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INTRODUCTION

I made this decision to publish this

presentation because I wanted the fond and

golden memories of my beloved wife Saroj

Kumari Devi to be treasured somewhere safer

to be read and appreciated by my children,

grand children and other relatives and friends.

I wanted to express my deep love and

devotional dedication to My Saroj.

I do not know for sure if this will be read and

appreciated by my people with the same

interest and enthusiasm that I took to create

these but we all live in this world with hope.

That is what I am doing. I am hoping that all

the deeper feelings of love and emotions

contained in this publication will provide some

interest, lessons, information and knowledge

to the readers.

My Saroj, my Pretty Lotus, was not an

ordinary woman. She was a devoted wife, a

loving mother, a very pleasant grandmother, a

fine friend, a dutiful daughter, a super sister,

a brilliant student, a dedicated educator, a

candid community worker and above all she

had a very kind, calm and controlled

personality. She was a perfect persona that

was a rare gem.

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She was an angel of the Prasad Family and if I

did not create these memorable presentations

then I would not be rightfully celebrating all

the goodness, truth and beauty that this lovely

lady displayed, personified and represented in

her almost 73 years of useful existence.

I was extremely fortunate and proud to have

her company for fifty-five years. She tamed

me, she loved me, she looked after me and she

bestowed me with a family that celebrates all

of her glory and fame.

There are many strange twists and devious

turns as one hopped down the overgrown

bunny trail of life and I know that there are

always Jokers in the pack of cards when it

came to things of interest in the family life. I

say that life is full of surprises and ours was

no different. Let me be that Joker and reveal it

all.

Our love grew humdrum in the later years of

our marriage. We were together for so long

that we had become almost exquisitely

attuned to each other. For me she was the one

and for her I was the one. Our love could not

be turned off like an electric light because it

ran from our heart and our heart had its own

imperative.

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Our marriage was successful because we

looked at it as a balancing act and it also was

dependant on a high tolerance for any

irritation. When the clouds rolled in then we

also knew that sooner or later they will roll

out.

She will be in our hearts and minds forever

and we are certain that she has reached her

complete Nirvana, her mukti, her salvation

and her Atma is one with her Parmatama. Her

karma, her words, deeds, thoughts, character,

habits and dedication have made her attain

life in heaven and not reincarnate in this

sinful world.

As a result of all her accumulated karma, she

was an enlightened being lightening up the

darkness of our lives.

When she came to the end of her life’s journey,

I was with her and could see an exceptional

radiance around her that looked like a freshly

bloomed lotus and I felt that she had found

the way out of the cycle of rebirth and this was

the fruit of her good karma throughout her

life.

I could feel that she was letting go all

attachment and aversion and thus attaining

Nirvana, which was total libration from all her

suffering. Although she was experiencing

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unparallel joy that flowed from within her and

was able to achieve her internal serenity and

limitless happiness but in the eyes of sentient

beings like me I felt the greatest of sorrow and

could not accept the truth that she had

attained the ultimate happiness. I stilled

longed to be with her.

So the instant that my Pretty Lotus

extinguished the fires of delusion that was the

instant she experienced and attained Nirvana

but at that time in my loss and tragic

situation I could not understand that her

accumulation of karma and all the good,

truthful and beautiful merits were going to live

with me forever. I was blessed.

It seemed that she was saying, “Darling, I have

‘nothing’ to give you and I am going empty-

handed.” In asking her to pass on that

‘nothing’ to me I received ‘everything’ that she

had accumulated over the years, her

meritorious karma. So from her word ‘nothing’

the notion of ‘everything’ arose for me and I

am celebrating those fond golden and

treasured memories and would continue to do

so until I join her.

May she rest in peace and I look forward to

joining her to complete my life as a loyal

husband and a faithful friend. Each and every

poem and article that I have composed is an

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epitome of my deep love for this unique lady in

my life- a pretty lotus, a lamp, a light and a

bright star that will shine brightly throughout

the rest of my life.

I will not find another Pretty Lotus, My Saroj

in this world because she was the woman God

planned for me and she loved me to the

breadth and length of me. She always filled me

with joy and while my life was hers, her life

was mine. That was the reason for our

happiness and bliss.

However, the life that we had planned for

ourselves in our old age had completely

changed after her passing away. I never knew

the pain of the loss of such valuable treasure

before so I neither knew that the pain would

ever go away nor I could understand my grief

but I only wanted to outrun my sorrow and

loneliness. This has not happened.

Although my only objective now is to sleep

away the pain in my heart and body but so far

this has not been possible and I know that it

will never ever be achieved until I join her.

I love you Darling. You are my Angel, my

Pretty Lotus.

I salute you for all your instinctual devotion to

the Prasad Family of Bellbowrie.

