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perfect confidence. There are obligations that a glacial evolutionary

period can not lessen. I make no conditions but the simple proof of

proper identity. I am not rich but I am grateful.

It was a Saturday evening when I became aware, as by prescience, that

there hung over Sir William Wallice and Helen Mar some terrible shadow

of fate. And the piano-forte across the hall played ”La R`eve.” My heart

failed me and I closed the book. If you can’t do that, my friend, then

you waste your time trying to be a novel reader. You have not the true

touch of genius for it. It is the miracle of eating your cake and having

it, too. It must have been the unconscious moving of novel reading

genius in me. For I forgot, as clearly as if it were not a possibility,

that the next day was Sunday. And so hurried o, before time, to bed,

to be alone with the burden on my heart.

”Backward, turn backward, O Time in your flight–

Make me a child again just for tonight.”

There are two or three novels I should love to take to bed as of

yore–not to read, but to suer over and to contemplate and to seek

calmness and courage with which to face the inevitable. Could there be

men base enough to do to death the noble Wallace? Or to break the heart

of Helen Mar with grief ? No argument could remove the presentiment, but

facing the matter gave courage. ”Let tomorrow answer,” I thought, as the

piano-forte in the next room played ”La R`eve.” Then fell asleep.

And when I awoke next morning to the full knowledge that it was Sunday,

I could have murdered the calendar. For Sunday was Dies Irae. After

Sunday-school, at least. There is a certain amount of fun to be to

extracted from Sunday-school. The remainder of those early Sundays was

confined to reading the Bible or storybooks from the Sunday-school

library–books, by the Lord Harry, that seem to be contrived especially

to make out of healthy children life-long enemies of the church, and to

bind hypocrites to the altar with hooks of steel. There was no whistling

at all permitted; singing of hymns was encouraged; no ”playing”–playing

on Sunday was a distinct source of displeasure to Heaven! Are free-born

men nine years of age to endure such tyranny with resignation? Ask the

kids of today–and with one voice, as true men and free, they will

answer you, ”Nit!” In the dark days of my youth liberty was in chains,

and so Sunday was passed in dreadful suspense as to what was doing in

Scotland.

Monday night after supper I rejoined Sir William in his captivity and

soon saw that my worst fears were to be realized. My father sat on the

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opposite side of the table reading politics; my mother was eecting the

restoration of socks; my brother was engaged in unraveling mathematical

tangles, and in the parlor across the hall my sister sat alone with

her piano patiently debating ”La R`eve.” Under these circumstances I

encountered the first great miracle of intellectual emotion in the

chapter describing the execution of William Wallace on Tower Hill. No

other incident of life has left upon me such a profound impression.

It was as if I had sprung at one bound into the arena of heroism. I

remember it all. How Wallace delivered himself of theological and

Christian precepts to Helen Mar after which they both knelt before the

ociating priest. That she thought or said, ”My life will expire with

yours!” It was the keynote of death and life devotion. It was worthy to

usher Wallace up the scaold steps where he stood with his hands bound,

”his noble head uncovered.” There was much Christian edification, but

the presence of such a hero as he with ”noble Head uncovered” would

enable any man nine years old with a spark of honor and sympathy in him

to endure agonizing amounts of edification. Then suddenly there was a

frightful shudder in my heart. The hangman approached with the rope, and

Helen Mar, with a shriek, threw herself upon Wallace’s breast. Then the

great moment. If I live a thousand years these lines will always be

with me: ”Wallace, with a mighty strength, burst the bonds asunder that

confined his arms and clasped her to his heart!”

