No One Is Here
I gave you my all and I am trying so hard, I am
trying my best,
I am trying to live my life without your head
on my chest.
Thou art no more is hard to believe but I have
to accept,
You're still living in my heart that has not
slept but wept.
You were there to guide me but I do not know
what to do,
I cook, I shop and I go for a ride but all these
are without you.
There is no desire there is no inspiration and I
am confused,
I wanted to come and join you but yam doot *
has refused.
It is hard to live in the present when the mind
dwells in the past,
I do not know what I have lost and I know not
how long this will last.
I live in a world of loneliness and am drowning
in the lake of sorrow,
I am struggling to move on but all the roads
have become so narrow.
Lakhan longs to live the same caring and
loving life you gave him,
His beloved Saroj is gone and no one is here to
be with him.
This life is hard without the Pretty Lotus
around,
However, everyday I keep hearing that sweet
sound.
*the one who takes life away.
@
I was a hard person to love but when I loved
someone I was really hard.
FOR HER SAKE
The empty feeling here is making me very
tired,
I feel all alone and lonely but more than
retired.
At night I lay in bed staring at that cruel
ceiling,
It looks like a wide screen shows all past
feeling.
I sit up when you are part of that loving
moment,
I begin to call but you do not make any
comment.
I go to sleep with these fond memories in my
eyes,
I long to have that dream that give me the old
ties.
Dreams are just dreams far from your
Presence,.
They can't heal my suffering but act as
penance.
I yearn to stroll hand in hand in our back
yard,
Gaze at the stars and the moon with your
card.
The card that you gave me when I turned
seventy,
That was the most precious gift out of the
plenty.
When the moon is up the whole sky then
weeps,
Tears flood my thoughts then the heart sleeps.
I am left to imagine your touch that gave me
joy,
All is so gentle, loving and kind like a child's
toy.
I never expected this to happen not in my
dream,
Prince charming is not part of peach and
cream.
It was your sweetest smile that melted my
heart,
The strong feeling was ingrained in me from
start.
Whatever can be the reason for me to feel this
way,
I know that strong feeling grows stronger
everyday.
All the year I have been praying to grant you
bliss,
Every now and then I dream but that too is
amiss.
I'm badly wounded and can't ever heal my
senses,
Your passing away broke me into thousand
pieces.
No one has any clue of the pain I've been
through,
It's hard to guess the sleepless night I did
accrue.
Darling you've left me with all these
heartaches,
Friends see me smiling but can't feel my
aches.
I can't just surrender the pain and let things
go,
To ease and cease the misery I need to go
slow.
My happiness means seeing you happy and
gay,
Let me say this once more I love you everyday.
Lakhan sheds a few tears how much can he
take,
Saroj knows well that I can live well for her
sake.
@
On the days I caught myself smiling for no
reason and then I realized that I was thinking
of you.