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That my world is misleading

Y’all didn’t prove this

But I’ll miss what it is

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WHAT I’M FEELING

Fuck off with that stress

Wow, you’ve been such a mess

I’m wrecked over your misery

I need God’s grace it’s such a ministry Nobody will tell me how

But I’ll never become it now

Such a fucking pathetic excuse

Why don’t put your head in that noose?

Yeah that’s very gruesome to wish But my life isn’t perfect you don’t mess with There’s nothing about a dying yearn But hell yeah I’ve began with every word How dare ye say this to y’all?

Man what a bitch I’ve gotta call

Such a fucking disgrace

Bitch you’re in last, I’m in first place But you’ve never raised me that way Nobody’s perfect it’s just that any day Perfection is such a fib of our imaginations Ooh did you hear the new Imagine Dragons?

Hey you’ve never loved me

But you’ve said you wanted to date for free?

Bitch ya better pay up the price

And I don’t seem to play nice!

I have to say that’s what I’m feeling My world is totally disintegrating It’ll never be regenerated

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As a matter of fact I’m full of hatred 140

In the Arms of God’s Grace In the arms of God’s grace

Life isn’t a journey to race

But God’ll putcha in ya place

In the arms of angels evenly spaced Hey I’m looking out for you

It bugs me that you don’t notice it too But I’m with God’s grace - it’s true He’s my one only and that’s honesty yo!

Butcha don’t know he’s wise

He’s the apple of everyone’s eyes No matter how hard he tries

Never seeking misery as a prize

I wasn’t trying to letcha cry

But you wouldn’t tell me why

No longer will I try

Over bloodshed I’ll die

Moving on with God’s grace

I’m in first place

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But this isn’t a race

So God got you without a trace

In the arms of an angel

Love has many differences of an angle But love won’t have you strangled Because bloody isn’t for showing mangled Haven’t you’ve heard?

God speaks the truth of the Bible’s words Never shall you take it mistakenly worse But ye who’ve sinned the Bible shall be cursed It’s never gotten you misleaded

Over the course of the world has read it But I won’t say another word

I’ll cry over the worse of the world Everywhere I go I think of God’s grace But ye who read the Bible is God’s place Without a doubt, God will be at lover’s gates To those who want to become in God’s image 142

Stranded

Help me

I feel so lonely

I’m stranded

While you’re so freed

Nobody to love

No worship above

Help me dear Lord

I’ll send SOS with every word

I am helpless

And shipwrecked

I am stranded

So abandoned

Forgive me for docking

And these seagulls flocking

I felt like a pirate

Without such a thing as private

Lord please forgive me

And I landed so abruptly

What does it take for freedom?

God I want to have mercy in your kingdom 143

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Hopefully I’ll be so free

But that’s mistakenly

I won’t take it for granted

My wish is to get off this island But I choose to be free

What’s it got to take for me?

I’m done with this island for good And I am seeking you only as my God Haven’t we all seek your graciousness?

But ye who have sinned should have painfulness You’re merciful and mighty God

And I want to be in your image not forgot Have mercy on me faithfully

And I want to be off this island freely But I am stranded without hopeful But if I don’t get off soon it’ll be an earful Luckily I have been saved lately

And I am off the island so greatly I thank those who helped me off

Saved by a Jewish crew - Mazel tov Thankfully they understood my situation And I’ll never seek to go to that island again For it wasn’t my fault, my ship had sank I’ll remember the crew of which I had to thank 144

Evangelina

There’s nobody such as perfect

There’s nobody such as different

Ain’t nobody can take her from that Just oohing and awing over her back Just look at herself all pretty

Evangelina the difference of me

Nobody can’t be more beautifully

And leave a person in such mystery For it is her good looks and deception Her life revolves around football - interception A person that is a cornerback such perfection The guy is so cutie pie to every of her qualification But somehow someway

It’ll never become a reality

She’s in such a disgracefully

He apologized to her so honestly

Oh but there’s such a twist in love Evangelina won’t ever just give up 145

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And the football player is so tough They will do anything for it though The mighty cornerback had mistakes And he’ll do anything for her as long as it takes Overdoing his love and he’s at her gates Can’t overdo this and there’s not such retakes And she buzzed and let him in

So he apologize to her to begin

They fell in love like it’s never been Getting ready for their sweet wedding 146

Mesmerized by Her Beauty As I look at her dancing everywhere I can’t help but keep from a stare Her beauty is very mesmerizing

It’s like I’m in a state of hypnotizing I’m mesmerized by her beauty

And I can’t escape it’s a mystery Hypnotized by enchanted

And I can’t even explain it

Explain this to me

To me it’s freaky

But I can’t explain

As I can’t say her name

Hopelessly I await

As it’s farthest from a date

I’m so lonely and full of sadness But I cannot escape this madness

I can’t escape her beautifulness

And I’m such in a prison escapeless 147

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

But I pull through and pull my pants up

“I am a big boy” I said as I played it rough So I’ve moved on and why can’t she?

Young love is such a mystery

But you get what I’m saying right?

But it’s not worth it to put up a fight How can’t you see this so clearly?

As I hold my love to me so closely Oh dear I’ve fallen in love all wrong Can’t ever forgive it so I put it in a poem Ever think of what harm you’ve done?

Over and over, harder and harder I’ve won So I say it’s never about us isn’t it true?

But if you break me, all I’ll do to you is sue 148

Cheers to the Miseries It goes one for the miseries

Two for the broken enemies

Three for the unforgiveness

And four for the brokenness

Cheers for the miseries

As I said this to all frenemies

I can’t stay here and break you

Because you’re sadly mistaken dude One cheer for the mysteries

Two cheers as you’re proven to me Three cheers for the militaries

Four cheers for the miseries

As we’ve been such great friends

After working unwillingly to break ends Necks will be broken leaving y’all to bleed As I werewolf I shall have y’all to feed Cheers for y’all and your frenemies Nobody is great so it’s becoming true miseries 149

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

Proving that I have my misguidedness But you can’t forgive me for blindness It’s never truly anybody’s own fault After you’ve fed on blood it’s never appalled Haven’t you done enough to me?

What a fucking dog, why don’t you feed on Pedigree?

Let’s not be that too harshly about it I think lesser But with a girl like that into me it’ll be a good guesser A girl like you will be a great kinda girl who’ll be with me Feed me like I’m eating too much Burger King and getting fatty But I’ll meetcha demands when I feel like getting to them So don’t pressure me into doing it because I’ll never do ‘em How dare y’all treat me like that I deserved better from you But it’s never all about you isn’t that a shame to be that so true?

Just you wait and I’ll seek the worst of you all and it’s the truth But look at me…I’m a worthless piece of shit and ain’t I though?

You’re such a good kisser and I wanna be with you as long as I can

If you’re accepting of me I won’t diss her and I’m not that type of man

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It’s Unlikely That I’ll Love You As I take things slowly and steadily I think of you and misery is on standby Over and over you never proven this to me That you’re most likely to love me unwillingly But I’ll never seek a relationship with you As harder I think of you I won’t do it - it’s true It’s never like a fairy tale story to your wishes And don’t expect fairy tale endings with kisses How come you are saddened by this truth?

It’s come to this and that’s my honesty enough Nobody is perfect you know?

Let’s see how far this will go

Can’t be mistaken by our roughness But I’m through with your excuses I’ve got to break up with you

And it hurts me that I have to

I wasn’t trying to hurt you in any way was I?

But for you…I’ll sacrificed myself and even die Nothing will become of your teary-eyes sadly All I am asking for is forgiveness and you have to try 151

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

Getting rid of our unwanted memories Please don’t you start to cry it’ll leave me in stitches Only I’ve beg of you just once more And I needed your smile it’s my score Forgive me for I’ve sinned dear Lord And I’ll be cursed with every biblical word As I’ve feared my fate will come eventually Why don’t you get it over with and do it quickly?

Unwillingly I’m in pain from our success But I must kill myself with a noose - a bloody mess Everyone I have to apologize

For it is I, the one who has to die 152

Echakuleizen: Island of the Ancestors Let’s take a journey into the past everyone…

I can’t believe in this story anymore And it’s definitely the lesser of two evils Nobody should tell this story

The story of the Island of the Ancestors But I’m not here to bore you all

Never speak of this ever again

But it’s the story I’ve got to get out Because this is aching me too much It all began when a little girl spoke out To the world that of which was at a war She said, “How dare they mistreat us And to them shall be cursed

The Island of the Ancestors will be warned Because ye of don’t believe it shall die”

Becoming a girl of the legendary Ancestors She didn’t want anyone to be misspoken As it’ll be named thus as Echakuleizen - a warzone Because the wars that are going on are getting worse 153

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

I’ll become a girl of the goodness of The New World But sadly she just couldn’t do it As you may now know

That you’re forewarned to be cursed Every little creature; no matter big nor small Shall be in the great eyes of our Ancestors And don’t you need to be forewarned anymore?

Because she’ll do it in the greatness of their eyes Nobody will be forewarned of death anyhow To ye shall be alive and healthy

As an Ancestor herself

She always knew their rules shall not be broken As she slept the night away

And awoken to the strange dreams

She slept again

And in that dream there’s a bad thing She awoken again and was frightened So she said, “Is it you my Ancestors?

I am here to forewarn all those who break all These rules shall not be broken

Because it’ll be someone’s death wish”

And then slept again peacefully

Then she woke up as morning peaked And she was covered head-to-toe in blood But it was unclear how it got on there The goodness of her Ancestors are warning her So she shall become better in their eyes But as it was mysteriously there on her body 154

ECHAKULEIZEN: ISLAND OF THE ANCESTORS

It wasn’t such a mystery to her at all The day was good to her

As she rinsed herself off

For there wasn’t any blood stains In her silky-white covered gown

The story of the Ancestors

Will never be mistaken again

As it wasn’t her fault at all

Unusually there wasn’t a sign of delight She slept the night when it was dusk And she dreamt of the dream she had the other night Her self-conscious was overthrowing her Viciously and violently she had a nightmare of the Ancestors Forewarning her to never speak about the rules Because these rules are sacred

And that she shouldn’t speak of them again So the night wasn’t her’s for the rest But it’s called Echakuleizen

An island that is sacred to the people And she couldn’t speak about it

For she’ll be dead

As you know this is just a story

And it’s not real you know?

Echakuleizen is a fib of our imaginations So don’t take this story that I speak of for real 155

Another Reason to Hate Myself What?

You’ve got a problem with me?

It’s just another reason to hate myself Ain’t it?

No time to die unsteadily

Okay I get it…no need to repeat yourself Now you’ve seemed to hate me

But you’ve been a real bitch too much I’ve got better things to do than wait But you want me dead, don’t you agree?

Don’t have anybody no more, I’ve lost touch All you’ve really have is this girl named Kate I’m left to bleed all over

Bitch you’ve made me do this

Ain’t got no time to deal with you Sorry I don’t seem to need an answer I’ve been waiting for Bueller like your name is “Ferris”

You are smelly cheese like your name is “Bleu”

All I really want to do is dance with her Don’t await for my reaction

Because you’ve been death defying 156

ANOTHER REASON TO HATE MYSELF

I can’t seem to have such gladness It’s like you’re a child that’s been in an abduction You’ve been sad lately why are you crying?

Let these words I’m saying fade to blackness Never assume

Because it’ll get you nowhere

Hey you’ve been sad

You’ll be dead kaboom

Take that some place elsewhere

I’ll be missing you along the road Break yourself fool

And don’t worry

You’ve been wrecked

I’ve too been ridiculed

Go shoot yourself with that Uzi

Take it elsewhere ain’t no disrespect It’s just another reason to hate myself!

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She’s So Specific I ain’t here to be messed with

As I suck in every lasting breath But God has made those creepeth

And all his angels are what’s left Forgive me she’s so specific

But I’m guessing she’s scientific She studies all of hieroglyphic

But I’ll die tonight so horrific

Nobody is that such as perfect

We have been in such a conflict

But this isn’t what I will expect To her I’m such a horrible reject But there’s no such thing exactly She’s so specific it’s so disfuncially I must be going bonkers impatiently Everyone has problems so imperfectly At this point I don’t really want to care Even when I’m with her she’s in an affair 158

SHE’S SO SPECIFIC

But it seems to be mistakenly contraire I’ve been so lonely lately I can’t compare Respectfully I can’t help but disagree I am covered head-to-toe with debris But she’s in college getting her degree She’s getting it at Marquette University I hope for the best she’s so specifically I take her degree for a joke comedically But I can’t see it in her future sincerely But this is the story of her biographically 159

Been Worried About You I’ve been worried about you

So lately can’t you even tell me?

You’ve been drinking but only a few And you say “ain’t nothin’ for free”

I saw you becoming depressed

Please don’t you give up lately

Since you had a beer appressed

And you’re drunk saying “maybe”

Been worried about you that’s all I’ve seen you so drunk and trashed Really I need you to put down the alcohol And you tried driving but you’ve crashed Don’t play dumb with me I don’t play Too drunk and you’ve been cursing I’ve been worried since you aren’t okay And you’ve went to the store disbursing You’ve been troubled and I’m here to help From being too drunk and slapping women 160

BEEN WORRIED ABOUT YOU

Been acting childish and all I see is you chelp Standing out in public and I saw you pimping So I’ve been worried about you, forgive me Lately I can’t say how much you have done And now you’ve been in court fighting vouchee You went to jail on a assault case for a handgun Please forgive me I don’t want yourself dead You’re such a misfit and I can’t be with such Can’t believe you’ve became such a crackhead So I’ve been mistaking you so much I misjudged And you’ve got to please say at least “I’m sorry”

Because all that you’ve done is too much of a crime The cops have been chasing you down in a Ferrari If you don’t stop this you’ll be facing some jail time 161

Admitted into the Hospital I must be going insane

I was admitted into the hospital

On a gurney with an IV in my vein What you think that this is casual?