In reading some critical or pretended text books on construction since

that time I came across this sentence used to illustrate tautology. It

was pointed out that the bonds couldn’t be ”burst” without necessarily

being asunder. The confoundedest outrages in this world are the capers

that precisionists cut upon the bodies of the noble dead. And with

impunity too. Think of a village surveyor measuring the forest of Arden

to discover the exact acreage! Or a horse-doctor elevating his eye-brow

with a contemptuous smile and turning away, as from an innocent, when

you speak of the wings of that fine horse, Pegasus! Any idiot knows

that bonds couldn’t be burst without being burst asunder. But, let the

impregnable Jackass think–what would become of the noble rhythm and the

ma jestic roll of sound? Shakespeare was an ignorant dunce also when he

characterized the ingratitude that involves the principle of public

honor as ”the unkindest cut of all.” Every school child knows that it is

ungrammatical; but only those who have any sense learn after awhile the

esoteric secret that it sometimes requires a tragedy of language to

provide fitting sacrifice to the manes of despair. There never was yet

a man of genius who wrote grammatically and under the scourge of

rhetorical rules. Anthony Trollope is a most perfect example of the

exact correctness that sterilizes in its own immaculate chastity.

Thackeray would knock a qualifying adverb across the street, or thrust

it under your nose to make room for the vivid force of an idea. Trollope

would give the idea a decent funeral for the sake of having his adverb

appear at the grave above reproach from grammatical gossip. Whenever I

have risen from the splendid psychological perspective of old Job, the

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solemn introspective howls of Ecclesiasticus and the generous living

philosophy of Shakespeare it has always been with the desire–of course

it is undignified, but it is human–to go and get an English grammar

for the pleasure of spitting upon it. Let us be honest. I understand

everything about grammar except what it means; but if you will give me

the living substance and the proper spirit any gentleman who desires the

grammatical rules may have them, and be hanged to him! And, while it

may appear presumptuous, I can conscientiously say that it will not be

agreeable to me to settle down in heaven with a class of persons who

demand the rules of grammar for the intellectual reason that corresponds

to the call for crutches by one-legged men.

If the foregoing appear ill-tempered pray forget it. Remember rather

that I have sought to leave my friend Sir William Wallace, holding Helen

Mar on his breast as long as possible. And yet, I also loved her! Can

human nature go farther than that?

”Helen,” he said to her, ”life’s cord is cut by God’s own hand.” He

stooped, he fell, and the fall shook the scaold. Helen–that glorified

heroine–raised his head to her lap. The noble Earl of Gloucester

stepped forward, took the head in his hands.

”There,” he cried in a burst of grief, letting it fall again upon the

insensible bosom of Helen, ”there broke the noblest heart that ever beat

in the breast of man!”

That page or two of description I read with diculty and agony through

blinding tears, and when Gloucester spoke his splendid eulogy my head

fell on the table and I broke into such wild sobbing that the little

family sprang up in astonishment. I could not explain until my mother,

having led me to my room, succeeded in soothing me into calmness and

I told her the cause of it. And she saw me to bed with sympathetic

caresses and, after she left, it all broke out afresh and I cried myself

to sleep in utter desolation and wretchedness. Of course the matter

got out and my father began the book. He was sixty years old, not an

indiscriminate reader, but a man of kind and boyish heart. I felt a sort

of fascinated curiosity to watch him when he reached the chapter that

had broken me. And, as if it were yesterday, I can see him under the

lamplight compressing his lips, or pung like a smoker through them,

taking o his spectacles, and blowing his nose with great ceremony and

carelessly allowing the handkerchief to reach his eyes. Then another

paragraph and he would complain of the glasses and wipe them carefully,

also his eyes, and replace the spectacles. But he never looked at me,

and when he suddenly banged the lids together and, turning away, sat

staring into the fire with his head bent forward, making unconcealed use

of the handkerchief, I felt a sudden sympathy for him and sneaked out.

He would have made a great novel reader if he had had the heart. But he

couldn’t stand sorrow and pain. The novel reader must have a heart

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for every fate. For a week or more I read that great chapter and its

approaches over and over, weeping less and less, until I had worn out

that first grief, and could look with dry eyes upon my dead. And never

since have I dared to return to it. Let who will speak freely in other

tones of ”Scottish Chiefs”–opinions are sacred liberties–but as for

me I know it changed my career from one of ruthless piracy to better

purposes, and certain boys of my private acquaintance are introduced to

Miss Jane Porter as soon as they show similar bent.

