AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF AN YOGINI
IN SHORT
MAMTA KULKARNI
AS THERE IS A SAYING “CAUSE’ HAS AN EFFECT CONCEALED IN IT AND AN ‘EFFECT’ HAS ‘CAUSE’ REVEALED IN IT.
IT MEANS EVERY CHILD IS BORN FOR CAUSE WHEN AFTER FEW YEARS HE BECOMES A DOCTOR, AN ENGINEER ETC THAT IS ITS’ EFFECT', FROM WHICH YOU A GET REASON OF HIS BIRTH IN A PARTICULAR FAMILY, IN PARTICULAR LINEAGE.
I MAMTA KULKARNI BORN IN INDIA TO A HINDU BRAHMIN FAMILY, STUDIED AT ST’JOSEPH CONVENT IN JUHU MUMBAI-BOMBAY.
JUST AS WITH ME DUE TO MY MOTHERS’ OWN HALF UN-REALIZED DESIRE GOT ME TEMPORARLY TO BRUSH WITH A PROFESSION IN BOLLYWOOD INDUSTRY, WHICH NO DOUBT GAVE ME NAME, MONEY, POWER BUT GOT ME LATER TO THE ACTUAL CAUSE OF MY BIRTH WHICH WAS REALIZED TO ME BY MY MASTER AND THEREAFTER AFTER MANY OCCULT EXPERIENCES WITH GOD AND HIS WORLD HAD ME INTO A SPIRITUAL BATH FOR 12 YEARS.
LIKE I WAS SHOOTING FOR ONE OF MY SHOOT IN MAURITIUS IT WAS SUNSET TIMES I WAS GAZING SUN FOR SEVERAL MINUTES AND I WAS INTERNALLY SAYING “ ‘’OM NAMO BHAGVATE VASUDEVAI NAMA’’, I REPEATED THIS PRAY, MANTRA SEVERAL TIMES AND SUDDENLY THE WHOLE SUN ROTATED IN SPIRAL 360 DEGREES WAY CHARGING TOWARDS ME, I WAS SHOCKED AND RUBBED MY EYES THINKING IT TO BE SOME TYPE OF HALLUCINATION BUT NO IT WAS NOT, CHARGING TOWARDS ME MY HEART BEAT WENT DOUBLE SPEED, AS IT ALMOST CAME CLOSER I WENT INSIDE AND SHOUTED AT MY SISTER TO COME OUT AND WATCH WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND AS WE CAME OUT THE SUN WENT BACK STOOD BACK TO THE SAME POSITION FROM WHERE IT BEGAN AND CALMED AS IF NOTHING HAD HAPPENED.
AFTER THIS INCIDENT I WENT TO SAN-FRANCISCO TO PERFORM CONCERT SO I WENT TO LORD VISHNUS’ TEMPLE OVER THERE AND THE MAIN PANDIT, PRIEST, SPIRITUAL PRIEST OF THE TEMPLE CAME TO ME AND SAID YOU HAVE SEEN AURA OF GOD I TOLD HIM NO AND ASKED HOW HE KNEW HE TOLD ME OF SOME SIGNS ON MY FACE, AROUND MY EYES, THEN WHEN IN ROOM I RECOLLECTED OF THE MAURITIUS STUFF. STILL SINCE NOTHING WAS ASSURED 100% SO I BRUSHED IT.
THOUGH AFTER SOME YEARS I READ ABOUT ONE AMRITA NANAD MAIS’, [FROM KARNATAKA] AUTOBIOGRAPHY WHERE SHE ENCOUNTERED SIMILAR INCIDENT BUT SHE DIDN’T RUN AND DIVINE MOTHER REVEALED HERSELF TO HER, THOUGH SOONER AFTER THIS INCIDENT AFTER WHICH DIVINE MOTHER REVEALED TO ME IN HER MOST BEAUTIFUL POTRAYL IN FORM, SOUND AND BEHAVIOUR.
AFTER SEEING DIVINE MOTHER IN HER MANIFISTED FORM MADE ME SAY ONE THING TO MYSELF NO ONE FEMALE DESERVES TO BE ADDRESSED AS MOST BEAUTIFUL ONLY DIVINE MOTHER AND IF ONE CALLS HERSELF OR THINKS HERSELF TO BE BEAUTIFUL THAN SHOULD THINK TWICE. NOW I WILL TAKE MY READERS ON MY BIRTH TIME.
THIS WAS LATER ON WAS TOLD TO ME BY MY BOTH GRAND- MOTHERS AND MY MOTHER.
ONCE WHEN I WAS 6-7 YEARS OLD I WAS PLAYING WITH SOME GIRLS IN OUR HOMEKITCHEN AND AS WE WERE PLAYING WITH WATER, WATER WENT FROM THE TAP SO EACH ONE WENT AND TRIED THE TAP, WATER WAS GONE, SO ACCIDENTALLY I TOLD MY FRIENDS SEE NOW I WILL TOUCH THE TAP AND WATER WILL POUR, AS I WENT AND TOUCHED THE TAP WATER CAME POURING DOWN, MY MOTHERS’ FATHER THAT’S’ MY GRAND FATHER WHO WAS BACK SHOUTED AT ME AND MY MOTHER FOR SPOILING MY HEAD, SO MY MOTHER GAVE BACK TO HER FATHER AND HE LEFT OUR HOUSE, SO I IMMEDIATELY WENT TO MY MOTHER AND ASKED HER WHAT WAS IT AS TILL THEN I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT WHAT HAD TRANSPIRED ON MY BIRTH.
