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by
Shokoya Daniel Oriola
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Selection and introduction copyright
© _horiolla
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Introduction
Soil
- The good old days
ife_sokoya
- A story i've never told
- What I've learnt from my mother
- Why would two men fight?
- An introvert like me
Sunkanmi
- Twelve days feeding on xanny
- No one knows me like me
Sunkanmi
- He is
- Just another night
Hell
- I still remember
- Unknown
ft. Shayo
- Pillow thought
- Weak in Love
ft. Tessy
- Broken Letters I
ft. Elgran
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- Words from my Heart
- Grieving
- Broken Letters II
ft. Authoree_bee
- Lost Love
Shayo
- Suicidal love rosette
- Soon
Lake
- Her
- Lost Boy
- My Prettiest Everything
- Don't Give Up On Me
- For You
- Hey You
- Untitled
ft. Toluwani
- I need you
- What I need
- I'm only human
ft. Shayo
- Love Lasts
GOODBYE
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You may or may not understand the language of these writings or the emotions in which they are founded but what they say and what you read are the subtler details of our feelings, thinking, hurting, loving, and imagining .
And these are what we've hold close to us and for years, these writings have lived and will live, till forever in our midst…..in your midst.
- Shokoya Daniel Oriola (_horiolla) 6
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Shokoya Daniel Oriola
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Soil
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Ife_so
Sitting by the riverside
almost slipping through the slide remembering the ways
in the good old days
Our fathers, biting the corn from the farm rubbing the balm
on the parts wounded
by the hoes and cutlass which the blacksmith are founded Our mother, telling the tales of how animals got their tails our youth, dancing under the full moon’s light showcasing their might
but all these are now stories as civilization has taken away the glories having slapped us right in the face can we ever be steady in pace?
in our forefathers’ ways
like the good old days.
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_ho la
Let me tell you a story I've never told there was her who had the fear of growing old she would sit in the rain and embrace the cold hopelessly clutching up for a hand to hold And there was him, fighting against his fears been it on for long, struggling with it for years he would cry everytime his anxiety appears so he started drinking and going out more with his peers But, one night they met
eyes focused on each other, worries absent and time rewinding like an old cassette holding each other, hoping not to forget what every moment meant.
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WHAT I'VE LEARNT FROM MY MOTHER
_ho la
What I've learnt from my mother listen, be obedient and you shall prosper everytime you're down, always remember not to give up, there are things to discover What I've learnt from my mother how to dance and rejoice in all situation and everytime you experience commotion always call on God for solution What I've learnt from my mother ever put your family in your elisions and love doesn't only deal with your emotions but your choices, be right with your decisions.
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_ho la
I lay awake late at night
buried in deep thought and fright wondering why two men would fight so I pick up a note and pen, and I start to write Why would two men fight?
is it for a prize or just a test of might?
is it to win a woman's heart or just her thigh?
is it for a trophy or just to claim a right?
I know, when two men fight
they close both mouth and fist so tight tirelessly showcasing their might until one or the other surrenders in fright.
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Pacing around and thinking, Either with my phone or sleeping.
Moody today, lively tomorrow.
Always about happiness or sorrow.
I'm shy, I'm ugly;
But people keep saying otherwise.
You're cute and friendly;
And yet they all sound like lies.
I'll watch movies or play games.
I'll think of my past actions, People from my past and their names.
They'll probably need sanctions.
Always indoors, daydreaming.
Not wanting to see anyone.
I'm not a special being,
I'm simply no-one.
© someone........
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_ho la
It's twelve days feeding on xanny and I don't know myself anymore the influence just can't let go of me everything I hear is like an heavenly call Anger and rage taking over me i striked my head against the wall the effect is in real control of me and my past I can't recall
I had this dream, you were in love with me we were locked in a hug, you didn't even withdraw and it almost felt like it was real I'd believe if there were rainfall Please, just try and check up on me send a letter, come over or call
'cause it's twelve days feeding on xanny and I don't know myself anymore.
