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Ancestral Blood

Almond Cut Eye

Nitroglicerin enthralling the burst into life

Completely out of the reach of the ordinary

Emotions that never cease to bleed out

Spilling their heartfelt tongues on the ark of craft

Tyrants under their pillows resting their guns

Resting their powered-motion to fight games of times forgotten with thrones

Aware of becoming a target as they targeted well

Living creatures with blood and tears to share for a chance at living.

Blinking eyes, with rapid lashes a wave,

Love rests on the single bed, pillow soaked in tears of an angel

Offering you a pleasant memory for the en-core of a last time;

Over the grounds of your salvation you shed down your past cries out to be

Devoured in the desperate gasps of that love you could have had...

Dei DisChord

Deities guiding their rivers of pain, our rivers of shame

Not to be ashamed with

For they have loved and they have died and killed for their love,

For their heart and soul

Under attack: a find of justice and mercy and healthy pride.

It’s all written down on your skin in ink of a pride broken

Giving you the movement you need to build and rebel, to fight and know well

The blazing treasure of the heart that mend and killed

For the pleasures of innocent guilt,

Blood spilling remorse and shame and lack of a poverty you admired as hell,

Hell was working for us, hell was working for you, hell was working

Like Doctor Jeckil l and Mr Hide, a hit

In Hyde and seek plays of a Jack Kill.

*”to the poor dead who didn’t have it all, they had it all...”

Soul CruSH

Sunsets come out of a shrilL

Hovering o’ sepals above a halO

Out looking for butsU

United skies with louD

Territories holding handS

We create our apologies every day

With every moment of a thought given,

Taken an idea and moved forward

For the sake of multiplication

Of our dearest instances!”

This is a collection of poetry and thoughts gathered in certain arrangements with different meanings; my purposes and the personal significance behind don’t have to be your own choice. I merely offer a perspective on these matters of encounters with the self, explorations of soul matters and needs of spiritual kind that reflects into obedience and rebellion of the flesh. Each reader has a mind of their own and a set of knowledge that may help them see things in their gifted fashion and grace.

The make-believe

The skies hold the please of a star,

The mountains of surreal clouds

Painted by the hands of a child

Sweet innocence and light

Under the canopy of which

The Shadows with their takers make believe.

Cosmic DNA

I have become a nobody

And that is not a shame,

That is an opportunity,

My opportunity to leave behind all the pain,

Rid myself of the burden or learn how to carry the load

With the ease of photons gliding on the rods of solar loom,

Explosions having sunlight pass through thick air,

Hit grounds and products of their existence-manifests,

Cast Shadows over surfaces exposed, Surf with the aliens, walk with the man,

With the moon and stars and planets a movement

Spiralling to expand the sheet of paper that’s a Universe asking to collide, intersect, take a glance at...

A parellel...

Our

Cosmic DNA

Contents

God

In this house surprise

Plato Tribe

Mosquito Salad (Ist version)

K-Boom

(I am) Series I

Cleansing

Origami Book

You may live

You were getting on my nerves (short version)

War Field Frame

Birds Timings

You and I

Please... If you found her

Fingers

Looking back

The PB ode

The only thing

Spoken Old

Never suffered

Ca_all_Red

Famished

Double-Decker Ride

Felix otter smiles

D.T.D.(dragon’s times dance)

I love it!

Got...iT

Well Meant _Heart mend (short version)

LUDICA

B.O.Y

Times set in Frames

Peppermint Powders

Tale Forks

You wanted me to suffer

(Bad) Habit

A bunch of doers

As I walk through

House of need

The Beauty of love

Fires and blades

Vex Et Ed

T‘ell

Gratitude Fracas

Until Ed, Untitled a friend

Dear Papa

Whooshie heart

Simple as... (Just)

May be...

(II-nd version)

The intruder

some Times wonder

So it seems...

Amoeba glow

Want’aBreak... Ow

Rocket Cloud

Z

Out of... Sorry words

Oh, how I wish...

Ruby, my diamonds

Sparkling Hell party

(I am) The seekers

Music to...

Sunset Soul

TH’ell (a variation)

Life...

The COWart

But I’m a human

(Motion)PhotoCopy...

Family ad

Plead for a walk

Private Party Pen

To _ Peace Rebellious

Pride waves encounter

Fantasy

Tramp restoration

O. P. I

Go Go plans

Pouting at football passion

And... For What

She cures it all

Lion Heart Please

Life reflection

Seruproar

Visions in a photograph

Told’n Showed

Now what my image

F*un

A heart of stone

Magic Frogs Business

Arromercyfaithfulhardsoulselfia

Those who can’t be reached

You

Whatever the share

How are you?

