The reason I wrote this book was to help me to come to terms with my troubled childhood. It never really used to bother me as such, but felt I had a lot of anger for my mum. This happened mostly when I saw her, sometimes in the market, sometimes in the village. Growing up my parents always went to markets and used to visit the car boot sale quite regular. I used to go with my dad and over a period of time got to know various people of who knew my parents.
I don‟t really have thoughts of my mum but what angers me is the fact that I haven‟t seen her in a few years and realise that I don‟t have a mother, son relationship. She would tell as I have been told by various people on market stalls and in the area of Huyton that she sees me a lot, this is a not true.
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My mum believe it or not has quite a few friends she sees everyday, whilst out shopping.
I saw my mum one day in a local market and I just followed behind her, she was browsing at a few stalls, she would speak highly of her family to the people on the stalls, but what I couldn‟t believe was that she would speak about me doing the garden and making out I visited her 2
or 3 times a week. I have witnessed my mum doing this on many occasions and I feel very angry and upset at such blatant lies. She makes herself look like a loving, caring mother, which sadly she certainly is not. The people who run the stalls also knew me as I went to the same places she went because I was obviously from the same area. The people from different stalls would tell me the tale my mum had told, and sometimes I went along with it, but as time passed I decided to tell them that the stories she 12
tells were not true and that I hadn‟t seen her in years.
I feel so hurt that I know now deep down my mother does not feel or show any love to me whatsoever. I got put in care as you will read this true story of my childhood days.
The other reason, the main reason I wrote this book is for me to try and put the past behind me and move forward with life the best I can.
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