The editor accepted his request to meet at his home instead of office.
Mayank reached the
editor?s home in a very relaxed mood. He knew, at home, the editor would talk more like a big
brother. The editor, like many professionals had successfully developed the habit of leaving his
heart at home before leaving for office. Mayank was sure; he wanted to confront not the editor
but a senior friend.
The editor himself opened the door and waved him in. He was probably still sleeping and was
awakened by the doorbell buzz. Mayank was happy that he had caught him early morning. This
was the best time when people like him would be him and not his job title.
Mornings are good
because they present people without their make ups sans cosmetic personality. Mayank had come
just to see him. He had no agenda with him but he knew, the editor had a lot to say and it was
ideal to listen to him, not the editor.
“I hope you don?t mind to have a cup of tea with me?, the editor asked with a tint of sarcasm in
his voice.
“Why do you ask that...you know it well it?s my privilege.”
“I asked because you now a day enjoy tea or coffee only with big people and that too in seven
star hotel suits. A poor editor?s home tea may not suit your taste.”
Mayank could not resist a smile. He did not want to lead him to talks around work and issues
concerning their professional universe. He wished it to remain personal.
“A son going out, seeing places and exploring life is what a father wants for his son but both
know that home is where they come back and the food tastes the best.”
“And what the father should do when the son goes out to people and places projecting him as a
devil”, the editor persisted with his cynicism.
“He should straightaway ask his son about the truth instead of going by what others tell him
about the reality.”
“Why should he believe what the son says is truth?”
“Because, what you hear is other?s mouth and what you believe is your own ear.”
“And why should he believe that his ear is still his and worth his trust?”
“It is the problem of the heart and not the ear. The best option is best till the heart accepts it as
one.”
“That comes to the truth that I am the problem.”
“This is the problem.”
“What?”
“The problem is; first thing should always come first. Let us enjoy the tea first.”
The editor looked in his eyes and smiled back. Mayank?s face exuded the serenity and
confidence which the editor could see and got somehow assured. The tea arrived.
“We all have one common problem”, Mayank led the talk. “Where we are sitting right now is
your house. But the reality is that we are in the living room of your house and this is only part of
your house, not the full house. We can say, this room is very well your house but it is not your
complete house. Sitting in this room, if I believe that I know your entire house then I am a big
fool. Human personalities are also the same.”
“What do you mean to say?”
“We all are like houses, our personalities having different rooms for different purposes. We get
associated to people in the society as one room of this house but never as one whole house. It is
not even possible. I have come to your house but you can make me sit only in one room, never in
all rooms of your house simultaneously. I can say I visited your house but actually I visited only
one room. We also visit a person but meet only one small personality of his full persona. The
problem is; we define this one room as whole house. You are an editor but this is only one small
room of your big house; I mean your personality. If I say that I know the editor inside out and
that?s why I also know you completely then I am stupid.”
“Should I understand that you mean to say is I am not seeing the whole of your personality and
this is my problem?”
“This is not the problem. It is a difficult reality. Why talk about me, it is your house but even you
cannot live in all the rooms of your house at any given time. You actually live only in one room
at a time. If you want to see your entire house, you cannot do it living inside it. You will have to
come out of it and see it from a distance to get the picture of your whole house. People usually
do not even see their own personalities in full. How can they see other?s personalities in
completeness and totality? But the fact remains that we all live in houses with many rooms.”
“And what do you suggest? I should live in one-room house or move out of my multi- room
house to see it in totality?”
“You have options. It is entirely up to your discretion. Your house is actually one single roof.
Your architect has structured them by erecting walls to create different rooms for distinct
purposes. You can choose to undo the walls and make the whole house one single room. Or, you
can make every single room the room of innocence and this way the entire house will become a
space of singular and uniform innocence.”
“Why not go to the jungle, grow long beard and become saints? The open sky is singular,
ultimate and infinite innocence!”
“A difficult choice but it is one.”
