The primary trouble in the new millennium is that our mindsets have concretized over a huge period of thousands of years. This mindset is used to of accepting what is and has been icons and benchmarks in our popular culture. Lateral, plural and unfounded behavior patterns and mindsets created by religion, philosophies, psychologies and the popular culture, which are based on their subjective notions and ‘part truths’ have made us what we are today. Accepting something new and contrary to our mind and cultural training would be not only tough but also very painful for us. Most of us are geniuses of ‘parts’, not trained mentally and culturally to accept finality of utility of ‘Intelligence of Holism’. This we all need to do.
That’s why, the first requirement is this huge courage, determination and resilience in our part to come out of this mould and accept an entirely new mindset which shall look like as completely contrary to what we so far hold as not only true but ‘sacred’. We need to be accommodative to this new knowledge and modern scientific facts, parallel to our traditional cultural ideas and benchmarks. There is actually no contradiction in what we have been told since ages by subjective religion and philosophies on one side and objective science on the other. This may help in acceptance. In this eBook, we are accepting this holism of wisdom.
The second requirement is to accept and understand how our mind and consciousness have been designed and how this new wisdom can be used with objective intelligence for our individual and collective excellence. Coming out of the dualism of ‘body and soul’ and ‘instinct and intellect’ shall help us do that.
We have to accept that mind is very much like a computer but much more than that. It can provide only those answers and perform only those tasks, which it would be programmed for. Brain is just a referral mechanism for processing facts; deciding ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ for motor action. All its decisions, based on instinctive value summation, are therefore subjective and never objective. There can be objective values of goodness and righteousness now for individuals and our culture as it now has a scientific basis added for better judgment. But, a human mind decides on an individual’s goodness and righteousness not on the basis of this objectivity but on the basis of the values that it has been programmed (neural circuitry) with.
As someone said, ‘The human mind has instinctive mechanism to universalize goodness as well as evil. What we feed in it is not its concern. This is the role of intellect. The universe has not put us where we are today with any specific purpose of designed goodness. We have to design our purpose.’ We cannot accept survival as our purpose. That we are already designed for, though very poorly! We, as intellectual beings, need to set lofty and larger goals for ourselves and then program our minds to attain it. As we repeat this objective mind training to our brain, the objective goodness would spread all throughout its neural circuitry and then, we won’t have to think twice to perform goodness and righteousness as it would then become an instinct, and thus an involuntary mechanism, like a hand moving away involuntarily as it touches fire.
A real good and empowered human is not one who needs to think and then behave and act good. Rather, it is one who does not have to think as all his behavior and actions are instinctively bound to be good. We don’t consciously remember when we drive a car or cook a meal as it is instinctive, even when they were once learned behavior. Objective goodness is also learned behavior but when we repeatedly practice it, it becomes instinctive.
Mind is value neutral. Mind spreads values that it is assigned by an individual (chosen software) or a culture to every part of its neural circuitry. That’s why we have to use our objective intellect to input only objective value benchmarks that has singularity of value-decision and weed out unproven and pluralistic values, which allows cunning and devilish inventiveness of mind’s value summation.
All these are core and critical content of this eBook. We are going to talk about Consciousness, Cognitions and Causalities that are key elements of empowerment. We are however focusing on the very crucial aspects of body-mind ‘media’ and ‘communication’, which we as conscious beings have to use dexterously to attain everything we seek for our overall wellness and success in life and living. Do step in, involve, evolve and optimize your best potentials…
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Thanks For Your Magnanimity, The First Chapter Begins...
PART ONE
CHAPTER 1
This precarious yet definitively palpable experience of your ‘Conscious Self’ summoning and then having an audience with your own Subconscious space is a hugely rewarding feeling. The communication between two layers of ‘I’ or self, is neither new nor is it something somebody has to do. It is an auto-process, keeps happening and the conscious and subconscious layers are entwined in a two-way communication loop in some dialectic causality. This means, the conscious is affected by subconscious and also affects it and the vice-versa. This lop is repetitive yet evolving.
However, this auto-process of communication between the two layers of ‘I’ seems like a silent and mute mechanism and their interactions are not usually registered by conscious self. Moreover, the causality or purpose of the communication is internalized process of different brain states. A fragment of its sparks may be felt either in dreams or thought pop ups in awakened state or very rarely in fleeting epiphanies but seldom registered by our conscious self for active recall and replication. That is, a person is not usually aware of the purpose, process and outcomes of the conscious-subconscious communication.
