The Things We Don’t Understand
First published by Steven Bowman © 2023
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Poetry is the one place where people can speak their original human mind.
It is the outlet for people to say in public what is known in private.
– Allen Ginsberg
And the Misery Marches On (Woe Is Me)
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Mayrah Skeeley: A Perfect Skeeley Wedding
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Some Fear Me (Others Don’t Trust Me)
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The Road That Lead Me Straight to You
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Every Living Person Shall Seek Christ
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How Can I Love Someone Who Hasn’t Loved Me?
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Die for You (We’re Homies for Life)
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Praises to the Highest Heavens
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The Untold Story of Jimmer McKean
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Trice Stone: First Act as President
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Forgive Me Father for I Have Sinned
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Can’t Think Straight (I Must Be Going Insane)
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Douglas Fillmore and the Abusive Father
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In a World That Has to Be Changed
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Chief Rocka: The Last of a Dying Breed
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Chief Rocka: An End to the Undefeated War
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It’s Unlikely That I’ll Love You
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Echakuleizen: Island of the Ancestors
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In Need of Your Help (I Just Can’t Fight It Alone)
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Hughes Griffley: A Birthday I Won’t Soon Forget
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Hughes Griffley: Lying Gets You Nowhere
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It’s Christmas (So Let’s Praise Jesus)
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Jesus Is the Reason to Celebrate Christmas
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All the Cheery Children (So Merry and Bright)
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Hughes Griffley: The Mischievous Fourth Grader
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Hughes Griffley: Proudly Dating as Fifth Graders
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Hughes Griffley: McKinley Welcomes Its
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Hughes Griffley: Hughes Has to Go to the
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Dreamlandia 3: Dreams Turned Into Nightmares
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Like She Hasn’t Loved Me Before
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Hughes Griffley: Seventh Graders Beware,
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Aren’t You Still in Love with Me?
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If I May Die Please Lay Me Down Besides the River
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Struggles Are Real When It Becomes a Reality
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Lay My Dead Body Down Beside Her
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Can’t You See That You’re Killing Me?
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Please Forgive My Sins, Heavenly Father
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As I Welcome the Devil into My Life
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Wondering When I’ll Ever Love You Again
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Hopefully, You’ll Find Someone to Love You
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Baby Please (Can You Feel My Pain?)
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About Her Smile (Makes Me Feel Good)
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Please Come Back Home (I’m Stuck Here
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Dreamlandia 4: Welcome to Your Worst Nightmare
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Dreamlandia 5: It’s Only Just a Dream
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Needed You There (When It Hurts the Most)
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Dreamlandia 6: Finally Your Nightmares Are Over
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We’ve Been Judged ( Just Like the Rest of Them)
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Those Years You Can’t Get Back
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If Life Was Meant to Be This Way
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Pull the Trigger (While You Watched Me Die)
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My Superhero 2: Falconite vs. Thunderwave
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The McGruders: Rosie’s Wedding Day Has Come
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The McGruders II: A Honeymoon They’ll
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Women Can Do Anything a Man Can’t
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Two Drunks and Crack Cocaine: A Party We
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Spare Change Ma’am? 2: The Story of a Very
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And the Misery Marches On (Woe Is Me)
In the background you hear a marching band As the miseries comes to its ending point Woe is me and
My life is blowin up the joint
My life I once knew
Is bloodshed
War began anew
Warriors dead
As I once knew who I was
It was far too late
I was a young boy once
And it was an earthquake
Hurry all to my funeral
And the misery marches on
My world is done it all
And I am cloaked in blood
Blackened and brutality
Woe is me my world gone
Just as I began to be reality
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My blood is boiled I begun
Open up the Bible
And began to pray
I seek truth and faithful
As it’s only me being needy
Justice is all you wanted for
You’re just a young pretty thing
Oh well honey there’s the door
My world I married before too late I need you and you need me
Woe is me and it’s farthest from home Opened up my Bible and prayed
My Lord is my Sheppard I have become Pleading for my weakened bone-chilled skin As the misery I knew marches onward I crack open a smile and marched on To my advantage I begun to pray for this world 4
Hello is this Bubba Skeeley on the phone?
Heehaw it’s your cousin Mayrah on the line.
Yes this is Bubba how have you’ve been?
Hiya! It’s been a very long time.
Listen I need a favor,
Yeah—what is it?
I need to marry adore,
Marriage is that?
Just I got my eye on a man,
Yeah—who is he?
I just had a plan,
What is it deary?
His name is Branson Wilper,
Is he cute?
Man he’s so adore,
Ah well shoot.
I need you to set up a wedding,
A perfect Skeeley comin’ up!
Thanks cuz you really are worth dealing, 5
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Yer welcome.
I can’t thank you enough cuz,
Once again ye welcome.
Awe bye cuz you got my trust,
Goodbye your wedding will come.
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Mayrah Skeeley: A Perfect Skeeley Wedding
Welcome all to a beautiful wedding of love, Mayrah Leigh Skeeley and Branson Luke Wilper.
Happiness will overcome,
As they marry each other’s lover.
A perfect Skeeley wedding comin’ up, Marriage ain’t just for love it’s for joyfulness.
As we celebrate this beautiful day of love, We’re ago to embrace our inner loveliness.
Do you Mayrah Leigh take Branson Luke?
As your lovely wedded husband for sickness and for health?
I do,
And do you Branson Luke take Mayrah Leigh for poorness and wealth?
I do,
You may now kiss the bride!
As all the people cried so,
They couldn’t get tears to hide.
Just as they kissed each other,
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They went off into the sunset.
Now Mayrah Leigh is a Wilper,
A wedding she couldn’t forget.
Good is for sickness and health,
Never will they forget this moment.
As they were so deeply into love, Honeymoon in their future they spent.
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I don’t smoke dope nor crack cocaine As my lifestyle might be insane
Like fuck yo bitches wit my lifestyle My whip so hard it might grind awhile Like dat 40k on a rapper’s chain?
Man he must be suicidal Kurt Cobain I look to the lord above for my crazed life Shoot up yo bank that’s what he be like My lord he knows my lifestyle
He looks at me like I’m on bail
Ballin’ so hard whip so harder
Man I put on my shit dat Tha Carter I be ballin in dis bitch yo mane!
Crazy shit like that cruiser plain Becomin one wit the lord oh no
My religion is a no go
Justice will be the one victor
Criminals be the one locked upper I just say this like I be the one mane My whip so harder I must be insane 9
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Put on that rap song and bang yo head What if 2Pac ain’t really dead?
Never shoulda trusted her words
Man I be flying high like I’m birds Shit boy yo ass be listening to cops Man they be shutting down clubs
Ghetto-minded mothafuckas
My whip so hard mothafuckas
Nobody try to test me
Man I shoot up ya r.i.p.
My word is truthful
I am nothing like gospel
Uptown and downtown boy
I am not the one to become godly
My world is upside down lately
Man I am the one, don’t even bail me I try to live my lifestyle like I own the universe Man I can’t even try this even or rehearse Openly I thank the fuckin’ public Because we live in one republic
One nation under God
We’ll rest in peace when we’re dead I am not a rapper I am living this lifestyle My words are true when I reverse this style Openly I am a true poet wit all this truth Man I wish I had dough stacked to the roof 10
Over my dead body I will die for family As long as they’ll do the same for me I ain’t about my ratchet living lifestyle This ain’t my excuse for seeing the aisle Justice will oversee my future
I will become a rich one out there Other than the fact that I love people Just look at my world it’s a crazy lifestyle 11
If you don’t understand the differences Between right or wrong you’re misunderstood Open up the Bible and begin its teaches One man’s pride become the one that’s good Please can we understand differences?
Young boys and girls don’t understand Man if I could go back in the days Where people were treated equaled If y’all understood differences there is Only one thing we as Americans stand for It’s killing me as we’re dying Americans Hanging coldblooded from a noose off the floor It’s a goddamn shame that we
As Americans are so uneducated
We don’t treat others correctly
My world will be treated equalized Offerings of sadness and unkindly Just we can’t understand differences People dying one after another deadly We are one nation under God for god sakes 12
Over one man’s dead body
Right after another
Deadly and we’re bloody
Hanging from a noose off the floor Yes my sayings are gruesome and violent But that’ll never change me
If we could become one that are nonviolent Then we could become freely
We don’t understand our nation’s willpower As we have a president that’s a racist He don’t understand that we need this power A power that will be god’s greatest I’ve seen too many people die lately From shootings and dope-fein drugs Ill minded and we are still very needy What if we could change guns into hugs?
Open up the world and see what’s in it As we’re dying from the inside out Differences between you and me that is The world that we should tell about I’m in love with preaching nonviolence And that’s the world I want to be living in Man some cannot even tell us the difference Like some aren’t very educated we’re dumbing I can’t keep my mind off of no guns allowed Of course it’s up to you to choose no guns Like if we can’t tell the differences between shootouts Then we aren’t doing our duties as Americans 13
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I’m in love with a freer world for kids to play But we aren’t becoming safer for our children Don’t ever think about pulling triggers everyday I am a downright good for god-founded citizen Haven’t we’ve become soldiers of bloody warzones?
Justice will become stronger with our helpfulness Haven’t we’ve become warriors that defended freedoms?
Hopefully we won’t become the one with distrusts Young people we don’t know the differences Between the rights and the wrongs We are dying people hanging from bloodshed nooses Happiness will be the one that’s doing us If you don’t understand differences or my vision Overrated mindsets will be the one crying for help We’re never going to become a once freer nation What if you don’t need me to say we’re dying over drugs?
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This little light of mine
I’m gonna let it shine
As God oversees us all
Just pray and he’ll call
The signs that I’ve seen
Aren’t as very plain
Just can’t think out loud
I am forming crowds
Beautiful girls are chasing
And my time ain’t a wasting
Open up the world and look
As my sights aren’t mistook
Oh girl you’re mine truly
I’m gonna letcha know me
Asking for your phone number
Lemme write it down on paper
I am never gonna lose you
As I’m looking out for us too
Young ones must be prettier
I don’t declare big booty girls
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I am not a pig when it comes to beauty Overseeing the one lord that made me Just can’t keep my mind of you girl Haven’t met you yet but you mean the world I am never chasing young pretty blondes Nor am I chasing the one that give me signs Look it’s been really nice knowing you Sorry but I have to go
Prettiest girls in the world aren’t on my mind I have a little light I’m gonna let it shine Brightly and beautiful
My world is meaningful
Open up the world and see what’s in it My world is going in circles just a twist Overseeing the goodness in the earth I’ve got a plan and it’s what it is worth I am never gonna let the darkness intertwine Even so dearly I’ve got my world that’ll shine Pleasing this girl is what I’ll even so do Hopefully she won’t mind me doing so Freely I think plain
I’ll never forget pain
Even though there’s nothing
My world isn’t worth something
I can’t forget about everything
My world is not worth chasing
Open up a book and read with light Because if you do that light will shine 16
Until There’s Nobody Left Until the day I die
I will not be defeated
Don’t you even try
We’re being mistreated
It’s a damn shame
Of what we’re becoming
My world is unclaimed
I must be the one dying
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
It’s never too late
To go back again
To the day of defeat
I’m breaking all ends
No one can stop me
Though I’m too faded
Faded off of my misery
I won’t be the one mistreated
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I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
Come on we’re dying
You must be faded too
Bitch you must be lying
Cause that’s what she’ll do
I’m never too late am I?
