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Mother daughter relationships.

However there are also the mother daughter relationships that I have seen in my oldest sister,

as well as Mrs Smith, who try and live their life through their daughters, especially when they

reach the age from which they were abused. Instead of parenting their daughters, they

befriend them as if they were adolescent themselves. To the mother, it’s like getting back the

part of the life that they lost. For the daughter, it is confusing since there mentor is acting

irresponsibly. The mother won’t enforce boundaries, even though boundaries are something

every child needs, she can’t because she is breaking them herself. It is only the mother who

wins in these relationships. Although it fun for the daughter when she is thirteen, it becomes a

nightmare when it is still occurring at seventeen.

These mothers are sexual abuse victims who are unknowingly training their daughters to

become victims themselves.

The sad part is that each child learns more from what they see rather than what their told, and

if their environment is full of abuse, they’ll copy it. Each gender is a role model for their

same gender children and when their role model is the abuser, the child has no option but to

learn the same abusive trait. However there is hope. Although the dilemma begins when the

person is a child, eventually they become an adult and leave the family home. It is then that a

choice has to be made whether that child uses the abusive skill past down to them or change

to fit into the outside world. As adults we all have a choice.

When Mrs Smith gave her thirteen year-old daughter a mobile phone to take to school, which

is also against her schools policy. The two of them would message each other every day, but

one day the young girl sends a message that two girls wanted to beat her up. The mother

rushes to the school demanding to see the headmaster in an attempt to protect her child. The

head master wanted to know how she knew what going on during class hours, and

consequently gets her daughter in trouble for sending messages during class time. The girls

were not ready to beat her up, they just looked at her the wrong way.

What should have happened was that the mother should have taught her daughter how to

resolve conflict. The daughter is a confident young girl who can deal with issues if she wants

to. The advice should have gone something like; if you think you have upset someone, go

and ask them what you have done wrong. If they say ‘nothing’, then explain why you think

their mad at you. If they still aren’t mad at you then say ‘ok’ and walk away. If they tell you

why, then respectfully apologise and say you didn’t know. Give people the benefit of the

doubt before you run for help.

Children need to be taught how to resolve conflict. Fighting their battles for them only

satisfies the parent, while destroying the child’s self-confidence and creates more victims

along the way. This type of parent reaffirms their control over the child while usually leaving

the child in a worse predicament at school, mainly due to the dilemma that the parent left

behind. Imagine having a class mates bully of a mother come to school because you looked at

her daughter the wrong way? The daughter would become the laughing stock of the school,

behind her back, of course.

When I married a second time my mother-in-law was abusive to her daughter. With my

egotistical attitude, I believed I could save her from her mother’s control. Boy was I wrong.

Even after we married, my wife still tried to appease her mother. Although her mother

approved of me at the beginning, when I would not let her control me, we clashed. My wife

was so used to the manipulation from her mother that she didn’t cope with us making

decisions together, without including her mother. I didn’t cope, amongst other things, with

my mother-in-law deciding how we should decorate our family home. In the end it was her

mother who got her daughter to leave me, since I would not comply with my wife’s family

dysfunction. I had spent years overcoming my own family’s dysfunction; I wasn’t about to

step into another one.

Even though my wife was thirty, she did everything within her power to try and please her

mother. My now x-wife had spent all her life trying to get her mother’s affection and

approval. It was something she needed, yet her mother seemed incapable of giving it. And

yes, the mother was sexually abused as a child. The worst part is that I have seen the same

mother-daughter relationship in too many women that I have met, and it saddens me when I

see Mrs Smith’s oldest daughter overcompensating to try and receive approval from her

yelling mother.

I’m also glad to say that most mother-daughter relationships that I have seen are healthier

than these few.

~ 10 ~

Mother, son relationships.

One of the most popular dysfunctions is caused by both passive males as well as abusive

males, and that is when the dysfunctional mother replaces her husband with the first born son.

I’m not talking about sexually because women’s needs are different and I’m not talking about

the oldest child, just the oldest boy. Most women need a man to share the responsibility of

parenting. I have found that all women are capable, if not better at making decisions;

however, they desire confirmation and acceptance regarding finalising important decisions.

Most women rightfully want someone else to share the responsibility. However, some women

become emotionally starved in this area because their husband don’t communicate very well,

or don’t communicate at all. The consequence is that these women pour out their needs upon

the next available male, their son, even though it can cause emotional baggage for the boy.

Some boys grow up resenting their mother, as well as women who share their feelings, but

they are only a minority.

