What is it; that you ‘really’ want? That is, a tough question to answer, as there are many approaches to the answer. There may also be several obstacles involved in getting what you want and it may also be possible, that what you want is not available, for you. Regardless of the eventual outcome, it is best to be comfortable with what you have, as this in itself will bring you closer to the peace that you were looking for in the first place.