We arrived at Government Centre, I was taken to the 12th floor and put in a cell with others, I was in a jail not a police station, I had not been arrested or cautioned, I just went to jail, I was put in a cell on the 12th floor, it consisted of a 12 or 16 man tank, the cells opened up into a day room where we would associate and also where we had our meals, the cells were either 3 or 4 men.
Visiting also took place in the tank where the day room was via very small windows and phone handsets which meant visitors had to stand, my wife would visit regular, the other wall opposite were bars on the other side of the bars was a passage, on the other side of the passage was a window which we could see the outside even if at sky level.
I cried many tears and I am not ashamed of that either, to be broken hearted and obviously suffering trauma I was still confused and full of guilt for what I was putting my wife through I loved my wife, she’s a wonderful person and she was left to fend for herself amongst predators and we all know there are many of them out there, I was worried, about how she would cope, she was in bits and so was I Either way I had let her down big time, I was an emotional wreck but there were more things going on that wouldn’t even be believed.
One day I looked through the bars and out the window and said softly to myself “t here’s something out there” it should have been obvious to the trained eye, if they cared enough, that things were far from normal my mind was distant, I had this strange feeling. One night while in my cell along with two other prisoners something happened which was to change everything, as I lay on my bunk wide awake a voice spoke, it was a woman’s voice, not just a woman’s voice but she had a distinctive English accent; the 12th floor was predominantly male occupants, however there were woman prisoners on the next floor up but this woman was in the cell with me, her voice was audible as if standing right there not from a distance, this was an American jail so the clear English accent confirmed she could not be a prisoner.
She said “Gary my rod and my staff will comfort you” My first name is Peter and no-one in there knew that I was known as Gary, even when my wife visited she had to speak through a phone hand set so no-one could hear what she said only what I was saying, I was known as Peter and I much preferred and so I remain as Peter.
I went to church which was conducted in a small room more like a large cell, it had three concrete walls and one that was bars which also had the door in and so we crammed into that small space while the minister stood on the other side of the bars. We sang praise and one song just happened to be a favourite of my sister who died at the age of 23, Christmas of 1962, the song was “just a closer walk with thee” I am a born again Christian my family is mainly catholic, and I was brought up a catholic however it never sat right with me and I became born again in England many years ago but I was baptised while living in Arizona about 1992/3 I was not a practicing Christian, in fact I don’t know what I was this was all new to me.
I told no-one not even my wife about this visitation I couldn’t even explain to her what had happened it was hard enough for me to try and figure out but I still have to prove it the burden of proof is on me. However, I tried to explain to my wife but I couldn’t. My wife would be so upset on visits and seeing her so is beyond words, I do have trouble at times finding the right words.
I was obviously confused in my head as to what had happened I had so many questions, I became aware that the visitation was heard by the other prisoners because of their response, there were after all other prisoners in my cell, and she never whispered to me she said it openly. The next day or so the prisoners would make comments such as God is not a woman, they would never say things to my face but rather to each other or shout out in a laughable tone, they were mocking me but in a way that I could not reply without looking paranoid, and so I would ignore them, it was obvious that the woman was overheard, I know there is a recording of her held by the Authorities because they do have microphone’s in jail, so I knew they would have recorded things that were said.
Then one night I had a vision, this was given to me in between sleep state, it was not a dream because I was not fully asleep and I spoke out but softly and said “I can’t do that Lord” so I was fully aware of what had happened, I never told anyone about the vision but my reply was overheard and the prisoners and those listening in made their own assumptions, which by the way were completely wrong. I have never revealed what the vision was.
Then on another morning I woke up singing “what a friend we have in Jesus” I had no idea what was happening to me, so my celli and I requested song sheets from the prison minister and we started to do our own type of church and praise, it was very obvious that things were far from normal, and prisoners were seeing it too. What I didn’t know at that time was that I was on the road to Hell!
I was never question or told my rights by the police they only came to visit me and sat behind glass not even in the same room, I was told I was charged with sexual assault and that was it, I was given a Public Defender I had not been told the details of my case only the charge and so I never had the chance to respond to any details I could only say that I was not guilty of the charge and he asked me if I wanted to take a polygraph test, I agreed and my brother-in-law said that he would pay for it.
When the guy came to see me to do the test I was taken to a room with a table, this was the only time when I was in a room with another person, everything else was conducted over a phone through glass, before he wired me up he wanted a chat, and suddenly said “that’s it you confessed”… I was dumbfounded he stormed out of the room before I could respond; I was taken back to the tank without any test and none the wiser.