Most women enjoy participating in the decision making process of the family unit, but for

some reason, many men don’t. Consequently when the father leaves the decisions up to his

wife, it creates a vacuum in her life. It is the husband’s role in a marriage to participate in

decision making and ultimately, take responsibility for the outcome, however it is not

something that men are taught. When we are forced to do it, we usually do it well. But then

again when husband’s neglect their parenting role, the wives turn to their oldest son to fill the

void, however, we are still talking about children, not adult males.

My friend’s nine-year-old boy has been drafted into this role, and he is quite willing to take

on the position of decision maker for his mother. Even though he is the youngest, he has

learnt that this new role gives him acceptance by his mother, and power to manipulate his

three older sisters for his own selfish gain. With such power he is flourishing in the role of his

mother’s co-authority. This dysfunctional role will teach him to lie to authority and

manipulate anyone who has an advantage over him. He is a typical boy who has

dysfunctional parents, just as my parents were.

My mother, as well as my father’s mother, are women who have used their oldest son to fulfil

their emotional needs by having a male take responsibility for them. In the eyes of their

mother, however, these boys can do no wrong; after all, they are trying to be helpful where

the mother has a need.

My father and my oldest brother are no different from my friend’s nine-year-old boy.

However, it was fifty years ago for my oldest brother.

Seventy-five years ago my father’s father was away a lot with the army. I never knew him at

all to know what kind of person he was, but I do know he was irresponsible and that my

father’s mother was complacent and a submissive woman. Looking back now she seemed to

me as if she was always scared, always keeping a chair between her and her guests. But that

is the explanation from a small boy, I don’t remember much more than that about her.

However, my brother I do know well. My father was also away with the army a lot, but when

he was home he avoided the family politics by frequently visiting the pub at night. My

mother is a subservient Melancholy who needed someone else to take responsibility for her.

These boys are generations apart, yet I have noticed many similarities with their behaviour.

From an early age my oldest brother learnt to tell my mother what she wanted to hear and he

learnt that she would accept it, just as my friend’s nine-year-old boy has done. My brother

learnt that no matter whether it was true or not, any answer was acceptable as long as she

didn’t have to take responsibility for it.

When I spoke to my mother at a Christmas party some fifteen years ago, I mentioned how all

us five boys broke into a service station thirty years before. I was seven at the time. My

mother never knew of the event, and as I was telling the story, my brother chastised me for

telling her. I laughed it off and said, “What is she going to do, punish us?”

Looking back now, I can see that my brother’s motivation was to keep the negative truth

from my mother to protect her from feeling guilty. Since my mother is over emotional, my

brother has spent all his life trying to protect our mother from any bad emotions. He is still

doing it today, well into his sixties.

My father was also a first born son and I can see the similarities between my brother’s

behaviour towards our mother, and my father’s behaviour towards his mother. My father

never neglected to visit his mother every Sunday morning as long as he was not on duty with

the army. That was the caring part, but the scary part was when they made decisions on their

mother’s behalf.

When I approached my mother about my brother being a child molester, she was shocked to

the point of disbelief. It was not conceivable for her to comprehend him doing such a thing

and consequently put it out of her mind.

I did not have a lot of contact with my brother, especially after I refused to be his alibi while

he was having an affair. Because I didn’t keep in touch, I never knew the lies he told our

mother to cover up the awful truth that had occurred throughout the family. When I would

discuss any topic with my mother, my brother had already misled her, so I was being branded

a liar. My mother and my brother had been working together to run the family for more than

half a century, of course she was going to believe him. I soon discovered that a healthy

relationship with my mother was impossible, because I always contradicted my brother’s

deception. It was my brother who educated me that he lies to my mother, as he puts it, to

protect her.

Therefore, to be a part of my family, I have to comply with my brother’s deception and

pretend that nothing bad is happening to anyone. My oldest brother is not alone in this. The

‘don’t ask, don’t tell’ policy is ripe throughout my family although it is only there to hide the

cover-up and deception.

I am as old as Mrs Smith’s father, and although I try, she refuses to listen to any advice. Both

myself and her father predict that her son will end up in jail if he doesn’t learn to adhere to

authority. At present, the nine year old boy is manipulative and dictates to the mother. The

boy’s father is in a predicament where he is only allowed to punish the children on her say-

so. Other than that he avoids the family politics.