AND MY MOTHER TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS IN LABOUR ROOM, FATHERS’ MOTHER, THAT’S’ MY GREAT-GRANDMOTHER, WAS OUTSIDE WHO HAPPENED TO KNOCK OFF TO A SHORT NAP AT AROUND 4.30-5-00 IN MORNING AND DIVINE MOTHER PARAVATI CAME TO HER AND TOLD HER THAT SHE IS COMING IN FORM OF HER GRAND DAUGHTER AND TO GIVE THE GIRL TO BE BORN HER NAME AND MY NAME WAS KEPT AS ‘PADMAVATI’ IN EARS AT NAME CEREMONY. BUT ACTUALLY IT WAS TO BE NAME “YAMAII’ AS “PADMAVATI” IS A NAME OF GODDESS LAKSHMI AND IT WAS GODDESS PARAVATI IN FORM OF 'YAMAII' THAT CAME IN VISION OF MY GRAND-MOTHER 'PARAVATIS’ THIS MOTHERS’ TEMPLE IS IN KHOLAPUR MAHARASHTRA- INDIA ON A VERY HUGE MOUNTAIN,
THIS WAS THE PHOTO WAS GIVEN TO ME BY MY GREAT GRAND-MOTHER, AND BEST PART MY GRANDMOTHER MENTIONED TO ME NO ONE IN THE FAMILY COULD EVER MAKE A SUCCESSFUL VISIT TO THIS TEMPLE, MOST OF THEM CAME BACK AS EACH ONE HAD SOME UNCANNY EXPERIENCE TO REVEAL, IT WAS ONLY AFTER WARDS WITH THE GRACE OF THIS SPIRITUAL SAGE WITH HIS BLESSINGS I WITH MY HAIR DRESSER WE WENT FOR HER VISIT, BEST PART IN MIDDLE OF THE JOURNEY I REALIZED I DIDN’T CARRY HER PHOTOGRAPH AND THE JOURNEY WAS REALLY LONG AND STEEP, IT WAS 9-10 IN NIGHT AND STILL WE HAD MANY MILES TO MAKE TO THE TEMPLE, SO I TOLD MY HAIR-DRESSER LETS SLEEP AND LET US START ONLY IN MORNING SO WE SLEPT, BUT IN MORNING AS WE GOT UP, MY HAIR-DRESSER GOT UP SAYING ‘DIVINE MOTHER CAME TO HER IN A VISION AND TOLD HER WHAT WAS THE NEED TO COME ALL THE WAY TO SEE HER SO FAR AS SHE WAS WITH US ONLY,
THIS IS THE SAME FORM OF MOTHER PARAVATI WHO CAME TO LORD RAMA WHEN HE WAS SEARCHING SITA IN JUNGLES WHEN DEMON, ASURA, RAVAN HAD KIDNAPPED SITA. MOTHER PARAVATI TESTED RAMA 3 TIMES BY COMING IN FORM OF SITA AS MOTHER PARAVATI DIDN’T BELIEVE LORD SHIVA THAT THE PERSON WHO IS SEARCHING FOR HIS WIFE IN JUNGLE IS FORM OF GOD.AS JAGAT MATA PARAVATI QUESTIONED HER HUSBAND JAGAT PITAH [ FATHER] SHIVA THAT IF HE WAS ANY FORM OF GOD THAN HOW COME HE IS SEARCHING FOR HIS WIFE AND THAT, WHY IS HE CRYING OVER HIS WIFE LIKE ANY ORDINARY HUMAN-BEINGS DO? SO MOTHER PARAVATI TESTED RAMA 3 TIMES BY MAKING HER ENTIRE LOOK AS SITA TO SEE WHETHER LORD RAMA RECONIZES HER OR NOT, AND LORD RAMA ON SEEING MATA PARAVATI BENT DOWN ON MOTHER PARAVATIS’ FEET AND ADDRESSED HER AS “YAMAII” 'YAMA' MEANS 'LORD OF DEATH', AND 'MAI' MEANS MOTHER, THAT MEANS 'MOTHER OF DEATH, PARAVATIS’ ANOTHER NAME TOO IS “MAHA-KALI’ KALI MEANS =TIME /KAAL, MAHA MEANS = GREAT, MOTHER WHO IS CAUSE OF BIRTH, LIFE & DEATH.
THIS TEMPLE WAS BUILT ON MOTHERS’ OWN ARRIVAL AND WAS REVEALED TO HER DEVOTEES ON HER BEING THERE. PEOPLE IN THAT VILLAGE ALL HAVE SOME SPIRITUAL BRUSH, AN EXPERIENCE BEYOND ORDINARY HUMAN PERCEPTION.LOTS OF MI RACLES ABOUT HER AND THEY CALL THIS PLACE AS A JAGRAT/ AWAKENED PLACE/ A STAHAN, WITH LOTS OF OCCULT EXPERIENCES.
SECOND MY FATHER WHO WAS FAST ASLEEP IN HOUSE WHO ONLY WORSHIPPED VALANKINI MOTHER, MOTHER MARRY WITH INFANT JESUS WHOES CHURCH IS IN VAILANKANNI IN STATE OF TAMIL NADU GOT EARLY MORNING VISION FROM MOTHER MARRY THAT SHE IS COMING TILL THEN HE DIDN’T COME IN THE HOSPITAL TO SEE ME AND NEITHER FROM MY MOTHER’S SIDE FAMILY AS I WAS THE 3RD DAUGHTER BORN.