What we are talking here is another dimension or domain of communication between the two layers that is initiated by the conscious self, the awakened and fully aware ‘I’, with a purpose that is well designed and thought of, fully mindful of the process that the communication needs to have along with a definitive goal as the finality of outcome. This is what we called the well-aware process of the conscious self summoning and then having an audience with its subconscious self to accomplish a definitive and even tangible outcome. This not only is a very rewarding feeling but also a hugely potent tool for infinite wellness successes. This is what we are talking about in this eBook.
What we are intending to do here in next paragraphs is first narrate the chain of experiences that I had as these would help you understand many aspects of communication within different layers of ‘I’ or self and the huge potential this artistry can have on our wellness and excellence in life and living. Also, later, we shall also be able to relate reasonably well with the fact that all that we are talking here is not new as humanity has successfully practiced the artistry since thousands of years. And, the most important aspect that we shall discuss is how ‘I’ or self is the primary and ultimate ‘Karta’, the protagonist of all realism of our world and life-living experiences and how this ‘I’ or self can consciously create tangible probabilities with intangible mechanism-processes of body and mind. That is, how our conscious self, a very ‘Aware-I’ can successfully use the ‘Media’ of body-mind for a ‘Communication’, the purpose and outcome of which we have opted for and wished to.
In later chapters we shall discuss in details almost everything to understand the mechanism and processes of consciousness, body-mind media, the communication plexus and a lot more to arrive at a hypothesis about how we can consciously use the same media and communication channels that our subconscious mind states use as an auto-process, not felt or registered by us. In a way we shall also talk about the idea of ‘I’ or self – the ‘We’ which is being referred here as the doer or ‘Conscious Self’ or ‘Aware-I’. And why we are doing it? To unravel a very powerful and well practiced artistry of ‘I’ to consciously manage our body-mind media and its communication plexus for life-living attainments of wellness and success. This definitively is the ultimate empowerment anyone can think of.
So, here we go…
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CHAPTER 2
It started around more than a decade back. I was traversing an age where futility of this conflicted instinctive self, which largely defines subconscious mind states, was settling in. It was beginning to descend down on the horizon of the conscious thoughtfulness that the situational success that I was in, had made the subconscious ingenuity enslave the conscious ‘I’. The protagonist that the conscious self was on the stage of life-living was in fact only enacting the script that subconscious success-benchmark had screen-played in advance. It happened in such unease of tumult of disharmony and dichotomy between two dimensions of the Self.
Third day in a row and my fever was abnormally high, refusing to die down. The pain, unease and incapacitation were calamitous but that was not troubling my conscious self. In the next three days, I had a very crucial event in my office and I had to be in good readiness to match and even surpass the benchmark of excellence that I had established for myself. I desperately needed to be fighting fit.
Late in the evening, I surrendered. My conscious self admitted defeat and accepted that I had lost the opportunity that the event could extend to bolster further success in my career. This very acceptance somehow seemed to have brought my being in sync with present-ness of time and space. I surrendered my conscious self that was living up the probabilities of potentials of a near future. This brought it in close proximity to my own subconscious self that instinctively was there, well-informed of the ‘troubled’ situation at hand. This situationed the inevitability of the interface of conscious with subconscious – both stood in linearity with singular moment of situation of the present. This is the least and simplest of narrations of probably a rather complex body-mind situation that was there.
Probably, both conscious and subconscious layers being in linearity and symmetry, they jointly addressed the singularity of situation – my pain and incapacitation. This linearity and symmetry potentialed the probability of a magnificent magicality. Why I say this? Because now I can say that it is very rare in our busy and multi-tasking world of life-living to have a situation where our subconscious and conscious mind layers stand in linearity for a singular situation of joint enterprise. Almost often, our conscious self is busy with one issue and the subconscious is engaged in another usually unrelated task. The ‘connect’ between the two is either missing or too weak. This dualism, conflict or asymmetry between two layers is something we do not even register but it always happens. This ‘split’ is probably our body-mind make up and an innate situation, thanks to the evolution of our complex brain states. That late evening this linearity and symmetry happened, which I can speak of only now. However, still, something was missing for the magic to unravel and unleash…!