Experience

Though

Wisdom take Pt I

‘Whahh’ for the Love of Life

Magical snake

Blade that can take it

Too much oven

Child Kidding Hard

Heavenward

Words flow

Kids and ideals

Sorrow ass shaking and shaking

Oh, Socrates!

Sexy Spring of Joy

“ Whaaat? “

Poor Margaret

Goats

Just a whore (letter)

Music to the ears

Let yourself...

Shadows that can’t feel anymore

See the Sea

Defended punisher

The Vegan Style Pt. I

Sound of the familiar....

Faustated

Lucid Streams

Blue the playful heart of stone

A Mountain crowded with Gold

The City

The Vegan Style Pt. II

Sky of Light Journeys

The Damsel in distress

The killer-knot

Echo of a shadow spill

If a Child...

If you want to know

A laughter that means his endless cry (Ist version)

To the eyes that see... (Ist version)

Horror and Crimes

With your tires

Child, have some rest

You givers!

Still famished

A perfect summer day

Yo

Sheherezade

Touch of a silky rose petal

Looking for the right role

Here

Mountain Crest

Cup of Heavenly Light

If I am

By fires learned

Friends...

In the name of colour

Hah the life I had

Brought back to life

Clues Title Obsession

Bottom page notes deterring

Red Flamenco Heart

(Red Alert) Love Cemetery

Come now, End those Tears (You are an Angel)

Mask or facelift

A Big Bang Romance

Totem

Fa Si La - LockDown Memories _ I

HeAvens

Habitual Ravens

Cacti worm

Pork soup in a frying pan

BCS

Sweet treat

Raven Heart

The morgue

A Place for Cornt

(I am) The Line

Ta Phell

You...! I hope you’ve got your password

Care

It’s perfect the way it is

A

AMp Swamp

Revived Robin

Your light

The Ers Group

The Lovely short but rich poem!

(Only A) miracle

Know

A little place o’ heaven

Soul Crush

What the fly

Great Family Poem

All wrong

Clues Title Obsession

You’re dead

God in love

Apple Rolls

Warbled Soul

Humiliation Avenue

Stain of Dark Blue

Cut! (this can get much better!)

Everything right?

Thou shall not feel but think

My soul is lost

MNY, ooy!

Saved I

Enjoy the sight!

Cry of pride

LLT

Dopamine soul

Planet Spaced U

(I am) moments

Interview with a Ladder

(I am) The Rope Collar

This given...

In silent screams

Fading carcass-ghosts

When Hurt an Apology

Funny Hell

Breathing like... Hmm...

Rear gear mirror reflection (Core I)

The same blue sky

The Third

Rrriiing - Hello... - Just... Nothing

... GI.ON...

Thanks for the visit

A need expressed

Strains of Phililth

Up the hill

Rainbow Clouds

The mess

Untitled Sun

Horror of the Being

F-d butT.Proud (?)

Force

Art Sylph

Rust

Peace makers

Rich ink flow

“He’s a pillar of society!

Beware.”

4 PeoPle, 5 StarS

Reflection on Solitude

Beam out of spleen

Cinder treasure

Talk about good lies told

Eye’s Life

Arms

pyr

So a Mother filled a page

Soul Cry

Eyes Scream

Brave Feelmoticons

Silence Walk

Rose of Thornasia

Lives-Living

Intrigued

Swinging Vessel

Brightly lit ocean

This Haunted House

Porcelain Clown

Memoir of Romeo and Juliet

Engin Izer

Well Scented

When will I learn to kill?

With her

Active in the Bliss of our dreams

(long version)

Fantasies of childhood

You had it

Arianna’s travels

S.A.

blue bills

Ah, being poor...

Sphere’s Spirit

Sac à dos

Strings talk

When someone loved

Minds

Do! Doo, birdie

Crawl

Alt+/Alt-

Wings of crystal Missile

Muse Light Dome

Tale set ablaze

StarLeHe

flowers of frost melt

wiBlack

Properly dressed

Tokugawa Secrets

Dream of an artist

Just, like before

In Silent Resonance

HoEP

Maybe...