You thought I was cute
Haha bitch you’ve lied
I’m crying in the inside too
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
It’s up to us to become
The one that’s beaten
Bitch don’t play dumb
We’re being mistreated
Nothing can stop us
From being too free
I’m sure you’re dust
We’ve admitted defeat
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
I won’t stop!
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Until there’s nobody left!
Don’t leave me out there to die
It’s a dog eat dog world out there Misery and woe painfully get by
Wouldn’t you like to see if I care?
Rescue me from these chains
I’m in prison because of a crime
A crime that I didn’t commit
Please rescue me I don’t want to die I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
I won’t stop!
Until there’s nobody left!
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If she loved me
She’d understand
The day I’ve plea
I can’t withstand
All of my pain
You can’t see
I must be insane
She sees the devil within me
I am brokenhearted
Without her smiles
It’s a shame we’ve departed
It’s like it’s been miles
I am lonesome
When you’ve gone away
I’ve never sung
The blues that’s been astray
Over the years
I’ve endured sadness
You leaving was all my fears
I hope you’re forgiving this
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Even though I’ll never
Become the man I want to be
I hope I can cheer up with laughter Because I miss her being funny
Haven’t I’ve been broken lately?
I can’t oversee our saddened future She’ll never even forgive me
It’s like I’ve put her through torture Upsetting the memories
Forgiving the brokenness
I can’t forget her smileys
Texting me every minutes
What have I’ve become to her?
It’s up to her to forgive me for this I’ll never see her it’s been torture There’s nothing I can do for forgiveness Forgive me I’ve been brokenhearted I’ll never see her again
It’s been torture seeing her leave and She was my only truest friend
Looking for an escape route
She’s been there for me
It’s been a real dispute
I can’t forget her really
Brokenhearted and beaten
I’ve been hung out there to dry
Hollowed out and mistreated
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It seems like I’m on the verge to die 22
When the Day Comes When the day comes and I am in misery and woe I can’t forget what I’ve done to you The same mistakes all over again and she can’t forget A battle and a lover I’ll soon to regret It’s been a real battle struggling just to get through My pain isn’t just enough for you Until the day comes and I’ll be ready for it any day now I’ve seen enough pictures to make us ready for a overdo It’s been really nice seeing her smiles and it can’t be This is absolutely that the day she left me In pieces to pick it the damages that she left behind She’s been tortured with my own kind Just waiting for the day when it’ll ever soon come It’s been a struggle out there, what have I’ve become?
Saying it’s my own fault why she had left me out cold I cannot forget this day it’s all coming a true story told I can’t just lose her, she’s been there for me everyday Upsetting to see her leave me out there left to be dry This is like I’m a sucker and she’s through with me What have I’ve done to her to want to make her leave?
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Spilling my heart out for you baby and I can’t regret it I know baby girl, I’ve put you through enough bullshit Just I can’t keep my mind of your beautifulness I am just your ever so dear bloody witness My story is about to unfold like an opened up book I look back in my memories where our love’s story took And it’s killing me to see you leave me in my lonesomeness My life is weird when I regret all of my fucking emptiness Can’t you forgive a man like me for willing to change?
See my love for her is so very plain Until the day I die, she’ll be so very happy when it shows Man I’ve been a real sucker when it comes to no overdoes I’ve been a real sad guy lately and I don’t want to be sadder When it comes in time I can’t forget all of my poor manners She’s happy now that she’s finally left me out to rot She is now happily now that she’s the one who’s forgot Just like my pain and miseries isn’t enough for her beauties I’ve been a real downer when I can’t forget all of our memories She’s the one who I’d like to call the truest beautiful women I just wanna have her back, somehow that will be my mission 24
Some Fear Me (Others Don’t Trust Me) I am a man of mysteriousness
I ain’t a man of mistresses
Some fear me
Others don’t trust me
I wish I had somebody that won’t run Open up with a rhyme that’ll leave you stunned Pleading with God over something illegal A substance that you can inhale
Call that drugs
Dope-fein thugs
What if I say I’d kill you?
Like what would you do?
Who are you supposed to trust?
One man’s escape is taking drugs
Happy when he’s high
Got stabbed between his thigh
He is now coldblooded
And he has been hunted
Hung out with a bad crowd
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Look where it got him now
He trusted anybody insane
And he’s got at it again
Opening up with an uzi
And he’s saying “kamikaze”
He has bled out all over the rug
Never will he experience any drug Ill-minded and he’s with all weirdos Got killed like an overdose
It ain’t like he’s been alive too long lately Just he’s dead before he raped any lady Overdosage on pills and cocaine breathed He’s never what God put on this heavenly earth Never will I say I feared him or he feared me Because anybody will say people fear me Others don’t trust me
God bless those under liberty
Block off the violence
Fuck off with it I have no tolerance Man I am a goner when people fear me Nobody should trust me
Everybody can’t even look at me
Because I am some sort of unfriendly Overdoing on my stories
God has created us for these
Because it’s written in histories That God has created the Bible stories 26
SOME FEAR ME (OTHERS DON’T TRUST ME) Nah they say people created the Bible stories Who am I supposed to suspect who written these?
Just look at me, I am a monster and people run away I say that all people fear me and don’t even trust me 27
The Road That Lead Me Straight to You
I’m on a road and I am following it It’s the road that lead me straight to you I’m cruising down it like I own it Oh I really am acting like I do
In times I hoped to seek you out
In the world that I have been in
Looking like I’m forming a crowd
Like I’m going become what I’ve been Over the road I see a poor person Maybe I’ll give him a dime or two I’m not that full of cash but I can reason Because that’s what God intended me to do I am crossing the road
The road that lead me straight to you I am looking to kick off my load
Because I’ve been tired since mile two 28
Every Living Person Shall Seek Christ Ooh you’re worthy of His praise
Praise God and bless His mercy
Bow down and kiss the true king
So blessed for Christ’s own reign I’m tryna become holy
Not because his glories
I’m seeking in His ways
Becoming one with Jesus
Every living person shall seek Christ Living people should become holiest Just preach the truest words of Jesus I’ll begin with a prayer for broken pieces I’m not that type of guy
That will never even try
Becoming one with Christ
Because he’s a living sacrifice
Don’t worship only to be free from sins Just worship only to be free from regrets 29
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Because Christ will be the one that’ll free us My Lord, I pray for thee to be freer from chains What else I rather do
With no blessings from you
Bow down and preach goodness
Just to become the one righteous
Let’s be totally honest with each other I rather be the one that’ll become freer Because Christ will set us to freedoms Just preach his kingdom when it comes Up there in the highest heavens
All God’s angels are smiling to us Open the daily book of knowledge
Failure is not an option on this test Because every living person shall seek Christ And become the holiest one in his presence Let’s begin by praying for everyone who’s needy Dearest Heavenly Father I pray for all those before me 30
Hello, I am Belsie Carthaway,
I am the mistress of England.
Let goodness bless us all day,
I’m a mistress of all my land.
It’s sad to hear of all the deaths, I am sorry for all your losses.
May God bless us all from reliefs, Let’s bow down and praise us.
I am not just an English mistress, I am a woman of many kinds.
It is a must that I relieve my stress, It’s not that good to leave it inside.
Jump for joyfulness,
I am not begging for mercy.
Let’s do our praises,
It’s such an amazing journey.
Open up with a prayer for us,
Just another way to seek God’s words.
May we go onto churches,
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Let us begin to seek out all of the worse.
Just like this we pray,
Heaven opens.
I seek the angels today,
Just as it happens.
Hang on a second,
I’m reading aloud.
Just like a reverend,
Preaching around.
Open this with such glee,
I’m too proud of us.
My words are truthful see,
I’m doing preaches.
It’s up to all of us to seek,
Everybody loves the prayers.
I’ll keep on the words to preach, Because everyone cares.
I am Belsie the English mistress, Go and tell of the world.
Jumpin for joy and I’m a witness, Just listen to all of my word.
Never seek the devilish ways,
I only seek the ways of the Lord.
May nobody seek the devilish,
I seek the goodness in the world.
Opening up with a scripture,
Just to begin my sermon.
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Not I am not tell about a rapture, Just seek the word I’m speaking.
All I say is it’s up to you to decide, Jump from page to page and read.
Because the Lord knows everywhere to hide, There’s nothing to be scared.
Over the holiest dead body I swear, Just don’t trap yourselves to boredom.
Seeking the one God just to be aware, We’re in the presence of his kingdom.
Preaching the goodness of the Bible, Only we’ll become the one holiest.
Like we’re eating around a table, Just prayer won’t become the one suppressed.
People we need to become aware of this, I’m not going to let anyone down.
Become the holiest one to pass the test, The ones who really do will never frown.
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I understand myself when I’m with her, She’s everything to me lately.
If you let me girl, I’ll be a beggar, Understand the importance of you and me.
I’m not going to lie about you and me, Honest to God I’m in love with you.
Maybe I’ll understand us it’s so barely, Opening up my feelings but all I feel is blue.
Let’s not fight fist to fist,
Oh girl you’re everything to me.
My world isn’t all about violence, I’m not going to shove you violently.
It’s killing me on the inside,
Just I want to be with your love.
There’s nowhere I’ll hide,
Aye lady you’re an angel sent from above.
Killer or be killed,
That’s the world to me.
I don’t pop the pilled,
Because it’ll leave me deadly.
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Over a dead body,
Just to be with us two.
My face is bloody,
Because I took a hard blow.
Please girl don’t fight with me,
Can we have peace with our relationship?
I’m pleading on my knees for mercy, Let’s not want to fight like a boxing championship.
It’s bad enough we’re fighting each other, Pleads just to be nonviolent.