Ram Lakhan Prasad.

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The Pretty Lotus

I have observed and admired the lotus flower

all my life because the flower always looked so

clean and pure in any pond that I visited.

However, the lotus that bloomed in our pond

came to be associated with purity, pious ness

and beauty of one unique and rare individual

of the Prasad Family whose name Saroj means

lotus.

Her parents gave her this beautiful and

spiritual name because they were told by the

astrologers that this pretty baby was destined

to become a great personality as she grew up

and matured. So she did, and when she

completed her education she was decorated

with

many

medals,

certificates

and

meritorious accolades. Saroj became a

brilliant teacher and served the community for

over half a century as a dedicated worker in

Fiji and Australia.

One of the most fortunate individuals was

Ram Lakhan Prasad, who fell in love with her

and married her and then they together

nurtured a wonderful family called the Prasad

Family of Bellbowrie.

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Saroj and Lakhan enjoyed their blissful

married life for almost fifty years and would

have

celebrated

their

golden

wedding

anniversary on 19th January 2014. However,

the Pretty Lotus left this world leaving the

family of four grown up married children and

ten grand children forever mourning her

unexpected departure. Such is life.

Throughout many cultures over time, the lotus

has been a powerful image and a spiritual

symbol and similarly our lotus, our Saroj,

became a sacred name for us. She turned out

to be our angel, who was an excellent

daughter, a sensible sister, a devoted wife, a

loving mother, a kind grandmother, a loyal

friend, a brilliant student, an effective teacher,

a professional teacher trainer and above all a

very fine human being.

The spirit of Saroj has been spotless, like the

pretty, pure and divine lotus. Over the years,

she served the Prasad Family with great

dignity and merit and created a harmonious

atmosphere for every one she hugged, kissed,

touched, cuddled, taught and gave or provided

her tender loving care.

She illuminated and enlightened the lives of so

many of us but left this universe at the age of

seventy three on 14th March, 2013 with

nothing but greatest glory and fame. So the

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jewel in the lotus was gone and left us with

multiple golden and fond memories for us to

treasure and celebrate. That is what we are

doing now and will continue to do forever.

The heart and soul of our Saroj was like an

unopened lotus which developed internally

over the years to unfold and blossom to give

us unity in diversity in our lives and provide

pure joy that we so proudly enjoy today.

Our Saroj was the symbol of everlasting

beauty, fruitful fertility, pleasant prosperity,

sincere spirituality and esoteric eternity. She

was a perfect representative of somebody who

carried out her tasks with little concern for

any reward and acquired a full liberation from

unnecessary worldly attachments.

We have experienced that our Saroj

represented the open flower in our family and

the unopened lotus bud that was a true

representative of a folded soul that had the

ability to unfold and open itself up to the

divine truth, beauty and goodness. She

believed in the power of the Supreme Being

but distanced herself from meaningless and

frivolous religious ceremonies that wasted our

time, money, efforts and dignity.

It is hoped that the presentations in this

publication

would

provide

a

better

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understanding of not only the lotus as a divine

and sacred flower but our Saroj as a Pretty

Lotus of the Prasad Family of Bellbowrie. It is

our utmost pride and honour to narrate some

of the meritorious words, thoughts, deeds and

activities of this angel who was born to serve

the family and the community.

We have included the words of this Lotus

(Saroj) who created this reflection towards the

final days of her life. There are numerous

creative and poetic episodes expressed by her

husband,

her

instinctual

lover

and

unconditional devotee of over half a century.

Some specific reflections have come from her

children and grand children and others. So at

last, this has become a momentous creation

and a symbol of adoration for every one to

read, appreciate, learn and enjoy.

After the passing away of Our Saroj, our Pretty

Lotus, I decided to develop this publication to

celebrate her meritorious life together with her

power of passion and glory. Therefore, I would

like to provide the timeless significance of the

lotus flower to show how our Saroj

represented such a divine and sacred

phenomenon.

As the lotus flower symbolizes the clarity of

heart as well as the mind and represents

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strength, good luck, good life, honour and

respect so was our Saroj in her words, deeds

and thoughts. So for all of us she was a

universal representation of the spiritual

presence in our lives and representing

holiness, good wishes, purity and positive

energy. She gave us her all and took nothing

as any reward in return.

With the emergence of the sun, life is born and

with this emergence, the lotus flower acquires

a special meaning and timeless significance to

humanity. As the bearer of creation, the lotus

flower holds a special place in mythology, in

nature and in our lives. It symbolizes not only

creation but the timeless and continual

process of birth and rebirth.

We have seen that at night, the lotus flower

goes to sleep but at sunrise with the

awakening of the sun, the lotus flower

emerges to life in the pond.