Drone

Hex Sonnetta

Zebraic Philosophy

SonFrites

Grounds and Skies Rhymes

Botanima

Toll-tale Parts

Crumbs of building

Crescent Moon

Seared Skin

What famished souls can feed upon

Brightly lit ocean

Hagakure

A

AnZi

WD/DeW

OTF (YaYaYo)

Thou shall do harm...

Way of the sun

Ardent Angel Grounds

Cornucopia

It matters

You...

God

Curtain fall

...

Extra work and Bonuses:

Light

AMp Swamp

(AMp Swamp) Joc de soc

(AMp Swamp) Fantômes de vie

(AMp Swamp) Sueño de palabras

Sparkling Hell party (II-nd version)

Well Meant _Heart mend (Full-version)

FLow

(I am) Full of it

The Elephant Hospital

One Love for Ever

Roll Arts

A Song

Nude in a museum of lore

Your head

Ta tête

Soul-Seek

At the crack of Dawn

A laughter that means his endless cry

To the eyes that see...(II-nd version)

The dead want to be alive

The monarch

Skiagraphy disturbance

You...You...

God

How much we can suffer for our souls!

It’s a soul take, soul give...

Maybe God can bless...

And maybe what we do is what will matter in the end.

In this house surprise

Of Sin and Sinners we have heard

It’s tired-some as sin is everything today...

I wish my heart and life quite clean.

I’m tired.

If you’re not cheating, lying well,

If you don’t go for what they stand

Too proud for...

‘Have tried, you know...

Now I can’t stand this anymore.

As they would

Then they wouldn’t do

What they are asking

Coming through

In ways you can accept

Then be

Upset and vexed,

Just how I’ d be.

But still, they would

Look for a way,

If you don’t take the examples there,

The best ones out there

For which you can stand

Too proud for...

I can stand proud for...

Alone

Together dreaming well,

A hide and seek play

Left in times that were

Forgettable...

Then war was on!

Of Sin and Sinners we have heard

I’m wasted, blighted heart and soul

Embracing ruins of the world you sacrificed us for

And cry for acts of love and hate,

Revenge and luminous embrace of peace,

Enjoy a time you left behind

Into the dark, into the light, into the passing grey

as sin is everything today...

I wish my heart and life quite clean

Of dirt that cannot sin, dirt cannot sin just right,

right, right...

holy this life!

Holy the life of sinners...

It’s getting tiresome.

And I tricked myself into being too grateful

for what set a belief and a wonder in my I...

Plato Tribe

It cleaves the heart

And tares the flesh apart, off bones soft splinters of lascerating joy,

This pleasure take engaging me into romantic current takes!

I sit, long watch into our heroes work,

Like Plato exploring the infinite of the unreachable,

And with myself a letter all alone is surfing

on waves of hissing farewell sea-words,

Sacred flesh, dry spoken a word lift

For blood spills all over the carpets and floors we simply adored...

“Ah, women! Will never try to be ignored

A taste anew in wonder!”

Tortured by need of thirsty grounds and famished brain cravings,

He wastes no time with enemies and friends he doesn’t know

But too weak to follow his enchanted rendering

Of tribes from which he takes the wit and wisdom looms.

“Haven’t I lost my soul already?

For you and your kind, my kind suffered well,

To be alive and take the chance at weaving

A coating whisper of tomorrow’s endings.”

Lost in a contemplation of pasts glorious,

Growing with day to day awareness in times present,

I gaze into the night of grounds I left for fantasies,

Looking the truth in his eyes: a multitude of sparkling Champagne wines

Expecting nothing but a smile... “Oh, I’ve done wrong, my child!”

Yet, truth feels tired with my lost desire to build homes,

“It’s only an illusion until it all becomes

Our new reality to take, embrace of part-takes...”

It doesn’t hurt the flesh when it’s just nothing,

It’s nothing but the light of knowledge, pure_

Only the beast is thirsty for a carnage, thirsty for a cry and gruesome kills

And I do seem to be the only one who’s trapped here,

Wasting away a fair future past to take into this present life to cherish,

Crying and hoping not, no more; I’m done with glaring into the maze of lost hopes

but I’m doing naught

While you go on minding your businesses.

(*a tribute brought to Plato as I was asking myself these other days _again?_ “Why would I want to live when death sounds so sweet and appealing?” _ “Oh, but what awaits in this silence, darling! What awaits was never more delightful to those who are still craving for a miracle...”)

Mosquito Salad (Ist version)

Good food for the brain,

Good food for the brain!