IV.

THE FIRST NOVEL TO READ

CONTAINING SOME SCANDALOUS REMARKS ABOUT ”ROBINSON

CRUSOE”

The very best First-Novel-To-Read in all fiction is ”Robinson Crusoe.”

There is no dogmatism in the declaration; it is the announcement of a

fact as well ascertained as the accuracy of the multiplication table. It

is one of the delights of novel reading that you may have any opinion

you please and fire it o with confidence, without gainsay. Those who

dier with you merely have another opinion, which is not sacred and

cannot be proved any more than yours. All of the elements of supreme

test of imaginative interest are in ”Robinson Crusoe.” Love is absent,

but that is not a test; love appeals to persons who cannot read or

write–it is universal, as hunger and thirst.

The book-reading boy is easily discovered; you always catch him reading

books. But the novel-reading boy has a system of his own, a sort of

instinctive way of getting the greatest excitement out of the story, the

very best run for his money. This sort of boy soon learns to sit with

his feet drawn up on the upper rung of a chair, so that from the knees

to the thighs there is a gentle declivity of about thirty degrees;

the knees are nicely separated that the book may lie on them without

holding. That involves one of the most cunning of psychological secrets;

because, if the boy is not a novel reader, he does not want the book to

lie open, since every time it closes he gains just that much relief

in finding the place again. The novel-reading boy knows the trick of

immortal wisdom; he can go through the old book cases and pick the

treasures of novels by the way they lie open; if he gets hold of a new

or especially fine edition of his father’s he need not be told to wrench

it open in the middle and break the back of the binding–he does it

instinctively.

There are other symptoms of the born novel reader to be observed in him.

If he reads at night he is careful to so place his chair that the light

will fall on the page from a direction that will ultimately ruin the

eyes–but it does not interfere with the light. He humps himself over

the open volume and begins to display that unerring curvalinearity of

the spine that compels his mother to study braces and to fear that he

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will develop consumption. Yet you can study the world’s health records

and never find a line to prove that any man with ”occupation or

profession–novel reading” is recorded as dying of consumption. The

humped-over attitude promotes compression of the lungs, telescoping of

the diaphragm, atrophy of the abdominal abracadabra and other

things (see Physiological Slush, p. 179, et seq.); but–it–never–

hurts–the–boy!

To a novel reading boy the position is one of instinct, like that of

the bicycle racer. His eyes are strained, his nerves and muscles at

tension–everything ready for excitement–and the book, lying open,

leaves his hands perfectly free to drum on the sides of the chair, slap

his legs and knees, fumble in his pockets or even scratch his head as

emotion or interest demand. Does anybody deny that the highest proof of

special genius is the possession of the instinct to adapt itself to the

matter in hand? Nothing more need be said.

Now, if you will observe carefully such a boy when he comes to a certain

point in ”Robinson Crusoe” you may recognize the stroke of fate in his

destiny. If he’s the right sort, he will read gayly along; he drums, he

slaps himself, he beats his breast, he scratches his head. Suddenly

there will come the shock. He is reading rapidly and gloriously.

He finds his knife in his pocket, as usual, and puts it back; the

top-string is there; he drums the devil’s tattoo, he wets his finger

and smears the margin of the page as he whirls it over and then–he

finds–”The–Print–of–a–Man’s–Naked–Foot–on–the–Shore!!!”

Oh, Crackey! At this tremendous moment the novel reader who has genius

drums no more. His hands have seized the upper edges of the muslin lids,

he presses the lower edges against his stomach, his back takes an

added intensity of hump, his eyes bulge, his heart thumps–he is

landed–landed!

Terror, surprise, sympathy, hope, skepticism, doubt–come all ye

trooping emotions to threaten or console; but an end has come to fairy

stories and wonder tales–Master Stud