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NO ONE KNOWS ME LIKE ME - Sun m
This is a story of me,
Not what others see.
A story of my only struggle, And how I became a muggle.
Walking with a smile and my face down , Goofing around and acting like a clown.
I want people to see me as 'Unserious', And someone who doesn't get furious.
What they think they know isn't true.
My personality is like a flu.
Switching between persons
At night and morning lessons.
You say I'm friendly,
You just don't see me clearly.
I'm not what I seem to be.
No one knows me like ME.
© someone........
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_ho la
He's the saviour, he's the healer, he's the cure, I know he's the end, he's the beginning, his grace overflow he's the light in the darkness, hear me say he knows what's best for all, he makes no mistakes he sees my future and his presence will I ever stay He's the king of kings that wins all war he's the all in all, the forevermore he is the bread of life, he's the way he's the creator, the redeemer, hear me say he knows all, and his glory I portray He brought life to the reality you see And things ahead he already foresee I won't let go, he's all I need to have he's the one who laid his life to change my life he's the only opportunity to be saved.
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_ho la
it's just another night
just another time to think about your life like something's not right
and you don't know why
what would you do?
when you're feeling like you're drowning and there's no one to save you what would you do?
when you're calling out for help and nobody hears you
It's just another night
just another time to battle those frights for your heart to hold on tight before it dies
what would you do?
when you're feeling like you're tired and no one motivates you
what would you do?
when you let the words out
and nobody understands you
it's just another night
Just another night that'll pass like every other nights
'cause it's going to be alright just look by your sides
and count every blessing
forget about the betrayals and the lies let go of every of the records your limit was never the sky.
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Hell
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_ho la
I stil remember
that day in September
your head on my shoulder
and the view was nicer
we were sitting in the corner you in your jumper
and you were getting colder so I o ered my sweater
you didn't see but see her
like I was dim and she was brighter like I wasn't even half as prettier and you left me stil o ering my sweater stil sitting in the corner hoping we'l get back together and I'l forget to remember that day in the September….
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_ho la & Sha
I know but I'm not known,
I know the caliber of her laugh, I know the strength of her smile, I know the taste of her voice I know who she is,
I know who she was,
I know who she wants to be.
But I'm never known,
for what I want,
is what we could never have.
She is the light,
and forever I remain a shadow.
I hear but I'm not heard,
I hear the giggles in her laugh, I hear the chuckles in her smile, I hear the sweetness in her voice I hear how pretty she looks, how hopeful she looks,
how happier she looks.
But I'm never heard,
for what I say,
is what we could never be.
She is the voice,
and forever I remain an echo.
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_ho la
I lay awake late at night
buried in deep thought and fright wondering if everything would turn out right so I pick up a note and pen, and I start to write What if our tomorrow never comes?
what if you turn into a lady I loved once?
what if our story was never meant to be?
what if I'm holding you back from being free?
What if our love suddenly ends?
what if our ways we can't wend?
what if we ran out of things to say?
what if it turns out to be the other way?
I closed my eyes, trying to gure it out struggling and ghting al doubt but whatever way it turns out to be never forget there was once a you and me.
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_ho la & Tes
A fool for love was what I was cal ed not once not twice, i was fed lies down memory lane, I can recal treated like tho I was a mice A fool for love I was cal ed as I weeped in pain
knowing I should have never trust as he said sex was the only urge Now, i'm a shape-shifter
a bad joker and an over-thinker I feel but never tel
feelings I wish I could sel I'm lost and broken
the thought of being with him was al gone so lost, sober and Heartbroken unlike before which is now bygone
'Cause, now I'm a Day-dreamer a slow runner and a past dwel er i lose feelings that get old
'cause of fear of getting scold I know this sounds strange
and also it's something you can't change before you think of a shove know I'm weak in love.
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BROKEN LETTERS I _ho la & El an
From Michael
Time: 9:30pm
Date: 02/04/2021
Though, we've been friends since junior high
lot of people in my life, but, I loved it when it's you and I really enjoyed your company so I never crossed my line I felt I loved you
but my feelings I can't decide friends or lovers??