INFACT EVEN THE DIVINITY WAS UPSET WITH MY MOTHER FOR PUTTING ME INTO BOLLYWOOD INDUSTRY AS I CLEARLY REMEMBER MY FIRST DAY OF MY SHOOTING AND ME TELLING MY SPOT BOY PLEASE TAKE MY CHAIR FAR AND ME LOOKING SKY UPWARDS WITH MY EYES CLOSED I ASKED FOR MYSELF WHAT WAS I DOING HERE THIS IS NOT MY FIELD AND I COULD HEAR A VOICE CLEARLY SAYING ‘ CONTINUE FOR TIME BEING’
THEN I REMEMBER MY TRIP TO KATHMANDU PASHUPATINATH MANDIR I WAS WITH SOME GUESTS TOO, WE ALL WERE PARTICIPATING IN BHASMA AARTI AND ABISHEKH AND I CLOSED MY EYES AND PRAYED WITH HANDS SPREAD WIDE OPEN AND I TOOK A SANKALP SAYING’’ TODAY ONWARDS I WILL BE VEGETARIAN’ AND I GOT MY 2 PALMS TOGETHER TO OFFER FOR DIETY TO GIVE ME BLESSINGS AND THERE FROM TOP FROM NO WHERE A BELPATRA FELL INTO MY PALMS THE PANDIT WAS SHOCKED AND SO MY FRIENDS AND PANDIT SAID ‘MAHADEVJI HIMSELF HAVE GIVEN YOU BLESSINGS.
HERE WHAT YOU DO TEMPORARY DOESN’T MATTER WHAT ARE YOU BASICALLY IN REAL IT SHOWS IN EVEN WHILE IN TRANSIT STATION
AS WHILE IN BOLLYWOOD I ALWAYS USED TO CARRRY 3 BAGS WITH ME ONE FOR MY CLOTHES, ONE FOR MY MAKE-UP AND 3RD MY POOJA STUFF
INFACT WITHOUT HAVING TO SAY THE ENTIRE SANSKRIT DOMINATED ENTIRE BOOK.OR POTHI I WOULD NOT EVEN TAKE A DROP OF WATER I WOULD CLOSE MY EYES AND MY MAKE-UP GUY WOULD DO HIS WORK AND ME WITHIN WITHOUT SURAKSHA KAVACH I WOULD NOT BEGIN MY SHOOTINGS EVER.
AFTER MANY SUCH MORE OCCULT EXPERIENCES CONFIRMED ME THAT MY BIRTH WAS FOR SOME OTHER SPIRITUAL PURPOSE ALL TOGETHER
THROUGH WHICH IT ESTABLISHED ME INTO 12 YEARS OF SPIRITUAL BATH WHICH THIS CHRIST LIKE SAGE MADE ME REALIZED IN HIS FORMLESS ASPECT.
IN FORMLESS ASPECT MEANS, THIS IS THIS SAGES’ POWER TO MAKE HIS DISCIPLE TO GO AND SIT IN A CAVE, IN JUNGLE, OR IN A COUNTRY MILES AWAY FROM HIM AND MERELY WITH DIVINE VISIONS AND PLAY MAKE YOU REALIZE YOUR SELF,
THOUGH WITH VIGOROUS AUSTERETIES PENANCE & DISCIPLINE IN YOGA, THE REAL MEANING OF ‘YOGA’ ACTUAL IS [ UNION OF BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT] BUT WITHOUT HIM IN ACTUAL FORM,
THIS IS MY TAPAS – PENANCE PLACE MY TEMPLE WHERE I PERFORMED 12 YEARS OF AUSTERITIES
THIS MAKES A REAL SAGE, GURU AN ENLIGHTENED SEER
PLEASE DON’T MAKE A MISTAKE BETWEEN THESE SAGES AND YOUR RASI-WALA BABAS, WHO WILL TIE SEVERAL THREADS OR THE ONES WHO YOU SEE GIVING PRAVACHANS ON SCRIPTS LIKE 'GITA', 'VEDAS', 'PURANS', ETC, IT IS LIKE SEEING HUMAN BODY FROM OUTSIDE AND TELLNG NAMES OF ORGANS FROM OUTSIDE TO A SURGEON WHO LITERALY OPERATES WITH HIS OWN HANDS AND HAVE SEEN AND OPERATED ON EACH BODY ORGANS OF HUMAN IS THAT BIG DFFERENCE BETWEEN BOTH. AND NOT EVEN THOSE THAT WHO MAKE YOU REMOVE 10 RINGS FROM YOUR FINGERS AND MAKE YOUWEAR ANOTHER 10 OR MAKE YOU SIT IN VARIOUS DIRECTIONS.
OR
NOT EVEN THOSE WHO MAKE GOD SIT IN ONE AND MAKE YOU SIT IN ANOTHER DIRECTION OR MAKE YOU DEMOLISH OR CHANGE 10 HOMES AS THERE IS SOME VASTU DOSH [ bad vibrated house] OR WORST MAKE YOU FEEL AS THOUGH YOU ARE BORN WITH WORST PLANET POSITION ON THIS EARTH IN YOUR 'HOROSCOPE'.
OR
AS IF THERE COULD NOT BE WORST SINNER THAN YOU ON THIS ENTIRE EARTH.
PROBABLY YOU ARE FACING THE WORST PHASE IN YOUR LIVES IN TERMS WITH MONEY, FAMILY, CAREER, LOVE ETC.
BUT IT HAS DIFFERENT CAUSE AND OBIVIOUS SOLUTIONS TO THEM THAN LESSER CAUSES AS YOUR HOUSES, RINGS ON FINGERS ETC, ETC,
THIS SAGE DID PENANCE FOR YEARS IN FOREST NAME 'KITA' IN INDIA WHERE NO MAN HAD STEPPED BEFORE
AS FAR AS MEMORISING ENTIRE GITA IS CONCERNED, WELL THERE ARE MANY WHO WILL PARROT TO YOU ENTIRE GITA, BIBLE, RAMAYAN, FOR THEM I WILL NARRATE YOU ONE SMALL INCIDENT.
‘ON AN DESERTED, LONELY ISLAND THERE WERE 3 CHRISTIANS.