To death we fight you even dare,
Let’s not just begin to even riot.
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It’s a dog eat dog world out there, What’s with the violence?
All I do is good I swear,
I’ll preach all the nonviolence.
Please stop with over my dead body, Because the violence has to come to an end.
Many swore they left enemies bloody, So what’s with your friend the gunned?
I’m all about nonviolence,
My destiny is pretty clear.
A one to preach the goodness,
I’ve got no haters in my rear.
Making history to be known,
Preach only the good ones.
Maybe I’ll be blessed to be grown, In a so-called world of nonviolence.
This may be a time to become,
We’re only the ones that can stop.
Haven’t been the one to overcome, Because it’s something that’s nonstop.
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If we’re happy to be this,
I’ll preach.
Please I want nonviolence,
Knowledge has to be teach.
Am I overdoing my stress?
Maybe I am.
A world fulfilled with nonviolence, It’s a world I want to be in.
Pleading with every drop of blood, Maybe the guns are a problem.
Because I’m the one who’ll understand, What this dying world has become.
I’m not going to be the one dying, It’s never the destiny I’m wishing for.
Maybe we’re the one that be lying, Because when we shoot bodies hit the floor.
I’m not overdoing my part,
So be it I’m not happy with violence.
May god bless us do apart,
Because we’re dying without nonviolence.
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How Can I Love Someone Who Hasn’t Loved Me?
Once I knew what love meant,
I got my head on straight.
How can I love someone who hasn’t loved me?
Oh woe is me I’m in misery.
Don’t judge others just to make yourselves feel good, And it’s not that misunderstood.
I’ll love somebody just the way they are, Even if we’re battling for scars.
Let’s not fight over what’s not even needed, Just look what you’ve done you left many bleeding.
Battle scars in all the bloodstains, My love she must be insane.
How can I love someone who hasn’t loved me?
My world isn’t all that insane lately.
Just like a passed drug test,
Many deny to be obsessed.
Just don’t love me just because I love them, My love isn’t all about pretend.
God bless us until the end,
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HOW CAN I LOVE SOMEONE WHO HASN’T LOVED ME?
You’re my truest friend.
It’s killing me just to say this, But I’m not with all of tricks.
I’m stuck within my brain,
Just to become the one fame.
Over blood we seek our love from starvation, My love, there’s no late registration.
I love how nobody seems to love me back, Over bleeding bodies you’ll be on attack.
Upsetting I am done doing tricks on lovers, Many seek the cruelties in others.
Every time I seek my love from many, They shoot me down like killing an enemy.
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Die for You (We’re Homies for Life) Dear Big Homie,
I be the one missin’ you.
You call me Lil Homie,
Because that’s what G’s do.
Naw I ain’t a G,
But I am your homie.
Bury me in a cemetery,
At least I got my misery.
Big Homie I’ll die for you,
We’re homies for life.
Will you do the same if I do?
Pleading like I beat the case.
I’m your homie and you’re mine,
All I do is hustle for my family.
Just like G’s homie we’re for life, Because that pleases me.
Over bloodshed and miseries,
Big Homie I’ll die for you.
Just to help the weaknesses,
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DIE FOR YOU (WE’RE HOMIES FOR LIFE) Because I’m doing things like you.
Dear Big Homie,
I want to be like you when I am still growing.
Life homie we’re so G,
Just like bosses we’re homies for all living.
Naw this ain’t about my dark times, In life I am troubled at all costs.
Yo I got to check my rhymes,
Because I be spittin like a boss.
Like thugs we’re having fun,
Big Homie I love you.
Together we’re united as one,
Like G’s I’ll die for you.
We’re homies for life like G’s,
Bury me in my time of death.
Pleading like a judge on a case,
My words aren’t they just pleasant?
I love you Big Homie nonetheless, And you should love me the same.
Like homies for life whoa we’re the best, Naw dog I ain’t saying our love’s lame.
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Ooh he ain’t working yet,
But he likes his women.
He wishes he was rich on a jet,
Because he’s a nobody man.
Feeling like he’s letting people down, Hurrying just to become a somebody.
Youngsters worship in a church downtown, Just like Jesus we worship his worthy.
Happiness won’t please him now,
He just will not budge.
All he wants to know is how,
He has been misjudged.
It is losing everything he worked for, Happiness turns to sadness.
Reality is teaching what for so far, Just like he is in all classes.
Let us become one who worked hard, Just to become the one who is on top.
Drunken just to leave nothing but scars, 42
Hung out with the one who gets the cop.
I am a nobody’s man who gets nothing, Lost without everybody guiding me home.
Thanks for all who won’t be the teaching, Just think about what I have already become.
I’m lost without a guidance,
Over fights we break out brawling.
Bare knuckles just to embrace,
Because I’m leaving y’all crawling.
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Never Coming Back Home What if daddy never comes back home?
What if daddy will never love us children?
It’s a mystery when I’m overthinking him, I’ll never thank him for leaving us in Houston.
Keep our head up momma always tells us, I’m just a Texan who wants his daddy back.
And I’m never coming back home forgiveness, Man my momma told us that daddy’s kinda whack.
Just an overthought,
What if he’ll never come?
It’s reigning over doubt,
Many say we’re all lame.
Please daddy please come back home to your kids, I’m daddy-sick when he’s not home to feed us children.
Nah I’m not saying momma doesn’t feed us I’m daddy-sickness,
Just I’m never coming back home momma will be stricken.
God blesses us with many many opportunities, I can’t be moving on from my daddy-sickening.
My world isn’t the same without my daddy these, 44
Words are proven by my worst nightmares happening.
Just please come back to your children daddy, We need you, even Fiona, Marvin and yours truly Myles.
Please daddy I’m missing you just so sickeningly, I’m worried about you out there in this world it feels like miles.
Becoming you isn’t just a nightmare, It’s becoming truth.
May I get off this chair?
Punishment is rough.
Hey daddy please come home to us, I really miss your presence.
Daddy won’t you have Jesus’s blesses?
Shall we record all preciouses?
I need you more than you need me, Daddy please come home tonight.
I’m really daddy-sickened lately, Gosh doesn’t really show alright?
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Good morn all the people of South Houston, I am Miss. Angelise Harklin it’s nice to meetcha.
They always are like what’s it like Miss. Harklin?
And I respond back it’s very nice to be pleasing ya.
For those who are new to my story, I won’t leave y’all confused.
My words are trusting just trust me, Never will I leave y’all bored.
I’m new to my new city in Houston, Because I came from Los Angeles.
My words are not all that southern, Am I just a young lady that’s prettiest?
Up their way into heaven,
I’m daydreaming.
My world is anew in Houston,
I’m not misleading.
Can y’all see that I’m not all that south?
I’m from South Los Angeles though.
Even though I’m speaking to y’all a truth, May we all be blessed with all dough?
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Hey there young missy,
The townspeople say out loud.
It’s very nice to meet me,
Just don’t even need to shout.
Up there upon a horse,
We ride like playing Polo.
I need to be on a practice course, Because I’m a newbie so?
Just don’t overthink about it all, I’m not that good at Polo so what?
Nice to be a Miss. Harklin to y’all, To us we’re good as it will even get.
We’re the best in my person opinion, Just don’t overthink it all the time.
Trust me I’m speaking the truth trusting, Just we’re good at the best not lame.
Hey prettiest lady in South Houston, Wait up for me, we need to be friends.
I’m George Hensley and I’m from Boston, We’ll be best friends, I got a lot of trends.
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Praises to the Highest Heavens Shout out to the Lord our master, How great thou art that lead me to you.
My world revolves around my God,
It’s all about the world of beauty.
Just think about our creator,
He has made us whole too.
My world is good,
That’s what it means to me.
A whole lot to praises to the highest heavens, A world I want to be living in.
It’ll kill us to seek out the truth of creation, Loosen up and praise the worthiest.
Must be up to God to believe in us, Like where have we’ve been?
It doesn’t take a lot to try and believing, Because praising him passes the test.
It doesn’t take a lot to make Jesus happy, A world in which we believe in order to live.
Victoriously we’re champions,
A long war has come to an end.
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PRAISES TO THE HIGHEST HEAVENS
The world is what we make it to be lovely or deadly, In order to become what we’ve become of it.
We’ve became to one victorious,
Because God and Jesus are the holiest friend.
I’ve seen enough to say I’m not saddened, Just look at what I’ve accomplished in my past.
Lovely and the birds are chirping, I’m too into what I want to be into.
Up there to the way into heaven,
I’m the one with the “S” on my chest.
I’m the one who’s been saving,
Because some people need me to.
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I live my life my way,
Hell yeah I have a say.
I can’t stop looking at her staring, My words just picturing.
Have it your way then,
What if I stay where you’ve been?
Really it’s been a real long day, But I cannot beg you for a stay.
Why are we living life this way?
I can’t even stare at her today.
Heaven knows I ain’t wrong it seems, Opening up my truest feelings.
I’ve been fueling up with root beer and shame, And I got nobody to blame.
Gotcha looking down my starry eyes, And Heaven only knows I have made tries.
Nobody to blame when I am next to her, If I dreamed I want her to be a famous star.
Wishing upon her stars I wondered wisely, How have you’ve been you are amazing to me?
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Oh why can’t I dream about freedom if it came?
Nope I can’t put my baby girl on the blame game.
Seems like I am crazy about you girl, My heart is beating as I’m dreaming of her.
I called you the night before,
I noticed that I am such a bore.
Sorry but I am a little bit crazy, Hell I am too much all lazy.
I missed her,
As I overlooked her picture.
I’ve never been drunk anyways,
But I just called you the past three days.
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Just get a whiff of her scent,
She’s got that strawberry perfume.
I’m whispering in her ear and,
I’m just liking the way she moves.
The young and the reckless,
She’s too perfection for me.
Jumping from subject to subject,
I’m performing for my baby.
It’s killing me from the inside out, Overhearing that she loves me too.
My world ain’t that perfect so what?
Asking for my dream girl is overdo?
Hey young lady,
I like your perfumes.
Do you hear me?
Oh my I like her moves.
I’m such a bore ain’t I?
Overdoing my love for her.
Well you can’t blame a guy,
She’ll be mine by the end of year.
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Gosh I just love her truths,
Just claiming my love for her.
I just like the way she moves,
Ain’t I a guy that’s truly a lover?
My baby is my baby for a reason,
I just love her too much lately right?
Her name may be Skylar Sheehan,
And she’ll become my own tonight.
C’mon Miss. Sheehan do you love me?
I’m yours truly alright.