They called me a drug addict

But sadly I am not that person

I am not one to be with conflict

Because these aren’t in common

But it’s the truth about my life

And I am going into deep stress

I wasn’t the one with a pocketknife So I need to be calm and decompress People I was admitted into the hospital Even though they called me to be concerned And they’ve given me a headache I took Advil So I was on a trial case and it wasn’t overturned The judge wasn’t on my side that regretful day And I just couldn’t deal with the painfulness If I was dead wouldn’t you send me a bouquet?

So I got out of the hospital now she’s childless 162

ADMITTED INTO THE HOSPITAL

Ain’t nothing gonna hold me against my wishes Hopefully I will not be admitted to there again If I am once again I will have to hide in ditches So I’ve been worried and I can’t remember when How can I remember that regretfully it’s dreaded?

Forgive me dear Lord for I am not the one you want Please excuse my manners I have been coldhearted There’s somebody out there to get me from Vermont So I must be waiting for somebody altogether lately And I just can’t handle it anymore I’m being suicidal Just can’t wait anymore I want them to pay the fee If I don’t get my money soon somebody it’ll be brutal 163

Deeply Cursed

Ooh it’s gotten real gruesome

And I can’t regret what I’ve did

It’s all my fault leaving me fearsome What I’ve done cannot be undid

Now I am feared to be deeply cursed And I must run and hide somewhere I have to be hidden or face a coerce If a person told me this I was unaware Enough with the troubles I’ve been into I cannot ruin what happened to myself The person I’ve ruined is a tad bit cuckoo As she reads her spells from the bookshelf As I’m going on through of which I’ve done Because it’s entirely my fault it can’t be undo I must hide somewhere I’ve chosen Brooklyn And this person has a pot filled with beef stew Yummy that’s sounds really good about now So I wish to have some and it’ll be delightful 164

DEEPLY CURSED

But she says I can’t have the stew somehow Can’t she let me have it she’s being so boastful?

I’m ruining herself by being a tad bit too cursed Please don’t she forgive me I’m so very forgiving?

She threatened me to be put in the pot submersed But couldn’t do this to me because of a bellyaching Don’t you get it lately I’ve been deeply cursed a lot So please forgive me people I can’t be such trouble Can’t you say that I am really saying I’m distraught?

But she’s wants me ended up dead it’s been a struggle 165

There’s a Difference All I really know about you

That I just can’t live without

I’ve been holding onto love

And I really need this hole gone

Nothing says about love

Like the way you must be

There’s a difference

About you and me so much

Can’t you just see my struggling?

And that you’ve been raped before I can’t be without you and it has begun Nobody’s that perfect in your eyes Can’t you just tell what I’m worried about?

There’s a difference about you and me I swore you’ve must have creeped up Because you’ve shown me your dark side And I’m just sitting here and begging you Stay here and I’ll be right back to And I’ve been cheering you up lately Troubles are what it becomes forewarned 166

THERE’S A DIFFERENCE

Beating me up like you’ve been raped Everybody wants me to save her

So there’s a difference of opinions You’ve been begging from a young age But such and such has been said aloud Nobody’s that perfect in all of my truths Help me I’ve become a person of murder I’ve been beating myself up for many days And you’ve never helped my illness once Who is there to be judging our sickened love?

Because there’s a difference about this and that Such words have been misplaced or even worse Nobody can’t be forewarned anymore it’s overdo Helplessly I awaited for perfection too much And she’ll never become what I pictured her So please help me oh Lord before I’ll be dead Overdosages of medication and I’ve met angels I’ve been waiting for our sickened love to disappear But somehow it cannot just disappear into the thin Never will I trust a girl that has been raped at young The truth is that I’ve been unforgiving since a child 167

Ruthanne Dorthchild This story is about to change history A story that’s about an American mistress Ruthanne Dorthchild is her real name And she won’t be mistaken once more She stated, “I’m Ruthanne and I won’t Be mistaken anymore then the next Because it’s been real sad lately and I Can’t be judged by what my life is like”

It’s been a sad story about Ruthanne And she cannot be prejudged anymore This poor woman ain’t a stepping stone So please can’t you leave herself alone?

Hey it’s never like you’ll ever date me And I’ll die alone with a thousand cats To have nothing and won’t you be glad?

As I ask you yet another time to back off A strange voice spoke, “It is I the one who Is in your nightmares Ruthanne and I’m here 168

RUTHANNE DORTHCHILD

To make sure that you end up dead, unforgiven, Lonesome and Miss. Dorthchild I don’t even play”

It was sure a scary time for Ruthanne and her Thoughts were playing tricks like a mind game Just can’t become any worse than this fatality So Miss. Dorthchild why don’t you run and hide?

Scared and spoke aloud, “I won’t let the Devil Enter thee. I am one with the Lord and leave it To be that way. And so you sir are so irritating Please leave me at once and go back to the dark”

Then as the darkness wasn’t such a bother to her She fled and struck a bus and ended up in a hospital For it was her concussion and surely it was her fate While ending up in the hospital, she was surely dead 169

Nothing Says I Can’t Just because you say I am retarded It really doesn’t mean that I really am Now I’ve embraced it since it’s started You called me this, now it’s a quondam Look what you’ve done to me it isn’t nice Because now I say “nothing says I can’t”

You been excused too long it’s imprecise About such and such it’s an overdo scant You’ve been mistaken by calling me that Hopefully you’ve learned your own lesson I caught you threatening me with a brickbat You’ve threatened another with a bludgeon It’s very nice to see you being out of control Lately it’s been such a mess mistreating you It’s been awhile since I expressed a condole What’s been bugging you so what’s the issue?

How dare you and nothing says I can’t be true So can’t you go some place another time today?

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NOTHING SAYS I CAN’T

I tolerate you so all I’ll do to you is bid you adieu Because I’m leaving you and now you are astray Nothing says I can’t be unaware of my depression Because I’ll be okay so don’t you worry about me You’ve been such into a very explosive aggression Well I know it’s been real tough but you’ll be okay But I’m not really going on and on about anything So don’t you worry I’ve been struggling I’ll be okay I’ll behave as well as the next but I’ll be expressing And with my struggles, they have much to outweigh 171

Hallowed Be Thy Name As I kneel down and pray to the Lord I’m repeating “hallowed by thy name”

But as I kneel down to pray it’s so sad Because our gracious Lord isn’t healing So I’m repenting all that the Earth isn’t It’s killing me surely but it’s so a journey Because I’m saddened by of what Lord is Never will I die not knowing what’s good So I’ve bent down and I prayed for weak Because lately I just can’t be so subdued Nobody’s perfect and hallowed be thy name Above us all the Lord is the best for gracious Everybody knows it too and do not deny it Because you’re forgiven so the Lord loves us Please don’t take what I’m saying wronged So behave yourselves and the Lord will forgive And the Lord our savior died upon the cross For each and everyone of our sins unwillingly 172

HALLOWED BE THY NAME

Nobody shall be sinned again because I know He’s the most precious Lord in all of ourselves So don’t you forget that our precious Lord died For each and of everyone of our sins for eternity Because you’re a great person in the Lord’s view Please don’t be mistaken by hallowed be thy name The Lord is our future so do please go and embrace You’ve been such a great person in his eyes lately Most of all because the great Lord will be forgiving Don’t take what the Lord has given us for granted 173

Mirakroslavia

As the legend goes that in the ancient ruins There was these people that ruled its lands And in that lands there was Indians roaming So many indeed that they had to evacuate And since that day these “Indians” that ruled Long before human civilization had entered it The world of Mirakroslavia won’t be the same The Indians were angered by the many humans Mirakroslavians weren’t on the Indians targets It was the rabid beasts the lurked in the depths Nearest to be endangered the Indians attacked Sending spears, fire and the rocks in the oceans But as the Indians were confused with not it was By this time the Chief Takahanak grew too angered And he ordered his men and women to be evacuated But Chief Takahanak wasn’t all that was endangered It was his men and women who were being threatened So these beasts that walked on their hind legs upwards 174

MIRAKROSLAVIA

The land of Mirakroslvia was never to be spoke of again So the legend of this land wasn’t never told again since 175

When the Clock Strikes Nine Strictly at nine o’clock

Was the time that the people goes to bed So they can get up for work in the morning With a warming smile they rested for tonight During a boy’s sleep

He entered his dreamland

As he dreamt of his ancestors

It was clear to him of his death

By the next morning

He woke up and got dressed

The boy feared of his mourned death It was embedded in his self-conscience He was frightened

That the Grim Reaper avenges himself But the worries went on their merry ways And he wasn’t scared anymore

But when the clock strikes nine

He was soon to be at his death bed As he was troubled

He over thought the worst possibilities 176

WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES NINE

So he went and prayed to his only god A person whom he considered to be it He prayed, “oh please don’t let me die”

So the answer from his god was feared This boy didn’t want to die in any way Such and such has been said unto him Yet this boy, was only a little kid of six Oh this boy wasn’t going to get his death This boy was a little kid and fears came His last wish isn’t to ever die

Or it’ll be his family’s crisis forewarned The boy went to sleep strictly nine o’clock And his dreams were unpleasant

For it was his dreams turned to a nightmare Up there into Heaven is where his god was That nightfall the Reaper came to him Saying, “you’re going to be punished boy”

So he awoken and was covered in blood For his intestines were out of his body That night the boy died

And he was never to be spoke of anymore 177

In Need of Your Help (I Just Can’t Fight It Alone)

God if you’re listening

I’m in need of your help

My world is truly sickening

I’m feeling like I’m heartfelt

I just can’t fight it alone

And I just need your mercy

My scars have been shown

Because of that I’m unworthy

Troubled and I need a grace

I’m stumbling around a death

Please Lord I need your praise

I stumbled upon the transgress

I’m in need of your help Lord

And I can’t fight this by myself

It seems that I needed support

So you’ve made me feel dispel

I’m certainly in need of your help 178

IN NEED OF YOUR HELP (I JUST CAN’T FIGHT IT ALONE) And I can’t ever seem to fight it In loving memory I’m catafalque

I cannot ever seem to ever quit

All I’m feeling is the lonely blues Singing my fearsome and dearly

Because it seems like I was abused I’m misjudged by you unnecessarily What’s up with being misinterpreted?

How come you don’t seem to ever care?

It seems like I’ve made you aggravated And all I’ve been feeling is always despair Nobody wants me and it’ll be cold blooded I’ll hang myself with a noose off the ground Sadly you’ve found a gun next to me reloaded And it’s sadly like I’m fighting on a battleground 179

Abusively Beaten From battle scars and war zones

I’m abusively beaten against my wishes For those who aren’t understanding Or misreading what I’m saying

Abusively beaten is what I felt

As ashes burned and the ice melted Nobody wanted me anymore

I can’t stand it it has been a war I’ve been beaten and bruised

What this you’ve seemed to be amused?

Because you’ve been my enemy

From now on I’ve been beaten repeatedly You’ve seemed to like my suffering As you’ve seen me bled and you’re laughing Doesn’t anyone care enough to understand?

This isn’t where I wanted to have a helping hand I’ve been misjudged and you don’t seem to care You’ve needed me when I’m in a time of despair And you seen me crying and it’s too abusively Well you are my enemy and that’ll be the end of me 180

ABUSIVELY BEATEN

No brother you don’t seem to understand a word And all my abusive beatings have been so absurd Nobody seems to care enough to be against beating I can’t stand it anymore it’s been so very misleading So don’t look back and if you do he will snatch you Nothing like a missing person on the news he will do A “Help Wanted” sign is in my nearest and dear future But I am not getting a job no he’s leaving me in torture Giving my brain such a headache and I need medication Because all I’ve seem to have is severely abusive beaten Help me because you seem to care about me won’t you?

Abusively I’ve been beaten and it’s all he really wants to Forgive me people as I’ve seemed having to be helpless But no I’ve been abusively beaten and I have my strictness So do I seem to be abusively beaten as you seemed laughing No brother I don’t want your help if you see me lying here dying

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Out of Time

As I bled all over

I seem to be dying

I see red on the cover

And I am bleeding

Well I’m out of time

It’s too late

Nobody’s time to shine

I’m at heaven’s gate

As I look over my shoulder

I see a guy in a hockey mask

He left me there bleeding all over And it seems to be my last

I can’t be bloody like this

Sometimes it has to be that way

And you’ve seemed to miss

A hospital bed is where I’ll stay I’m hung up there to dry

Overlooking my past mistakes

As I’ve got a tear in my eye

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Become one of yourself then

As I’m left here to bleed

Ask yourself “why don’t I help him?”

So what I’ve been in a time of need Always you’ve seemed never to respond And I’ve been dying as I need to recover Why don’t you help me I am your friend?

So why should ask you this as I bleed all over?

Well fellas I’m out of time and you should run However, I don’t seem to be the one caring And the outbreak of this bloody war has begun So it’ll be the one who will be in the end scarring Help me I really need your help right this moment Over and over and over again I really am out of time Nobody takes so much abuse from a killer on a rampant And you won’t help me as I’m desperately in mayhem?