THEY WERE THERE FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND WERE REPEATING ONLY 3 WORDS AS THEIR PRAYERS, WHICH WAS
“WE ARE 3 AND YOU ARE 3’ PLEASE HAVE MERCY ON US’, THIS WAS THEIR ONLY PRAYER FOR SO MANY YEARS. AND STORIES OF THEIR MIRACLES’ WERE SPREADING FAR AND NEAR,
ONCE SPRITUAL HEADS, THE PRIESTS' OF THE CHURCHES ON HEARING THESE STORIES PLANNED TO VISIT THEM, ON VISITING THEM THEY ASKED THEM THEIR PRAYERS WHICH THEY ADDRESSED TO 'GOD' SO THEY REPEATED “WE ARE 3 AND YOU ARE 3' PLEASE HAVE MERCY ON US’
THE LEARNED CHURCHS’ HEADS / 'PRIEST' STARTED LAUGING AND MAKING FUN OF THEM AND SAID YOU IDIOTS THIS IS NOT PRAY, HEARING THIS THE 3 GUYS FELL AT THE PRIESTS’ FEET AND BEGGED THEM TO TEACH THEM SOME PRAYERS.
FEELIING PITY THEY TAUGHT THEM A HUGE 10-20 LINES PRAYS. THEY STAYED THERE FOR 15 DAYS,EVERY DAY THE 3 GUYS WOULD FALL 2-3 TIMES AT THE PRIESTS’ FEET TO REPEAT THE SAME PRAYERS,AFTER STAYING FOR 15 DAYS THEY PLANNED TO LEAVE, THEY WISHED THEM AND PARTED FROM THE DESRTED ISLAND WITH BOAT, IT WAS NIGHT TIME, AS THESE PRIEST HEADS WERE IN MIDDLE OF THE SEA THEY TURNED BACK TO SEE THOSE 3 SO CALLED IDIOTS WALKING ON WATER AND RUNNING TOWARDS THEM AND AS THEY CAME NEAR THEY AGAIN FELL AT THE PRIESTS’ FEET AND SAID ‘PLEASE,PLEASE WE AGAIN FORGOT KINDLY CAN YOU REPEAT THAT PRAYER AGAIN, NOW IT WAS TURN OF THOSE PRIESTS’, HEADS OF CHURCH TO FALL AT THOSE SO CALLED 3 IDIOTS’ FEET AND THEY SAID HOW SORRY THEY WERE OF UNDERESTIMATING THEM AND THOUGHT THAT ONLY THOSE 100 LINES THE ONLY WAY TO REACH GOD AND TOLD THEM TO CONTINUE WITH THEIR 3 WORD PRAYERS ONLY.
THIS SUMS HOW GOD ARE TIRED WITH THOSE SAME LINES. SO SPEAK FROM YOUR HEARTS AND THAT’S’ YOUR PRAYERS. ITS’ LIKE SINGING EVERYDAY SAME SONG, ONE DAY YOU WILL SAY PLEASE CAN YOU SING SOMETHING ELSE.
AS I AM MERE THIS SAGES’ DEVOTEE HIS TEACHINGS’ MADE ME IMPROVE MY LIFE, MY HABITS [ WHICH I HAD MANY BEFORE MY SPIRITUAL ENDEAVOUR
TODAY I SEE ENTIRE SAMAJ / SOCIETY, WHOLE WORLD DESTROYED BY THESE OR WORST HABITS AND IF THIS IS THE CONDITION TODAY THEN WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE GENERATION WHO WILL BE BORN FROM THESE HABITUATED PARENTS AND WHAT TYPE OF DETIORATED FUTURE ARE WE GOING TO OFFER THE FUTURE TO COME, THIS MADE ME TO HAVE PEN TO BOOK AS MANY LIVES ARE ALREADY DESTROYED,TO STOP FUTURE GENERATION NOT TO BE SWEEPED IN EXTREME DIRECTIONS & BEHAVIOURS WHICH THEY HAVE ALREADY TO SOME LARGE EXTENT, IS THIS EFFORT FROM ME, AS WITHIN ME I THOUGHT HAD I TO WAIT TO WRITE WHEN I BECAME OLD, AS LIFE AND DIVINITY WOULD HAVE SOME MORE GEMS TO OFFER ME WHAT WOULD BE THE FACE OF HUMANITY BY THE TIME I WROTE THE BOOK I HOPE I WOULD NOT BE TOO LATE IS AN EFFORT FROM ME.
EVEN I ENCOUNTERED MANY BABAS BEFORE MEETING THIS SAGE AND AS THERE IS A SAYING ONCE YOU HAVE 24 CARAT GOLD WITH YOU, THEN YOU DON’T GO AFTER 18/CARAT AND LEAST WITH ONLY GOLD PLATED ONES.
THE POINT FOR ME TO GET PEN TO BOOK IS THAT IS THIS SAGE HAS MANAGED TO CHANGE MY LIFE FROM FAR SO SHOULD NOT ONLY ME MANY SHOULD BENEFIT AS TODAY WE ARE IN DARK AGE EVEN IF YOU ARE STRAIGHT YOU MAY COME IN CONTACT WITH WRONG FRIENDS, WRONG HABITS, WHICH MAY NOT ONLY DESTROY YOUR LIFE. YOUR CAREER BUT ALSO YOUR FAMILIES.
A SELFISH PERSON ON FINDING A POT OF GOLD WANT TO KEEP EVERYTHING FOR HIM, BUT A SELFLESS PERSON WANTS’ EVERYONE TO TASTE THE HONEY.
PLEASE READ THIS BOOK APPLY CHANGES TO YOURSELF SEE YOUR LIFE YOUR RELATIONSHIPS CHANGE AND THEN IF YOU FEEL TO KNOW THE SAGE YOU MAY VISIT HIS ASHRAMS
WHICH ARE SPREAD ALL OVER INDIA.