Will my friend’s nine-year-old boy turn out like my older brother or worse still like my

father? It is most likely. His mother already believes almost everything he says, but when he

is caught out lying, he is not punished for it. This only encourages him to come up with better

lies. He has changed the house rule because, as he says, they are unfair. Since he is the

youngest, it was in his best interest for him to go to bed first. The younger a child, the more

sleep they need, that’s a medical fact. However, when he constantly complained that the

others were staying up longer than him, the consequence was that the mother sent all the kids

to bed at the same time to shut him up. Hence, the power struggle. The older girls were being

punished because of an irresponsible mother who was led by an infant boy. The girls began to

resent him in a big way, causing even more conflict. Plus if he refuses to clean his room,

there is no consequence except for being branded as lazy; a label, like most men, he is happy

to live with, plus the mother just paid one of the girls to do it for him.

At nine, he is already disrespectful towards women, especially since he can manipulate his

mother, as well as his sisters. Thus the girls feel powerless in their family environment, which

means, I am sad to say, makes them already abuse victims, but worse still, they are vulnerable

and susceptible to sexual-abuse.

Having the child feel powerless is important to a predator so that even if the child wants to,

they can’t say no. Powerlessness is sown into the child from a very early age, which is why

they don’t believe they have a choice to change it. The feeling of not having an opinion,

misunderstood boundaries and not having their privacy respected often leaves a child

believing that they do not have the right to choose, thus, reaffirming their powerless to inflict

change. So when sexual abuse happens, even though it is neither invited nor wanted, the child

does not believe they have the power to stop it or challenge it.

I fear my friend’s children will turn out to be victims of sexual abuse, or as the statistics say,

one of the three. I’m hoping that any influence that I have had over the years may lure them

in a more healthy direction. It’s not likely, but I can only hope.

No child will accept abuse without complaining, until it has occurred so often and without

their complaints being dealt with, that they believe it is pointless to complain. Some

complaints fall on deaf ears, while other are belittled or justified. With some complaints,

actions are replaced with poor excuses, such as ‘you don’t feel that way’, or ‘it’s only me,

I’ve seen your body before’. Children who are often being told their feelings are wrong

eventually accept abuse as normal behaviour.

However, every child will try and implement change by complaining. If they are unsuccessful

to change their abusers, it only confirms their lack of power to entice change. When they

become adults, these children apply this powerlessness to their own lives, even without their

abuser controlling them.

Trust and respects are the basis for all human relationships, but what is a child to think and

learn when it is being betrayed by someone whom they are still forced to respect.

When they reach adulthood, many trust issues appear in their relationships, especially in

close relationships.

One of two things can result from child abuse, and the first is to kill any desire for intimacy.

The second is to assume that abuse is the equivalent of intimacy. Both of these wrong

conclusions cause conflict in relationship and since the victim is confused about their

emotions, quite often cause depression.

The problem with family abuse is that even in this day and age, verbal abuse is not illegal,

however it is immoral. The difference between abuse and discipline is that you should never

discipline out of anger. Only discipline to correct the child. This country, along with many

others has stepped up its laws in an attempt to reduce crime and increase revenue, but due to

the moral decline in government, the laws are still not there to prevent child abuse, however,

I really don’t think they can. It is up to us to make ourselves and our spouses accountable.

I remember when I was married to my second wife, her auntie complained to us about her

husband. She was concerned because their only daughter, a thirteen-year-old, began sleeping

in their bed. What began with a horrible stormy night turned into a regular event! The mother

also complained how her daughter said that she could feel her father’s penis when she sat on

his lap. The reason she complained to us was because her husband had already rejected her

concerns and didn’t see that there was a problem. I think secretly he was enjoying the

intimacy. There had not been any sexual intercourse between the father and child, but

according to the mother, it was inevitable if something didn’t change. The biggest problem

was that the child was not accustomed to intimacy at home. She had grown up neglected of

her basic emotional needs. Now that she was developing, she had discovered a way of getting

attention from her father. Albeit, the wrong kind of attention.

I lost contact with the family shortly after, due to my wife and I separating, so I don’t know

the outcome of this dilemma, but it wasn’t looking good at the time. My point is this: The

intimacy game became fun for her, because as an infant she was neglected.

What scared her mother was that it seemed that the daughter was instigating her father’s

sexual advances. It wasn’t just the husband crossing the boundaries; the daughter was

prompting her father’s reaction. But I can guarantee that if he took it further, she would not

have been so willing to participate and would receive a lot more than she bargained for or

wanted. The young girl had no real understanding of her own sexual desires; she was still

developing, growing and changing, while her father’s sexual desires had been fully

developed. To her it was a game that got her attention; it would be about another three or

more year before she understood what her own body was doing.

Grown men need to learn that young girls are venerable. It is this kind of ignorance that

makes it easy for predators. The only hope a girl has, is for her guardians to watch out for her

well-being, and that’s not going to happen in an abusive family.