Maybe she’ll become my very own baby, Only she’s mine just for tonight.
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The Untold Story of Jimmer McKean Once upon a time,
In a town way off the map.
I wasn’t all that fine,
My world is all sorts of whack.
Tell me dear friend,
Am I nearest to some?
My world isn’t pretend,
And I’m so the bomb.
Never will I become my past,
I’m Jimmer but I go by Mr. McKean.
Just look at me I’m just too rad, Look just pour me a cup of red lean.
Nah I ain’t a rapper,
But I like to drink and do drugs.
I’m so flirting with her,
And she’s never willing because.
Jump off a bridge dearest friend, I’m just so dreamy-eyed and cute.
Am I just the one who’s rear-ended?
Doing curse words and finger salute.
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THE UNTOLD STORY OF JIMMER MCKEAN
Reality has kicked itself in the ass, I’m too drunk.
Never will I do the passing of drug tests, Overdoing a drug.
Keep off my lawn you fuckas,
I’m Jimmer and I don’t play asshole.
Move onward with your lives,
Killed over witnesses is cuffed with no bail.
This is my untold story of my life yo, I’m Mr. McKean and y’all better like it really.
My woman in my life won’t overthrow, I need to get a better life in this broken reality.
Druggies and a red cup of lean,
Yo just pour up that Hennessy.
I’m one for the liquor and C.R.E.A.M., Stands for “Cash Rules Everything Around Me”.
Yup I listen to Wu-Tang Clan,
They be tight yo and spitting bars.
My world is ending everything,
And I be daydreaming of fast cars.
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Brooks Wollingsworth Back when I was younger,
I was with my mummy and daddy.
She and him was my lover,
Maybe she’ll be my loving someday.
Tearing up,
Every time she sang.
I’m so rough,
Man she’s everything.
Golly I must be Brooks Wollingsworth, But I’m a man of many kinds of happiness.
My love is what’s it has been since birth, Never will I’ll be someone out of bleakness.
Above me only God and Jesus,
I’m a Christian.
Praising my words of the Bibles,
But I’m worth praising.
Jump up on the tabletops,
To find out what’s inside.
My world is high as rooftops,
Never will I treat her unkind.
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Sweetly I whisper in her ear,
I’m saying I am lovely trust me.
Never will I become her lover,
Trust me I’m the one who’s nearly.
Bring me back to my happy times,
Please no matter what it takes.
Just look me I’m the one with crimes, Don’t let me be the one in heartaches.
Listen girl do you love me at all?
Without you in my life is saddening.
I’ll be the beggar on my knees I’ll crawl, Just listen to my words I’m just babbling.
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Open up the niceness in the world of opportunities, Making funny noises when I’m trying to smile a lot.
Inside I am happy but the outside I’m sad and cries, But there’s no such thing as crying while on the spot.
Break free of your miseries,
And let the butterflies let loose.
May god bless your happiness,
I’m nothing like that but it’s truth.
Praise God and all things holiness, My world isn’t all that pretty.
The beast within me begun unleashes, I’m wild when I’m released freely.
Happily I say I’m a changed man in reality, But I’m a caged animal at the zoo behind bars.
Starting to break free from my trapped misery,
‘Cause there’s no such thing as behind caged doors.
It’s never enough,
Troubled and wild.
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In your head I’m forever stuck,
Claiming my trials.
Nobody can deny my changes,
Just like I’m always ahead of topics.
Losing everything I’m expected,
But there’s nothing about overworked wages.
No girl don’t be a liar,
Just tell the truth it’ll see you to freedom.
Nobody can’t be higher,
I’m atop of the throne I’m king of this kingdom.
I’m lying when I’m not a changed man pleading, My world isn’t all that unfinished.
Just like animals you’re a lion on the prowl feeding, Opportunities will be established.
Pleading you’re such a lying person of misjudgements, I’ll become what you haven’t.
You’re cursed and it looks like I need replacements, Killing me from the inside I am tormented.
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Just tell the truth and you’ll be set freer, Look I’m just being honest.
Never would you sit back, relax and take a breather, Because nothing is promised.
Tell the truth and tomorrow you’ll be champions, Relax and take a long deep breath.
Look just follow your dreams and all your passions, I’m just being honest and telling what lies beneath.
Honesty will be the best or the worse, I’m telling you my honest about news.
Never will you see what cops endorse, But them cops are too much like abuse.
I’m never lying when I’m talking about you, But you’ve got to unleash your inner selves.
What dreams do you have just only to pursue?
Trust me I’m telling you I’ve seen the rebels.
Never looking back at the many hatred, They’ve never seen you in the moonlight.
Honestly I’m never trying to be humiliated, 60
Above you is God only pray as you might.
Forgiveness and breakups,
You know we’ve all got them.
Only you can try to forsake us,
Should they trust nobody so overwhelm?
Loosen up and break to be freed,
Happiness is what you should seek.
You’ve got nobody who’ll mislead, Trust me you’ve been such a unique.
Look I’m being honest,
Nope I’m not lying about the truth.
Because you’re flawless,
Hope for your inner beauty and improve.
I asked her to stay,
But she wouldn’t listen.
Honestly it’s betray,
She has a little addiction.
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Me Against the World My life’s like an open Bible,
I preach my goodness not the hatred.
God can you feel me I’m in hell,
The lucifer’s beating me until I’m so red.
Every move I make,
Every breath I took.
Mistress upon mistakes
Me against the world is an open book.
Lately I can’t really remember,
Anything that’ll make me happy.
Let the drumroll take at a funeral, Twenty-seven gun salute and dusty.
I’ve been thriving on my miseries, Letting nobody overtake my happiness.
Thank God that I’m blessed so undenies Me against the world and I’m not sexiness.
Sparked up a campfire when I was a youngin, Lord I’ve been through trials and tribulations.
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Chain me up and I’m behind jail bars no bailin, For my mistakes I cannot commit adulteries.
Trust and obey the holy song goes, Hung from a noose coldblooded.
Man I’m against the world as it flows, Nah I ain’t Slaughterhouse or Joe Budden.
Trust me,
I’m against the trials.
Thriving misery,
Worsening as it piles.
Inside it all I’m not done yet,
Here I come for my revengeance.
Talking all that lies too much ain’t it?
Young ones died from gun violence.
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There’s nothing you’ll say to make me change, I am who I am.
But there’s anything you’ll need I’ll be there, Let your feelings go.
Hunger and starvation,
Poor and rich.
I’m bulletproof,
You’ll never stop me.
Nobody will change me,
I’m stubborn.
More likely to need love,
Most likely to love others.
It’s never too much to ask for,
But you’ll never love without asking.
Chances after chances,
You’ve been so loved like this before.
We’ve been at each other’s necks, Attacking at our throats.
It’s like we’re at war,
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Just to prove our point.
I’ve been asking why me?
Maybe I’ll never seek love.
About to make a change in life,
Just asking how to seek with abuse.
I’m so bulletproof,
There’s nobody that’ll stop me.
From day to day,
I’m moving slowly just to begin.
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It’s a blessing that I’ve got my family, It’s a blessing that I’ve got my brothers.
It’s a blessing that I’ve got my trust in me, It’s a blessing that I’ve got all my lovers.
Calling me on the phone,
Girl you must like me or something.
It’s a blessing that I’ve got a home, With a roof over my head it’s a ceiling.
It’s a blessing it’s a blessing,
Trust in me trust in me.
My life is one big happiness,
Push it to the limit it’s free.
I’m blessed because I’ve got my family, I’m blessed because I love them.
I’m blessed because they all love me, I’m blessed because that’s no end.
It’s a true blessing that I’m loved unconditionally, It’s a true blessing that I’m grateful.
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It’s a true blessing that my love is so very free, It’s a true blessing that I’m so respectful.
Just don’t respect me because I’m saying it, I’m blessed all day and all night.
Kissing my lovers and they’re blessed, Just save it for the right time alright.
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What Such a Friend I’ve Got In reality I’m not a good friend, But I’m trustworthy.
No good till the end,
I’ll never beat me.
I guess that I’ve got good friend, Together I can stand through it all.
We aren’t such as friends it’s pretend, Just like frenemies it’s a brawl.
Worst of it all I’m not really good, Just ain’t got what it takes.
Over and over I’m misunderstood,
Overlooking all of my mistakes.
Opening up the good book,
Taking a peek inside.
I’ve left him in the end mistook, I’m leaving my feelings to hide.
Sending him letters,
We’re friends forever.
Friendship’s like climbing ladders, It’s a journey like a fairytale happily ever after.
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Nobody will be like him,
What such a friend I’ve got.
Over and over looking ends,
Mistaking what I have begot.
Emptiness is what I’m feeling,
Happiness ain’t what it is.
We’re friends that’s never ending, Mistakes like what disbelief is.
What such a friend I’ve got,
He’s my one and only friend.
My friend likes wearing a red hat, Just to see him laughing instead.
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I’m looking at myself in the mirror, It’s looking like a fine gentleman.
Staring at it just to see it clearer, Looks like I’m the one who’s a man.
I only lived a life of twenty years, But there’s so much ahead of me.
My parents traded everything for fears, Fearing that my birth mother left me deadly.
But I say that I’m living a good life, My life ain’t a life of desperation.
Look I am glad I’m not taken like a thief, Just to be thankful for my humble salvation.
This is everything I am,
I am a man of many things well.
Just can’t think of a plan,
I hope you’re doing just swell.
I reek of ADHD and Bipolar Disorder, I am a freak of inhumanly kind.
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Pleading with the Lord my truest lover, Just to break free of chains no kid.
Everything I am inside,
I’ve got everything I’ve wanted.
My life ain’t a place to hide,
Just to be dead somewhere unfounded.
Unkindness and I’m just fine,
Just look at me I’m a monster.
Breaking free of my chained prison, Just to unleash my inner warrior.
I praise God and Jesus for their goodness, I just can’t even thank them both enough.
As I look to the Heavens,
I’ve became my life like I live it rough.
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There’s nobody so more handsome,
There’s nobody so more gorgeous.
Just look at him it’s so Trice Stone, He may look great for a president.
The ladies ooh and awe over him,
The men are so jealous.
It’s Trice Stone he’s so handsome, Each and every day gorgeous.
His face is so beautifully structured, His muscles are so chiselled.
His favorite thing is being pictured, His body mass is so perfected.
That’s the truest Trice Stone,
Trice might be such an athlete.
But his weakness is so wrong,
As his darkness is such perfectly.
Mr. Stone can you tell me,
“What’s your favorite thing on Earth?”