“Mayank, your editorial is good but nobody reads them. We are into news business and what
sells is not innocence. It?s bloody life. More rooms in your house mean more status and goodwill
for you and more than that, it is good for your security and mental peace.
You can keep yourself
away from unnecessary people. Not all of them are worthy to allow them to the bedroom and
that?s why a living room is a must.”
“I told you it?s your choice.”
“And what is your choice? If your choice is not my choice then it does not mean my choice is
wrong!”
“I never said that mine is the right choice and yours is wrong.”
“But I say your choice is wrong, even if mine is not right. And I can say that because I have been
through all these which you have just begun to see. You are at the start of the journey and I stand
on the end of it. You cannot see what I have already seen. And you will also see the same when
you will end your journey. Raw milk and cheese are different things though their origin is the
same. When life ferments you, when its practicality makes you go through the long and stinking
processing, you lose the idealistic white shine of the milk and its fluidity. Milk is for babies and
they get it gratuitously. But men have to battle it out to grab their share of cheese to enjoy it with
their hard-earned wine in a relaxing evening. You too will lose your milky idealism when you
reach my age. I hope I live to see it happen.”
“Sir, I am only saying that you have the option. You could stick to your milk. We can keep out
of the battles for cheese, at least.”
“No I can?t. Have I set the battles for me? They are there and don?t expect me to be a coward to
turn away from them. That is where you are wrong. You cannot keep your milk for ever. Your
innocence does not come with long shelf- life, quite like milk. You do not have option. Smart
people make cheese out of it. A fool like you, insisting with milk will end up with nothing as the
milk will go sour and become of no use.”
“You still have options...we can make powder out of milk to extend its shelf- life.”
“When will you grow out of your baby obsessions? When will you understand the taste of pizzas
and pastas which the whole adult world likes? And nobody makes pizzas and pastas with milk
powder; at least I don?t have the idea.”
“No options...even I cannot make them without cheese.”
“Mayank, you are like a younger brother to me. I do not need to trouble my brain so early in the
morning but I am doing it just to show you the righteousness of life we are made to face and live.
I wish you better success than me in life. That?s why I am arguing with you. I too know what is
good and what is bad. But we are not faced with this question anymore. The question is what
works and what fails. My experience is; goodness does not always work. You know how this
whisky tastes which I gallop half a bottle every day? How can you know! I know. Milk definitely
tastes better and is also good for health but still I drink this bitter thing because it works for me.”
Mayank did not reply. He had achieved what he wanted. The editor was talking like a big brother
and he wished to listen to him. Every life, every life experience is like a flower. The bouquet of
life is made out of bunch of such flowers of different hue and shape. The editor construed
Mayank?s silence as his coalescence with his ideas. He continued with more authority and poise.
“I became editor when I was only 29. I had dreams. Creation gives you a huge kick. It somehow
licks your hurt pride which your own fallibility and sense of eventual mortality leaves you with.
There is an instinctive desire in every human being to create something which would defeat his
own mortality and live even when he is dead long ago. I had prepared great starts for the first day
of my editorship and you know what eventually happened that day when I entered my office? A
group of colleagues opposed to my elevation as editor, where till yesterday I worked as newseditor,
had removed the big and nice chair of the editor and instead placed an ordinary one. The
whole day I spent finding that missing chair and finally I got it re-installed in my office chamber.
The whole month I battled with the opponents and finally established myself as the undisp uted
leader. This is life.”
“What happened to your opponents?”
“Two things I never forget - the faces of my opponents and the birthday of my wife. Within a
month I got them either transferred or sacked and brought in my own loyal team. I admit I am a
bit paranoid about loyalty. When you will become editor one day, you too will understand
quality and good work are important but the first thing you need is to survive. On the top, you
are not lonely. Such banal idealisms stink. There are hordes of people wanting to pull you down
and then you do not have options.”
“I understand the predicament. But that was the start. You have been editor for last many years
now and I don?t think the survival issue stands anymore.”