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Two Drunks and Crack Cocaine There’s a party downtown at someone’s house And they wanted the party people to be drunk So I’m stuck here with two drunks And they also snorted crack cocaine Just my luck

They wanted me to try it

But I said I was too young

And they begged me s’more

I ain’t that type of person

That’s not me

I am not a drinker

Or a cocaine addict

People at the party rose a toast

For their miserable lives

They are unhappy

So they cause wreckage

The party was twice as violent

And the police was called in complaint Saying the party needed to be shut down Or everybody will face some jail time 184

TWO DRUNKS AND CRACK COCAINE

No dope was snorted after that

And the two drunks were sober

Nowhere to hide from the police

They seek all without a warning

Well I wasn’t being arrested

But I was charged with a hefty fine Penalizing me for possession of cocaine With a wad of about a hundred grand So don’t ask me how I got that money Nah I ain’t gonna tell ya

But somehow the truth is I was a hustler But failed to deal with repercussion I was ought to be a smooth criminal Just like that Michael Jackson song But I failed to seek out dope dealing Because crack cocaine isn’t my thing Sobering up from the party

The two drunks snorted more cocaine So they had to be rushed to the hospital Wherefore they had died from too much dope 185

Hughes Griffley

Attention students of Thurmond Elementary I am Ms. Glabbett your kindergarten teacher I want you to give our new student a warm welcome As you greet him with your warmest kindness Hi I am Hughes Macklin Griffley and I’m five years old I hope we’ll be great friends here at this new school Let’s be great friends and I hope you’ll like me a lot I moved here to Grantsbridge from Clintonsborough Okay is there anybody who wants to greet him first?

A nice girl that was only a short-bodied came up to him Hi my name is Gladys Schuckner and I am five as well It’s nice to meet you what’s your name again my pretty?

Hiya Gladys I am Hughes Griffley it’s nice to meet you Very nice indeed missy I think you’re a very kind person And you as well Hughes I think I like you, don’t you like me?

My mommy says I can’t date anyone that’s around my age Why not? Isn’t this a weird coincidence she told me that too?

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But I’m never going against what my mommy says about my life

Because it’ll cost me several beatings from my daddy over and over

That’s just great I can’t date a cutiepie such as yourself?

Well I’m not going against my mommy and daddy’s wishes Of course me too because my mommy and daddy won’t like it So how about we become friends in the meantime instead?

That’ll be great what’s your name again my precious?

Oh it’s Gladys don’t you like that name Hughes Griffley?

Yes, yes I do it’s very pretty indeed and I like it very much What about my name Hughes don’t you think it’s very cool?

Yes, it’s very cool and I like it a lot so do you want to know more?

Well of course I do what’s your middle name and your last name?

Okay well my middle name is April and my last name is Schuckner

That’s a very pretty middle name and I really think it’s very cool

Okay students it’s time for learning about our ABCs okay start A-B-C-D-E-F-G-H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O-P-Q-R-S-T-U-V-W-X-Y-Z

Okay everybody do we understand our alphabetical song by now?

Well the ABCs isn’t all we’re going to learn we’ll begin with numbers

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1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12-13-14-15-16-17-18-19-20-21

22-23-24-25-26-27-28-29-30 how is everybody doing by now?

Well it’s been a real fun time learning our letters then numbers Now everybody it’s time for napping so let’s lay down and go to sleep

Several minutes passed and now nap time is over so it’s time to pack up

Everybody I’ll see you all tomorrow don’t forget our letters and numbers

Goodbye everyone and don’t forget to say your ABCs and count to thirty

Now it’s time for Ms. Glabbett to go home to her fiancé and sleep tonight

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Hughes Griffley: A Birthday I Won’t Soon Forget

Welcome back students of Thurmond Elementary Today’s a very special day for a certain someone Well it’s Hughes Griffley’s sixth birthday tonight So wish him a happy birthday as you leave today So we sing happy birthday to you to Hughes Griffley And to him he won’t deserve six punches from you all May his birthday be a birthday he won’t soon forget Because it’ll be a great one as we wish him a well one Happy birthday Hughes and to you a very special day I’m sorry for those who’ll give you six birthday punches Because I can’t control them only they can control them So don’t expect me to break up the six of these bruisings So happy birthday to you Hughes Griffley and I wish well Can’t you see the greatness in your special day Mr. Griffley?

It is I Ms. Glabbett and I’m here to tell you a happy birthday And hopefully your birthday punches won’t leave you in bruises

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Can’t you tell that I’m forewarning the six birthday punches?

How can’t you see that I’m warning you to the best that I can?

Because these six punches from everybody will be so gruesomely

So don’t expect them to be extra gentle so they’ll be extra hard Thanks everybody for wishing me a happy sixth birthday today I am Hughes and please don’t give me six birthday punches hard

So I beg of you I’m a softy and I don’t like the harder punches Am I a wimp for not harshness of the birthday punch I receive?

I wish you a happy birthday said Gladys Schuckner softly And I thank you for it Gladys I appreciate it so very much Well this is so a birthday I won’t soon forget that’s a no Just as I’m being punched six times in my right arm repeatedly For it is my greatest sixth birthday I begin the first grade I am proud to be a six-year-old and I’m proud to be with you And of course I am yet a first grader now in this classroom So I don’t expect you all to go easy on me with my six punches I had a wonderful birthday and you all are invited to my house My birthday party is at 1244 Shelbert Dr in Apartment B-12

So you all are invited to the party at my apartment it’s at three Just right after school today and you have to take off your shoes My mommy and daddy doesn’t allow any shoes on in the apartment

So please respect her rules and you won’t be shunned out of the home

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Gee thanks for my birthday wishes and yes indeed I liked my punches

I ain’t going to lie to you I really enjoyed it and I can’t I’m impatiently

Please respect my mommy and daddy’s rules so the rules are simple

And now that school is over my party has started and you showed

What do you all think about my party at my home isn’t it so great?

Yes, yes indeed we’ve enjoyed it Hughes and we will see you tomorrow

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Hughes Griffley: Lying Gets You Nowhere

Now that I’ve entered the third grade Of course with Ms. Glabbett as my teacher It’s very important that you shouldn’t lie Because lying gets you nowhere in this life My day with Gladys Schuckner and my friends I’ll become a liar when I should get myself out of it Don’t you ever think I’ve tried not lying in the world?

Because lying gets you nowhere and I know it for sure Trust me I’ve tried doing this plenty of times before And I’ll get soap in my mouth because of lying too much It’ll take begging and pleading just to please my parents Because mommy and daddy won’t allow any of the lies Haven’t we’ve told a lie before and our parents won’t I’m sure of it and I don’t wish to beg and plead no more Against myself and against the world I hate the lies I do Because my mommy and daddy won’t become angered It’s like I’m dying of laughter as they rinse my mouth out 192

HUGHES GRIFFLEY: LYING GETS YOU NOWHERE

Happily my daddy is displeasing when he uses soap suds Unwillingness will overrule this regretful and self-righteous Nowhere to hide from my mommy and daddy when angry Rinsing my mouth with soap suds and water that’s too hot Upstairs I’m sent to my room with no TV and no electronics I’m too much of a lying game lately and it’s not so pleasure How could everybody seek a soapy disgrace when you lied?

Every time we are at the sink and my little body gets soaked I can’t seem to dry off and seek a comeback when I’m in suds Well I can’t welcome the lying game anymore than it is already Never pleasing when my mouth is overfilled with soap and water

Well besides the soap suds in my mouth I am now a third grader

And I’m in Ms. Glabbett’s classroom and I made a newest friend

His name is Wilson Munsley and he’s eight just like me but short

I’ll say that Wilson is a down-to-earth person who like his pet cat

Now students we’re going to learn about American History today

Let’s begin with the Native Americans and do a little bit of a skit

The Indians are Hughes, Gladys, Wilson and anyone who’ll want

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The Indians are coming ashore and flocking into all of the millions

And the Indians are taking over American soil as they enter upon it

Neither people will have any weapons or any sort of pointed objects

Because I’m trying to teach you all about the safety and fun of this

Let’s begin as Native American played by Hughes will do his part

The Indians arrived on the lands of the Americas as they entered

And it is I the second Indian who is female and played by Gladys

And lastly it is the third Indian who is male and played by Wilson

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Garrett McNair

Day 1 and I’m in prison for murdering a kid I can’t become what I killed him for So Mr. McNair why did you do this?

How come you murdered him as you did?

There’s blood splattered on the floor I was sentenced to jail and case dismiss Day 2 and I’m in prison for the murder of a boy Garrett McNair and my prison mate Gerald Myers I was sentenced to jail without any bail or freedom So I did it for my pleasure and so I can reenjoy Can’t trust nobody I’ll kill each and every liars This kid I murdered was only six and my victim Day 3 and I’m prisoned for what I did to a youngster And I am Mr. McNair and I’m only twenty-six-years-old What’s with the murdering of a six-year-old boy Garrett?

I sat back and killed him for pure joyfulness and laughter But I’m off the charts and I cannot ever be controlled So I’m put on the death list and it’s in the city of Charlotte Day 4 and I’m almost sentenced to my death in Charlotte 195

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It has now been four days and in prison for a child’s death Just can’t bear to see the light of day before I’m in the chair So my time has come and I’m almost dying and desperate Now it’s Day 4 and I’m in Charlotte, strapped and distress I was now shocked and nearest to my death with such despair 196

It’s Christmas (So Let’s Praise Jesus) O it’s that time of year again

To praise the wonderful man

It’s Christmas

So let’s praise Jesus

Have yourself a merry Christmas

O ye who praise the good Jesus

It’s that time of year again

To the North Pole my cards are sent O ye praise the good Lord above

When it comes to giving him love

To ye weary men

Praise him once again

Have yourself a merry Christmas y’all When you hear sleigh bells ringing you know the call Santa’s coming to town in the snow And his reindeers even the one we famously know It’s Christmas once more

And the bitter coldness is in store Look outside in the winter snow

It’s falling and we need to plow

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So let’s praise Jesus

Because he’s the reason to celebrate Christmas O ye weary men we bow to his glories And many reasons for his stories

It’s Christmas again for all who knew Sweet baby Jesus a kid who grew

O sweet Lord I praise your likeness As he shines in the sky with brightness Whom to say that Christmas isn’t coming?

You’ll know when you’ll be shoveling Have yourself a brightly decorated house With all sorts of colors running about It’s Christmas ye who didn’t know O let’s praise Jesus his glories glow Hopefully Jesus will give presents Because we bow in his presence

Ye weary boned and full of spirit We need to praise Jesus so let’s hear it It’s Christmas once again

Jesus is the ruler of all men

So hung a mistletoe

And kiss under it so

Nice boys and girls get presents

And kids show Santa’s Nice Lists

Put up your Christmas trees

And chow down on some Christmas cookies Because you know Jesus

So we bow in his presence

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O Christmas tree

We put lights on so brightly

Praises to Jesus

He’s the reason to celebrate Christmas Hang up a stocking or two

A sweet gift from me to you

Everyone so cheerful

Making Christmas so magical

Jesus we praise you tonight

A starry night sky so bright

All I want for Christmas is you

Merry Christmas to all too

Have yourselves a wonderful Christmas Because it’s about sweet baby Jesus I’ve sent my letters to Old St. Nick Just hearing all his reindeers click clack The wonderfulness of the happy children Laughter fills the air when it all does happen Sweet baby Jesus I celebrate you dearly 199

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Because Christmas is all about him clearly Jesus is the reason to celebrate Christmas And we bow to him in his very own presence Wishfully I owe it all to his gloriousness Because he’s the reason for Christmas Jesus Christ is our wonderful creator And his likeness is our story’s chapter Nice to know our must haves and laughs Because Santa’s coming tonight click clacks We got to celebrate our wonderful Lord too Never should we sin before the Lord if we do Praises goes out to our Lord and Jesus Christ Because Christmas will be coming tonight Have yourselves a merry little Christmas O weary men bow down to our Lord’s presence I’ve been so good all year won’t Jesus know it?

Because I’ve got the proof to show it Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night Overnight Santa’s coming so go to sleep tight A Christmas to remember once it comes to all Watch as the snow is so white snow and it fall Jesus is the reason to celebrate Christmas And we are in his presence so bring him presents O sweet baby Jesus we’re bowing down Overnight and all year ‘round

All the children so merry and so bright Laughter fills the air alright

Happiness is what children feel too 200

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Just saying Merry Christmas from me to you 201

Best Christmas Ever What a wonderful time of the year it is Because the children are buzzing with cheers It’s Christmas and it’s filled with brightness Hopefully Santa knows I’ve been good over the years I want to make this the best Christmas ever Overly cheerful and it’s about Jesus Christ Airwaves filled with such greatness and laughter Because Santa’s coming at twelve in the night Jesus I praise your wonderfulness And I’m Santa’s favorite alright

It’s a wonderful wintertime of bliss Let’s sleep because Santa’s coming tonight Have yourselves a wonderful Christmastime to all Because if we’re good Santa will give us presents And if we’re naughty we get coal

Let’s be good for goodness sakes

It’s becoming a wintertime filled with lots of snowfall And it’s so white and the children are all cheery 202

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Good night’s rest and Santa comes during the nightfall So sleep tightly and maybe Santa won’t miss thee Well it’s been yet the best Christmas ever Because I’ve been good all year around alright Dearest Santa I want all the best presents oh dear So don’t skip my house because it’s so bright Merry Christmas to all and to all a very good night And please have yourself a merry Christmas Never will Santa miss me because of the bright I want this to be the best Christmas ever so a lot of presents Never will I miss this Christmas because of being good Jump off the rooftops to the next home to mine And I hear his reindeers on my rooftop withstood I’m hoping to get my presents before the daytime I’m wishing you all a merry Christmastime and it’s wintertime So be good for goodness sakes and Santa will come to your house

Because if you shut your eyes and sleep Santa will come in nighttime

Please don’t miss my house dearest Santa but it’s entirely your choice

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O Glorious Christmas Let’s sleep and maybe Santa will come So sleep tight and pray for Santa Claus It’s Christmas night and at twelve o’clock The big fat man with a sack on his back O glorious Christmas won’t you come?