Just as in nature, life is born and reborn when

people pass away to be born again or

resurrected, it symbolizes an openness and

submissiveness even as the roots are mired in

the muddy worldliness and sin. They

symbolize the surrender of the mind to the

powers above. Our Saroj was no less

significant than these natural and cultural

beliefs.

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So the lotus flower has indeed acquired a

special significance over the centuries in many

cultures. The opening petals of the lotus

flower symbolize the potential for the soul to

expand and blossom into beauty and divinity.

Our Saroj was always ready and eager to

spread her arms and great influence for all of

us.

Let me show some of the meanings of the lotus

flower in different cultures. According to the

Indian culture the lotus flower denotes

prosperity,

knowledge

and

learning,

fruitfulness and illumination. According to the

Hindu mythology, the lotus flower is

associated with Goddess Lakshmi, the

goddess of wisdom and generosity.

She is often portrayed as sitting on a

completely blossomed lotus that gives a sense

of purity to her form. Our Saroj, Our Pretty

Lotus,

was

no

less

significant.

The Lotus flower is viewed as a representation

of spirituality according to the ancient beliefs.

The lotus flower is often viewed as a symbol of

aspirations to rise towards the light as the

roots of the lotus flower has its roots in the

mud but it grows in the upward direction. Our

Pretty Lotus, Our Saroj, aspired and grew

upwards and kept growing until she made us

aware of the values and qualities of humanity.

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According to the Egyptian culture the lotus

flower symbol was known by the name of

'Sesan'. As per the mythology of the Egyptian

people the lotus flower symbolized the sun as

well as formation and revival.

The lotus flower is a representation of pious

ness and fertility. The lily flower in the

Christian culture basically replaces the lotus

flower. The lily flower according to the

Christian culture is associated with Mary who

is known as the queen of heaven.

My final point before we begin the narration is

simple. Our Pretty Lotus, Our Saroj

symbolized all the above and this is one of the

reasons we decided to embark on this path of

publication of this creative art.

Our Saroj, Our Pretty Lotus was indeed the

Queen of the Prasad F a mily. Her name, fame,

claim and frame will be treasured by us with

affectionate love and deep compassion. Our

Pretty Lotus was the unique treasure of our

lives.

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Last Family Dinner with Saroj

Mother with her two sons Jan 2013.

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She was born on 15th August, 1940 in Nasinu,

Fiji and was married on 19th January, 1964 in

Nabua, Fiji. She passed away peacefully on

Thursday, 14th March, 2013 at 10.30 am at

the Royal Brisbane Women’s Hospital after a

heart failure at 7 am on Tuesday, 12th March,

2014 in my arms at home.

Her Final Farewell was held on Saturday, 16th

March 2013 at the Centenary Memorial

Gardens Brisbane amidst a gathering of many

friends and family members.

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Enlightened Human Beings

believe in Truth, Beauty and

Goodness of humanity.

As enlightened human beings, we should always try to:

Question the dogma;

Question ideology;

Question outside authority;

Question what is taken for granted;

Question what other people hold to be true;

Question your own beliefs that you doubt.

Your questioning should provide answers for you to

appreciate your life and living.

*Then you will fully understand your own rightful

position in this modern world.

*Then you can easily break through the hypnosis of all

social conditioning.

*Then you will attain the state of affluence.

Can we do these? Yes we definitely can.

*Then your life will be full of fun, fortune and faith and

you will lead a life of a champion.

Saroj 2002

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Final Farewell

It was Thursday 14th March 2013 at about 10

in the morning when we had to make a very

important decision of our life and that was to

agree with the team of specialist doctors at the

Royal Brisbane Women’s Hospital to switch off

the life support of our beloved Saroj, who had

suffered a massive heart attack in the arms of

her husband in their bedroom at 76 Ghost

Gum Street Bellbowrie after her early morning

shower around 7.00 in the morning.

We had a meeting and reluctantly agreed with

the recommendations of the doctors.

The sad and difficult memories of that

Tuesday 12th March 2013 are very hard to

forget when I held Saroj in my arms and called

000 to get the support of the ambulance that

turned up within 10 minutes of the call with

eight medical personnel. They tried to revive

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her and took her to the hospital. Saroj did not

gain consciousness but suffered two other

attacks at the hospital and she was put in the

Intensive Care Unit on life support.

My almost 55 years of life partner and my soul

mate was gone within 30 minutes of turning

off of the life support. I was devastated and

lost my most precious treasure and to tolerate

this sad loss was very difficult and

unbearable.

I was shattered and my heart had almost

stopped beating but I had to go on because

Saroj had asked me to conduct the last very

simple rites for her without the unnecessary

traditional ceremonies.