We were told by officers that the 12th floor of Government Centre was being closed and we were being moved Lew Sterrett Jail I don’t know if all of Government Centre was closed but I think it was, we arrived at Lew Sterrett I was then placed on the 5th floor in tank 5E3 this tank consisted of two man cells there were 12 cells three floors high with a walkway outside each floor, and a large dayroom there was a TV on the wall, we also had our meals in the dayroom. I had been in turmoil when I had first arrived in Government Centre, and unable to think straight, now I was a joyful person singing all the time.
My wife came to visit and this time the visits were conducted outside of the tank, I was taken to the visit area this was like the type you see on TV, a row of seats with a window that you sit at and handset that you talk through, much better than the poky one in Government Centre.
I told my wife on the visit that I knew that God and Jesus are real, I could see the surprise on her face, I’m sure she must of thought I had lost the plot, I had never spoke about my faith and she was certainly not a Christian, I was different but try explaining that to others, this did not stop me from hurting over my wife, I guess I never realised how much I loved her, a great woman who stood by me all the way, she was the innocent suffering, a casualty of war.
Back in the tank we continued our own church, the thing that made this so different was that everything was based on facts, not theories, beliefs or anything else, things of a spiritual and not a religious nature was taking place in jail.
Unknowingly to me at the time was that I was being ridiculed by others in authority. A religious conflict was being incited and a conspiracy, they apparently were using religious beliefs out of context against me.
The events that were taking place were clearly Biblical but outside of my control I was not a jail house preacher there was clearly an outside presence which was revealing itself beyond doubt. What was happening was against the beliefs of some Christians and in Texas there are some very strict and firm fractions, there’s even what they call the Bible belt separating districts.
I believe that we are all entitled to our beliefs, however this is not about beliefs, I am reporting on real life events what I or anyone else believes is irrelevant, they can believe a pig can fly if they want to but can it.
There is no doubt things were happening to me, we had daily bible study in our cell and asked for materials from a Chaplin, we did want study materials because by no means was I putting myself above anyone else and so apart from what we were doing in our tank I still went to the church on Sundays, their church was once a week we were every day.
There the church was much better than the one in Government Centre, we could sit in a proper room and the ministers could come into the same room, gosh no bars. I mean no disrespect by saying there church and our church, it’s simply my way of expressing how things were, some would say we were not a church but rather a study group, I guess it depends on how church is perceived to the individual, is it a building or the people that make a church.
At night before lock up we would have a prayer circle in the dayroom; one evening a prisoner asked me if I noticed the officers? I said no because I had my back to the glass, so I didn’t see them until I glanced over my shoulder, they also had a prayer circle, seems Dallas Jail was heading for a revival, even the officers had joined us, officers and prisoners in unity, I wonder if that’s a first? Sadly this was not to last because things were heading for a drastic turn.
There was a time I told my celli that I wanted to break bread so he checked to see if anyone had some bread but all he could find was a cinnamon roll, I didn’t like cinnamon at all in fact I hated it, I could not even stand the smell of it, but I said that would be fine, we had some squash, and so we held the breaking of bread and wine in the dayroom, again giving the hidden critics something to pick fault with as you can imagine, the strange thing is that afterwards I liked cinnamon rolls.
One day while I was heating some water for my coffee, how we heated coffee was by way of a thing called a stinger, this was like a small bare element that would fit inside a cup, it had an electric lead coming out with a plug on the other end, if we wanted to make coffee after lock up we would do a little fire in the cell, smoking was allowed in jail and I was still smoking, so still I was not a good role model as far as being a Christian goes.
The woman spoke to me again but in a different way, it was a quite whisper sort of, by sort of it’s like when you try to whisper but your voice is not as a whisper, if you know what I mean? This time I mentioned it to my celli, because we had got to know each other, he was sound, plus we did study together, he was also the one who was in my cell at Government Centre, I said to him that I was just told, “ I will never leave you or forsake you” he said to me in a very disapproving way “you were told that?”, I replied “yes I was” no more was said but it seemed the he did not think me worthy, this message was a warning that things were going to change, but that God would not leave me or forsake me.
I know that I can’t be a role model and I’m not trying to be one, I’m the first to admit that I’ve got my faults, I certainly don’t think of myself as being above or better than others but I am a far better person than I was or am portrayed to be. I did smoke a lot and drank a lot of coffee, I’ve got many bad habits but that doesn’t make me a bad person.
I developed a very bad chough and I was sent for a chest x-ray which the result wasn’t good, the nurse came and called me out she told me that I would be disabled in two years, she was not very pleasant but I guess in jail you don’t expect them to be, but her tone was not very nice to say the least, she never told me any information, just simply that I would be disabled in two years. So then in my mind I was screwed and in decline as far as I was concerned life as I knew it was coming to an end.
