I've opened the door. You came to me in the middle of the night. You came like a king, walking slowly through the darkness towards the outside. Your eyes sparkled like two dazzling emeralds. I loved your feline eyes in that darkness, as indomitable as those of a tiger. Your eyes were gentle like the eyes of a child at the same time. You didn't say anything. You never told me anything important. Only when you entered our own secret places, well known secret places of the body, there you told me everything. Therefore, I didn't ask you anything. I invited you to eat. You ate unleavened bread and you drank a cup of wine. Then you laid on the bed. I had a bed in the next room. The white bed litter was sprinkled with oil of lavender. You just fell asleep, or it seemed to me to be so. I thought you were asleep but you were too tired to sleep. Then I opened the window. It was raining outside. I felt the breeze on my face and in my nostrils. I tasted the rain on my lips and I felt it on my tongue. I crouched in a corner of the room. An old song was played on the radio. The singer sang his love song. The timbre of the singer's voice was like yours. I felt protected and loved. The timbre of his voice seemingly vibrated farther, into a hole. An invisible space opened up inside me and you slowly filled it with your love. Suddenly, I heard you playing the guitar. I turned off the radio. ''Why don't you sleep?''I asked him. ''I think a little bit more seriously than before about our relationship. Promise me that you will never leave me. '' ''Why should I leave you? I love you. ' ''I cannot live without you. '' '' I will never leave you. I cannot live without you, too. ''
The fire was burning in the fireplace. The fire was burning down for the night, and the damper remained open to allow the smoke to vent. The flames danced their shadows in the darkness on the white walls. I wanted to sleep peacefully in your arms. I found myself in your arms. I needed to feel your touch all around and I needed to hear your voice. When we were both about to fall asleep, I wanted to sleep extremely close to you like the first day we made love, listening to the rain. No one has ever made me feel so special. I closed my eyes again. I thought I slept a little when I felt you gaze upon me, I felt your lips on my hair, and I felt your warm hand touching my hand. You played thoughtfully with my fingers for a few moments. I suddenly felt that you've slipped a ring on my finger with a very gentle movement. I didn't know why you pressed the stone with your finger. I fell asleep immediately. I felt you in my dream. You were still there. You were like a child. Love seemed to be the same as yesterday. It seemed to be like playing a shuffle beat on your guitar.
It seemed like a foggy vacation. I could not see you clearly enough but it was you, my dream man, the man of my dreams, the man I love and the love of my man at the same time, entering my life and changing it forever. The flames worm into deep curves with the passing darkness, forming a deep depression of an empty space on the walls. From time to time, they vibrated their redness. In my dream I saw your dynamic shadow projected on the wall. They became one single image, simultaneously moving up and down, retaining themselves in some kind of manifested creative void. More specifically, they merged. This was the total end, for you and I understood this. You made me going crazy. I loved you and I would probably have done anything for you. I had got you and I anchored you in my own fecundity. I anchored you onto the earth. Next, I breathed up all the fecundity and the vibrancy of the earth, inside and outside my physical being, clearly being filled with light. It was like an absorption; I felt the happiness filling me and I opened my eyes. You slipped inside me and I could feel you flowing slowly. We became one like two bodies in a single body at the same time, signing up the love cry mysticism of our feelings.
Suddenly, I felt the thrill of the eternity. Rays of love crept in and crept out again and they caught the shoulders of our souls. I felt the flow and the entwining of our merging souls. An internal vibration filled the space inside. It was like a Chopin sonata. We became only movement and emotion, movement and emotion. The heaven opened. No one else was more beautiful than you. I saw a child so much loved by God like no other child of this world. Your love hugged me tighter and snuggled more closer than ever before. You became my prince for eternity. We couldn't move our bodies any longer. It was our divine inheritance and our freedom. I felt that we no longer needed our bodies to make love. I felt that it was not a dream;I felt that it was the reality. I fell asleep next to you without dreaming anything. I felt safe with you. Standing behind me, I felt your sweet kisses. The mattress cradled you in comfort throughout the night. In the morning I looked for you and you were not there. I saw your shadow on the soft white bedding. It seemed to embrace the memory of my feelings. The perfume of your body dulled my sense. I thought you were gone as usual without saying anything. I turned on the radio and I heard the same song. Outside, the sun seemed to mash the sky with its shine. It was a typical spring day. I didn't know why there it seemed to be so much light around. Perhaps I felt the light supple and much more stronger than usual. I've never felt such a strong feeling. Again and again, I was waiting in my solitude. But I came out and you were there working as a simple peasant. ''I knew that you would stay in this 'guerrilla' forever, '' I said.
I could not remember if I told you or if I only intended to tell you this but it was less important. I entered the house. I went to the Child with His Mother Mary. So I bowed down and worshiped Him.