The role of parenting has been degrading for more than a thousand years since it refers to sex

as a taboo subject, and society today has also done its part to destroy how families ignore the

topic. Many parents don’t believe they have a role in helping their children select a lifetime

partner, but then these same parents also wonder why the divorce rate is so high.

With the introduction of casual sex, many ill-informed adolescents believe that sex,

specifically intercourse, is a game to play as long as you’re wearing a condom. The truth is, it

is a game full of broken hearts and bitterness. Nothing good comes from a promiscuous life

style. Sex was designed to complete two people who are in love. It was also designed to join

these two people spiritually. That is why it is so hard to break up with someone after you

have slept with them. What most people don’t realise is that marriage is not a piece of paper.

The ceremony is a man’s commitment to provide romance for his wife. Marriage, whether

you like it or not, occurs when two people join spiritually through intercourse. The evidence

is found in two ways. Firstly, even the law know that you can tear up a marriage certificate if

the marriage is not consummated. They call this legal term an annulment. Secondly, as I said

before, try walking away after having intercourse and sense a piece of your soul being ripped

out from within of your very being.

This is also why adultery is considered the most single worst act of betrayal. One partner

does not have the right to allow another person’s spirit to meld within their relationship

without their partners consent. This is also why the innocent partner can detect that

something is different with their cheating partner.

In other words, there is more to sexual relationships that just a feel good experience. Sex is

life changing and that is why it is imperative to keep it healthy.

~ 11 ~

Children’s needs.

Many children build a bond with the adults in their life, which, by the way, is normal

behaviour. It is when that bond is mistaken for attraction.

An adult who has had an unhealthy childhood hasn’t learnt that parents and children can hug

and play without it having sexual connotations. When a child play-fights with their dad or

hugs him or mum, the child does not observe sexual feelings. They are too young to have

sexual senses, however they do feel intimacy, a bond, and a connection. They feel joy,

laughter, fun and affection, but above all they feel acceptance. As for the parents it is their job

to nurture the child and physical contact and intimacy is part of that nurturing.

Intimacy is not just a hand shake; intimacy is a hug, or a kiss, its being allowed to step into

another person’s personal space. It’s watching a movie together so that you have something

in common; it’s talking about your day so that you can connect with each other’s feelings; it’s

leaning on each other on the couch while chatting, it’s having that spiritual connection

because you are like minded. To a young child, these things are bliss, to a teenager they are

everything; but to an adult they’re like comfort food. None of these things are foreplay; none

of these things are sexual, however, they are a way of connecting and nurturing. Nurturing a

child is like fertilizer, not so much as feeding the body, but food for the soul and spirit of the

child, it is the necessary food it needs to grow into a healthy adult.

However if a child grows up without ever receiving intimacy, where they were only punished

and never hugged as a child, then as an adult, their intimacy experiences become coupled

with sexual feelings. Consequently, when they do touch or hug as an adult, the sexual feeling

are aroused no matter who it is with, male or female, adult or child. Unhealthy adults learn

that any form of intimacy has sexual feelings attached. This is also why some people accept

same sex attraction as normal sexual behaviour, when it is not. It has been derived from the

same unhealthy childhood due to a lack of intimacy growing up.

The excuse people use for same sex attraction is that they are in love with someone of the

same sex. Granted, yet if an adult is in love with a child, why then is it wrong to have sex

with a child if you can get the child to consent? Simply because sex does not automatically

cultivate from a loving relationship. It is not wrong for a man to love another man, we just

call that admiration. Sex, on the other hand, is a choice. We can still love someone without

having sex.

So to us unhealthy adults, I have this advice. Firstly it is important to bestow healthy

relationships with children and allow the children to receive nurturing as well as experience

intimacy and acceptance. However, with intimacy, do it in front of other people, especially

people who will challenge you. And that brings me to an important point, accountability. The

people around you need to know that they can challenge you, not just with children, but with

all things. That is healthy for every adult.

I have watched the news recently where an English actor in his fifties has married an eighteen

year-old boy. Because they are at an age of consent, the law is powerless to do anything.

Because it is a gay issue, the public is for democracy and equality, they claim they have the

right to choose. And granted they do. However I believe they are making uninformed

decisions according to their misguided upbringing that will affect the rest of their lives.

Because gay right are now become law, there is no longer any accountability for misled

relationships.

The word love is thrown around like it the catalyst of their relationship, yet as in most sexual

encounters, lust is the driving force for this adult, while acceptance and belonging is what

drives the pretty eighteen year-old boy. He has been taken advantage of because of his needs,

but because of his needs and his conditioning, he accepts the consequence of an immoral

lifestyle. Yet if this r