Few minutes later, I consciously began to sing, with lots of gathered strength, a song my departed father used to sing. It was worded as, ‘Suniye Nath Gareeb Nawaj… Aayi Sharan Mein Tujhe Meri Laaj… (Do kindly listen O Lord of the needy and destitute. I have surrendered to you and you have to help me).’ With high fever, pain and incapacitation, it was tough to sing and therefore required a very ‘Conscious’ effort in my part. Also, as the song itself had a deep association and ‘connect’ with the memory of my father, who used to sing this song, I also wept and kept singing for an hour or so. The subconscious state that was completely drenched and drowned in helplessness and debilitation, probably found itself a supportive advocacy of conscious self and together there was a singular, definitive and unflinching expression and communication of an emergency need for immediate ‘help’…!
The night I slept and could not remember much as probably I was in a delirium. Early morning I found myself in the pool of sweat. I experienced untold weakness but my mind felt fresh. My conscious self had clarity of thoughtfulness and fever was down to normal. The day passed and fever did not come back. In the night, when usually fever used to be high, the fever returned but was very mild. Next day, I was normal and on my toes and eventually made it to my crucial office event and did well.
This experience and experiment has been repeated three more times successfully since then and every time a new element was added, even when I could ascertain that the core ‘magic’ remained the same. We shall try to decipher the ‘magic’ after detailing the other three experiments as every other experience had something new in them…
Four years back, my lower back pain came to stay as a permanent thing in my life. Initially, the pain was very crippling in the morning and as the day progressed, it was bearable. I sort of accepted that as it was something very common, especially for tall man like me, I ignored it. I did some yoga exercise but it worsened the pain. In the next two months, pain and stiffness worsened and it became tough for me to do even my daily routine. I had in my mind the ‘magic’ that I had earlier experimented as only a year back, I had repeated this successfully with another fever bout. However, I realized that as lower back was something always there with me, even since my youth days and so I believed it was something related with my skeletal frame, which was naturally deteriorating with age. I was reluctant to repeat my experiment with back pain as I was sure it was not a malaise but a physical reality of a degenerative body that was only natural.
This time, it all happened unplanned and spontaneous. One morning not only the back pain was acute and intense but also, the pain moved up to upper back and reached bottom of my neck. The whole day, I had nothing to do and there was no business at hand. I just kept lying on my bed, was silent and as usual, surrendered myself to the situation. I didn’t sing. I could not as even breathing was a tough ask. Didn’t remember my father, didn’t invoke divinity. I simply focused on my pain. It was like I called up my pain and sat with it and respectfully and humbly showed up my tears. I remembered a folklore about a fakeer (hermit) who wailed and wept inconsolably and cured any diseased person who came to him. I wept and wailed and all along consciously focused on the pain as if it was a person and I was directing my tears and wails to ‘him’…
Nothing magical happened next day. Probably, the pain and intensity were the same. However, next day, there were troubles with my mother. She had serious trouble with her health and I simply forgot my own self and almost subconsciously dived into a routine of unending work to extend best possible care and support to her. Almost 15 days passed and as she continued to be serious all these days, I simply could not even register the actuality of severity of my own pain and incapacitation. My mother started to be well and I too had some leisure time first time in 15 days. Suddenly, I registered that somehow I had managed single-handedly everything in past 15 days, even when my condition was such that I even had huge trouble moving around. I realized the lower back pain was still there but very mild and even disappeared for day or two and would again come back. In months to come, the inflammation that was so intense that even slight press of the affected area was impossible, I could now massage it and felt no pain. Of course, lower back pain is not fully gone but it is not permanent; comes back occasionally and that too very mild, whenever I overstretch things.
Similar success happened with what looked like initial prostate trouble. It is common in maternal side of my family and I was already expecting it. This experiment was somewhat similar to what had happened with back pain. Again, it was like summoning the problem, having an audience with it and respectfully expressing my incapacitation with simplicity of honesty and humility. This time, there were no tears, no wails just an intense and long conscious talk with my own ‘self’. Things began to improve after a week and I kept the ‘talk process’ on for two-three times…
Most interesting and very appealing is the last experience, which happened a few months back. I had tooth pain and it had lasted a week. I rarely take a pain killer but I did all home remedies like salt-turmeric paste rubbing, clove oil, etc. No relief. After a week, the pain shot up and spread to ears and forehead. The pain was shooting and pulsating, making it hard even to sleep. I took painkillers reluctantly for two days but it only provided relief for few hours. The pain intensified.
On probably 9th day of my tooth pain, it was unbearable and still, there was no rest pos