O glorious Christmas I’ll pray for you Don’t you know it’s Christmas?

Because it’s beginning to look a lot like it Have yourself a merry Christmas to all And to all a very good night so sleep well O glorious Christmas won’t you come?

As I may sleep and see the big fat man Saying “ho ho ho” as he stuffs his face Well all the cookies are gone and he left Merry Christmas to you all and it’s glorious O glorious Christmas I celebrate you tonight Let it snow and the snow is whiter each year Hold me tightly and I’ll be warm by the fire It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas O glorious Christmas I await for your return 204

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Snow is beginning to fall down and piling up It’s all about Jesus Christ as the snow is falling We gotta get warmed up by the wondrous fire As we’re warming up we sing Christmas Carols Sleigh bells are jingling and horses are galloping It’s a wonderful Christmas and it’ll be so whiter O glorious Christmas we celebrate you each time As I celebrate you by decorating my house bright Just look outside the snow is falling so beautifully And the children are building their snowman tall O glorious Christmas I celebrate you by decorating As the snow is falling I get to shoveling it completely It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas every time The snow is whiter and so sparkly with delightfulness Haven’t we played in the snow yet so let our child out?

Such a magical time is Christmas as we celebrate itself What a wonderful Christmastime it is as the snow’s cold Playing in the snow as we let our inner child out to play So let the snow be cold and let it nip your nose with frost Let’s play in the snow with such delightful and be children 205

All the Cheery Children (So Merry and Bright)

Wrap up a gift or two and send it away Merry Christmas to all and a good night All the cheery children so merry and bright Nice children get presents not the bad ones I want to wish you all a merry Christmas A very merry Christmas to you all And to all a happy new year as well alright Let’s be good for goodness sakes

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night Because Santa’s coming in his sleigh And the reindeers even the most famous one Merry and bright children overfilled with glee All the cheery children so merry and bright So many presents to unwrap and fill with glee To all a very good night and hope for snowfall And rest ye weary bones for Santa comes tonight So I pray and hope that Santa will be at my home 206

ALL THE CHEERY CHILDREN (SO MERRY AND BRIGHT) Because every so often I haven’t seen him here yet On this very Christmas I hope for the best merrily Hopefully Santa won’t skip my home on this year With all the cheery children so merry and bright They fill the airwaves with such a delightfulness Just waiting for Santa’s return to their household Overfilling their stockings with lots of toys to brim Hopefully Santa will come tonight for the children While they’re so merry and bright with gleefulness Let it snow while children are playing in it very so Pleasing those who play in it and snow is so whiter Cheery children playing in the white snow peaceful And children building snowmen and snowwomen With corn pipes and buttoned eyes and carrot nosed Hopefully everybody will enjoy this Christmas year I wish you all happy holidays and yet Christmas is here So decorate your houses with boughs of holly and a tree Let the Christmas music play while children are singing Decorate with all the children cheery so merry and bright 207

Hughes Griffley: The Mischievous Fourth Grader

As I now have entered the fourth grade with Ms. Glabbett It’s been a fun adventure while I’ve now been with Gladys This isn’t my story it’s about the mischievous fourth grader And his name is Markevious Russell, Jr. the very bad kiddo One day during class time Markevious wanted to prank us So he tried coming from behind and pantsing us as we cried I wore my favorite tighty-whities and everyone could see it They were my only pair not covered in holes nor pee stains It must have got everyone laughing at me as I am blushing That’s all I’ve got from that kid and I was tortured so much Just as I was pranked by Markevious once again it’s enough So I tried crying but I was automatically called a lil crybaby Golly I couldn’t take this bully anymore so his pranks ended But he picked right back up again the next day with torturing I had enough with this kiddo it couldn’t have been any worse Pleasing himself with the pantsing of the worsened of victims Haven’t we’ve been bullied before so it can’t be more than this 208

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My world has come to this kiddo and I couldn’t take it anymore

Be honest he’s the mischievous fourth grader as a nine-year-old

You can’t trust him as he’ll pants you from behind your own back

Showing my tighty-whities and leaving me in an embarrassment

Hey this kiddo is so mean and I can’t take it anymore too much And I’m going to take a stand as this nine-year-old is going to stop

So as a nine-year-old myself I can’t stand seeing other kids suffer

After all he’s the mischievous fourth grader and he needs to stop

So let’s take a stand hand-in-hand and put an end to his pranking

Markevious Russell, Jr. the pranks you do has to be put to an end

I’m begging and pleading just for a sigh of relieving from you dude

May you see our pleads and us begging you to stop your shenanigans

You’ve been pantsing us way too long and I can’t be too embarrassed

Because you sir are a mischievous fourth grader and it has been badly

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choices

We are students and friends after all and I’m trying to stop the fights

Please can’t you seem to find your selfishness and take our pleading?

Our tighty-whities can’t be shown again for it has been a lot of whities

But it’s up to you to decide to stop pranking us for our goodness sakes

But Markevious we’re proud to have you as a friend and not enemies

So take up our pleads and stop bullying us for we want your friendship

We’re beginning off as enemies but we can restart ourselves as friends

Thankfully you took our begs and pleads and now we’re now besties

So we thank you kindly for the newest friendships and not bullying us

It’s very pleasing to see you as a friend and not a enemy anymore dude

My gosh you’ve been pranking us way too much and it’s been so rough

But you’ve pulled through and I’m glad that we’re best friends for now

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Hughes Griffley: Proudly Dating as Fifth Graders

The day has finally come and I’m dating Gladys We’re both now in fifth grade and ten-years-old But we got a new teacher named Mr. McGwincy Now in the fifth grade I’ve been awaiting to date Say Mr. McGwincy how have you’ve been lately?

His answer is great and his plans for us are good Now that the entire student body is of school-age Many people has either been held back or skipped I can now say I’m proudly dating as fifth graders Well me and Gladys has been waiting for so long That our time has come and we are so proud of it Can’t I say that I’m in love with Gladys Schuckner?

Say Gladys what do you like mostly about myself?

Well I love your charming smile and your bravery Say Hughes what do you like mostly about herself?

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And I would like to say that Markevious is friendly Now that his bullying past is behind his kindliness So he wishes to start over and put his past behind Please don’t be frightened by him he’s so very kind And his pantsing days are now over and he’s better Never judge a book by it’s cover students the lesson So look at the bright side of things and be so kindly There’s so much to learn as a fifth grade boy or girl So let’s begin with a historical lesson and it is great Now there’s Christopher Columbus in the Americas But the lesson is best when as is told by a storyteller So let’s begin with Hughes Griffley c’mon on up here And shall we begin with a little skit with its characters Hughes you’ll be Christopher Columbus any volunteers?

Ah yes Gladys Schuckner you may come on up as well Anyone else want to join Hughes and Gladys as a skit?

Welcome up to the front as a newcomer is coming up And his name is William O’Connor as we welcome you So anybody want to join Hughes, Gladys and William?

Welcome to the play of Christopher Columbus’ journey And that’s all the characters so far anybody in this skit?

So we welcome up Fauntasia McNamara up to the front Tell me Miss. McNamara what do you want to play in this?

I want to play a female sailor of course Mr. McGwincy I do The characters are set and let’s begin with each characters 212

HUGHES GRIFFLEY: PROUDLY DATING AS FIFTH GRADERS

So we begin and end in America with the journeys of ships And that’s a wrap and great job to you all time for farewells 213

Hughes Griffley: McKinley Welcomes Its Sixth Graders

It is I Mr. Hucklesby welcome sixth graders I will be your middle school teacher for now This is McKinley Middle School you chumps So pay attention to me and me only tricksters I do not tolerate any shenanigans or prankers So that means no bullying of oneself everyone Give me your fullest attention I won’t repeat it I’ll either be your friend or your worst nightmare This is sixth grade and not a kindergarten class So let’s act our ages as McKinley welcomes you And I welcome you sixth graders to my hell pit Eventually you’ll understand my rules from now You won’t be doing misactions that will cost you If you break my rules you will see me in detention Displeasing to be I am one of those nice teachers But I’m strict and I don’t mess around with rules I see that we’ve got a newcomer to our McKinley 214

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Why don’t you tell us your name sir so be honest Hello to you my name is Hughes Macklin Griffley And I am a sixth grader so I’m new to this school Nice job Hughes Griffley you may now take a seat Thanks to you we’ll be introduced by you so often And we welcome yet another person to the school Why don’t you go up front and introduce yourself?

Hello I’m Gladys April Schuckner and I’m new too And I am in sixth grade here in this middle school Nice job missus and we’ll be glad to hear from you So you may please take your seat and it’ll be grand Welcome back the returning students of McKinley Those who want to go up and introduce themselves Gloriously it’ll be great to get to know one another So I’m talking about Georgine Yovette Malinowski So hello I’m Georgine Malinowski and I’m in sixth The next is Erickson Griffith go introduce yourself Hiya I’m Erickson Michael Griffith I am in seventh The next is Rosaleena Chryst go and be introduced Wassup I’m Rosaleena Yvette Chryst and in eighth And I can’t wait for you all to go up and introduced So that’ll be a wrap for now the lesson is about here Please take your seats and get ready to jam knowledge Today’s lesson is about Mathematics and we’ve began I’m going to teach you some numbers that’s so tripled 215

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Have yourselves get ready for this but now I’m so lost Enough of today beginners you are now all dismissed 216

Hughes Griffley: Hughes Has to Go to the Second Grade

Here I am a twelve-year-old second grader by now I was held back because I skipped the second grade Somehow I wasn’t allowed to go onto seventh grade Even though I accidentally skipped this grade oops Well I am in Thurmond once again for skipping this It’s killing me because I’m the oldest in second grade Now I can’t go to McKinley for my seventh grade year Because of skipping second grade I will repeat seventh Now I was in sixth grade and I’ll be thirteen in seventh Because of skipping second grade for the missing of this My teacher isn’t Ms. Glabbett, he’s a male Mr. Kendricks And Mr. Kendricks is a teacher who doesn’t like bullying So I can’t be picked on because of being the oldest kiddo And it’s been a hokes because I skipped this accidentally Now I can’t go onto the eighth with my friends this grade You’ll understand when I’ll rule these baby seven-year-olds All the pleading in the world won’t take me out of here 217

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Now that I’ve made it to the seventh grade but I’m stuck Because of somehow accidentally skipping this poor grade So now that I’m stuck here in the second grade I’ll rule it That’s too bad because these second graders are chumps Well I’m not bullying them but still these littles are babies Of course that’s how I see them as but I ain’t bullying them So of course I am learning at a second grader level alright Mr. Griffley what do you think of these seven-year-olds?

But at your age of twelve you must tell me and be honest What’s is it like in the second grade? I just cannot answer So let’s keep this in a matter of opinions and let it be that I am a people pleaser and I can’t overshare my opinions So don’t expect me to answer this question very honestly But I’m a twelve-year-old seventh grader by now it can’t Just don’t listen to me complaining about these snobbiest Knowledgeable is the key and silence is golden alrighty Don’t look at it as a negative Mr. Griffley it will be okay Won’t you see my side of this? I will repeat grade seven And I won’t have my friends to prove it being held back Okay I understand your point of repeating seventh grade Why don’t you get to studying for the easiest test for now?

Because to you I’ll give you a cheat sheet so you’ll past this I thank you very kindly Mr. Kendricks I appreciate the help Now students of Thurmond Elementary School hear of this I am giving you a test on the state capitals and start it now 218

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Dreamlandia 2: The Nightmare We’re in Dreamlandia at night again And there’s nothing we can do my friend But this is about “the nightmare” of you Pleading won’t subdue

Won’t you please come over here?

Can’t you see my fear?

Oh well I guess Dreamlandia’s coming And it’ll be very consuming

The nightmare you had will make ya die And even it’ll make you even cry

Don’t ever doubt Dreamlandia’s power Pleasing itself won’t make you prouder Have it any other way man it’s your choice But Dreamlandia doesn’t have a voice There’s nothing we can do about that And Dreamlandia we’ll make ya splat Nobody will scream because of this power That Dreamlandia has gained and it’s scarier Hopefully, you don’t seem to be afraid And Dreamlandia will make ya scared 220

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Dreamlandia will consume your dreams Haven’t we became afraid as it seems?

It’s up to you to be afraid of or unafraid of Look I’m not here to scare ya enough I sure hope this nightmare will subside And you’ve got your own peace inside Why have we begun to beg for dreams?

And the fact that we’ve shouted screams Over and over again Dreamlandia scares And the fact that it has its wounded scars Leaving Y’all in such misery and woe Every time it’ll make ya scared of it so Look out below Dreamlandia’s nightmare And it has come true and you’re unaware Up there in Heaven, you’ll be with a halo Thinking why oh why has it done this woe While you’ve been scared of Dreamlandia And you can’t seem to be unaware oh yeah Dreamlandia won’t make you seem relieved For it’ll be coming tonight so don’t you leave Viciously it’ll make you have nightmares a lot And there’s nothing else that it has that you don’t So don’t be afraid so much that you may puke Troubling it’s been a long while to see up a deuces Haven’t you’ve been scared yet for this nightmare?