BUT ON SECOND THOUGHT IF YOU APPLY HIS TEACHINGS TO YOUR DAY TO DAY LIFE THEN IT IS AS GOOD AS VISITING HIM AS WHENEVER YOU THINK OF HIM YOUR THOUGHT WILL HAVE REACHED HIM.AS THESE ARE IMMORTAL BEINGS [WHO DON’T NEED ACTUAL BODY FOR TRAVELLING OR REACHING A PLACE]
ONLY FOR MANAV KALYAN [ HUMAN EVOLUTION] HE CAME DOWN TO DWELL AMONGST EVERDAY, ORDINARY, LABOURS, FARMERS, & FAMIL ENGROSSED PEOPLE
HIS SPIRITUAL PENANCE WAS SUCH HE COULD EVEN RAISE DEAD AND MERE WITH HIS LOCKS OF HAIR COULD MAKE A ROCK WHICH COVERED A CAVE WOULD JUST ROLL ASIDE WHICH COULD IN ORDINARY WAYS WOULD REQUIRE 10-20 HANDS TO ROLL IT ASIDE. WITH HIS MERE ASH [ a form of powder] WORST OF DISEASES WHICH OTHERWISE DECLARED NON-CURABLE CURED AND PATIENTS FROM I.C.C.U [ intensive care units] WOULD BE TOLD TO GO HOME IN FEW DAYS TIME. WHICH OTHERWISE DOCTORS HAD DECLARED A HOPELESS CASE.
MAY I NARRATE YOU ONE SUCH INCIDENCE WHICH TOOK PLACE WITH MY MOTHER WHO WAS IN HOSPITAL IN I.C.C.U FOR 1 MONTH,
DOCTORS GAVE UP ON HER COMPLETELY.DURING THE ENTIRE MONTH THERE WERE ALL TYPES OF SO CALLED GOLD PLATTED, 18 CARAT BABAS MAKING ROUNDS AND EACH ONE CLAIMING HER OUT TODAY, SOME AFTER 2 DAYS ON 5 DAYS ETC. IT WAS ON 25TH DAY AND DOCTORS HAD TOTALLY GIVEN UP ON MY MOTHER, I HAPPENED TO FALL A SLEEP OUTSIDE THE WARD AND IN MY HALF SLEEP I SAW THIS SAGES’ FACE AND IMMEDIATELY I WOKE UP AND TOLD MYSELF HOW IN THE WORLD I N THESE 2 MONTHS I FORGOT HIM? THOUGH LATER ON I REALIZED THESE REAL SAGES MAKE YOU TRY EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE FIRST, AS ORIGNAL IS NEVER IN HASTE TO DISCLOSE ITSELF, JUST LIKE IN SEARCH OF TRUE 'D' GRADE FLAWLESS DIAMOND, INITALLY YOU LAND UP HOLDING EVEN ZIRCON, 'S1','S2' OR 'VS1','VS2' THEN 'VVS2' CLASS, THEN 'VVS1' AND ULTIMATELY A FLAWLESS D, WHEN EVERYTHING FAILS THAT’S’ WHEN THEY SHOW THEIR ACTUAL POWER.
IT WAS EIGHT IN THE EVENING, THIS SAGES’ ASHRAM COMES 2-3 HOURS FROM WHERE I WAS, I IMMEDIATELY TOOK MY DRIVER AND DROVE TO HIS ASHRAM, AS I REACHED THERE THIS CHRIST LIKE SAGE WAS AWAKE SITTING ALONE AS KNOWING I WOULD BE THERE I WENT UP TO HIM DIDN’T SAY ANYTHING HE LOOKED UP TOLD ME TO TAKE TULSHI LEAVES AND PUT HIS ASH ON IT AND FEED MY MOTHER.
I TOOK HIS VABHUTI [ energized} powder of his penance] RUSHED TO THE HOSPITAL WHICH I REACHED ALMOST 12 O’CLOCK AT MIDNIGHT I WAS TOLD NOT TO GO THIS TIME AS PATIENT NEEDS REST. I STILL REFUSED AND INSISTED ONLY 5 MINUTES WHICH THEY ALLOWED ME, I RUSHED TO HER SIDE SHE HAD SEVERAL TUBES ON HER BUT SOME HOW I STILL MANAGED TO FEED THE SAGES’ VABHUTI [ ASH] IN HER MOUTH.
AND I CAME OUT AND WENT TO SLEEP, IN MORNING WHEN I VISITED MY MOTHER SHE OPENED HER EYES BRIGHT FOR FIRST TIME IN SO MANY DAYS, SECOND SHE SAID THAT SAGE CAME TO HER IN HER DREAM AND TOLD THAT YOU HAD SLEPT TOO MUCH NOW WAKE UP, THIS WAS FIRST TIME MY MOTHER SPOKE TO ME IN 30 DAYS,
NEXT HER ACTUAL DOCTOR WHO WAS ABSENT FOR ENTIRE 1 MONTH CAME AND WITHIN 2-3 DAYS SHE WAS SHIFTED FROM I.C.C.U. AND NEXT 3-4 DAYS SHE WAS TAKEN HOME.
THIS IS WHAT I MEANT THIS SAGES’ FORMLESS MECHANISM HERE STILL I VISITED HIM, BUT MY SPIRITUAL PENANCE TAPAS, HE WAS COMPLETELY ABSENT IN FORM. AFTER THIS MIRACLE, THERE WERE MANY. MY FATHER WHO IS THE MOST PRACTICAL PERSON ON THIS EARTH WHO WOULD NOT BLINDLY BELIEVE ANYONE UNLESS TESTED 100% BECAME A REGULAR VISITER TO THE ASHRAM HE INSISTED ME TO VISIT HIM BUT AS THERS’S A SAYING BEFORE TIME AND MORE THEN YOUR DESTINY NO ONE HAS HAVE GOT BEFORE.
