An Ode to My Pretty Lotus,
My Saroj on her 74th Birthday.
Just Give Me Your Usual Smile My Dear,
The bright light of my love life has gone out,
There’s no fun left in life and I’m loosing out,
I beseech thee to give me your usual mystic
smile,
To brighten up my world and walk another
mile.
Give me your usual smile just once more My
Dear.
It would alter my disposition,
It would change my emotion,
My life would change altogether,
I would have nothing to bother,
The flowers would bloom again,
The birds would sing once again,
Clouds would pour sweet rain,
The wind would keep me sane,
The stars would twinkle for me,
The moon would shine you see,
The fairies would dance for me,
My life would change you’ll see.
Give me your usual smile just once more My
Dear.
My eyes would blink with joy,
My lips would talk like a toy,
Life would be full of laughter,
Nothing to worry me hereafter,
All heaven would sing merrily,
My image would change surely,
The sun would kiss my forehead,
To bless me to let me look ahead,
I’d be sailing to the safer shore,
There would be storms no more,
All my prayers would be answered,
All my questions treasured.
Give me your usual smile just once more My
Dear.
I’m moving like a lonely traveller,
All is dark and I have no calendar,
Fear of future bothers me everyday,
I am afraid I’ve forgotten the highway,
My attire and my mind are unsettled,
Fear of failure keeps me all rattled,
Hiding behind a façade of doubts
I have lost my will for any bouts,
My past is haunting me heavily,
My future is now uncertain really,
All wishes have gone wishy washy,
All the thoughts are now bushy.
Give me your usual smile just once more My
Dear.
My life is full of stress and strain,
It is turning and twisting in vain,
I’m counting the falling stars at night,
There is no hope near or any in sight,
Fear dwells in my heart with rare pain,
It gets worse when it begins to rain,
The darker nights give me no hope,
I find it harder and harder to cope,
There is a strong burn in the heart,
It inflicts fire and lets flame to start,
These hurt my inside and outside,
And I’m unable to leave them aside,
Give me your usual smile just once more My
Dear.
You are the bright light of my life,
You have been my beloved wife,
Let me repeat it once more my dear,
You are the music of my life my dear,
Let me ask you a simple question my dear,
Give me an answer to my question My Dear.
How do I live my life without you?
What do I do with my life without you?
Why don’t you share your mystic smile?
Let me live well and walk another mile.
Teach me not to worry and learn to smile,
I will love you more and keep your smile,
Give me your usual smile just once more
My Dear.
Your birth on 15th August 1940 was for me
alone,
Our first meeting on 14th February 1959 was
set on stone.
Our marriage on 19th January 1964 was a
glorious day,
Our family life of over fifty years was happy
and gay.
Your life and living was all full of caring and
giving,
I am now all lost and lonely and have given up
living.
Your departure on 14th March 2013 tore my
heart apart,
I’ve been trying to live but the body dwells
without a heart.
On your 74th birthday, I wanted to sing and
dance,
I can’t do these cos you’re not giving me a
chance.
I will look heavenward to see you smile once
more,
You’re sitting by the super moon and the stars
galore.
Give me your usual smile just once more my
dear.
I’ll sing this ode for you forever without any
fear.
Composed at Denarau Resort Fiji on 15th August 2014.