I couldn't choose a side at a point or another
I felt like you were mine But I free myself off it when I felt your ego rise why would i jeopardize my worth?
just to value your pride even at the age of twenty-five I couldn't count the numbers of guys you had in your life
Thought you would change but you didn't, though
wonder why you didn't
till I developed a dolor thought I could endure it I realize, I was moving more slow I'll be honest till the end 23
so I won't lie I came out straight
to tell you my mind
and you swear by the stars that I was the only guy which only turned out to be a lie only for you to blame it on your zodiac sign
and I realized, I jeopardized my worth just to value your pride being with you was nothing it only wrecked my life all I did with you was nothing but a waste of time
you can go running around deceiving the guys
what you would hear from me is just a sober good bye
'cause, I prefer a decent one to an harlot wife.
From Helena
Time: 10:32pm
Date: 09/04/2021
Maybe your indecision
Made things sour between us?
I wanted you as a lover not as a friend From the very beginning But you friend-zoned me the minute you came close 24
Did you never notice how my face changed
whenever another girl came close?
Did you never notice
how I laughed at all of your dry jokes?, You liked me, this I was sure of But was it as friends or lovers?
This I could never pinpoint Yes, at 25
I had guys at my beck and call That never meant i slept with them all.
Yes, I was egoistic
'Cause I couldn't take it anymore You took me for a duff who'll always be there While you had fun with every other girl I loved you but hey I have a heart too.
Damn how I wish
You'd called me up someday And asked me
Why the sudden change?
But no you never did
Probably cause you thought I'd come running into your arms like I always did
Fast forward to 2019
You finally opened up that you felt something, I had a lover but to your proposal I said yes
Blame me all you want
For wanting to hold and kiss the lips Of the first person I ever felt true love for, You could call it first love syndrome 25
I tried to make things work, I really did
But you broke my heart
The very first time I felt true love Now I'm to broken to love My pride my worth
All I did was show you love, In the process of giving you my all I was left in disarray
And nothing to show for the precious moments I thought we shared.
To every guy like you that comes my way I hope and I pray that they taste the bitter part of love you've shown me this day.
But for now
Blame me all you want
Call me an harlot or whatever name you choose It was never meant to end this way But our ego ended our beautiful love story before it began.
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_ho la
My feelings I can’t express
'cause, I’m so uncertain, I guess that I’l die if I drink
and my choices I can’t rethink i can’t stick up for myself i’l rather start a new life I’m cold and nothing can help even If you raise to yelp
'cause, as many people disappear this cold only get severe
i’m so cold, can’t they see?
it’s feel like no one wants me I’m so sick of being alone
i’d better nd my clone
i don’t even know where to start i feel my life’s apart
al I want is my life’s redeem where’s my fucking living dream?
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_ho la
Coming from my heart are words that I can't explain so I left my heart open, but it got frozen after days it felt numb, but it keeps sending shivers to my bone feels tame, but it would kil me if left alone Coming from my heart are feeling that I can't change so I carried my heart and locked it up in a cage I thought leaving it in the dark would help kil ing its hope to feel I don't understand, these feelings kept on coming stil Maybe I should wait for savior Love to come around probably it would make my heartbeat sound But til then, I'l look for hope i'l pack my al , run from home across the sea, I'l take a ride I won't stop til I'm warm inside. .
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_ho la
That night, just as she was about to sleep, her phone buzzed…. on checking it, she rol ed her eyes.
It's another text from Alex.
Do you think I can get one last kiss??
my lips will find closure and then I'll leave maybe one more lunch
or one more dinner, late at night or one more dance in the twilight for the last time
as your hands hold mine my heart will crow
and I won't get on the path that i let you go
'Cause, this is my heart grieving.