PUT YOUR FEET IN WATER FOR I HOUR AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOUR SKIN SO IMAGINE THIS SAGE DID PENANCE IN WATER FOR MANY MILIION YEARS SO OBIVISOULY HIS LEGS WERE IN DELICATE CONDITION AND FLESH OF LEGS EATEN BY FISH.
SO SOME GROUP OF SURGEONS WHO WERE DEVOTTEES OF THE SAGE INSISTED ON TAKING HIM TO HOSPITAL, BUT SAGE PUT THEM OFF SAYING THEY WILL BE OKAY IN COMING TIME, BUT STILL THEY REFUSED TO LISTEN TO, THE SAGE. ULTIMATELY AFTER SEVERAL INSISTANCE THE SAGE PULLED HIS HALF LEG OF ONE FEET AND TOLD THOSE SURGEONS TO TAKE WITH THEM AND HAVE IT OPPERATED AND SEEING THEM TOTALLY SHOCKED AND ALMOST ON COLLAPSED STATE HE PUT HIS LEG BACK TO THE SAME FFET AND HAD IT ATTACHED BACK AS IF NOTHING HAD TRANSPIRED IN THE FIRST PLACE.
BEING A HATH YOGI THE SAGE HAS MASTERED THE ART OF KAYAKALPA [ TO RENEW, REGENEWATE] THE ABILITY TO RENEW HIS BODILY ORGANS, WHICH IS APPARENTLY THE KEY TO IMMORTALITY.THIS SAGE IS KNOWN TO REMOVE HIS INTESTINES, GIVE THEM GOOD WASH, DRY THEM AND PUT THEM BACK WHICH IS MASTERY OF HATH KRIYA YOGA THESE HATH YOGIS ARE ALSO CALLED AS AGHORAS WHOSE FIRST ‘GURU’ IS LORD ‘DATTATREYA’.AND WHOSE IDOL IS LORD ‘SHIVA’ WHO IS FORMED ATTRIBUTE OF FORMLESS ‘SADHASHIVA’. THESE AGORIS HAVE KNOWN TO HAVE INTERACTED WITH THE SPIRITS.
INFACT MY VERY FIRST VISIT TO HIS ASHRAM WAS LIKE TESTING HIM, AS I WAS TOLD BY MY FATHER AND VARIOUS PEOPLE THAT HE IS TRIKAAL DARSHAYA SAGE [ THE ONE WHO CAN SEE YOUR PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE]
SO WHEN I VISITED HIM THERE WERE AS USUAL THOUSANDS QUEUED FOR HIS DARSHAN SO I SAT IN A SMALL OFFICE AND WAITED TILL CROWD WOULD DISPERSE, AS I LATER WENT NEAR HIM HE WAS ALONE RESTING ON SWING WITH BED, AS THIS WAS FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I WAS SEEING A SAGE, A MASTER BEFORE WHICH I SAW ONLY ON TELEVISION IN RAMAYANA SERIAL OR READ IN BHAGVADGITA WHERE SHREE 'RAM' / LAXHMAN IN FOREST VISIT SEVERAL SEERS, RISHIS,
I STOOD BEHIND HIM AND HIM SITTING FACING OPEN SPACE, TREES, I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT IMMEDIATELY I RECOLLECTED MY FATHERS’ TRIKAAL THING AND I TAUGHT IF HES’ IN REAL SENSE A TRIKAAL DARSHIYA HE SHOULD KNOW WHATS’ GOING ON IN MY MIND WITHOUT ME HAVING TO SAY ANYTHING FROM LIPS , SO I PUT MY QUESTION TO HIM FROM INSIDE AND IMMEDIATELY HE LOOKED UP AND ANSWERED ME, I WAS TAKEN A BACK, THEN I ASKED HIM 2ND QUESTION HE STILL LOOKED UP AND ANSWERED BY THE TIME I COULD ASK 3RD HIS SEVAK CAME AND TOOK THE SAGE INSIDE HIS TAPA KUTTI [ HUT] IT WAS AS IF HE WAS SAYING ENOUGH AS A KID I ANSWERED YOU, NOW GO.
THOUGH I THOUGHT OF NOT MENTIONING, BUT MY THIRD QUESTION TO HIM WAS ABOUT MY MARRIAGE BECAUSE GIRLS DON’T HAVE ANY SPECIAL QUESTIONS BUT FEW SELECTED ONES AND THIRD QUESTION WAS BUT THAT AND THE FACT THAT HE JUST WENT INSIDE WITHOUT ANSWERING ME WAS BUT OBIVIOUS AS I WAS ABOUT TO HAVE MY 12 YEARS OF SPIRITUAL SYMPHONY UNDER HIM WHICH I UNDERSTOOD IN 12 YEARS OF MY PENANCE LATER ON.
AND IF YOU GUYS REALIZE WHAT MADE ME TO ASK HIM FROM INSIDE WHO TOLD ME TO TEST HIM AS THIS NEEDS SOME DIVINE AWARENESS TO DO IN FIRST PLACE. AND EVEN MY GURU WOULD SAY JUST AS GURU TEST HIS DISCIPLES MILLION TIMES IN REGARDS WITH PATIENCE, DEDICATION AND PERSEVERANCE TO PART WITH THE TRUTH TO RIGHT CANDIDATE AS WIYHOUT WHICH HE WILL NEVER PART YOU WITH THE HIGHEST TRUTH/PATH TO SALVATION JUST AS THAT EVEN A STUDENT,A SHISHYA HAS EQUAL RIGHT TO SEE WHETHER THIS GURU REALLY HAS THAT KNOWLEDGE OF THE HIGHEST AS YOU COULD LAND IN HELL SOMEWHERE ELSE THAN GETTING AT THAT ACTUAL TRUTH THAT WILL GIVE YOU SALVATION. BEFORE HIM I USED TO ASK FROM EVERY TOM DICK HARRY CAN YOU PART ME WITH KUNDALINI YOGA AS THEY WOULD TALK ABOUT PLANETS, MARRIAGE, NO1. SPOT IN BOLLYWOOD BUT NOT ONE FOR MOKSHA, SALVATION.