He replied so greatly,
“That would be all the girls for all worth.”
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He might be a rich person,
But his preciousness is weak.
As he didn’t work what he earn,
His daddy pays him every week.
Trice Stone a real rich person?
Huh what’s that I heard?
His truest strengths aren’t none, Is he really worth all that he earned?
Well you’ve misheard,
He’ll be president of his daddy’s company.
Well he won’t be worth it,
Until daddy dies, he’ll run before next presidency.
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Trice Stone: The First Term As he follows in his daddy’s footsteps, Sadly his daddy is dead.
Trice Stone is the runner up for president, Running up against Ralph Holmstead.
Everyone knows Ralph is a tough opponent, Missing out on the fun of politics.
Trice tries to make a comeback,
As he tries to be better than his opponents.
So tell me Mr. Stone,
“What would you do better for the company?”
He replied to those,
“I’ll try to conserve the best of the energy.”
So tell me Mr. Holmstead,
“What would you do better for the company?”
He replied with confidence,
“I would freely conserve the overproduction of gasoline.”
Every day and nightfall,
Trice would pray that he’ll beat Ralph.
The votes were counted before they call, Hopefully God answered his prayers enough.
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Well the counts were in,
Trice and Ralph were nervous.
As the announcement began,
They said “The next Presidential candidate is…”
It was a total landslide,
But the next president will be announced.
Trice and Ralph’s nerves were put aside, As the president of the company was Trice.
Congratulations to President Stone, Trice jumped for joy.
His first presidential term has begun, Trice said “He loved everyone who voted for me.”
It was a bummer for Ralph as he lost, As he will be next runner up in two years.
Never will he lose to his enemy opponent, He lost with dignity as pride not self-righteous fears.
Don’t let him fool you though,
He was a tough one to go up against.
As President Stone loved being at home, Until the two years will be Trice as president.
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Look out I’m the one and only,
Bullying is in my past days.
All I really want is for you to notice me, Maybe we’ll be best of friends.
I don’t want any trouble,
But I’ll fight to get through.
Bowman that’s my last name,
I show my pride in it no overdo.
Just look at me,
I’m a weak link.
A worst enemy,
I can’t even fight.
Warzone after warzone,
I look out for my safety.
Fight zone after fight alone,
Just throwing a punch try me.
We’re never acting like adults,
We’re acting like we’re children.
Where them adults to break us?
Nobody should fight me I’ll run.
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Everyday and every night,
I’m just looking for you to notice me.
Fuck off with that fight,
I’m not just looking out for you anyway.
Overdosage of pills,
I’ll die of overdoing drugs.
You fight just for thrills,
Don’t you deny you ain’t thugs.
Hungover from alcohol,
You’re regurgitating.
My death wish ain’t a kill,
You’re so very irritating.
Give up you’ll never win,
Ding-ding the bell rings.
We’re brawling like children,
By far you aren’t what it takes.
Heaven’s goodness you ain’t thugging, God’s angels won’t save you now.
Please can you notice me I’m begging, Overdoing your fights, knockout, pow.
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I’ll die before you do,
Dishonorable isn’t what you think.
Put that gun to my head and blow, May God make me resurrect.
Bless thou art,
And all of its glory.
God bless Noah’s ark,
Because a flood is misery.
What the fuck happened to you dude?
You’re shitting on a hole in the ground.
Dishonorably you’re being such a crude, As I’m blessing my worst enemy around.
Fuck you and all your worth,
Ghetto living is dishonorable.
Boy I’ll put ya in the dirt,
Head first in the dugout hole.
Boy I shoot you till you’re dead, Overdosages of medication,
Maybe you’re ain’t worth all bread, Because I leave yo ass in starvation.
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Well putcha needs before mine?
Because you must be very crazy.
Yo sorry ass boy I diss on your kind, Sorry ya never should’ve trusted me.
Killer and dissing on,
Beggars will be choosers.
Youngins beware of my gun,
Bitch I leave ya dirty beggars.
Heavily damage,
Y’all better leave.
Begging to be a savage,
Shoot you dead leaving you to bleed.
Gunshots in the distance,
Bullets flying everywhere.
Nobody keeps you in existance,
You’re just a puppet with strings in the air.
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Just look into my spinning wheel, Boy I’ll put you in a trance.
My waves are spun like a fishing reel, It’s like we’re in a boxing match.
You ain’t what I like,
Hop out the phantom.
Pull up like I be ridin’ a bike,
Missing my baby I’m in boredom.
Incredibly,
I put you in a trance.
Sincerely,
I’ll send you like a sealed envelope.
Have it your way,
Just like Burger King.
My babe she’s pure beauty,
God bless us with marriage.
Overdoses of cough syrup,
I choke it all up and begin to puke.
Well we’re besties then duck,
Look out below here comes the roof.
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Flip a burger or two,
Just to earn a paycheck.
Bussin’ at ‘em like I’ll shoot,
Just to break their fuckin’ neck.
Preach up goodwill to all men equal, Happiness will turn to a blood clotted mess.
Bang on your door just to make paid legal, If you don’t pay up soon I’ll leave y’all in a trance.
Nobody should trust me whenever I shoot, Like dude give up and leave me alone alright.
Overdoing my part in the gangbanging proof, Hell yeah, we’re gang bros for all of the life.
Turn these fuck boys into a savage, Just to learn their fuckin’ lesson.
Please me while their ball skills are average, Ball up. Yo d-up your b-ball skills then.
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Bullets flying at the rooftops,
Bitches better duck for cover.
These gangbangers say “fuck the cops”, Just to become a savaged gangbanger.
Shawties all over their bodies,
Sexting in the lounge.
Hungover from all their drugs,
No dope feins to be found.
Just to become gangbanged,
They’ll do pretty much anything.
Killers all themselves savaged,
They won’t trust yo ass for nothing.
Gangbanging in all towns,
Coppers beware.
All day long they’re masked clowns, It’s true I swear.
Mobsters they are,
They all are imposters.
Just like a fake chopper,
Speed chasin’ from the coppers.
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Look they will shootdown,
Gangbangers all day long.
No bailage in their sentence found, They be whistling tunes along.
From bussin’ down your door,
Blessings won’t save their sins.
To robbing the bank around the corner, Well damn, they’re all fuckin’ savages.
Chokehold to chokeholds,
No bail in their cell of concrete.
They kill to please themselves,
Every gangbangers had to retreat.
Cops pulled up to the bloody scenery, Sincerely they’re chosen to die.
Look I’m not here for the witness left bloody, But gangbangers shoot up those who lie.
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Trice Stone: First Act as President As you all know Trice is presidential, In his first term as president he reacts.
People of the company are confidential, His actions are proven by his cut on tax.
“Honestly I’m cutting tax for a while”, It’s much insane when I am president.
Thankfully I’m so good at presidential, There isn’t nobody like me to represent.
Hurry all to the presidential meetings, First things first, I’m looking for a job.
A job that someone could handle things, Nothing says that you will be paid half.
Upstairs in the president’s hallway, There’s the chair of many opportunities.
I’m overthinking about the cut tax fee, Just look at me I’m too young for these.
Opportunities comes once in a lifetime, All day long I pace my office floorboards.
My brain turns to mush as I do a scheme, Look I’m not saying this will become aborts.
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Pleading my case one day at a time so what?
Jesus will die on the cross just to forgive our sin.
Nobody will have their taxes anymore so abort, Jump from place to place just to know where I’ve been.
I’m overlooking the job to be used to have it, The person I have chosen is Jeanette McCabe.
“Miss. McCabe it looks like a job up for take”,
“Please won’t you take it before it is too late?”
She took it and liked it as she worked daily, Haven’t overlooked the date of her working.
Down the hallway was the office with a secretary, And his own name was Señor Bartolomé Guillán.
Señor Guillán barely knew any English, As he was born in Puerto Rico.
He wanted to work for President Trice, Even if he did not really pay him to.
Trice Stone’s first act was to cut tax, As he looked up at the pictures of his daddy.
But Trice was sad because of his past, Purposely daddy forced him into the company.
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An Unspoken Truth Trust me I know a lot of things,
Maybe it’s not you who’s wrong.
Justice will not be safe with beatings, Cops aren’t the one who is all along.
But it’s an unspoken truth,
That is forespoken by ancestors.
Haven’t we’ve had a bad wrath?
Well with Donald Trump its executers.
Each and every day we’re inspired, To do many things with our lives.
The pursuit of happiness is expired, Just like it’s becoming all so many lies.
Opening to closing,
We are Americans.
That is very wrong,
What’s with the beatings?
Police brutalities,
One after another.
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An unspoken truth lies,
Beneath its exterior.
Inhale and exhale,
Hung off the ground coldblooded.
What’s with betrayal?
With a noose we’re harming bodied.
Every day we are alive,
It’s an unspoken truth.
Expiration dates all the time,
Haven’t we’ve become?
Hangover with the drugs feins,
We ain’t playing when we shoot up.
And the drugs are still competing, I hope we can’t get rid of them it’s tough.
Give me days upon all overdosages, What’s with all the deaths all day long?
There’s never a pursuit of happiness, Overkilled with police brutalities is so wrong.
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Forgive Me Father for I Have Sinned They say he died on the cross to forgive our sins, Jesus is resurrected from his gravesite.
Please can you forgive me father for I have sinned?
I just want my sins washed away from sight.
Welcome to anew Christianity,
Where you’ll find all sorts of people.
Haven’t we’ve sinned in our past lately?
Just thankfully we’ve got Christ sin-free rubble.
Happily we’re Christians,
We shouldn’t forget about our Father.
For he’s the best in our religions, Never bow to another god except him before.
Welcoming our sin-free lifestyle, Please forgive me father for I have sinned.
Give and take we’re here for a while, Just like we’ve been given another life to begin.
Free as a bird they say,
Christians are proud.
Such a life in a way,
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But we’re never allowed.
Vicious as a rabid dog,
Attacking like a cheetah.
Faster than a turtle along,
I’ll buy and sell you like Visa.
Jesus can you forgive my sins like this?
Hungover from a party hardy.
Please father please forgive my crisis, Never doubting you ever so hardly.
Firstly you’ve given me opportunities alright, Secondly I need you anyway.
Thirdly I don’t need to partake in any fight, Lastly I believe in my Bible and what it say.
Going bonkers whenever I preach the devilish, It’s sickening to me when I don’t seek your praise Lord.
Because keeping the truest words of God is to cherish, There’s many places I like to see but are unexplored.
Hey God can you forgive all my sins because, I really need you in my life and there’s no way around it.