Little creatures looking for fun,

Mesmerized by the light,

Going for more and more at night,

It is always more than they can take

So they get either burned or temporarily crippled,

Turned into carcasses tattoos on our skins

Reflecting marvels of the universe in one drop of shameful defeat;

We show with merciless pride our kill and brag upon their death

Remembering to add a few words

To our mosquito salads.

K-Boom

I thought of killing you but then

I got distracted,

My missile redirected,

The bomb you’ve mistaken for my treasure chest

Going K-Boom on screens too many times,

Skeletons spread all around,

Past-time broken,

Heart-felt joke.

I got distracted

And couldn’t put an end to the whole world.

Then I tricked myself into believing

that you will be all too grateful for what I ...

(I am) Series I

I am too embarrassing for your might.

There‘s nothing to discuss with you.

Cleansing

I have poured rivers of tears,

Remained with a bulge of clay

and some miracles idea

To help me recover my faith...

But trust! Where to put it

With an interest pay doubled?

I have been putting back together

Pieces of work

But evil and awfulness must go together

Just like love and hate,

Just like faith and the strong,

Faith and the bold,

Faith and the beautiful...

Just like... That!

TV shows:

You’ve killed me,

For your filth I had to survive.

Clean her

Clean her somehow

Of the worst

You will not love,

You will not love

And not because you’re ugly or too beautiful

But because the misery you made her out of...

Speaks Soap.

“The walking poems

preferred,

Each saying something.”

Origami Book

Tell me the story of that page you treasured more,

In that book of your life that didn’t mean but

A drop in the oceans of pages filled with words and tears,

What we used to call life,

Images to rest our souls with.

Tell me all that story of your youth, lost hours in words,

Feelings adorned with the explorations of shapes

Moving you on the abstract waves of games,

Thinking of that first page in the origamy-heart-book you designed

To impress a sad old child.

“As I wait for flowers to emerge,

out of the lovely piece of material imposed,

made of matters of importance,

Great

producers of laughter and tears...

I keep clowning.”

You may live

Out of my pride

I should be dead and working for the happily alive.

Don’t offer me your goods,

Stop telling me what to do,

I don’t want to live that normal life of yours,

Call it your sanity,

That’s you,

I am here to describe a moment or two,

Observed thousands of lives

For those who may...

They may...

And I just may...

You will never understand a heart too broken,

Too proud to live

A miserable thought or word

coming out of a mind that is too old

For that ink,

The Ink that loved and knew

no trauma.

“Chores need to be done,

Duty must be found

For material of basic importance

to be produced,

Dreams must be accomplished,

Comatted, loved and feared,

we defy laws and rules and the lack of it,

we embrace our own ways, as we like to think,

as we must be defying those who fight

Against our chosen existence.”

You were getting on my nerves (short version)

When the heart weeps

At the hour of tossed corpses into trunks,

Long drives to the ocean,

Clearing evidence,

Throwing bad memories into the lake next state,

Leaving the photograph I carried in my wallet somewhere in a cafe

(don’t worry, it was fancy, just like you)

...

Sorry, I had to kill you...

You were getting on my nerves.

“The inner stitches still hurt”...

War Field Frame

Atrocities

In times of war

We hunt and eat each other

Or fast and almost die of hunger,

We watch the ravens coming then

Tearing the flesh of carcasses,

Guiding the wolves and melting pain

Down with the blood

Atrocious sight

Painted.

Thank you.

Birds Timings

A bird, chewing gum

While fluttering wings of life

Spread over times bills

Can you imagine all the soap we need?

You and I

And I thought

But you thought first

Then I realised I thought best

In another life

Where I could find myself after some quest...

You didn’t!

No, you didn’t.

You didn’t make me feel embarrassed

With ‘my poor choices,

My little strength,

My little pesky sorrows,

Petty I am.

You didn’t!

No, you didn’t make me feel superior when I was only something I won’t name:

It is prohibited by my good common sense.

No, no, no.

You didn’t.

You didn’t make me feel embarrassed with getting born...

The story’s too long.

Let’s cut... You know...

No, no, no

You didn’ t make me feel upset with myself

And the whole world.

Oh, no, no,

You didn’t.

You didn’t.

You didn’t make me feel less than you need to be,

No, you didn’t.

Creators of something you must be...

Out of nothing the anger of the paradise you always lose

As your pride was greater.~

No, no, no.

I felt no embarrassment with your empowerment of others....

“Ta do shit! “

Please, look for the worthy,

I have nothing good for you.