I still smoked, I never pondered over it for some reason, there wasn’t much to look forward to, I don’t even know if I told my wife, I don’t think I did in fact I’m sure I never said anything, but it’s irrelevant anyway.
Things started to change in tank 5E3, I will refer to the instigator as the evil-one simply as a means of identification, he is a person in authority and he well earns the title later on.
One morning a prisoner was sent in the tank and started stirring the prisoners against me, officers also had changed, one day at Bible study the atmosphere had changed, I felt their hearts turn against me, I could no longer partake with them, instead I would be on my bunk alone, things continued going downhill, I could no longer be in the prayer circle either.
My isolation had begun, things had also started to become hostile jail is not a safe place to be at the best of times but now tank 5e3 was beginning to get very dangerous for me, a prisoner in the next tank to where I was apparently committed suicide by hanging himself and now the prisoners wanted to hang me, or throw me over the rail, a lynch party had started to form, everyone including Christians were turned against me as the evil-ones followers did there thing.
This day the threats started and as I lay on my bunk I could hear them discussing everything from rape to hanging or throwing me over the rail, there was a hostile crowd gathering, as I lay on my bunk something started to happen which I’m not able to explain, I lay there on my bunk repeatedly saying “God is my defence my fortress and my shield” now I don’t know where this was coming from and it may be taken as fearful but also there was a change that was taking place within my mind or to my mind, one thing was for certain and that was my life was in serious danger.
The next day I requested a move as my safety was at risk, I was told to pack my stuff and wait in the dayroom, some guy’s may of seen me as fearful but that’s down to their ignorance, while I was waiting in the dayroom a prisoner came up behind and I felt him before he got to me and I stood up, he asked if he could borrow my stinger, I said yes but realised he was going to pop it,(if you take the stinger out of the cup before unplugging it the element will pop,) so I went to the plug and pulled it out just in time, he was being prompted by the other prisoners.
I cannot explain but I could physically feel him from a distance in fact I had become amplified, a spiritual change had certainly taken place.
Some christens believe and teach that fear is of Satan but fear is a normal human emotion, there are also different types of fear. My nervous system seemed to be hit or something like that. It is hard to explain but it would become clear as time went on.
To be honest there was an element of fear but not in that sense, I’m not ashamed of it, but then who in their right mind wouldn’t be in that situation, then I’m not sure that I was a person in their right mind at that time, one thing was for sure from then on I was on my own, but there was something more than that, and the only way I can describe it is not only was it the nervous system being shot, I could also feel other people, I literally felt that prisoner who came up from behind me.
I did not nor do I blame the prisoners in anyway, they were being incited against me by one sent in by the system to do just that, it is a weapon used by those in authority in order to have others carryout there dirty work for them, often for payment of some sort, the prisoners were deceived and were acting in ignorance, though this may not be an acceptable excuse in the eyes of the law, lynching, raping, abusing in anyway, and of course killing is not acceptable.
I was called out and put in a holding cell until they could figure out where they were going to put me, I stayed in there over night while in there I still sang, sometime the next day they moved me to another tank. I arrived in tank 2P13, that was located on the 2nd floor, which consisted of eight man cells 24 man tank I think, this was a different style of tank with only one level in it, and it had bars for cell doors as you would see on TV, not the solid doors, the dayroom area was still the same area was still the same type we would have our meals in, and again with a TV. The exterior was hardened glass and there was a visible security camera.
I still had my chough which was really bad now, and I was still smoking, church was held in the hall way area, the ministers were again on the other side of the bars and a visible security camera.
It was now known how to keep me isolated, remember in 5E3, it was noticed how I had become sensitive to the environment, this gift if you would call it that was now being used against me, this method is used against me for the duration of my time in Texas.
This affected my time at church, I had become The Reject, I had the ability to feel things; I had become very sensitive and very aware of what was around me. Hell was well in progress.
They had also became aware there hearts (thoughts/minds), affected me in some way and it gets worse as the knowledge and abuse increases, I can only describe my condition is as I said my whole nervous system was shot, I was week and very shaky which could be heard in my voice. I am in 2P13 and they are aware that their minds somehow has an effect on me, things were about to get far more interesting.
The day came when I was to attend court, I was taken to the court building and placed in the holding cell for No 5 court while in the holding cell I said, “As the angel bound the mouths of the lions for Daniel so every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess His name” now this was not said in an aggressive or demanding manner or tone but a pleasant poetic tone. I had no idea what was happening it was my mouth however those words were not mine.