Hey pretty thing I need you in the crowd for applause, Because not having the Lord in my life will make me commit.
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Can’t Think Straight (I Must Be Going Insane)
When I say I didn’t fuck a bitch I mean it, Please don’t get me wrong on saying bitch.
Can’t think straight I must be going insane, Can you dare me to jump off a fucking bridge?
No bloody witnesses,
She’s a hard studying person.
She wants to be an actress,
But she went to Alabama to be a Crimson.
Well I meant Crimson Tide,
But fuck it I meant what I said.
I can’t believe in nowhere to hide, Because that girl you know fucks good.
But I ain’t fucking a bitch oh no, I am a Christian under my God.
I know I’m cursing and that’s why I gotta go, Just angle up them perfection sex a ton.
Nobody does her better than the way I do her, I’m not talking all that sex or fucking bitches.
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CAN’T THINK STRAIGHT (I MUST BE GOING INSANE) Hopefully God can forgive me and give an answer, Because I’m swerving in and outta lanes screeches.
I must be going insane when I say I don’t fuck, But it’s the best of me when I’m straightforward.
Lying ain’t what I do but please do wish me luck, Because I’m not fucking girls after girls like a bastard.
Well I can’t think straight,
Whenever I’m overprotecting.
She’s the one at the altar not the gate, But I need that girl for marrying.
Look I loved her from the beginning, That’s not a lie.
Nobody does her body I’m not pretending, But she’s never going to try.
Believing in me one story at a time, Today will be the one perfection.
I can’t think straight I’m not that lame, But you’ve proven me to believe in.
You’re a woman of my daydreams,
There’s nobody like that woman.
Girl I must be insane when I do themes, How about you meet me in the section.
Gosh darnit,
You’re my one and only.
I’ll take it and marry it,
Just to prove yourself freely.
Give or take it a few,
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I must be going insane just to think.
But don’t want to miss us too,
Because I realize our marriage is fake.
Loveliness and you’re my angel.
Babykins I do love you.
Tell me anyway you like to fall,
Because I’ll catch you if a few.
Baby there’s something you need to know about me, I can’t miss the opportunity to marry yourself.
Give me a few days I’ll be the one at the altar looking kissy, You mean a lot to me and I am not doing this for my health.
Looks like I miss you every day and every night, I just can’t think straight I must be going insane.
Just listen to me I’ve got what it takes to be forthright, If you don’t love me I’ll jump in front of a freight train.
But I don’t want to do that,
But you’re such amazing too.
I’m writing a story that’s paperback, An amazing story about a girl that I knew.
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Bleeding for Our Country They say that America is a free country, As we are one nation under God to death.
We got soldier bleeding dying in military, As we should thank them all well God bless.
Forget them not,
They are soldiers defending.
Just like Rosa Parks’s boycott,
These soldiers we should be amending.
Very well then,
We’re thankful.
These soldiers are gunmen,
It should be tranquil.
But we aren’t really great,
As we should defend ourselves.
We as countries do dictate,
Just think don’t get too overwhelm.
Giving a long time we are Americans, One nation under God in our country.
But do we really believe in such miracles?
Well we as Americans shouldn’t be hungry.
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But sadly we are going that way and it’s never, Good because we’re doing everything we can.
We are bleeding for our country ever and ever, Please send the bugle boy and the flagman.
Call us Americans but we aren’t defending right, It’s such a shame that we’re not fulfilling our duties.
We we’re dying one by one and it’s such a fright, As we’re shooting guns like there was so many uzis.
Click clang bang we’re shooting down one by one, As we aren’t so good at fulfilling our duties as soldiers.
We’re bleeding for our country we shoot our handgun, Of course we can say we fired guns and fires smoldered.
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I’m back with another bully,
As you know me by Jerry.
My bully’s name was Clint Bines,
Now he’s the prankster from behind.
I am now fifteen and I am a high schooler, Hanging out with my friends to seem cooler.
Praising God and his Angels,
They’re different at all angles.
I gotta be aware of my prankster, Man he’s the worse of all tricksters.
This is my bullied story,
I’m still considered puny and dweeby.
Of course I’m pleading with Clint, He’s the worst bully of them yet.
I’m walking down a street in a alleyway, Stricken with such fearsome in my eye.
Becoming a prankster Clint was evil, Living day to day the be worst unbelieveable.
Clint Bines the fourteen year old, Just can’t give up the bullying at all.
He’s my bully for sure,
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I’m dead upon arrival beaten like none before.
Upon the nightfall is when he’ll strike, Beating up everyone from big to a small tike.
So what I’m puny and dweeby?
That’s the everliving story of me.
Pretty ain’t what I picture,
As I try to read from a scripture.
At my age of fifteen I am small,
But I ain’t puny nor dweeby at all.
Just can’t believe in my prankster, He ain’t all that fun by he’s faster.
The prank I got today,
Was an evil act anyway.
I was given a bottle that blew up, Clint knew I was embarrassed enough.
For sure he was my bully,
A really no good for nothing nobody.
I wish to forgive and forget,
I’m in misery and woe and I wept.
Pleading with God and I lose,
But I still praise him that’s what I choose.
Never should have been at school, Clint the prankster thinks he’s so cool.
But he’s not I’ll tell you,
Open the Bible it’s what I do.
This time I’m not in an ambulance, But surely Clint gets caught with blunts.
The principal of our school calls Clint’s parents, He get sent home and spanked from this experience.
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God forgive him as he has sinned, Nobody needs to get bullied.
Clint isn’t around to prank us from anywhere, I laughed in my mind from this he can’t remember.
As God tell us all that we are forgiven, Thank God that if I die I’ll go straight to heaven.
My story isn’t all the pleasant from experience, But I need to soothe this unpleasantness.
Up there way into the heavens,
God I pray for Clint he’s evil as he sins.
Whoa they say that I’m puny and dweeby, I bet you that I’ll have yet another interesting story.
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As you know my bullied past stories, Well that’s my true honest histories.
I’m sixteen and my bully is Clayvis Kent, He’s not related to Superman it’s different.
But I still praise God everyday,
Each and holiest way after way.
The Bible tells us that God forgives, But what’s that got to do with all the sins?
Clayvis is a exchange student from Texas, Yeah he’s from Texas City and he’s all Texans.
How dare I be stupid in the eyes of Clayvis, Man I’m stupid I guess?
I’m not joking when I tell you about this fool, He’s really the coolest person in our high school.
But I say he’s not,
Just show me what he’s got.
Stupidity isn’t what I am at all, But I ain’t got the past ways I was a fool.
Never mind what I told y’all about my bullies, They’re just all such bad memories.
Up there in Heaven I will be,
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Remember my past bully acting like he’s three?
Well I am forgiving them like Christ did, But I was such a young little kid.
Even though I’m not a friend of Clayvis, I can’t hear the realest ending of this.
He’s more of a geek kind of bully, But I ain’t all that smart nor geeky.
Well I mean I am smart,
But that’s nowhere to start.
I bet you that Clayvis was bullied too, But I ain’t the one to tell you.
Clayvis bullied me for stupid reasons, No I can’t trust him because of his daddy’s treasons.
But nobody should hold over a grudge, My bad Lord I have to forgive him a smidge.
Pretending to walk passed him,
I prayed he wouldn’t look at me it seemed.
At all like he noticed me because of my puniness, But he looked at his girl whom he calls “Princess”.
Well her name is Celina McGovern, But I bet you he has sex in his bedroom.
Like I can’t tell you already about this goon, He’s a freak and a non smart person.
Nobody should judge others the way I do, My world revolves around God what’s new?
Perfection isn’t what God and Jesus seeks, It’s nice to see what Clayvis thinks of the geeks.
Well I’m on the menu,
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Just can’t seem to pull through.
Begging on my kneecaps,
To earn all of my wages.
Victorious it may seem like,
But I can’t respect him sike!
Clayvis might be a bully,
Well he’s a good frenemy.
Praying that I won’t get sent in an ambulance, Look out below God’s striking down from a distance.
Thunderclouds form,
Boarded up like we’re in a storm.
Clayvis and his shenanigans,
Got the worst of me at all odds.
He’s pranked me from behind,
I’m leaving him before his kind.
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America the Great We remember 9/11 like it happened, But yet we are saddened.
America the great,
America the great.
All the terrorism won’t penetrate, All of the lives are too late.
America a home like none other,
America a home you can’t break her.
The terrorists that attacked,
Won’t have it no getting it back.
America the great,
America the great.
Sadly 9/11 is a bad time,
But embrace yourself and shine.
The country like none other,
A neighbor like a brother and a sister.
Reunite and shine brightly,
Terrorism been hating lately?
America is the great,
We got to remember it’s neat.
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It’s our home and we live in it,
America the great.
The people of New York have been sad, They’ve lost the friends and families they had.
But it’s never too late,
Heroism is standing at the line of fate.
America is the greatest,
Maybe it’s the best?
Haven’t we’ve lost someone?
Well New York City lost love ones.
America the great,
America the great.
Never will we forget 9/11,
It’ll never be like it happened.
Too many lives at stake,
We couldn’t get to them it’s too late.
NYC a city for its heroism,
9/11 and its terrorism.
I was young when 9/11 happened,
About four and I was saddened.
America is our home,
We stand for it alone.
America the great,
A hero’s life is at stake.
How we’ve been lately,
I wasn’t listening for newsworthy.
America the great country,
9/11 struck fearsome in everybody.
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The people jumping out of the Twin Towers, The emergency heroes with safety nets and ladders.
What a sad time in America’s history, I was stricken and fearing for everybody around me.
How can the terrorism win?
But why did they let them in?
The Towers of NYC we crumbling,
And the people inside were stumbling.
America was in shock and woe,
As the North and South Towers fell below.
Watching this horrifying incident, Nobody should’ve been under attack.
America the great,
America the great.
9/11 and its miseries,
People falling from the skies.
How can we be survivalists?
As the places were attacked.
The Pentagon was hit,
A plane was in Shanksville as it crash landed.
In Arlington the Pentagon was partially attacked, The White House or the U.S. Capitol was intended.
How can we survive with nearly 3,000 deadly?
But I was four and didn’t understand a thing sadly.
Never will 9/11 be forgotten in our hearts and minds, The terrorism was attacked by U.S. and it’s allies.
Al Qaeda and Osama bin Laden was taken down, In 2011, Osama was killed by U.S. troops in Pakistan.