“Come out of the world of wishful thinking Mayank. Your innocence mindset does not allow
you to see things on the other side of the coin. You can only wish that you grow alone with time.
The reality is, with time, if your friends grow with you, so do your enemies.”
“The great absurdity of this evolution is that our enemies also think the same about ourselves.
The cyclic stupidity remains ever energized.”
“The innocence however may buy the satisfaction that it didn?t start the chain, nor can it help in
its end. Everyone has to be in this grind. You are born with your enemies; you make friends only
when you grow.”
“Is this all you want me to learn?”
“Why should I make you learn anything? It is your choice. I wish well for you. That?s why I am
telling you about the practical realities of life. I may not have the artistry of language and the
charisma of an intellectual but I can also make long and passionate speeches about the virtue of
being compassionate even with your enemies. But I am also well prepared and capable to chop
off the asses of my enemies. I just wish you also see the reality and brace up for practicality of
life. Enemies are enemies because they don?t understand the language of compassion.”
“All our enemies must also be thinking the same way about their enemies.”
“May be, but did I start it. I too wanted to be a good editor. I got only a few thousand when I was
first made editor but I was happy. I only had one enemy; the outgoing editor. Now I earn more
than a million and I have a few thousand enemies. Show me the compassion and I would
reciprocate in double. Yes they do, they show it only when they offer wreath on your coffin.”
“You believe there is no chance for survival of innocence. Is death the only innocence?”
“I think so. It is like you have no money and you have no friends, no enemies either. Then you
toil hard to make a hundred rupee. Instantly, hundreds of people who have a hundred rupee note
or less become your enemy. Everyone fears competition. These hundreds have the option to
work harder and add more money so that their hundred rupees become two hundred. But
everyone wants the easy and lazy option. It is always difficult to grow above the competition and
very easy to eliminate or emaciate the competition. If you and I both have hundred rupees then it
is difficult and time taking for either of us to earn another hundred to become one up. So what I
do is steal your hundred rupees. This gives instant and better results. I become two hundred
rupees and the greatest joy is that you become a big zero. That?s why I said, enemies come easy
to you.”
“I think I should suggest that enemy is quite a harsh word. Competitor looks like the right
reference and makes us take the life a bit more easy and friendly.”
“Euphemism is the problem of the heart and not the eye. I take what I see.
Competitors are in
sports only; not even in all sports. In life you have only enemies. The bread and butter is where
life?s fiercest and deadliest battles are fought. Survival is no sports, it?s a battle. Your euphemism
will make you the first victim in this battle. It?s your choice. I know my options very well.”
“But we should also count our friends, if we are so obsessed by our enemies. I think, the owner
of the enterprise should be our best friend. I don?t think he wants battles where his profits are at
stake.”
“This is the last time I am warning you; come out of your world of dreams and wishful thinking.
You will end up as a big stupid and not a shred of friends. This whole rot in this world has been
wreaked by none other but the owners of enterprises. Why this world is such a hell? Because, the
owner of this world; our all powerful and almighty God is nonchalant. He himself lives in the
comfort of heaven and lords over the world so full of filth and felony. Why doesn?t he punish the
bad ones? Because he wants the continuation of his almighty status! He is the most insecure of
us. He knows it well that if all people on earth will become happy and self-sufficient, nobody
will even bother to remember him. The lord?s compassion is worthy only when his empire lives
in the pool of woes. The magnanimity is virtue only for non-entity; the able take it as
pomposity.”
“But the God is not running a profit-making corporation. Our owners may not like the woes of
his empire as it may affect his corporation?s efficiency and ultimately its profitability.”
“That?s why God is slightly better than our owners. If God can be so unkind, when he is not into
profit taking venture, think of what monsters our owners can be when what they care is profit
and more of it.”
“I cannot understand you. Anyone would guard his profitability but why should one intentionally
make his enterprise a battleground? I believe, owners want the best for something they so
arduously create and struggle hard to grow.”
“That?s why I say you will see the reality only when you land at the end of journey. At the start
of journey, where you stand now, things do not look like what they actually are.”