- Ale
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BROKEN LETTERS II _ho la & Aut
e_be
And when the glitters is gone everything scatters on the oor no one sees the sore in my heart stil trying to ght the emotions but the memories keeps coming afresh i didn’t see any reason to pick up the pieces again maybe I’d just give up on it al love, emotions and feelings I won’t bother you anymore
i won’t push it any further i won’t ask for it again
my heart has been shattered into pieces yes, I know!
and then the memories of you fol ows me like my shadow maybe it’s for me to realize that not al that glitters is truly Gold.
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- Sha
We built our love brick by brick, Growing stronger with every stick.
And when our love felt arcane, We bit our lips, ignoring the pain.
Now we cower with eyes on our scars, Sit back and realise how lonely we are.
Broken beyond repair,
Lost and oating in despair.
No pieces left to pick,
Barely living and barely sane.
Hearts burned as black as far, Fading into the darkness and away.
Maybe our love was wrong,
And we played house for too long.
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_ho la
That moment he stepped out, his gaze settled on me, I saw his eyes lightening up as he took in my voluptuous gure in my lingerie. I stretched out my hand to him and he whispered…
For every other days, I'll be yours and I'll accept been called the fool for loving the wrong one's flaws but tonight,I wanna die in you even though, it's wrong to be loved by you.
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_ho la
Soon, his body wil get cold and al wil see
not al wil get old
soon, his words wil fail
and you al wil see
some dreams are stale
Soon, the curtain wil fal
and the light wil fade out what wil be the end of it al ??
soon his voice wil fade
but somethings wil be left out al that he thought and made Soon, the truth wil unfold and you al wil see
al he craved was a hand to hold soon, his words wil prevail and al wil just see
and pass them as tales…
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Lake
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_ho la
It's easy to stay up al night
'cause it's hard to forget her it's real y easy to write
'cause there's a lot to remember but it's hard holding on tight it's either for the worse or better but, what if her memories took a ight and there's nothing to remember like that feeling that was right the same moment you met her how she kept dancing in your heart how hard is it to resist her and how she left that night how hard is it to forget to remember in your mind, start a ght
against al feeling that brings her try hard, put in might
wish you've never met her
don't stop til you get it right and you'l be free forever.
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_ho la
This is for you, Lost boy,
live life fast with expressible joy, believe in you, believe in him, for always, I wil say
there wil be a time, you won't be alone, there wil be a place to go, there wil be a house to cal home, and always someone to talk to This is for you, Lost boy,
live life slow to your beautiful destiny, big dreams and hope high,
for always, I wil say
this is for you, Lost boy.
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_ho la
The birds are ying
up in the sky
the leaves are golden
'cause they are dry
but nothing is more prettier than your eyes
Sun is stil bright
while seasons keep changing even if earth went for a spin it won't change your milky skin my prettiest everything
Let's grab a drink
and talk for years
a mil ion topics and more
we'l ght our fears
and then lay in bed
where our shame disappears
if these moments were true
I wish they never end
you're al I want
I won't pretend
my favorite girl
I hope you understand
Part of me are dying
but my feelings are reborn
just for a reason
cause you're the one
I've always longed for
your heart is where I belong.
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_ho la
I wil come,
I wil come for you,
and I'l always do
no how matter how they pursue I wil ght,
I wil ght for you,
I'l make it to
the nish line like winners do I wil stay,
I wil stay with you,
I'l hold onto you,
and listen your songs too
I'm not giving up,
I'm not giving up easily,
I'l hold on and ght crazily, so don't give up on me
'cause, I wil love,
I wil love you
and I'l always do,
until the sky runs out of blue.
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_ho la
I don't real y remember things from the start but I know I've always been in your heart even when things get real hard stil the love you have for me never depart Like the Moon and Stars
when I'm lost, you guide me in the dark and when I'm far away, you hold in your heart to you, I owe my best part
When I fal or break, you're always by my side when I'm hurting or crying, you help dry my eyes say there's hope as long as the sun is in the sky and always motivate me to try Til you are old and grey
til my dying day
I'l adore you
I'l love you
My words, my rhyme, my everything my life, my al , my best is for you my words, my lines are my everything my love, my heartbeat is for you.