And doesn’t it seem like Dreamlandia will be aware?

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It’s getting very scary tonight

Prepare yourselves for a fight

Dreamlandia will return back

It’ll leave you blue and black

Well it doesn’t play around

Spread this town to town

Gratefully it’ll subside soon

And prepare for fight wounds

Dreams turned into nightmares

And it’ll do as it pleases or dares It’s Dreamlandia it puts up a fight Man it’s not at all this way, right?

Gosh it’s a dream turned sour

And it’s nobody’s fault at their power Because you’ve been through a lot Sorry man that’s all I have got

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Even I can’t seem to even count to try Make sure you’re understanding me And I’ve seen enough please its scary So don’t you ever seem to be afraid too Pleading and begging won’t make it subdue Wasn’t it so much fun when you are scared?

Ain’t it such a blast when Dreamlandia started?

Overdoing itself when it seems to be star-struck So pleasing yourselves when it comes to puke Dreamlandia won’t make you scared if you aren’t Young kids don’t seem to drift off and come apart Never seeking scariness as its very own prize And it’s even got you dazed in it and mesmerized Moreover, there’s nowhere that you can’t even hide And don’t even dare to seek out and dare be scared People, we need to seek the goodness of Dreamlandia It doesn’t want anybody to be too scared won’t it to ya?

Every time it seems to scare you that’s when it feeds Dreams turned into nightmares when it makes you bleed You must not be scared of Dreamlandia and it’ll subside Please I beg it’ll be going away if it will not see you hide So please don’t be scared of it and it won’t even harm you Dreamlandia wants the goodness of the world for all of too Nevertheless, it is a monster that will be so uncontrollable And don’t think less of Dreamlandia it won’t be unbelievable Pleasing itself and it won’t be such a monster to yourselves Every time you pretend it doesn’t exist it will believe ourselves And don’t worry too much about and Dreamlandia will go 223

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So trust me on this Dreamlandia is very harmless needless to say

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Puny and Dweeby 5

Now that I’m still in high school, All my bullies thought they were cool.

It is Jerry Winters and I’m eighteen, But I ain’t here to tell you what I mean.

I am still praising my God all day long, Wherever there’s nothing so wrong.

Now my bully is named Nahmir O’Neal, He thinks he’s cool but that is unreal.

Thinking I’m puny and dweeby,

But that’s not reality.

How dare he judge me like this,

Pleading with him won’t make him miss.

However I am not a person of gratitude, But Nahmir has a bad-tempered attitude.

And making him punch and kick me, Will make him fear God greatly.

Somehow Nahmir wanted to hate,

But of course, he couldn’t relate.

Pleasing his bad tempers,

To whining like a baby with diapers.

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As he explodes in and out of his outrage.

What man? I’m still puny and dweeby?

However, that really doesn’t affect me.

But this is my last story of my bullies, As I am entering the adult world of opportunities.

Well now that I’m eighteen and in my Senior Year, I can’t be bullied any more oh dear.

But that doesn’t affect me at all, Even though I can’t be my whimpering beck and call.

So I sincerely apologize to those who felt badly for me, Please don’t feel too badly.

I ain’t here for you to be sad,

All I’m asking for is for Y’all to believe in God.

How can’t I fear someone who’s bullying me?

Just don’t please yourselves greatly.

My love for my God is extra special lately, So I can’t fear my God dearly.

It’s been fun experiencing my bullied past, However, I can’t ever say that it’ll ever last.

Open up the B-i-b-l-e,

And listen to what it says greatly.

Just don’t fear God at all anyone, So it’ll be the cutthroat and deadly one.

I can’t ever seem to get why Nahmir picks on me.

He’s just overwhelming those around fearfully.

This time Nahmir kicked me and threw me on the ground, The principal came and saw as a crowd gathered around.

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And he won’t be bullying anyone for their fear.

How can’t you be afraid of Nahmir anybody?

Ask God and he’ll open you up to an opportunity.

Please don’t fear any bully I’ve endured, Open up the B-i-b-l-e and read every word.

How can’t you endure bullying without it?

I’ve been bullied before and I am totes sick.

So can’t you ever fear bullies before many?

You can’t ever stay away from any bully.

However Nahmir was expelled from school, Each and every day he’ll regret it dreadful.

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Like She Hasn’t Loved Me Before This will go down in history as a great one, Let us seek our lovers like she’s hasn’t loved you before.

Shit happens when you’re a fucking screw up, It’s never like she hasn’t loved me before she left me.

As a young adult myself,

She hasn’t really trusted me.

But I won’t give up too easily,

Opposed to having her yell.

She’s very troubling lately,

And I can’t stand that bitch.

I ain’t here to stand here alone, Because she won’t behave.

This bitch is off her leash,

Like she hasn’t loved me before.

Young ones hide yourselves,

Because she’s a killer of many.

Never looking for her anyways,

Up there way up in Heaven.

I look up to the skies and beg,

It’s never like God has ever loved me.

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He won’t ever let me win too much, And that’ll be the end of my soul.

Pleading with my God,

And he’s leaving me in misery.

Open up the B-i-b-l-e,

And preach its great words.

Over and over again,

It’s never like she hasn’t loved me before.

Hello is that bitch a-knocking?

Hello is that bitch too crazed?

Have your bitch insane enough,

I’ll never like that bitch she’s troubling.

Overdosages of meds in my system, To her digging her long ass claws in me.

Just God will leave me cutthroat, Nearest to my death I am in trouble.

Pleasing herself to my friend’s long ass dick, She’s into that crazy ass stuff lately.

Just can’t say what friend that is, Because he ain’t around because she killed him.

It’s not like she hasn’t loved me, Haven’t gotten a fucking clue yet.

Opening up my feelings to her,

Is like God taking my soul from me.

It’s never like she hasn’t loved me before, That’s too much I’ve said out loud.

I can’t stay away from her she’s too pretty, Oh well, I guess you can say I’m with her crazily.

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Hughes Griffley: Seventh Graders Beware, Here I Come!

Welcome to the seventh grade you scoundrels It is I, your teacher Mr. Clyde Shawn Whitworth And I don’t mess around with you teenager scum So please behave yourselves and it’ll be a fun year So give your warmest welcome to our new student Why don’t you go on up and introduce yourselves?

Starting with you first please go up and tell us calmly Hi I’m Hughes Macklin Griffley and I’m a boy of thirteen And hello I’m Jordina Rosabeth Carter and I’m thirteen Hiya Y’all I’m Gualberto Enríquez and I’m fourteen so hey And I’m Jerraline Rosenbaum and I am thirteen as well Nice to meet Y’all I’m Gracibelle McFarlane and I’m fifteen What do you have to say Mr. Griffley? Please say it aloud I’ve got to say is please seventh graders beware, here I come So watch out you silliest and I’ll be waiting for my girl too What’s her name you gotta ask me? Her name is Gladys Hello I’m Jocelyn Patricia Cartwright and I’m a girl of thirteen 232

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Nice to meet Y’all I’m Frédérique Philippe Roufflé and I say hi Golly that means I’m Graciella Roselle Rowe, thirteen and a girl

Well that’s enough of the introducing of yourselves I had enough

Welcome to the seventh grade all of you wonderful human beings

And you may only call me Mr. Whitworth or Mr. W if you remember

It’s been one heck of a year for you all last year except Mr.

Griffley

Well I can’t say but don’t bug him, that shall go for all of you bullies

Let’s begin with the teaching already so I’ll begin with the teacher

Now how about we start off with a mathematics lesson with multiples

We’re all excited no? How about Mr. Griffley starts us off with smartness

Ok I’mma ‘bout to show ya my knowledge and I don’t wanna cheat ya

Opening up your textbooks to pages 1-17, we’ll begin with Chapter One

Try this one on for size. What will be your best guess with 122

times 45?

Yes, you in the pink and red blouse? What’s your answer?

Please say it now

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Can’t you see that you’re correct ma’am? That’s the right answer anyways

So it can’t be any more right than that. How about Y’all try another problem?

Solve this one, please. What will be Y’all guess on 105 times 37? Please solve

As a raise of hands please show me your hands in the air. And solve this one

Yes, you in the jean jacket and jeans. What will be your answer to give kind sir?

Yeah, the answer is 3,885. Am I correct or no? Yes it’s correct and you’re so smart

Why thank you Hughes and I appreciate your kindness towards me and the others

Now try this problem, please. What’s 85 x 19? Please can’t Y’all try and solve this one?

There’s a student way in the back who solved it. He solved the answer really quick

His answer is 1,615 and he’s correct. Welcome back you smarter seventh graders

Now that the class day is over and I can’t wait to see you all leave my classroom today

Have fun while you go home as Y’all have passed this class and you’re in grade eight

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Committing Suicide Can never see the way she hangs himself!

An empty belly full of sleeping pills, Drink a stone and then defend herself, Until the death of mother nature kills.

He shakes his body like a murder weapon, When the devil tries to kill herself.

An evil entered through a deep depression, Killed the priest of death and hanged himself.

Can never see the way she hangs himself!

An empty belly full of sleeping pills, Drink a stone and then defend herself, Until the death of mother nature kills.

He shakes his body like a murder weapon, When the devil tries to kill herself.

An evil entered through a deep depression, Killed the priest of death and hanged himself.

The other side of death or suicide, A frame of mind and handled carefully, Empty space without a place to hide, The situation temporarily.

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See an exit cardiac arrest!

So full of love committing suicide, I need a body like a soul obsessed, Between the lips of death and horrified.

Surrounded by a shattered soul revealed, On the other side of suicide.

Another day of life and death concealed, Around the world without a place to hide.

A feeling like a doctor hangs himself, Even though I never felt depressed, A baby had already hanged herself, On the other side of me distressed.

A day and then the doctor hangs himself!

He never had an easy way to flee, Where the priest already hanged herself, A state of mind and true identity.

Without another second realizing, Nothing yet a little unaware,

Being blinded by the fear of dying, Leaving me the only way to spare.

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Definitely I Loved Her Together nothing changes everything, A little something new today and never, A better way of doing anything,

The thought of loving you forever ever.

Never ever really feel unhappy.

I only wanna hear the angels sing, Forget about a broken heart and gladly, A happy way of doing anything.

Never ever doing anything.

Maybe when I really feel unhappy, To stay awake and dream of everything, The joy of loving you forever madly.

Forget about the love I never knew, Feel the thought of doing anything, So please consider me an interview, You become a part of everything.

Without a woman lying by himself, Had the feeling like she never knew, A bunch of people laughing at herself, Telling you about an interview.

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A moment from another life or never, A dream to fade away and never let, The arms of love with you forever ever, Walking on the wings of deep regret.

Another life without a single fling, Never ever really feel unhappy.

When the morning covers everything, Dream of loving you forever madly.

I never really wanted anything.

Forget about a thousand years or never, The biggest part of me and everything, The thought of loving you forever ever.

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Feelings for Her I never had an easy way of keeping, Loving me and making you aware,

Surrounded by the fear of being seeking, Hiding from the world without a care.

For something you already never chose.

An empty heart without a mind to spare, Even try and face the rest of those, Feel the fear of being unaware.

Too young to even care about herself, Never had an easy way of seeing,

A give me a job and rid himself,

A pocket full of money on the seeking.

I never really wanted you to stay.

So spend a moment while the others chose, Wander through a world without dismay, Then forget about the rest of those.

Is on the other side of life despite!

The preacher finds a way to love himself, An hour or later on a wedding night, Try and play the music by herself.

That you and I belong together madly.

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I never knew the use of love restrained, The only way to try and stay unhappy, Maybe cut a little further strained.

She really wanna know about her mother, A better way of being by himself, Without taking care of one another, Never had a woman by herself.

Remember such an easy way to spend.

Though we only knew each other madly, Spend the night alone without a friend, Never had the love of you unhappy.

A woman had an only friend of those!

Who could not even care about her mother, Ever feel the pain and never chose, A life without the love of one another.

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Herself and I

So many people never had himself, Being treated like the human kind.

Though a woman smiles upon herself, Become a part of everything unkind.

To spend a little money on himself!

Another way of feeling sad and glad, Mama never thought about herself, The only life a woman ever had.

She never really wanted everything, Ever saw a woman on herself,

Never had enough of anything,

The only way of being by himself.

Another human being pushed aside!

The only way of laughing at himself, You remember when the priest replied, Never had a problem by herself.

Even though she had a little younger, You have ever seen an angel make, The wings of love and never saw her mother, The only thing a woman could forsake.

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A company that never could forsake.

No need to laugh or treated you unkind, Even though I never had the make, Giving you a way of being kind.

Something you already started seeing, No-one ever wanted me to let,

A love was taken by the use of teasing, Never had the thought of nothing yet.

Another woman hides within herself, The one who really needs a friend or never, A better way of being by himself, On the wings of love and never ever.

Maybe nothing else except himself.

Never ever really love her only,

A little one and only by herself, A woman on the way of being coldly.

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Bullied

Surrounded by a great severe repression!

The final one and only promise keepers, An endless form of physical aggression, A journey through the world of pimps and teachers.

Play a part of physical aggression, Mess around and watch the victim blaming!

I really need a studied medicine, Never ever feel the use of raping.

About a hundred million people hating!

I wanna hear the voice of pleading guilty, Fill an empty room without a raping, Stay awake and sleeping on the biddy.

You the only one I could confide.

