Everlasting Love : Feelings & Emotions by Dr Ram Lakhan Prasad - HTML preview

Apart

Nature had made her lips so sweet

and soft only I know

I had felt them as my pretty lotus

which made me glow

Whenever I had copied her

shadows on the paper here

People have called it a melody that

was so sweet and dear

O my sweet heart thou art the

melodious music of my life

Thou art my sweetest song and

there is none other so rife

There is no match for your fame

and glory I can surely tell

Thou art the finest creation of

nature for me that I can tell

It’s my pride and honour to have

found you as my beloved

Your presence here had been so

fondly treasured and loved

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You had given me a reason to live

and made my life a glow

Your departure has torn me apart

and has given me a blow.

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My Beloved Wife I Miss You.

In my first ever prayer of my life

I prayed for you to be my wedded

wife

I was granted this wish of my life

When you became my pretty wife

Life changed when we got married

I enjoyed the joy and the love I

carried

Our every day was blissfully fine

Nights were short but you were

mine

Our love bloomed when you used

to cook

I began reading you as my

favourite book

You and I promised to look, live

and love

I was your hero and you became

my dove

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You looked prettier and nicer every

day

I became a devoted lover you

would say

We realised we were made for each

other

We loved our life and adored each

other

Days went by, years passed, we

moved on

Our family life flourished and we

moved on

Together we nourished four lovely

children

Our love deepened nothing remain

hidden

We dined we shined and we rolled

along

We loved everything all that came

along

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You and I shared a fantastic family

life

I could see that you were a perfect

wife

You became my pretty lotus full of

fun

Children were our joy as bright as

sun

Our future was bright we had joy

galore

Our love livened and we reached

ashore

We travelled the world loved places

afar

Cruises, flights and many trips by

a car

The voyages led us love each other

more

We didn’t know we were to face the

sore

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You had blessed my life with love

and joy

When I started to look like a happy

boy

Our life changed and you began to

fade

After half a century our life lost a

shade

You collapsed in my arms I felt

helpless

I wanted to talk but you were

breathless

Paramedics took you away gave

me hope

Miracles do happen we go up find

a slope

The last three days were a torture

for me

I waited for a revival and a miracle

to see

You were gone when your life

support turned off

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My dreams were shattered all

lights went off

I have cried everyday since you

went away

I did not know how I could make

you stay

I miss your fond memories and all

your glee

I wish I could get you back to live

with me

You want me to be happy living a

lonely life

I know that it is very difficult

without a wife

Everyday that goes by your

memories haunt

I am all distraught and cannot go

on a jaunt

I miss all your laughs and all your

tender care

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I miss your cooking your love and

all the flare

I cannot believe that you are gone

from my life

You are an angel in my heart and

still my wife.

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This Special Presentation.

This special presentation is my

loving tribute to her glory, fame

and golden memories. By now, she

would have reincarnated into

another useful and worthy life

according to the wishes of the

Creator or she may have reached

her Nirvana and her soul reached

the realm of Almighty never to

return to this sinful world. This is

called mukti.

Rest In Peace, My Love of fifty five

years.

O God, My Supreme Lord. I pray

that the soul of my beloved wife

Saroj

Kumari

Prasad,

who

departed to the righteous path,

has reached the esteem heights of

permanent salvation.

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All material links have perished

with her passing away but by her

austerity; enlightenment and good

deeds You have made her soul

attain a blissful state and inherit

an enlightened body full of lustre.

Once again may she be allowed to

come to this world to perform her

usual noble deed when You so

decide.

This is my tribute to my beloved

wife Saroj Kumari Prasad who left

us on 14th March 2013. Today is

the one hundred days of her

departure but I will cherish her

golden memories for the rest of my

life.

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Things you didn’t do, My

Love.

15th August 2013

Saroj today’s your birthday and I

invited you to come, but you

didn’t.

So I am celebrating it with your

multiple memories all around us.

I wanted you to hear me sing the

birthday song, but you didn’t.

So I am playing a ghazal of my

choice to satisfy you and me.

There are things that my Saroj

didn’t do and I wish I had told her.

Saroj do you remember the day I

first met you at the College

Library?

It was my love at first sight and I

confirmed this, but you didn’t.

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We talked and worked together for

a year no one knew our secret.

I was madly in love and I told you

so, you waited but you didn’t.

As a good girl you wanted to be

careful and think well.

I thought you would disappoint

me, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the Workers

strike that separated us from

College?

We left in a hurry and longed to

see you, and you did too.

Do you remember writing to me

and saying sorry for all this?

I thought I had lost my first love

forever, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the day I wrote a

nasty letter to you?

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I thought you would send me

equally bad reply, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the day I

married you and took you home?

I thought you wouldn’t like the

difficult rural life, but you didn’t.

Do you remember my people

hurling abuse at you and hurting

you?

I thought you would tell them off

and dislike them, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the day I

borrowed your pen and spoilt it?

I was afraid and thought you

would yell at me, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the day I took

you to the beach for relaxing?

You said you would love to swim in

the ocean, but you didn’t.

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Many times I thought you would

bluntly say I told you so!

But when the time came to tell me

off for my faults, you didn’t.

You nurtured our four children

with pride while I trotted the

world.

When the time came to look after

your own health, you didn’t.

You served the interests of others

first and you suffered internally.

When I wanted you to look after

your own health, you didn’t.

Do you remember the time I flirted

with girls to make you jealous?

I thought you would hate me and

leave me for good, but you didn’t.

Do you remember once when I was

angry and told you off rudely?

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I thought you would feel bad and

leave me, but you didn’t.