AFTER WHICH I VISITED HIS ASHRAM MANY TIMES AND WHEN I FOUND MOST OF THE TIMES HE HARDLY SPOKE TO ANY ONE AND OUT OF 10 VISITS 9 VISITS HE WOULD COMPLETELY HAVE EYES CLOSED LYING ON THE JOOLA [ SWING]. YET THERE WERE THOUSAND PEOPLE QUEUING HIS PLACE AND EACH ONE HAD SOME MIRACLE STORY TO REVEAL ABOUT THIS SAGE INFACT SOME WERE EVEN SURPRISED TO SEE ME CONVERSE WITH HIM AS HE RARELY TALKS TO ANYONE YET HIS SILENCE WAS POURING SUCH MIRACLES. EVERYDAY THERE WERE MILLIONS FLOCKING THIS SAGES’ ASHRAM IN KHOPOLI, NAVIMUMBAI, AFTER WHICH I WAS DRAWN TO MEDITATION AND PENANCE THIS WAS A MOST SENSITIVE PERIOD OF MY LIFE AS THERE’S A SAYING SOMEONE SHOULD BE THAT CAUSE FOR ME TO ACCEPT THAT SECLUSION OF 16 YEARS AND NATURE TO UN-FOLD HER GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND, ONE OF THE PRODUCER OF MY FILM GAVE A GLOSSY COMMENT ON ME IN A THEN TABLOID I CALLED HIM WHY DID HE DO THAT AS BEFORE WHATEVER I SPOKE TO HIM BECAME TRUTH.THEN ONE MORE MISTAKE HAPPENED FROM HIM MY MOTHER WAS AILING IN AN HOSPITAL AND HE WENT TO HER AND TOLD HER WHAT IF YOUR DAUGHTER WOULD HAVE BEEN LITTLE NICE TO HER DIRECTOR AND THATS IT, I WENT FOR VIGOROUS PENANCE FOR 9 DAYS/NIGHTS OF NAVRATRI I FASTED ONLY ON WATER WITH 3 HAVANS IN DAYS PLUS DEEP MEDITATION.ON 9TH AS I DID UDHYAPAN COMPLETION I ASKED DIVINE MOTHER YOU NEED TO SHOW ME YOUR STRENGTH AND THERE AS I FINISH MY TAPAS AND HERE THIS PRODUCER IS JAILED FOR 1YEAR 9 MONTHS FOR THE SAME CAUSE OF WHICH HE WAS BAD MOUTHING ME HAVING CONNECTIONS WITH UNDERWORLD AND THAT TOO ALL HIS CONVERSATIONS WIDE EXPOSED TO THE WORLD..AND BEFORE THIS HE WOULD TELL ME KEEP AWAY FROM THIS PERSON, THAT PERSON AS THEY ARE CONNECTED WITH UNDERWORLD. WHILE I TOLD TO MYSELF DIVINE MOTHER KNOWS WHAT ARE PEOPLE REAL INSIDE TO WHAT THEY CLAIM OUTSIDE. IT SHOCKED HIM AND MORE DRAWN TO THAT POWER.
AFTER MY THIS TAPAS I HAD MY DESIGNER WHO WAS STAYING IN THE SAME BUILDING WHERE I WAS STAYING COMES DOWN AND SAYS COME ON MUMS YU NEED BREAK YOU DID ENOUGH COME LETS GO OUT AND HAVE CHANGE, AND WE GO TO A PRESIDENT HOTEL TOWN, WE ENTER A CLUB AND HE STARTS TO DRINK AND AFTER SEVERAL RELUCTANCE I TAKE ONE AND STRAIGHT AFTER TAKING FEELING NOT RIGHT ASK TO BE EXCUSED GO TO THE WASHROOM AS I SIT ON THE TOILET SEAT THERE WAS A SPLENDID SOUND FROM MY SPINAL COLUMN SPINNING UPWARDS AND LITREALLY AS IF SOMETHING IS COMING OUT OF MY BODY I DON’T WHAT HAPPENED BUT IT TOOK 20 MINS AND WAS AWAKENED BY A LOUD BANG ON THE DOOR FROM DRESS DESIGNER AS TO WHAT HAPPENED BUT SINCE I DIDN’T KNOW JUST SHRUGGED MY HEAD AND NEXT DAY TOOK MY TRIP TO MY GURU’S ASHRAM AND HE ALONE ON THE SWING AND ME LITREALLY STARRING AT HIM AND ASKING FROM INSIDE, WHY WHEN I KNOW THIS IS WRONG I LAND DOING IT, WHY WHEN I DON’T WANT TO DO I DO WHY I CAN’T CONQUER MY WEAKNESS WHY? HIS SEVAK CAME AND TOOK HIM FROM THERE.JUST AFTER WHICH IN FEW DAYS MY MOTHER PASSED.AND HERE I WAS EXPORTED TO A MUSLIM COUNTRY’ DUBAI WHERE EVERYBODY ARROUND ME EATING NON-VEG AND ME NOT EVEN BOTHERED.AND NEVER LIFE CREATED A REASON TO PUT MYSELF IN A SITUTATION TO BE TEMPTED FOR DRINKING.AND PEACEFULLY DOING SEVERE PENANCE MADE THE DIVINITY OPEN ALL THOSE SPIRITUAL CHAKARAS THROUGH LENGHTY HOURS, DAYS OF MEDITATION WITHOUT FOOD FOR MONTHS AND NOT A SINGLE DISTRACTION OF MATERIAL WORLD WHICH PUSHED ME INTO 12 YEARS OF SPIRITUAL BATH AND STRENGHT THAT CROWNED ME WITH ENLIGHTMENT AND STRENGHT TO CONQUER ALL MY WEAKNESS
I WOULD LOVE TO WRITE ABOUT MY EACH DAY AND SEVERAL DIVINE EXPERIENCES BUT NOT IN BLACK AND WHITE AS DIVINIE BEINGS DON’T WANT THEIR TREASURES TO BE GIVEN OUT SO EASILY IMAGINE WHAT I ACHIIEVED THROUGH STARVATION AND BURNING MY KARMAS WITH EK NISHTA ASAN FOR STRENOUS HOURS AT TIMES EVEN THREATENING THE DIVINITY WITH ENDING MY LIFE TILL I AM NOT SHOWN THAT’S HOW I WAS BLESSED.