Protected by the name of Jason Lee, A part of contemplating suicide,

Feel the drama like a wannabe.

Being treated like a wannabe,

Then forget about the rich and tacky, I never need a friend or Jason Lee, On the other side of life verbally.

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Had it any other way verbally!

I never thought about a younger brother, The ways of love and hate behaving badly, The pain of being treated like a mother.

A person at an age of self defence.

They taught the truth about themselves and raping, When the other people took offense, Surrounded by a world of hate and hating.

Then a serving kindergarten through!

I saw a brother at the use of raping, A part of being treated like untrue, Never heard about the victim blaming.

A lesson from an evil self confessed!

And read the words of love I never knew, Thought about the way that you molest, A part of me and never feel untrue.

Never ever studied medicine!

And even when the damage you molest, Has given me a lack of deep affection, Then the words of openly expressed.

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Of Course She Never Loved Me Another one relying on herself,

Until today and then again or never, The fear of being carried by himself, The world becomes a part of you and ever.

We started having something going wrong!

Was one of those who could remember never, That when it really lasted very long.

Any day another second ever.

There too many people standing still!

No matter where the devil needs a latter!

To care but you can hardly wait until, A little peace or happy ever after.

I feel no need for leaving me alone, This life is such an easy way to go!

I know the fear of being on my own, The only one and ever even though.

Remember staring at this endless night, Passing through these days no longer ever!

So many stories you can hardly write!

They followed me about an hour or never.

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But getting farther from the very latter, For having trouble being on my own.

I thought that there was something going after!

Or where it started when I felt alone.

A thousand years and then again until, Another day without a place to go!

An ocean full of people standing still, Who ever knew the love of Mary though.

Another single person over there!

Who cares about eternal life as ever!

And when I really even wonder where, Not going home for twenty years or never.

No need to travel any further latter!

An empty world is growing darker still, But then again a happy ever after!

No longer on the other side until.

Another day without a very own,

Such an easy way of letting go!

So many people standing there alone, The fear of being sad and lonely though.

Another lonely person over there, Not asking me who cares about himself!

Was there an older little sister where!

And when she started laughing at herself.

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He Chose Suicide Remember when the world was getting younger, When the life of heaven had returned.

I never thought about a younger brother, A thousand years and then the tables turned.

Depending on the feelings you compose.

Even though I never could have stayed, A part of you and never even chose, Write a song about the love we made.

Ever really wanted me to stay!

Depending on the feelings you compose, A maze of being blinded by dismay, The greatest gift of life and never chose.

Become a little longer unaware.

When the answer had already stayed, Without the thought of making you aware, Living on a state of mind persuade.

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The woman where a friend and father knew.

Her heart was blinded by the pain he gave, A love and then she could commit himself, Without a pity when no one forgave, The tears of life and death disguised herself.

A river where he had already tried, But when a ray of darkness never came, Through the night and then an angel died, Upon a day the future soon became.

An hour of death became dissatisfied!

Too many people had already tried, Life becomes a bloody suicide,

On the day another brother died.

I never wanted something like an heir.

The other side of life unsatisfied, You became a person unaware,

Until the day another brother died.

About the people staying unaware.

Surrounded by a world of false frustration, Nothing on the earth became aware, A life of death without assassination.

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Aren’t You Still in Love with Me?

I never really wanted anything,

Pretending like a thousand years or never, Surrounded by the love of everything, You became a part of nothing ever.

Forever loving you forever never, Until the seasons change and never let, Surrounded by the words of love and ever, Regret a thousand years or better yet.

What others really wanna talk about.

My friends would try again and maybe never, They could have never had it figured out!

But then who cares about today or ever.

I feel too busy doing anything,

Except for being happy even though!

We had a love that changes everything!

So many people may already know.

It really never really matter though.

Nothing ever changes anything,

A little something you already know, On the other side of everything.

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Completely having such an easy way!

An awkward way of doing anything!

Another day with nothing else to say, But baby please remember everything.

What ever happened then again or never, The only thing that you already know!

We started going back together ever!

I asked a thousand questions even though.

Remember being watching over you!

So happy feeling like pretending never!

The one who cares what others often do, With pictures passing through today or ever.

It only happens after everything, Is such an awful thing to talk about!

I never finished doing anything!

A hundred million people going out.

Pretending like what other lovers do!

We know no one remembers everything, But then what happened after leaving you, It started on forgetting anything.

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Displeasing Memories No longer swallowed by celestial blackness, For strength to conquer death until dishonor!

They need protection from eternal sadness!

I know their dreams become completely somber.

Some people wander through confused frustrations, An endless space without appreciation.

So many empty thoughts and tribulations!

This world becomes another fascination.

Nothing ever gonna change the mood!

A human being true or witnessing, An everlasting life of solitude,

Forgetting everything about reliving.

Would see a thousand distant inner sadness, That could create the most distinguished mood!

And while this lonely little screaming blackness, Reveals another pleasant solitude.

But there is only something duty bound!

No thoughts or such an ancient fascination!

Or may I never ever feel profound!

Depending on a strange appreciation.

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Behind the sleepless shades of tribulations, Within an old collective memory.

Yet to wander through my own frustrations, Eternal life without serenity.

Erased themselves completely witnessing!

They started making silence sound profound, When too many questions stopped reliving!

But there was never ever duty bound.

This private life without appreciation, The world revolves around my own frustrations.

I need another special fascination!

Another body scarred and tribulations.

A little something like an empty mood!

A million people screaming under blackness, Standing on the brink of solitude, Surrounded by an everlasting sadness.

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Reasoning with a Killer Together could become a decent pair.

Depending on a better way of proving, Then forget about the place or where, Any lack of hope without assuming.

Not asking any questions coming true, Who cares about a thousand others proving!

I know that you are simply passing through!

Too many voices calling me assuming.

Walking through an empty room alone.

But there is something really slightly matching, I feel afraid of being on my own!

Remember when the world was barely having.

So busy feeling like a one and only, We had an easy way of letting go!

Or even try to listen very closely, Never seeing one another though.

Remember something slowly passing through!

Or even thought that you were really proving, Was there an angel watching over you!

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A life with aching eyes without assuming.

I hear the voices saying listen closely.

Walking through an empty room alone!

Not looking at it any longer only, Another lonely person on my own.

So many other people ever matching, They never wanted me to stay or go!

This world is such an easy way of having, Surrounded by the one and only though.

Already over after letting go!

To see what you were ever really proving, Thought about it any longer though!

An angry single voice became assuming.

But there too many getting pushed and matching, For making me so happy on my own!

A feeling like this life was never having!

Another way of leaving you alone.

I may not even listen very closely.

The world is such an easy thing to do, Being caught between the one and only, A hundred thousand people passing through.

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If I May Die Please Lay Me Down Besides the River

Forever letting other feelings go.

Not like the words that lovers often do, Feel as though they hardly even know!

A million angels watching over you.

Oh like an angel watching over me!

I only wanna hear what people say!

Too many tired eyes can plainly see, The thought of having such an easy way.

So later on another lonely night, You already know my aim is true!

No matter whether weather wrong or right, I need a little love to follow through.

Wander through this lonely sleepless night, What happens when my dreams are coming true!

No one has nothing ever felt so right!

I wanna spend another night with you.

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Is like a song that sets my spirit free.

It only happened on an endless day!

A thousand angels calling over me.

So many places you would rather go, Than any other lovers ever do!

Or maybe there was no-one else to know, Surrounded by the thought of passing through.

Eternal life together letting go!

Who could have had enough of being free, The only place I really wanna know.

A million places where no one can see.

So many people watching over you, Even on an endless dying day!

What happens when my dreams are coming true!

We may not hear a single word they say.

But love was such an easy thing to do, Today is never gonna fade away!

Surrounded by the thought of passing through, Another day or any other way.

Familiar places lonely lovers go.

Too many little friends are missing you, The only place they really wanna know!

We see a million faces passing through.

So many feelings slowly fade away!

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Maybe going through another day,

There is nothing you would rather do.

Walking on the river running free!

I never had it any other way!

A funny feeling coming over me,

But love was such an easy thing to say.

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Brave Boy

For any stupid dirty little squeaky.

Like an ugly mother bloody awful!

Not ever very happy being cheeky, Are you the only one adorable.

Oh Lord have mercy on a newborn baby!

She never really needs another pity, My mama standing there with bravery!

So many crazy people getting tipsy.

To see her pretty face completely dashing, What kinda love that lovely lady wears!

Or maybe such an awful way of bragging, About the places where a woman dares.

We never wanted any younger dad.

She knew so many broken hearted mother, Her dad was really very kinda glad!

Who could have mercy on his older brother.

I wonder when he thought about himself, To see an outer limits episode!

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Not yet the only one disguised herself!

A happy day another lady rode.

Even though my heart is thundering!

A people wanna play a little dashing, Maybe either being young or cunning, Never ever had enough of bragging.

We gotta lovely little Villager!

I also liked the only newborn baby, For those who had a handsome lady Mister.

She walked away with love and bravery.

They never ever needed any pity,

To see a couple girls completely dashing!

So pretty busy feeling kinda tipsy!

A hundred million women started bragging.

How many other people getting dressed, Is looking really very funny squeaky, Even having such an ugly jest!

I know about the ways of being cheeky.

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It started giving me some deep affection!

But nothing ever felt so teary eyed!

I never needed any heroine,

To see how many other people cried.

Mama only kept her body sewed.

No one have ever seen a younger brother, Who never knew exactly where she rode!

My hair was shining like an older mother.

Standing on the corner looking dashing, Having something feeling kinda cheeky!

I really had a funny way of bragging, You forget about a little squeaky.

That mighty handsome son was only braver!

With seven hundred thousand bodies sewed, Ever seen another drunken sailor!

They never even wonder where he rode.

His father had a very younger brother.

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For those who could become an orphan mother!

About how many other people bragging.

My Lord have mercy on the babysitter, Can you remember me aspiring writer!

And running from an angry giant killer, Afraid of feeling like a lone survivor.

Fifty million stories teary eyed, To hear their smiling faces going dashing.

Some hundred thousand angry children cried, They never see another lady bragging.

Any other people dare beware!

Are you an awful mighty heavy drinker!

So many pretty girls with golden hair, Who cares about the lovely Villager.

For really being busy living gaily, Having such a very happy dad!

A belly full of love and bravery!

An early morning feeling kinda glad.

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Her mama stole my baby sister gladly!

She started acting like a happy brother, Who carried flowers under water Natty!

We never wanted any younger mother.

Too many hungry people going dashing!

So busy feeling mighty kinda cheeky, To see the word of mother nature bragging, That nasty stupid dirty devil squeaky.

You are such an ugly liar liar!

Consider me an awful little sickly!

I never heard about aspiring writer, No one was really young or very pretty.

These girls are awful very gallantly, They know how many people even dare!

No one would really love this lovely Natty!

The devil shining through his golden hair.

He offered me a handsome Villager.

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Who could have gotten any better mister!

No lady ever treated like a sailor.

So pretty baby please remember Mister, We never had another early morn!

Not being like a very heavy drinker, Waking at the thought of you forlorn.

To know their parents never sought revenge.

So many years for those whose heart was dashing, Who knew what lovely children could avenge, See how many other people bragging.

No one would ever love another dad!

An angel may become a liar liar!

Not really any happy feeling glad, But Lord have mercy on aspiring writer.

The son of life is very awful sickly!

Perhaps my father pleases me and gladly!

I often wonder whether young or pretty, Being treated like a lady Natty.

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Oh Mister pretty sister Mister deathly, Not even any friend alone or braver!

No one was there an angel after Teddy, With me my mama acted like a sailor.

Who thought that love is only agony!

And though the little lady kills herself.

I guess she never saw her father gladly!

So many people laughing at himself.

Afraid of being very fully dressed, Having mercy on the most forlorn!

Remember when his dad began to jest, Bought himself a happy early morn.

No one who ever offers any pity,

His heart is making love forever gladly!

I know these holy cows are mighty sickly!

I wanna see my darling dear oh happy.

So pretty lovely lady Mister jolly, For me an early morning Teddy bear!

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An old piano over Andy hardy!

Oh baby mister jolly bo beware.

A very merry Christmas babysitter, Together on the golden days of woe!

We never need another heavy drinker, Watch the children sing along and fro.

My heart is such an angry noble maid, For any mother nature kills herself!

How many people ever feel afraid, Whose son would never work upon himself.

Whom that happy handsome mother wears.

No one and neither sinner nor adored!

Are you a certain sort of guy who dares, To bear himself against the golden sword.

He may become an idle liar liar!

A pretty little lady thundering!

I often wonder when aspiring writer, Later on an early morning clutching.

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So many people also rather shy!

They knew this Christmas song is only jolly, For whom the herald choir mothers cry, Their children crying over Andy hardy.

To know what any lady could avenge!

No mother ever saw his dearest dad!

And even though he never sought revenge!

My father had become an English lad.

Perhaps I see another lonely teen, Maybe really pretty very sickly,

Leaning on the public vaseline!

An old piano like a jolly ditty.

Can hear the voices calling me oh happy!

I wonder where my father could avenge, Who might have ever felt so gallantly!

I guess this one is gonna get revenge.

A lonely story feeling kinda cheeky, To know that you were only seventeen!

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Remember when his hair was pretty squeaky, But even then she had no vaseline.

He never really needed any pity,

Very many people you adored!

Her mother laughed and started getting tipsy!

An awful little lady on the sword.

Girls are looking at an ugly jest!

They really wanna know what you adored!