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You are my pretty thing
I’ll twirl
You all night long
Under the lights
We’ll snuggle
Under the blankets
I’m your Lil Buggle
Just think of all the good
Thoughts are overrated
I’m mischievous I’m hood
You’re my first that I’ve dated
I’m loving you
And you’re loving me
My world is it too
Just think of being free
Nice meeting your parents
Just can’t wait to see your siblings Nothing beats what you’ve compared Thinking of the times and date nights 104
Happiness is what you are
You remind me of flowers
Reasons why we’ll be together
Frolicking through them in sun showers Snuggle with me tonight
Hurry I’m just getting warm
I’m not talking all sexy right?
Just can’t get sexy in the bedroom You’re my miracle
I’m feeling one thing
My love is mystical
Jump right into the bedding
Surely I can’t wait too long
I can’t wait to be your snuggle bug Over and over you’re my song
Beauty compares to you all snugged Tightly I’m wrapping you up
Warm blankets and a fire burning
It can’t get too romantic I’m a suckup You’re the only thing
This is for the one I love
One thing is for certain
Just overthinking is tough
Baby please close the curtains
Up way in the clouds
There’s God looking down
He’s smiling at us all year long
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My world isn’t going to frown
Oh my gosh
You’ve been such a good girl
Trust in me don’t rush
Listen to your heartbeat it means the world Ooh girl you’re the one I love
A poem just for your beauties
I’ll treat you kindly Cupid shooting above You’re my lover and nothing’s careless A young and beautiful thing
Really I’m in love with you
Just don’t overthink it
You’ll hurt yourself if you do
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I’m That Kid You’ve Murdered Remember me?
Well I’m dead now.
This is my story,
As I lie there bled out.
You’ve murdered me,
My family is worried.
I was only a kid of three,
When I was stabbed.
Looking for someone?
You’re looking in the wrong place.
I was murdered by the one,
He sent me straight to Heaven’s gates.
His name I uttered,
Will be the past me.
By what you murdered,
Will be the death lately.
His name is Willy Graft,
A person with a motivation,
Well of course to have me killed, Was his only truest satisfaction.
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I was stabbed and left to bled,
As my family wept at my funeral.
As the story by Dr. Seuss was read, My family was scarred emotional.
So Mr. Graft,
Why did you kill boys?
He got up and left,
They are little hell pits.
Now he was satisfied,
His intentions were high.
My brother still cried,
He didn’t want to see me die.
Are you happy now Mr. Graft?
Why did he kill me you wonder?
My brother’s life is wrecked.
Why don’t you ask him to bother?
I was only three years old and dead, He got what he wanted all along.
It’s hopeless I am surely in the past, His motives to kill wasn’t child’s playing.
Nevertheless, I am just a little kid, And my family is dearly missing me.
Happy is what the feeling is for Mr. Graft, Because he is murderous of children of three.
I am up there in Heaven crying,
Because I am dead and gone.
Never should’ve came to his deceiving, Because I am left there alone.
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The reality is,
That I’ve been fatal.
My life is surely missed,
Crying is at my funeral.
My family will not be happy,
For me is their only motives.
However I am up there heavenly,
Stuck to haunt Mr. Graft for centuries.
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Douglas Fillmore and the Abusive Father
As a young boy raised by my Grammy Gaylene, It couldn’t have been any worse than Tyreek Soren.
Pleading and begging was the worse fate for me, Opposed to having fun with Tyreek and my brothers.
We were hungry and thirsty with no food nor water, Starvation was a victor and we were on the brink of death.
Needless to say, we had to be poor because of the scarce money.
I and my brothers were crying from being so hungry all the time.
Because there’s nothing to eat and money wasn’t a goal to us, Happiness was saddened as we begged on our knees for anything.
Poorness and unluckiness wasn’t what we’ve planned in the future,
We couldn’t complain or we’d get whipped by our abusive father.
We were beggars and cried over spilt milk as we starved completely,
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it.
It was killing us to be so broke that we couldn’t sleep on nice cozy beds.
Pleasing our father was amusing to him because he was like a king.
I am Douglas Fillmore but you may only consider calling me Doug,
Beginning to the end our father was so abusive he wouldn’t pay for food.
His steak cost more than we could ever afford and he ate it in front of us,
Smirking in our faces like he deserved it better than his very own children.
But we’re never to pay for us to eat before his feasts because he cracked whips,
Having it any other way and the way he sees us starving is pleasure to his likings.
Nice to notice that our father’s abusiveness is good to him and we’re sure to die,
However, he is our father and we had to respect his every single little whims.
Over the course of my life I was born to respect others in a manner that was good,
But I can’t just sit there and see my father eat his food in front of us like he owns it.
Needless to say I am a person who deserves respect back for what I have done back,
Tonight is the last stand, I am a person with dignity and I demanded respectfulness.
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I’d like to fight tooth and nail to get some respect from what my abusive father done,
Seeing he smirking isn’t pleasure to me it’s such a rude like manner but I’m so over it.
Justice is what I and my brothers deserve and I won’t do it without my brother’s help,
There we stand in front of my abusive father and he has to surrender and we have won.
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Two kids were walking down the alleyway, When they stumbled upon some person.
The person warned them never to play here, Because you’ll be sorry if you do.
The kids ran faster than the flash of lightning, Heartbeats were thumping out of their chest.
They came upon an apartment with a “B-23”, And wondered what was behind it.
The one said, “Go on. Don’t be shy open it.”
The other was too chicken to open the door.
So the first kid creaked the door open widely, And they felt displeased by the eerie feeling.
They saw a shadow of somewhat a person, Remembering what the person warned them.
Shaking from frightfulness they walked in, Never looking back at wherever the kids began.
As a mysterious voice said “Who goes there?”
It was uncertain that they would survive this.
Nobody will ever believe in Apartment B-23, The most haunted place on the face of planets.
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As the mysterious voice got louder and louder, They had an eerie shivering down their spines.
Unwelcomed in this apartment it was their fate, Too much of being scary cats won’t satisfy them.
In a moment’s notice there was a shadowy figure, The walls began to shake violently and pictures fell.
These kids totally misunderstood what was going on, Never should they look back at this bad experience.
Apartment B-23 was so haunted it had murder scenes, Mostly of little girls and little boys who were uninvited.
One girl was named Minnie Noyce and was murdered, These kids ran out of Apartment B-23 never looking back.
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Three years ago
There was a girl
She got looks you know?
She’s all about twirl
Nice to know her
She’s Vicki Raymes
Ain’t like no other
So cute she claims
Nobody is such prettier
Girls just can’t beat Vicki
Her world is so much better
She ain’t no sucka if ya know what I mean Vicki, Vicki, Vicki,
Say her name three times
Pretty, pretty, pretty,
Oh what such good rhymes
So Miss. Raymes
Can’t you tell me?
It ain’t the same
How can’t you see?
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Vicki, Vicki, Vicki,
Say her name three times
Pretty, pretty, pretty,
Oh what such good rhymes
So Miss. Raymes
Can’t you tell me?
It ain’t the same
How can’t you see?
No girl is prettiest
No girl is beautiful
She’s the true best
Oh what an earful
Practically she’s great
Vicki ain’t no sucker
Prettier is what’s best
No one is even prettier
How can’t you see her?
She’s not that invincible
She has to be so clear
Vicki is just so incredible
From poor to riches
She has been through it roughly
No one can be snitches
If she catches you it’ll be bloody Vicki ain’t no killer
But she is a deadly person
You can’t dare deny her
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She can’t forgive any reason
How can’t you begin?
She’s everywhere
Ain’t got nothing
So she will swear
More likely to be pretty
Miss. Raymes is real
Just can’t see her deadly
She will bribe any deal
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Beauty within the Skies And then she reprimands her mangling eye, Tired with all these, for restful death I cry.
To keep thy sharp woes waking, wretched I, Look, how a bright star shooteth from the sky.
‘With this, I did begin to start and cry, That on the ashes of his youth doth lie’.
So is her face illumined with her eye, To wail his death who lives and must not die.
O, that forced thunder from his heart did fly, The scornful mark of every open eye.
Look, how a bright star shooteth from the sky, Who, if it wink, shall thereon fall and die.
Cheered and cheque’d even by the self-same sky, Wildly determining which way to fly.
My heart shall never countermand mine eye, But they whose guilt within their bosoms lie.
And heavy ignorance aloft to fly, Cheered and cheque’d even by the self-same sky.
But eagles gazed upon with every eye, Like misty vapours when they blot the sky.
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Ah! if thou issueless shalt hap to die,
‘O Jove,’ quoth she, ‘how much a fool was I For there can live no hatred in thine eye?’, Graze on my lips; and if those hills be dry.
Foreknowing well, if there he came to lie, And here in Troy, for trespass of thine eye.
Wagg’d up and down, and from his lips did fly, And therefore now I need not fear to die.
Whose vulture thought doth pitch the price so high, The scornful mark of every open eye.
Thy registers and thee I both defy, That thereby beauty’s rose might never die.
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In a World That Has to Be Changed Beauty’s effect with beauty were bereft Guilty thou art of murder and of theft In days long since, before these last so bad This told, I joy; but then no longer glad Then, were not summer’s distillation left Some fresher stamp of the time-bettering days When he himself himself confounds, betrays But sad mortality o’er-sways their power Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hour Finding thy worth a limit past my praise A loss in love that touches me more nearly And yet it may be said I loved her dearly Like a wild bird being tamed with too much handling Or like the froward infant still’d with dandling A loss in love that touches me more nearly For there can live no hatred in thine eye Though to itself it only live and die Which knows no pity, but is still severe Thy eye kindled the fire that burneth here 120
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So is her face illumined with her eye And in thy shady cell, where none may spy him The flowers are sweet, their colours fresh and trim Pausing for means to mourn some newer way That I might see what the old world could say Pieced not his grace, but were all graced by him They that lose half with greater patience bear it And such a counterpart shall fame his wit May set at noon and make perpetual night Or, if they sleep, thy picture in my sight Shifts but his place, for still the world enjoys it Since, spite of him, I’ll live in this poor rhyme Compare them with the bettering of the time Which prove more short than waste or ruining?
Hast thou put on his shape to do him shame?
Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme Which works on leases of short-number’d hours The sweets we wish for turn to loathed sours The heavy motion that it doth behold Let it not tell your judgment I am old So they were dew’d with such distilling showers And loathsome canker lives in sweetest bud Deep woes roll forward like a gentle flood That heavy Saturn laugh’d and leap’d with him The flowers are sweet, their colours fresh and trim If all these pretty ills shall change thy good 121
An Unspeakable Story Whose speechless song, being many, seeming one,
“My parts had power to charm a sacred nun.”
