The house sat on a mountain,providing a wide panoramic, picturesque image. There was a unique stepped roof garden creating some sloped ceiling lines. Inside of the house, there were our dramatic spaces.
This mountain house was designed by an architect who died, so the house was destined to be ours. All I could see was a cloudy meadow with fir trees in the Carpathian mountains. The clouds seemed to sweep the barren ridges of the mountains. I ate my breakfast and I kept looking around,being so worried that I might actually see something dangerous . I didn't find anything that could scare me in that area.
You entered the house . You had an edelweiss in your hand.
''I picked it up yesterday afternoon for you,'' you said.''And I brought you some goat milk. There is enough goat milk for your food .Sometimes people feel like crossing over a line of no return .So ,I have that feeling with you now. If you drink milk , be kind and drink it for me too.''
I took the enigmatic white flower and I put it into a vase.
''A beautiful flower for your free beautiful lips which stab me from time to time with words. I kissed you with all the words I had ,don't forget this.''
You turned to me and said again,''I'm the man. I have slipped a few words on the tongue, that's my mistake.''
There were a few Belgian white rabbits in the courtyard and a baby deer. You took the gun and you went to hunt. You had taken a look at me before leaving. You had big blue tough eyes and your face was tensed. I never saw you being more serious than you were at that moment.
While you were away, I did the housework and I prepared the dinner. I prepared a steak with Parmesan butter, balsamic glaze, and arugula with grilled vegetables. I also made a dessert. Then I sat at my computer and started to write my article . I looked out the window and I saw an eagle rotating in flight .
I thought you were like Prometheus,chained to his rock, because you tried to change the mentality of the people for obtaining a change in their social status and it is almost impossible to do this.
In fact, the society will always be slowly changed and never abruptly modified. It's very hard to think that society will be changed without using the laws for doing this. I know that you think that people make the law. When the mentality of people changes ,the law changes too. And the society can be changed through this thinking. When people start to understand this, the society starts to change.
I thought of your inner fire which always burns stronger than usual,illuminating everything around;illuminating a petty and bizarre society where life unfolds for free according to a pattern. A society with no sudden or major changes,like a building supported on rotten poles which can collapse anytime. You were burning like a torch. I understood from you that those principles of life must be changed in their essence.
I sat at the computer and started to write the article. I was an editor working for one local newspaper and I used to sign my articles with a pseudonym. I signed as Ella. My articles never appeared on the first page but they were read by many people. I began to write...
The Article
“Sometimes ,it is very important to know if you can or cannot get the same goals as your community ,especially when the personal attitude is not very important for them . When do people feel real hurt? Do we really need to destroy the feelings of the people around us and to hurt them for our own social goals? Maybe we must say the truth about these attitudes instead of glossing over them. When my goal is against the community and I have enough power to change the facts,all I get is a less powerful community. What have I done,in fact ? I've made myself powerless. And I reached a point where I am fully incapable to solve the problem.
Some people of the society are dreamers. Their dream can tell us exactly what needs to be changed in our life. We can change the attitudes we have in ourselves or in front of others, or we can change the people around us. The dream can also express a great goal. We know that dreams have the potential to change people for the rest of their lives. The inner change is always connected to the outer change.
Just asking people to change is complicated. Generally, the rational people have a positive response to all the incentives afforded in their lives. They need to change their own lives and to increase their good behavior.
Sometimes people who embarked on changing their lives long time ago had already thrown in the towel because they didn’t see or get the results they expected.
Becoming frustrated, they find that it is easier to give up than to face the challenge. The mind is always a very powerful entity. Sometimes people need to be perfect. But the perfection and the guilt that follow can keep most of them out from their real goals.
Consistency is the human aspect that can make or break their final solution. It is not about what they make or don't make in keeping them from reaching their goals, it is about what they consistently do or don’t do .That will eventual get them to their goals. This is not perfection but progression toward the goals.
Sometimes we need to help others. By helping others I do believe we learn to help ourselves. When we empathize with others, we can gain a better understanding about who we are and what we can offer.
After I had finished the article,I had the desire to know which would be your reaction while reading it. I began to dream of my own life. I began to think of what others would say about me or about my own life. I had learned to cope with my new life reflecting about my dreams and gradually accepting your wishes. I had always dreamed of working at my own printing press but the time wasn't so right for me . I'm still waiting for the right time to take my destiny into my own hands.