But when this lovely lady felt caressed, Her feet were blessed with such a wooden sword.

She started acting kinda bloody awful!

So very sad to see himself oh happy, As though his smile became adorable, Not even bothered by an angry Natty.

The only one was ever dragged away!

Perhaps I could become an honest lad, Bear the fear of being led astray!

My father had a pretty little dad.

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To stay together holding hands and raping, Hide behind an ancient intuition, The way of life and like a hostage taking, A journey through the land of mere suspicion.

An armed reaction from a partial function!

Surrounded by the lack of intuition.

When I hear the sound of sweet seduction, Another day without a mere suspicion.

A hundred million dollar wages paid.

For any rainy day without seduction, Putting flowers on the cattle raid!

We never had another partial function.

Another nation being raped and raping!

No need to practice normal distribution!

We carry on an under hostage taking, A world of pain and fearing retribution.

Was getting greeted by an empty witching.

The lonely human being kicking leg!

This very tiny little cherry picking, Is hanging on his little baby neg.

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I know how many greedy mothers raping, Are killing people at their own perversion.

Entire nation under hostage taking!

No one to kill another mortal woman.

They know that there is only mortal woman!

We deal with standard normal distribution.

No place for those who could commit perversion, To me or simply fearing retribution.

I know the only human logic puzzle, Is also guarded by a mortal woman, Who could become a part of gender trouble!

And yet the people suffer from perversion.

Released upon a human mortal woman, To offer me another kicking leg!

Surrounded by a suffer from perversion, Looking on the other side of neg.

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Never Loved Her

A witness from this very sad affair.

What could become an angry former lover!

Whose son has barely gotten yet aware, Those who often thought about her mother.

When so many people had confessed, But then I know that no-one else forgave!

Is there another lonely place to rest!

A father kept the only thing he gave.

Even though his little mama knew, The thought of love was never gonna ever!

Her mother promised you an interview, No one would ever really care or never.

That pretty beauty kept within herself, Too busy looking at her own delight.

He knew a way of being by himself, Not gonna see what people read or write.

But there was something wrong or even though!

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She offered me the only thing to show, No other woman ever really had.

I never felt so glad we never met!

Remember when another mother died, Depending on the moment you regret!

And then an angel finally replied.

Is young and yet so busy feeling glad!

Whose lonely eyes are often unaware.

Those who could forget the dream we had, To tell another story love affair.

But you remember making me afraid!

I saw a friend that only Mary knew!

He thought of any other day she stayed, Two or later on an interview.

No one would ever really know her mother, Was having trouble being by himself!

The people talked about an older brother, Even though her father knew herself.

Love that you remember having stayed.

The day we spent together even though!

This evening while my father often prayed, Gazed upon a lovely happy show.

Who really even felt so very glad, To see how many people had returned!

But Mary never felt alone or sad!

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No mother ever thought of being spurned.

Was married then the other girls replied!

I know an older friend disguised herself, She never listened when her daddy cried, Kept his little sister by himself.

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Back When I Had Her This day another lonely lady stayed.

I know a woman could remember ever!

So soon her little eyes became afraid, Being felt afraid that love would never.

She really knew exactly where it went!

Or see how many other angels cried!

Surrounded by an angel heaven sent, Smiled as though he never even tried.

The two of those who ever fell asleep, An only evening when no one returned, But there was something going on or keep!

They never stopped until a moment turned.

This moment getting tired feeling glad!

Not very happy being stepped aside.

Who cares about what you already had, See how many lonely people cried.

Today I saw an angel heaven sent, Was there so many weeks ago she stayed!

Who ever wondered where her father went!

And then a friend of me became afraid.

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But nothing even yet disguised herself, Never ever knew an older brother!

The only little child within himself, Was taken by the hands of one another.

They started getting married anyway, That way again wherever Jesus went!

So many people wanted me to stay!

My momma saw herself an angel sent.

No friend was happy while her mother cried!

She could remember when his daddy woke, A little brother never really tried, But then another day of being broke.

It happened only heaven had returned!

The one who knew exactly where he stayed!

A very moment when the children turned, Until an angel stepped aside and prayed.

So many children had already broke, Fought with those who could no longer spare!

But only any second being woke,

Would wait for me to know exactly where.

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Dearest Friend

Even any other soul survives,

Forever helpless like a newborn child.

Through the days of sad and lonely wives, Until the age of being reconciled.

An angel speaks an ancient holy scriptures!

Until a day of life and death survives, Without a pity where the leading figures, Are haunted by the souls of snakes and wives.

An angel speaks an ancient holy scriptures!

Until a day of life and death survives, Without a pity where the leading figures, Are haunted by the souls of snakes and wives.

She never had a bond between her lover, One of many times obituary.

By the name of son and youngest brother, A daughter on the seventh century.

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See a little mother by her father, The kings of earth and flowers intertwined.

Life is full of painful memories!

A way to face the world without a honour, See the eyes of bitter enemies,

Never had a daughter like her father.

Become an evil enemy enshrined!

Destroy the reign of death until dishonor, A hundred thousand bodies intertwined, Sacrifice the souls of death and honour.

His father had already hanged herself, Such a way of being reconciled.

He walked across the earth and stabbed himself, The sound of silence like a newborn child.

Her daddy had a tarnished reputation, When the little lady stabbed himself, Never thought about the dedication, She puts a part of me and hangs herself.

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Struggles Are Real When It Becomes a Reality

I can’t live my life without regrets When it comes to struggling

Haven’t you’ve done enough lately?

To becoming a reality and it hurts me Troubled times we’ve been throughout And it’s all painful memories by now Struggles are real when it becomes a reality But you haven’t seen my darkened side You’re a trickster and a lying piece of shit But when you’re begging on your kneecaps I can’t seem to enlighten myself and feel badly Haven’t you’ve done me wrong at all?

Nowadays you aren’t the brightest in the world And it hurts me to see her go

But when she leaves me alone

Without a care in the world

Whenever she leaves me I feel like a loser And I can’t ever seem to get over it But she hasn’t proven to me that she loved me 277

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It’s displeasing whenever she doesn’t prove Disapproving of her snitching and her deceiving She won’t seem to calm down

But when I’ve seen her dark side

I can’t seem to get over her deceitfulness Golly it’s been nice knowing her lies But I can’t seem to get over her deceitfulness All I’m asking for is a reputation of greatness Of course my struggling is real

But I say struggles are real when it becomes a reality So don’t feel too badly for me any way, shape or form You won’t ever seem to understand me at all And yeah it’s saddening me to see her leave 278

God Has Blessed Me As I look up to the Heavens

I seek my truest lover

All I’m asking for is to hear God’s voice But he has denied me of that

Somehow I can’t get to God

But he hasn’t allowed me to

Up there in Heaven

God hasn’t been pleased

But it’s never up to him is it?

I just can’t believe in my eyes

Haven’t we’ve been there before?

But somehow it’s getting worse

Nevertheless I seek my Lord’s grace And there’s nothing more perfect

Than to hear the voices of the Angels Opposed to disbelieving in myself Just open your earholes for listening But you deny your truest seeker

Asking why or why haven’t I seen him?

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All he’s answering is to believe in yourselves But it’s never up to you or he isn’t it?

Nevertheless you believed

So don’t ask yourselves how come

It’s never up to you, but you still bowed to his grace You’ve been troubling since a young child And God has forgave your mercifulness But he believes you are a sinner lately Just because of the way you’ve been acting 280

Lay My Dead Body Down Beside Her If I died today what would you say to that?

Since a young lad she’s been warning herself But lay my dead body down beside her And don’t you ever look back at your mistakes Beside myself

There’s an open Bible with a scripture But it’s unreadable

And there’s ink running down the pages How come you’ve been sad lately?

And I can’t ever make you happier So what? I’ve been a dying soul

For you to come and snatch my body up You’ve been sadder than singing the Blues And my funeral is upon the church on the hilltop And the Preacher asked God to pray for our souls So we shall live in eternal resting places Never will I ever seem to cheer you up lad And now that I’m gone

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Please lay my dead body down beside her And don’t forget to pray for us

I’ve been seeking a true lover from my wake And she hasn’t come yet

So what? I’ve been a lover since I’ve been dying And you aren’t seeming to cheer up How can’t I ever seek a lover now you may ask?

But it’s impossible now that I’ve died Now that I’m dead

Please lay my dead body down beside her And now that the missus that also died Has died with me mysteriously

And now that we’re dead all I wanted is for You to lay my dead body down beside her Hey don’t cry at our funerals

It’ll only make things worse

I’ve been in a coma for a long time and died And she’s been stabbed to death

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Can’t You See That You’re Killing Me?

Decaying and rotting bodies

Trapped under the rubble

Underneath it all

You’re a weak person

Can’t you see that you’re killing me?

How come you don’t even care for it?

It’s never up to you to forgive

But you’re an evil person of unforgiven You’ve been weakening right from the start And you’ve been dying

Can’t you see that you’re killing me?

And I can’t wrap my brain around your devilish ways Troubled from a young child

The lying and the thievery

Upsetting your parents for no reason Pleading your own case

How can’t you become a good person?

How can’t you seem to be a nice guy?

Over my dead body you’ve seem to be 283

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Never looking back at your own miseries Displeasing your victims

To being unaware of your killings Pleaded with the judges

To be hung with a death penalty

Nobody wants your miseries anymore And you can’t become a good person You aren’t the brightest nor the smartest And my blood is leaking out of my veins 284

Seriously Go Kill Yourself Blood spilling out my veins

Troubled right from the start

My words I’m saying drains

And I’m drifting way too apart

Hopelessly I can’t beg for mercy

And God won’t even judge

Heaven isn’t too far in my future see And you’re saying I can’t budge

Seriously go kill yourself then

And hang off the ground

You’re troubled and unwilling

Pardon me I’m killing without a sound Have mercy on thee O Lord

Forsaken thee without judgment

Too pardon thee O Lord

I can’t stand hear laughing with amusement I’ve been death defying and unstable Just like my bullied past with backstabbers My word then seriously I am unable 285

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Opinionated with amusement walking killers Don’t you see you’ve been killing me?

Nobody chooses to kill thee with laughter Hilarious ain’t it? And you’re laughing at me Killed by a noose high off the ground higher Upsetting ain’t it? And you’ve been troubling Sadder the blue-faced and you’re choked up Hurrying up with the murder and I’m drifting Nobody seems to care about you and slack off Y’all better believe in my true miseries And I can’t become holy when God’s judging Why can’t you seriously pretend in ministries?

God’s a true believer and nobody can’t be slacking How about you seriously go kill yourself then?

I am never judging you with unstableness Don’t be pleased when God’s stricken How can’t you see the unwillingness?

You’re a true sinner aren’t y’all seeing this?

Up there way into Heaven God is displeased Well you aren’t a true believer you aren’t blessed And God is laughing in your face and he’s disgraced 286

Unaware of What I’ve Become I’m troubled and I’ve become a monster You’re the worst thing I’m unaware of I calmly stood up and left

And you’ve followed me

You haven’t wished me to get better And I can’t even stare at you anymore I see my miseries and I feel drugged You aren’t the brightest in the starry skies You may now have seen my dark side And you’ve become the killer in my eyesight I am unaware of what I’ve become

And it may seem like I’m truly troubling Don’t start any trouble with me

You’ve seemed like to be strangling I see the lights go out in your eyes And you’re blue-faced and black and blue I’m unaware of what I’ve become

And I am tired of being the unwanted Twice a week I am struggling concernedly And I am such a coward

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How dare you judge me like this

You’ve been such a fucking nightmare I am so tired and I’ve become belligerent Pleading your case won’t help yourself May I help you, ma’am or sir?

How can’t I beg for mercy?

You’re insane and possessed

Helplessly I have to be hung

Goodbye cruel world

As my lights are knocked out

Obsessively I am a bit fetish

And you don’t even seem to care

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A Love That Just Can’t Be Simply I can’t reply to her texts She won’t even respond back to me And she’s too busy fighting with exes That she won’t swear she loved me But she’d swear that she loved her exes Nobody is too perfect in my wondrous eyes I just can’t begin to have her in my presence And nobody can judge me how hard it tries As simple as you think it is

It really isn’t

No one should love her existence

But there’s the exit

Pleading without a worthy cause

Won’t get you anywhere in life

But life is a journey, not a race So why don’t you leave tonight?

No matter how hard it seems to

A love that just can’t be it’s threatening Life isn’t meant to be hard in a way So don’t struggle when it’s happening 289

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You’ve troubled when you speak

And it’s been too much for you to handle My life isn’t too perfect and it’s bleak So don’t you try to keep it from any trouble How’s it going by the way?

And you’ve gone nonstop

Neither one of us is perfectly

So why don’t we try to stay on top You’ve wondered about me

And I’ve wondered about us

It’s very displeasing to keep it partly So it won’t keep us from our differences 290

Breaking Her Heart She’s my everything

And I loved her

But she’s going insane

I can’t be a betrayer

How’s your day honey?

My day? Well it’s fine

My world isn’t too busy

And I’m free all the time

But I don’t want her heart broken And she’s my everything lately

So I won’t trust anybody who’s mistaken Here’s to everything we deserve honestly How’s can’t I trust anybody?