“I admit that but it still does not answer my question. If you think you can trust me, you should
make things clear to me so that I can really learn from your experiences.”
“Trust is not the issue. If you tell what I tell you to the boss, you will lose your own credibility.
In our world, a man is valued only when he can keep secrets and promises.”
“Then tell me your experiences.”
“You know; in old times, there were kings and they lorded over large empires. Communication
was very poor and it was very difficult to rule for long. The kings had developed a very trusted
communication system through a large network of spies. The spies were not only his eyes and
ears taking him to all parts of his empire sitting right in the safety of his palace but they also
performed one huge function for him. They ensured that all the possible enemies of the king had
more enemies to battle with so that they could never be so strong to challenge the king. And, the
king knew it well; the closest of friends were the most likely and potent enemies anytime
opportunity presented them with a chance. So, he had his most trusted and loyal spies working
overtime on his wives, ministers and commanders. The secret lover of king?s dearest wife would
be his most trusted spy. The wife of his most powerful minister would be on his payroll. He
would go to any length to ensure that all his friends and enemies alike would never ever get so
powerful to challenge him. The easiest thing to do was to create so many enemies to all of them
that they remained weak and vulnerable ever and always dependent on the magnanimity of the
king for their survival. Do you ever consider a charity for Bill Gates!
Magnanimity is a joy only
when there are beggars around you. ”
“This is very mean interpretation of humanity. I am not sure it is an exception or a rule. I have a
feeling you are blowing it all up.”
“Foolish boy, this is not an interpretation, it is a transcendental reality. We live in a world of far
greater distrust and far superior communication technologies. Though, they have euphemized
things and call espionage as intelligence. When you will end up on top, you will understand the
lethal world of corporate intelligence. The history was benevolent in some respect. The king?s
magnanimity was king-size and those who were loyal enjoyed the extravagance of his
compassion. Our owners are baniyas. They behave like kings and want the kingdom?s booty for
their own luxuries but their magnanimity and compassion is no better than a beggar. A beggar is
even better; he will give you one rupee if he has two. The owners of today?
s enterprise cannot.”
“If people on top of the rung, like you, paint such painfully sad picture of reality, what picture
the petty employees must be having in their minds.”
“This is the good part of the enterprise. The starters see the rosy picture. They still live on the
very comforting hope towards lord?s magnanimity. Their positivity actually is the energy that
makes all modern enterprises run and thrive. A cancer patient has lots of hopes from his doctors
and the God. He prays a lot and believes in what his doctors prescribe for him. He suffers a lot
but his hopes still make him carry on the struggle with vigor. Then the doctors finally tell him
there is no hope and he understands that God did not pay heed to his prayers. He dies before his
death actually comes. He does not pray. Hopes should never die before our deaths. I salute your
hope. I am at the end of the journey. My hope has died long ago. I do not pray to the
magnanimity of my God. I simply battle on my own to get my cut of the cake.
”
“But you still smile. You still fight it out like a true warrior. How can you say that?”
“Because; I don?t drink milk! I enjoy my whisky and this makes me connect to this world well. It
always reminds me that this world is bitter, not worth your good taste but still, this is what gives
you the kick of life; it works well for you. It makes you smile without the energy of the stupid
ephemeral hope.”
“So, there is no hope for people with option of milk like me?”
“You are hopeless anyways. Don?t lick my brain. I am getting late for office. Come and join this
evening. And do come with your hope. I like its fragrance. Everyone loves a toddler smelling
like a pot of milk.”
“I will do it only when you promise that you will teach me the art of making cheese out of the
milk.”
“Start drinking whisky with me and you will automatically learn the great art which I learnt
through so much pain. Anyway, what?s the use of making cheese if you can?t enjoy it with
whisky”, the editor said and went inside the bathroom.
Mayank knew, when he will come out of the bathroom, he will be the editor and not the big
brother he was a few minutes back. It was time he moved out.
**