“Oh, now you do remember me!”

Nothing but the impression of greatness to you.

No. You didn’t make me feel all too embarrassed compared to your chosen,

Chosen beloved, your wealthy doing great...

Only the very poor curse, the very poor for not being the elite.

I was too rich, now I was too poor... Perhaps now I know.

Only the very poor can make of the poor even poorer…

Help the cause of the devil...

Only the poor can make of a king a poor thing.

Teachers of today teaching others to stay poor, be poor and awful_nae.

Teachers teaching us lessons, great lessons...

On how to suffer and suffer and suffer to become just like them.

But are they just?

Teachers...

Teaching us a lesson, putting one there where they belong...

You didn’t!

No, you didn’t.

You didn’t make me feel embarrassed

With my poor choices,

My little strength,

My little pesky sorrows,

Petty I am.

Even, my choice to get out of the gutter and be okay was too poor.

Even my aspiration to real good,

Real beauty real love:

All petty and sorrowful,

Damnable a thing,

Something for you to kill...

It will kill... Don’t you worry.

My choices to fight: all too wrong for you.

My kindness, not mine.

My sorrow, not mine.

My everything not mine...

Nothing.... Mine, mine...

All of my choices so wrong...

So wrong that they were all right.

My aspiration to the good I want, I know I can be...

All Petty.

Oh, my poor choices, my poor wishes

Were too heavy for you

But it’s alright...

You’ll manage my ass goodbye.

It wasn’t too much for me too,

I didn’t feel all too embarrassed,

This world is too good to be true;

The fluke am I doing here?

“Exactly. Goddamn poor choice!”

No you didn’t make me feel okay! Their choice was losing me,

Making of me just another piece of a product I won’t name.

Whilst yours was to save...

I need my good common sense to be the Blame.

Oh, the honour!

I should feel great.

No, you didn’t make me feel embarrassed

with your choices for me...

You didn’t!

No, you didn’t make me feel superior when I was only something I won’t name:

It is prohibited by my good common sense.

No, no, no.

You didn’t.

You’ve chosen to lose me,

I chose to fight,

Feeling embarrassed that you had the strength to kill me,

Still for the best...

You didn’ t,

No, no, no.

You merciful creature!

Please... If you found her

The one who is preferable,

Acceptable and to be appreciated

Keep her

And never come back for me

With your crowds

And mountains of evil do

Bastards!”

I wish you well,

I wish you could understand

I learned what I could

The many were perhaps too cruel.

It’s a cruel world,

It’s a cruel world.

Crude.

Only children see it as beautiful!

Only children can feel it this beautiful.

Famished

I don’t want to see you

Because you didn’t ruin my life.

It’s probably this the answer,

It’s probably this...

Fingers.

Fingers.

What can one do with fingers?

One can eat and one can shine

And one can flutter

their silent good filter off eyes,

One can scream and one can show,

And fingers can tell about a new flow

of ideas.

“What is the meaning of life and the purpose?

and why would I choose to live again?”

Fingers

What one can do?

Fist them and fight like a fool,

Fight like a gem, like a storm,

The cruel rose with thorns....

Show them!

Fight like a man,

Against a crime,

No crime divine;

I hope you can.

I can’t believe the man I sometimes am!

“If I’m not happy with you, guess what?

You won’t be happy with me.

So we both have to find our happiness...”

Looking back

Into a photograph I find

A memory I wouldn’t live again

But as a recomposition of my troubled broken self

(*The self centered series are always the most delightful)

The PB ode

If a pig said so I am going to commit suicide,

If a pig said so... I am going to end with my life

‘cause some pig said so

and a bitch arranged it all to happen!

Sure... If a pig and his bitch... Did and said so...

Everything for the pig and the bitch!

(*and I meant the pig and the bitch but those must be saved as we need pigs and bitches and ... love. Aspirations! They make things possible, love making miracles happen. You don’t believe me? Well, just look around you and inside you... Isn’t it a miracle how pigs can turn into lovly human beings and bitches get to become just adorable creatures, examples to be followed? I call this the miracle of life with the power of love._ Please, do not excuse this! It is absolutely reproachable an outburst.)

The only thing

The only thing that would please your eye

Would be me, lying in a gutter

All ashamed with what you arranged for me.

If one day out, the news would please your wounded heart:

Dead body, slayed in the most horrible fashion.

Gruesome scenery.

Attention!

Enjoy at your own mercy capacity!

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