PEOPLE WHO ARE IN MEDITATION FOR THEM IT CAN ALSO BE A BREAK THROUGH THERE ARE IN ACTUAL 7 CHAKRAS BUT FOR REAL THEY ARE 10 FIRST BEING MULDARA CHAKRA, THIS IS WHERE DIVINE MOTHER IS COILED 3 ½ HALF TIMES RESIDES IN YOUR KUNDA [ SPINAL CORD] WITH YOUR GURU’S BLESSINGS AND A DIETY THAT IS THE ADHI-PATI OR LORD OF THIS CHAKRA HAVE TO PLEASED WITH YOU FOR IT TO BE OPENED AND IF IT OPENS YOU HAVE CROSSED ALL THE ANIMALISTIC BEHAVIOUR AND DESIRES AND SOME OF YOUR STRONG EVIL DEEDS OF PREVIOUS BIRTHS ARE WASHED ON IT AWAKENING. I SAT IN SEVERE MEDITATION AT TIMES SEVERAL HOURS WITHOUT MOVING. ONE DAY AS I WAS IN SAME STATE SUDDENLY MY HOUSE DOOR BELL RANG AND ME WITHOUT REALISING I JUST STOOD UP AND FORGOT THAT I HAD SAT FOR SEVERAL HOURS SUDDENLY GOT UP TO OPEN THE DOOR AND HUGE SOUND IN MY SPINE ERUPTED RUSHING UP WITH SPIRAL FEELING ALMOST SOMETHING IS GOING UP IN HIGH SPEED AND WAS GOING TO EXPLODE FROM MY SCALPH WITH FRIGHT I PRAYED TO MY GURU AND SAT DOWN WITH EYES CLOSED, SOME HAND CAME AND PLACED ON MY SCALPH.AFTER WHICH FOR SEVERAL MONTHS I EXPERIENCED TREMENDOUS HEAT AS IF VOLCANO OF WHITE LIGHT WAS POURING WITH HEAT OF 100 BLUBS IN MY SPINE, I BLASTED AC WITH FULL POWER CALLED TECHNICIAN TO OPEN THE DUCT AS IT WAS NOT ENOUGH COLD I FOUND TECHNICIAN STARING AT ME AND SAYING THAT HE IS TREMBING ALREADY ASKED ME ARE YU SURE? BUT FOR ME I WAS BURNING TO HE POINT I WOULD KEEP SMALL BAGS OF ICE UNDER MY HEAD AND REST. AFTER 2-3 MONTHS THAT SAME HEAT TRANSFORMED INTO COLD FOUNTAIN AS MORE I MEDITATED
EACH CHAKRA IS ASSIGNED TO ONE DIETY EACH ONE HAS TO BE PLEASED WITH YOUR SERVICES TOWARDS THEM FOR THEM TO LET ENERGY TO BE ALLOWED TO PASS FUTHER INFACT IF THEY ARE DISPLEASED WITH YOU THEN THE SAME DIETIES CREATE OBSTACLE IN A WAY YOU GET STUCK DOWN THERE IN THOSE LOWER CHAKRAS. EACH DIETY’S SHAKASHTKAR THEIR LITREALLY COMING AND BLESSING YOU IN YOUR DREAMS IS THE SIGN THAT YOU HAVE CROSSED THAT CHAKRA.
WHEN DIVINE MOTHER COMES AND RESIDES IN, YOUR AJNA THAT’S THE CHAKRA IN MIDDDLE OF YOUR EYEBROWS FROM THERE WHERE A REAL SPIRITUAL HARDWORK BEGINS, AS YOU COME TO THE 6TH CHAKARA YOU HAVE TO BE REALLY HOLDING LOT OF VIRTUES, AND SHOULD HAVE COLLECTED AMPLE OF POTS OF BLESSINGS AND SERVICES TO YOUR GURU. TILL YOU ENTER THE SIXTH CHAKARA WHICH IS ALSO CALLED AS GURU’S CHAKARAS YOU ARE IN SEEDED SAMADHI AS YOU PASS THESE IN CROWN YOU ENTER NIRVIKALPHSAMADHI THAT IS CALLED AS SEEDLESS SAMADHI WHICH IS ONLY POSSIBLE WITH GURU’S BLESSINGS
THIS IS WHAT GAUTAM BUDDHA IN HIS BOOK REVEALED FOR THAT SAME SAMADHI THAT HE DID SEVERE PENANCE-AUSTERITIES BUT STILL HE FAILED ONLY WHEN HIS GURU GRACED HIM OR WHEN HE TRUSTED HIS GURU AS SAKSHATH ‘PARA-BRAHMA’ OR ONE WHO COULD SHOW YOU THE REAL FATHERS’ ABODE COLUD HE ALSO ATTENDED THAT STATE WHICH BY GRACE OF MY GURU I ENTERED AND IN THAT STATE YOU GET CROWNED THAT’S CALLED AS ‘ENGLIGHTMENT’.