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_ho la
Hey you,
would you stay a little bit more?
'cause there's a lot to explore and I'm sorry if I've been emotions galore I've just been happier than before Hey you,
could I get a little bit more?
'cause now I feel restored from al the pain and hurt I harbor now I see you as my shore
Hey you,
would you stay a little bit more?
'cause if you leave, the pain wil be hard to ignore and I'l die of laying and grieving on the oor just say you'l be here for evermore.
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_ho la & Tol
i
Hold my hand, cry with me
take a deep breath, dive within this is it, it won't be long in this deep water, we both belong keep me close, fal with me draw me near as we descend
hide the truth, tel me lies l my heart with al that is false sink with me and love my aws and al of me that is too impure.
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_ho la
I need you,
I need your love,
I need a ection,
I need your attention,
to heal and see me through this pain Mend my heart,
don't watch me fal apart
show me love and care
don't watch me sink in despair help me stay stronger
be with me a little longer
Let me turn to you,
Whenever my sky runs out of blue help me survive this harm
al ow me fal into your arms My ways, please wend
stay with me, til the end
Hold me,
Save me,
help me numb the pain
help me be safe and sound
I'm lost but in you, I'm found.
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_ho la
“Are you okay?” Eva asks.
I pul back and paw the tears o my cheeks. “Sorry. Just some stupid emotions.”
Her eyes icker in the glow of the tree lights. “Do you wanna talk it out?”
"Yes… I guess", My eyes burn with more tears.
She swal ows and nods solemnly. “So tell me, what's the issue?"
I breathe in the stil ness and said
"I'm afloat, but my heart's about to sink
'cause my life is missing one single thing I'm empty, that's what I think but I get a different thought when I drink also when I write or maybe when I sing I'm just a single freak who only writes about what he sees and thinks love is just what I need."
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_ho la & s a
If I was an ocean
I'd rather have the color blue I'd ow around the world
Just to make my way to you.
If I was an eagle
I'd have the bird's eye view I'd y around the earth
And never lose the sight of you.
If I was an artist
I'd have the world as my canvas I'd paint nothing but the image of you Just to be with you at every stroke.
If I was a supernatural
I'd have the power of the sandman I'd put you to sleep to escape death And be with you forever in your dreams.
And If I had a wish
I'd wish with every breath i'd take with every day I'd live
It'l be at your side
But I'm only human
drifting and sailing in the dark Lost and hoping to be found In love, but with one out of sight.
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_ho la
I hope I understand
why you could not stay
but, wherever you are
I hope that you're okay
'cause, I'm hoping and wishing we'l be back together some day
'cause, I know love lasts
love wil last, love lasts
I know love lasts
I hope you understand
that it has to end one day
and if you don't
I know you wil some day
'cause there's always someone who wil love you a whole di erent way cause, I know love lasts
love wil last, love lasts
I know love lasts.
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Goodbye
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Please, please don't leave me.
Baby, I don't feel so good Save me….
Can we ever be steady in pace?
I'm not what I seem to be He's the only opportunity to be saved This is for you, lost boy Your limit was never the sky.
What if our tomorrow never comes?
I'm lost and broken
Maybe our love was wrong And I'll forget to remember I'm only human.
"Do you wanna talk it out?”
Would you stay a little bit more?
Know I'm weak in love
And I don't know myself anymore I'm lost but in you, I'm found.
What if our love suddenly ends?
Let's grab a drink
Maybe one more lunch
Be with me a little longer Just say you'll be here for evermore.
Love lasts……
Love is just what I need.
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ANTICIPATE!!!
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Would you stay a little bit more?
- Know I'm weak in love And I don't know myself anymore
- I'm lost but in you, I'm found.
What if our love suddenly ends?
Let's grab a drink
Maybe one more lunch
Be with me a little longer Just say you'll be here for evermore.
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