God gave you the serenity to

accept things you couldn’t change.

God granted you the courage to

change the things you could.

God served you with wisdom to

know the difference.

You should have punished me for

my trespasses, but you didn’t.

Do you remember I hurt you and

let you down on many occasions?

I thought you would retaliate and

hate me, but you didn’t.

Do you remember the time I didn’t

take you to an important function?

I thought you would feel bad and

stop going with me, but you didn’t.

Do you remember serving me with

dignity for over fifty years?

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I thought you would get bored and

feel tired, but you didn’t.

Do you remember when you were

down and I served you for a while?

I thought you would like my doing

this for you, but you didn’t.

You said it was your duty to serve

me but you didn’t expect that from

me.

Yes my love, there were a lot of

things you didn’t say and do.

But you put up with me; you loved

me unconditionally and protected

me.

There are a lot of things I want to

make up to you when you rebirth.

I have been waiting for you to

confirm the date of arrival, but you

didn’t.

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I loved you dearly for all you did

for us for those fifty five years.

We thought you would live with me

like an angel forever, but you

didn’t.

I thought I would gather enough

courage to apologise for my

misdeeds.

You said you loved me so much

that there was no need, so I didn’t.

Now I truly repent for not being

able to say sorry to you, my love.

I thought you wouldn’t listen and

won’t forgive me, but you did.

Maybe this is the reason you left

me for good and won’t return.

I thought I would be able to

sustain the pain of losing you, but

I didn’t.

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The drastic event of that Tuesday

March 12 haunts me very much.

You collapsed in my arms and I

wanted to revive you, but you

didn’t.

Your two days on life support at

the hospital were like torture to

me.

I waited for the miracle to happen

for you to revive, but you didn’t.

The medical team did the best to

give you back to me, but you

didn’t.

When I had given up all my hopes

of your return, I whispered in your

ears.

They reluctantly turned off the life

support on March 14 at 10 am.

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I said I love you very much and

wanted you to hear me, but you

didn’t.

We sorrowfully laid you to rest in

peace on Saturday 16th March

2013.

In my eulogy I wanted you to listen

to my repentances, but you didn’t.

This was her daily prayer.

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MY SAROJ, MY

SAUNMAUN !

SAROJ KUMARI MY

DARLING ILU

Saroj, my sweet and kind lady,

Saunmaun, I love you very much,

Affectionate and adorable you are,

I know there is no other as such,

Rich in culture, manners bright

and pretty when I saw you passing

by,

Only you are my saviour, my

future, my everything, my love is

so high,

Joyful life has come to me all

because of you and I definitely

know it why.

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Keen queen, gentle and loving

lady, I must admit you are great

but shy,

Unmatched mother, wife, my

kindest friend, and a person I’ll

love till I die,

My whole life is dedicated to you,

you know this fact and no one can

deny.

All my love is yours cos you’re my

life, joy, soul and my core,

Remove me from your sweet

company and I cannot live any

more,

I have loved you very much and I’ll

love you even more.

My first and last wish; for me your

happiness is forever more,

You’re my lotus, my precious

mate, worthy on all score.

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Devotion and dedication that you

have shown reveal that you’re a

great lover,

All your values are unmatched,

kindness galore, you’re always

sound and sober,

Rightly, my life is an empty vessel

without your tender love and care,

Let our love always flourish; it’ll

always grow fonder,

I have hurt your feelings many

times, I beg you to ponder.

Nothing is more precious to me

and nothing more enjoyable ever.

Gainfully, you have given me your

all that I should always treasure,

I know our love and friendship are

very difficult to measure.

Lastly, I can say I love you with

immense joy and pleasure.

U are the epitome of my elegance,

my success and my treasure.

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Painful Tales

Who Will Hear Our Painful Tales

It is spring time and it is still

cooler

It’s for her to decide to return

sooner

It is her loyalty and my

compassion

Keep remembering or forget them

all

My pain giver must tell me the

truth

Shall I keep weeping or start

smiling

Love never dies we both know well

Let us keep chatting and listening

We are the sailors in the stormy

sea

Shall we survive the pain or perish

Many old wise words come to

haunt

But who will hear our painful

tales ?

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MY CREATIVITIES

Reflections of a Beautiful Family

Life

The sun rose above the hills in my

village

As the joy of my heart sped for more

mileage

Rays of warmth and love rose high and

well

When My Pretty Lotus came in home to

dwell

Together we saw fresh dew upon the

grass

Birds chirped, butterflies flew to over

pass

I watched her gently moving around in

the day

My love got deeper and deeper living

everyday

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I enjoyed the stillness and calm for so

long

Watching as she smiled and sang a

song

She brought me fame and wealth

always

Like a slow flowing traffic of the

highways

My heart and soul kept flowing with a

lot of joy

I smiled and I quietly reflected all to

enjoy

I was handed a sweet princess to give

care

A sweet princess for my love life to

share

I took a vow to myself to be her

charming prince

She enriched my life and let me

convince

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Love her and always cherish her was

the way

Until my last breath and until my last

day

I kept all my vows and lived a full family

life

I let her reign as my queen and be my

wife

When she was gone, I made a promise

in my mind

I’ll treasure all fond memories that I can

possibly find

Fifteen months have gone by but I’m

still grieving

My love’s like war it was easy to begin

but never ending

I’ve fond reflections of all those

beautiful moments

I’ve created many poems but have no

further comments.

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Love Flourishes

When in love we have many wishes

Life’s full of laughter and many kisses

Losing that loved one is tragic indeed

Life’s not th