The fact is I had become as a child, a spiritual child, a change had taken place in 5E3, I had received a new mind, a spiritual mind, if only you could have seen me then you would understand, I had put a completely different meaning on being born again, so when I spoke I spoke in a tone, such a beautiful innocents that I don’t know how to explain.
I then went on to explain that God is the same today as in Genesis, I was teaching the prisoners, but yet again the evil one has distorted the meaning of that and has used warmongering/scaremongering in order to get his way.
I was called out to see the public defender and he told me the DA had offered me 5 years which I refused, I said I was not guilty; I went back in the cell for a while before being taken back to the tank. This is also proof that I had never confessed to the polygraph guy, or I would have accepted 5 years.
When I got back to 2p13 I was myself wondering what had happened, I was not acting, this was really happening to me and I had to figure it out for myself, there was clearly no-one who was going to help me, no-one on earth that is.
The story of Daniel in the lion’s den is one of the best known stories even movies have been made about it, from my knowledge I had always thought that God had tamed the lion’s.
I first had to see what the book of Daniel said, I opened the King James Bible (Dan chapter 6 verse 22) “My God hath sent his angel, and hath shut the lions mouths, that they have not hurt me…” not said as poetic as I had done but nonetheless it was proven to be true, I knew I had not spoken my own words but I had also spoken something that I did not even know and so poetically.
This was proof that at times I was not responsible for what I said, although the responsibility did lay with me, I had to carry the consequences of whatever words came out of my mouth.
I would of liked to pursue things further, however I still had the mental/spiritual abuse put on me by the system, or at least the evil-one who headed the system, and his use of the prisoners, for it was now certainly spiritual abuse, on top of the mental. I was also being led in the spirit, and we’re only at the beginning.
One night while laying on my bunk having been through a hard time something spiritual happened again, I described the experience in 5E3 as my nervous system being hit and it was, this was far more severe which I can only describe it as a form of nervous breakdown which obviously it wasn’t, but to see me afterwards one may think that.
The pain that night was so intense I felt as if something was torn out of me, I’m sure that something was, and there was an instant change in the morning that proved that something had happened, I had become week and wobbly, but the chough had gone, which was noticed by the prisoners because I had been getting on their nerves with my chough.
I referred to it as my fall because just before whatever it was happened I had said, while on my bunk, “The Anti-Christ is rising up out of Babylon” once again there is no-way these were my words, and I had no idea what it meant, the way I said things was not the way I would speak, I’m sure that anyone who knew me would confirm that.
A warning had been given. That’s all I know and I was struck down in some unknown way, every day for me was a rough day now, and I can’t go into every detail of every day and so not everything is written in this book, or it would be titled the never ending story.
Officers started to lead a death march up the hallway outside of the tank, they were trying to put fear in me, and send me a message, it never worked, one didn’t need brains to see what was happening, I was on my own there was no help or assistance from anyone in there, I had no one I could talk things over with, no one to give advice, I had to try and figure things out for myself while some prisoners would be nice to my face it was all for show, I was in a prison within a prison.
At night because my chough had gone there was silence, so the prisoners would start putting on a chough, there was obviously an element of nerves about them, they had heard my groan of pain the night before, I can never explain the pain of that night, but there was far more pain and suffering ahead of me, only I didn’t know it.
I would open my Bible and things would be revealed to me, I don’t mean I just open the bible and see where it lands in the way that some people do, I was being led and shown things that were relevant, even if I never understood at the time.
Things were being revealed to me in many different ways, I opened my Bible to (1 Thessalonians 5:19), “quench not the Spirit” often I didn’t understand things that was revealed to me, but I would later, was this a warning not to quench the spirit or is that what I had done that?
I went to church, I thought I had quenched the Spirit, I went up to the bars and I said feebly to the female member of the ministry “I quenched the Spirit” She laughed at me and shouted out to the others “H e’s crisped the Spirit” I was being mocked even by ministers, I could not even turn to the church, seems that even the ministries did not have this knowledge, however my condition was very visible, but there was no mercy.
Another thing that was revealed to me was, “Woe to those who made Judah to sin for their punishment will be far greater” I had no understanding of this whatsoever and yet later on it to was proven to be true. I was also shown, “when you are gone they shall know there had truly been a Prophet of God among them” I laughed at this and said to myself “me a Prophet” I never took it seriously or claimed to be any other than who I am, yet I was overheard and the slanderer had a field day with it, but I thought no more of it, but he had other things planned. I come to the realisation that I had prophesied, I had never really knew what prophesy