The wrinkles which thy glass will truly show, Cheeks neither red nor pale, but mingled so.
Let my unsounded self, supposed a fool, Thou art the fairest and most precious jewel.
Thou, best of dearest and mine only care, O, never let their crimson liveries wear!
Suspect I may, but not directly tell, To make the cunning hounds mistake their smell.
To praise the clear unmatched red and white, To make him curse this cursed crimeful night.
Some loathsome dash the herald will contrive, Thus hoping that Adonis is alive.
Unto a greater uproar tempts his veins, And, proud of many, lives upon his gains.
Hiding base sin in plaits of majesty, With soft-slow tongue, true mark of modesty.
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Yea the illiterate, that know not how, The studded bridle on a ragged bough.
Not that the summer is less pleasant now, The wrinkles which thy glass will truly show.
But if thou live, remember’d not to be, For she that was thy Lucrece, now attend me.
It suffers not in smiling pomp, nor falls, Whereto the inviting time our fashion calls.
So glides he in the night from Venus’ eye, So far from home into my deeds to pry.
Showing life’s triumph in the map of death, To stifle beauty and to steal his breath.
O appetite, from judgment stand aloof!
That we must curb it upon others’ proof.
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Chief Rocka: The Last of a Dying Breed
This story is about a Native American boy, He is named Chief Rocka.
If you wanna hear this life of this boy, Then sit back and put away the Vodka.
Haven’t you heard of Chief Rocka’s story?
It’s very intriguing you know.
He’s a very young boy,
Of about nine and he’s not for show.
Hey you guys,
It is Chief Rocka.
C’mon put down the beer cans,
Cause nobody likes Vodka.
I am a kid of nine years of age,
It’s up to me as the last of a dying breed.
It looks like I’ve got center stage, I’ll pour my heart out on this until it’ll bleed.
My breed is dying as of right now, I am just a little kid defenseless.
But of course we don’t know how,
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CHIEF ROCKA: THE LAST OF A DYING BREED
Because a bad guy likes to beat senseless.
Yer life better be better than mine, I am warning you all about my life.
Killed over stupid things like blind, Nobody worries for a bloodshed knife?
My story is going down in history, It all began when our chief left us.
So I stepped in as chief of many, Hopefully they give me all their trust.
Our chief left us and fled the country, Of which we called our precious homes.
Now we’re doomed and we’re in misery, Sleeping under only non-heated domes.
My parents abandoned me and my siblings, Never looking back.
This awkwardness,
Is on full attack.
Overlooking the safety from me,
My country needs me as their chief.
So I stepped into position and was ready, Because if we don’t have a chief we don’t sleep.
Never understanding that a nine year old, Boy can protect us from sworn enemies.
Because it’s never estimated to be cold, Sleepless nights and no heat in our fireplaces.
Yeah, yeah, I am only nine,
I get that a kid won’t save us all.
Just trust in me and my kind,
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Because I’ll prove it just wait for a call.
So Chief Rocka how do you save?
I answer “Sit back and relax I got this.”
Nobody trusted me in my place,
Because a boy chief won’t be jokeless.
Just I am determined,
To save us from destruction.
Moreover I am blessed,
Have faith and I’ll be the reason.
The city is under attack,
With all weapons of any kind.
I have to prepared to strike back, Really a nine year old boy undefined?
Helplessly I await,
For a reason to strike.
Never sleeping I stay awake,
Hoping to attack from the back.
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Chief Rocka: An End to the Undefeated War
To blackouts and smoke-filled lungs, I have to defend this town that depends on me.
Pray for me people I can’t go along, Am I too late to see the daybreak light so heavenly?
Thankfully we have been saved by help, Just can’t thank them enough for saving.
I have to realize I am a kid that’ll gulp, If I needed to and I am tired of seeing bleeding.
Jumping off bridges I see them doing it, They all risk their lives to be defenseless.
It’s up to our new help to be a defendant, Or face the wrath of someone so selfish.
Trust me I am a kid that wanted to be chief, But sadly I am no good or fit to be a leader.
Moving over to the life I used to see for belief, Beginner’s luck I guess and I relax, deep breather.
Well I have been their chief for only a day I guess, Because I ain’t fit to see the bloodshed warzone.
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Just don’t fake at being chief having to be known.
This unknown savor is Yoshiko Takahashi, A brave Japanese soldier from Mainland Japan.
Yoshiko was trained in Japan’s karate, He’s got the highest belt in karate known to man.
Now he fought tooth and nail for our survival, And guess what I think we won.
Well Yoshiko’s plan wasn’t to be an arrival, Well I guess he will be gone soon.
He promised that his victory was solely mine, As he left the premises farther than the eye can see.
“It is up to you young man to depend on your kind,”
I answered “Yes master I promise you of this of me.”
Now the country was all safe and we returned, Our homes had to be rebuilt and construction started.
What? I am only nine and that’s all you’ve heard, There’s nothing with a boy chief who’ll be a defendant.
Yes, I am only just a nine year old kid, People I am your chief I was the defender.
Yes, I am a little awkwardly and legit, Just for our helper I am thankful and kinder.
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Ooh when I had a girl that loved me She wouldn’t been a good girl for love Baby you’ll be sorry
There’s just no more love
Heaven ain’t the correct place
She woke up mad at me for nothing If you don’t pick up the pace you’ll lose the race Nice to know you and it wasn’t perfection You’ll be sorry you ever met me
Happily you’re gone Capisce?
Purposely she didn’t like me
I lost the love connection it was misplaced Freedom is what I deserve all along But her craziness won’t let that happen Nobody isn’t gaga about you that’s wrong What’s up with your new boyfriend?
Just you’ll be sorry
Because our love is now dead
Please get away from me
Do you understand what I said?
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It’s upsetting to see her go
But it’s the right thing
She had my heart then broke it too Bleeding all over love’s scene
She had true beauties
It was a heaven match made
And great other qualities
Now my baby gone away
Ooh you’ll be sorry
Just you wait
Happiness isn’t what it’ll be
Because you left me in hate
The intensified bickering
To the fights and shove matches
I had to walk away from fighting
Lost the one I used to love now I’m in stitches Gosh, she knew my every weakness
To every masterminded plot schemes Young love is too much for loveliness Oh what it already seems
Baby you’ll be sorry
Just can’t be with you anymore
Never had a love to give me
What’s that got to do with care?
Somehow I am victorious
But I don’t feel like a winner
Nice to see our love vanishes
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That girl was my truest lover
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Yasuyoshi Fukushima I was born in Nagasaki
To a mother and father
Japan isn’t what it used to be
There’s bombing like no other
I was just a little boy
When my families fled
It was horrible to me
Surely people are dead
Hopefully I am a survivor
At my age of just twelve
Japan’s attacked by a bomber
Must we have attack unhelped?
It’s very upsetting
To see the defenseless
I am last to be surviving
Bombs go off in all directions
I am Yasuyoshi Fukushima
A boy of only defenselessness
Pleaded with survival with China
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YASUYOSHI FUKUSHIMA But in the end it’s very hopeless I am pleading my surviving
Because I am only a small child
Helplessly I am tired of dying
As the rubble are getting stockpiled Troubled with my own life
Weakened with every last breath
Can I pray for any relief?
Hopefully I’m not the only one left Because it’s a ghost town here
I haven’t been sturdy
Struggling myself as I shed a tear Hope to see water because I’m so thirsty I pray for the dying souls
And for lost loved ones
Tiresome of this as it unfolds
Displeasing to have filled lungs
Thankfully all of the destruction went away And our city was saved one again
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Acting So Foolish You’ve caught me
Acting so foolish
Nothing is for free
No matter how rich
It’ll never be the same
Without you and me
What’s this sick game?
Doing with our story?
I loved you just the same
Maybe a little bit too much
Our love isn’t such lame
I caught you acting so foolish
How can I trust you like this
Just can’t seem to wrap it around You’ve been acting so foolish
When I’m insane pretending wrong
What if I loved you?
What if you loved me?
So what if I loved too?
That’s how my love has to be
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Overdosages of meds
And I’m on the ground shaking violently I can’t be the one who forgets
Our love isn’t what it used to be You’re getting into my head
And I can’t get you out
I am sure to be the one misread
As I read your book aloud
Don’t pretend
It’s not a sick twisted game
I’ve been sad
Forget it I’m not that lame
I know it’s been upsetting
I see the sunrise turn to nightfall So done being the one pretending
All you got to do is one thing – call Well it’s been too long since I awaited You’ve been playing around with me I am not the one who won’t be outdated Because I’m the one who now is too free 135
We’re in Dreamlandia tonight
Alright we’re snugged so tight
Dreamlandia here we come!
Oh shit what have I’ve become?
Sneaky and gruesome
Dreamlandia here I come
It’s so wonderful
And so peaceful
I wrote down my angers
And disturbed neighbors
I am awaiting for the police
Ain’t Dreamlandia so nice?
It’s Dreamlandia
So it’s here to disturb ya
So be calm and let it inside
It’s got a lot with you tonight
Don’t be so fearless
It has its gruesomeness
To dreams
Making screams
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But don’t be too harshly
Why is it doing this to me?
Dreamlandia will consume ya
But you’re doomed just awake ya
But never assume it’ll be great
Because you’re far too late
Dreamlandia won’t be any of your concern Don’tcha seem like to say a word?
Haven’t ya ever thought?
My dreams are fearing me tonight
Dreams don’t play nice
I wantcha your dreams to be wise
It’ll never be a concern won’t it?
Will y’all never seem to be this?
It’s a thief in the night to consume you It won’t play nice so nightmares are it too Dreamlandia will be your worst nightmare It’ll make y’all seemed to feel fearful and scared Don’t mind Dreamlandia it won’t consume you Because it’ll take a deep affection to others too Because it’ll creep up inside of ya It’s the curse of Dreamlandia
Hey don’t become to fearful
Because it’ll be an earful
So dream about good dreams
Inside it consumes your screams
Dreamlandia will be so scary
Because that is how it has to be
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What I’m Feeling Forget y’all right now
I am feeling anger kaplow
Ain’t gonna deal with you
It’ll take too much begging too
What I’m feeling is stupidity
And you better pay the annuity
I’m such in a downfall lately
But I’ll overcome it some way
Kablewy
What have ya done to me?
I’ve wish I never knew you
You’ve done enough - what’s new?
Somehow you’ve fucked with me
But I’ll never get over it successfully What’s this? You’re in power?
You’re a bitch, it’s the bitch hour It’s deeply concerning