She’s my everything all the time

Yes it’s sad to see her go really But I just can’t sit here and whine I don’t want to break her heart

And she won’t like me anymore

So we’re drifting apart

And I am looking to score

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Unpleasantly I can’t sleep at night And I’m always thinking about her I’ve been waking up with such fright She’s my angel from Heaven, a truth teller Overdoing my love may drive her insanely Baby, I don’t wanna break your heart But I’m going throughout our photos madly Posting pictures of you on the Internet You’ve been aware of my cuteness

And you chose to be with another guy My world is different without her prettiness However it maybe I can’t even start to cry I feel like you’ve been cheating on me And you don’t seem to notice you are broken Every chance I get you feel like in such dismay And I won’t try to go breaking her heart again 292

Change Is for the Better Back when I used to love her smile She couldn’t have been any better I couldn’t just seem to see her awhile And it was mostly done to the weather The way I used to love her

Wasn’t all too perfect

She’s my world forever

And I live with regret

She’s my everything until I die

And I still do love her

No matter how hard I try

We can’t be together

We’ve become apart

I’m flattering her with handsomeness Ooh she really took my heart

And I am in love with her prettiness Well they say change is for the better And I’m living with regret every day 293

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She’s my everything and I’m in love with her My world revolves around her every way Opinionated with bad thoughts

To becoming a bad couple

My world is like raining with such droughts And I can’t see through the trouble Each and every way I see her progress And I can’t believe what she has become Hesitantly I am ashamed of her success But I am not ashamed of what is to come She’s really a people-pleaser and I like that And I can’t wait to see her become famous Nice to see her success going up and not flat Because I’m never going to hate her progress 294

Jackelina Truesdale In the town of Cedarville, Kansas there was a girl of the age eleven She wanted to become a princess

but her daddy refused to let her be Her daddy was a guy of sixty-one

and he lived in Cedarville all his life Without a doubt he protected her

and she wasn’t too uncontrollable Her name was Jackelina Truesdale

and she was the most the prettiest girl She had an opportunity to please

but her daddy refused to let her do this The longer she wanted to disturb daddy it wasn’t too pleasing to her father She begged and pleaded with him so but he was too stubborn without a doubt Never looking to please her father Jackelina was too eager and too excited So he wanted her to become a princess but it was too much for her to even handle 295

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Just like her mother Jackelina was and that displeased him so much

Jackelina wasn’t too much of a princess so it wasn’t her fault that her daddy is stubborn She wanted him to love her the way she is and it wasn’t all too good and perfection wasn’t enough Nice to see her father directly in the face while she’s silly so don’t expect to hope for Jackelina to be a princess One day her father was sleeping and she sneaked outside and that was her opportunity for her very own freedom Just as it became the afternoon and her father was awake he wondered where she was and grew angry towards her She waltzed right into the house and there withstood daddy and she was grounded for two weeks for sneaking out To her father the true stubborn guy it wasn’t enough for her after she was grounded for the two weeks he changed his heart So he wasn’t that stubborn anymore and she had more freedom it wasn’t her fault her daddy was more like a grouchy guy So it wasn’t like her father wanted to be too stubborn enough and she was a princess in her father’s eyes and that was the end 296

Please Forgive My Sins, Heavenly Father

Dear Lord,

have mercy on me.

For I have not done good,

and you aren’t pleased.

I’m troubled,

and a merciful sinner.

My pain isn’t subdued,

and I am not the victor.

Please forgive my sins,

for I haven’t done well.

Becoming the devil within,

while I am deeply in trouble.

This isn’t good in your eyes,

and I haven’t done too great.

My sins have been deceiving lies, and your forgiveness is far too late.

I’m asking you to forgive my sins, and I want to do good in your eyes.

Overdoing my amen’s where do I begin?

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forgive me for I am ruining my life.

Pleading and begging won’t please you, and I ain’t the one to become a rebel.

I’m too ashamed of what I’m doing too, they don’t look at me I’m disrespectful.

Please forgive my sins, Heavenly Father, and I can’t begin where I have done wrong.

Thoughts in my mind and I’m an instigator, upsetting you isn’t what I’ve been taught all along.

Just don’t look at me I’m a deadly sinner, and my unevenness is displeasing you isn’t it?

I’ll look ahead of my life and restart over, I’m upside down and I am not pleasing no I am not.

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Jennika Youklis

I’ve been waiting for this moment, and she’s just so perfect.

Just can’t stop staring at her,

my world is revolved around her.

I’ve been looking for this opportunity, and she’s just so perfect to me.

She’s not like any other girl on this planet, her love is keeping me attracted.

She’s my perfect girl and I’m in love, looking pretty every time she drove.

I can’t keep staring away from Jennika Youklis, Jennika Youklis you’ve gotten me into this.

Jennika oh Jennika oh how I love thee, must this become a reality?

It’s entirely up to her to love me, but sadly she can’t see.

Jennika Youklis I love that name, my love for her is not the same.

This young girl is my pyt,

and she’s just the world to me.

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Tell me Ms. Youklis don’t you feel my affection?

my oh my she’s got such an attraction.

She’s the good type of this world of sadness, and won’t I ever seem to feel back to gladness?

Ms. Jennika Youklis don’t you love me?

hey, don’t you see that I’m trying to please thee?

And she’s the best girl to me and I like her truly, just don’t see the love I have for her she’s pretty.

She’s a pyt and I can’t help myself to stare, Jennika Youklis I will make you see if I dare.

Pretty is what I would describe her, oh, Jennika won’t even seem to care?

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Lovely Ms. Dianne It’s entirely a secret,

but she’s a girl in this world.

The secret won’t be told,

and the lovely Ms. Dianne is beautiful.

Tell me, Ms. Dianne,

how’s your life been lately?

It’s your world,

so don’t let anyone ruin it.

Just you wait for Ms. Dianne,

you’ll see my visionaries.

Have yourself a good day,

and life will be the same.

There’s a woman,

and her name is Ms. Dianne.

The lovely Ms. Dianne,

and she’s the best that ever lived.

Tell me, Ms. Dianne,

don’t you see the future?

Haven’t you visioned before?

and there’s a husband coming.

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You’ve been a wanderer,

and the type who is adventurous.

The world revolves around you,

and thus the day is yours for sure.

How can’t you see my visionaries?

Ms. Dianne, you’re a pretty gal.

I want you to see my visions,

even if that means you don’t care.

C’mon lovely Ms. Dianne,

don’t you see my future?

You’ve been acting a bit strange, so I won’t pretend you’re stable.

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You’re So Beautiful Haven’t you’ve seen this beauty before?

you’ve been wondering what life’s like.

never mind your crazy world I give it a score because you’re so beautiful I’m being polite.

Hey, girl hey girl,

now, don’t you frown?

you mean the world

they turn your frown upside down.

Because…

I say you’re so beautiful.

no there are no refunds,

but you’ve become so magical.

I want you in my life girl,

you’ve been so unhappy.

now, why don’t you come here girl?

so I can make you so happy.

Why don’t you just c’mon a little closer, I’m saying you’re so beautiful.

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so please take your time girl.

I’ve seen you down and hurting lately, why can’t you be yourself again?

no please no put down that knife, please.

don’t commit suicide, my friend.

You’re so beautiful to me,

and I wanna see you alive.

you’ve made me unhappy,

seeing you taking your life.

Well, my friend,

you’ve made it so clear.

you’re unhappy and so sad,

looks like the pain isn’t unclear.

So don’t slip off that chair hanging, baby girl why don’t you stay alive?

you’re ten feet off the ground choking and don’t you care about your life?

So you’ve taken your life suddenly, but I say you’re so beautiful.

so why are you so unhappy lately?

those tears running down I see the facial.

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Here I Go Again

Here I go again until the world stops, but I look to the Heavens wondering.

there are many worries as I attract cops, as soon as I look away I am descending.

Here I go again until the world is broken, haven’t we’ve been there before?

there’s always happy smiley children, but I can’t go and sleep on the cold floor.

Here I go again one step at a time, she’s misleading to me when I speak.

I can’t stop and listen to her whine, because I say whining is for the weak.

Here I go again the world is overprotective, while I strongly disagree with Mother Earth.

she’s great and I can’t deceive

because she’s never reminded of birth.

Here I go again when I’ve stopped in disbelief, once there was a guy who strongly wished for death.

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but sadly he worsened and was a jewelry thief, so when he stole 10k diamonds there wasn’t any left.

Here I go again,

here I seem to disappear.

I can’t stop and pretend,

because I’m not really seeing her.

Here I go again when will I seem to die?

here I can’t seem to wish for eternal peace.

there’s just too many people that commit suicide, whenever I see them I can’t look for the Heavenly place.

Here I go again where I’ve seemed to rest when I’ve deserved everything I’ve got.

here I can say I’ve done too many things but trust, look I’m not here to say I’ve seen God.

Here I go again,

I’m not the same.

I’ve seen my end,

no this is not a game.

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As I Welcome the Devil into My Life Welcome Devil, it seems like we meet again,

“Tisk,” said the Devil with a deep voice.

you’re the red-blooded hell demon, as you look at me with no fucking choice.

You’ve been a living hell since we’ve met Devil, and I can’t seem to care less about you.

“Well well well,” said the Devil out of despiteful, and you’re such a fucking disgraceful fool too!

As I welcome the Devil into my life, he seems to be angered at me.

the Devil seems to care less out of despite, and he couldn’t even stare carelessly.

I said “You are endangering my life truly,”

and the Devil replied, “Oh my dear child, you aren’t endangered you’re mere sadly, and I couldn’t seem to let you go away awhile.”

“Well well” I replied with such disgrace, as I tried walking away from the Devil.

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his fiery eyes left me out of my place, and he wanted me to be very suicidal.

But I couldn’t be suicidal wherefore it wouldn’t work because this Devil is possessive.

worst of all his lack of deceitfulness he’s obscured, wherefore he is outraging and explosive.

I bid the Devil a farewell as I walked away, but he stared at me with fiery eyes like a stalker.

as he watched me leave he bid me a goodbye before he wondered why I was leaving him out of anger.

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Wondering When I’ll Ever Love You Again

Well, my friend,

your lack is disturbing.

now, don’t you misapprehend,

we all see you are perturbing.

You dearly need me,

but it’s saddening you.

well, you’re quite bitchy,

and you’ve been possessed like voodoo.

And if I see you again it’ll be too late, because you’ve to seem like a bloody mess.

it seems like you’re quite angered such a berate, I cause you to seem like I’m mistreating you like a duress.

But I’m wondering just one thing in my life, it’s when I’ll ever love you again.

but you’re sadly mistaken and deprive, cheers to your miseries you’re against.

Sadly, my friend, you’re sadly mistaken, and I won’t keep you company anymore.

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looks like you’ve been committed with remorse.

You’re such a fucking drag,

and you are sad like eyes are scorched.

but your boyfriend has been scrag, since you’ve married me I’ll have you divorced.

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The Bully

I am punched from the rear side of my back, he’s just too strong for me to handle alone.

his strength is surely punching it’s packed, the Bully his devilish ways are not of his own.

His wickedness is truly demonic,

as I can’t bear to even look at him.

the Bully his furies are like a bomb, atomic, he picks on a young small boy calling him a shrimp.

The Bully won’t you leave us alone and go?

you’re truly a bully and I don’t like this at all.

his name isn’t a worry to me I can’t even show, the Bully his devilish ways makes him brawl.

Can’t you see that you’re disrespectful to us Bully?

and the pain you’ve inflicted is truly powerful.

and you’ve made everyone run from you fearfully, my golly me, oh my you Bully has made us regretful.

But the Bully has a weakened side of his bad ways, the Bully has a soft spot and he’s not purely evil.

his weaker side will have you all truly amazed, the Bully was bullied himself and was called an imbecile.

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Tearing Me Apart You’re tearing me apart limb from limb and sadly I can’t begin to pray aloud you’re weakening me as I am

so you don’t appreciate me I’m not allowed The dearest pal of my own creation you are my mistake

I must have you in the destruction for it is you I got to take

You’ve been nothing to me

and sadly I must go

you’re trouble and not free

I thought I’d let you know

This is saddening to my eyes

no matter how hard it is killing me I can’t seem to go on with my life and you’ve been such a nice guy

It’s been weird for me to see you you aren’t such a good person

I’ve been awoken and it’s so true but sadly I must go and be imprisoned 312

TEARING ME APART

Well you can’t seem to be free

and you’ve been tearing me apart

you friend isn’t too nice to me

and sadly I’ve been stabbed in the heart 313

Accepting Me

We all should’ve known about the past I hold inside me I’m weakening when you should’ve known I’m poor there’s nobody to call my own friends nor family because I can’t be a believer

This so-called story of my life

I can’t seem to loosen up

my stomach is in knots I carry a knife because she needs me to shut up

She’s been a real enemy lately

and I can’t believe she won’t accept who I am well I want her to be accepting me even though my misactions are mistaken Haven’t we’ve been there before?

when we expect to hear from others well I fell face down on my floor and nobody fucking gives a fuck if he or she cares Let’s not be hesitant, shall we?

and there’s a blur in my past self 314

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I’ve been so dearly lately

and I carry that bloodstained knife You’ve been my misery and woe

I can’t go on with my imprisonment she’s not perfect either that’s a no so she laughs at me like it’s amusement You’ve been a fucking whore

and a fucking skank too

oh well then this I swore

I’ve got displeasing memories of you Welcome to my eternal hell

and you can’t even look at me

what the fuck bitch? Oh well

you’ve been motherfucking slutty

Well as I end with a final warning and you’ve been not accepting me

this story must go off with its ending as I lay face down on the floor in misery 315

Hopefully, You’ll Find Someone to Love You

Hopefully, you’ll find to love you, my dear friend and there’s nobody that won’t love you ridiculously you’ve been a good person to and that’s no pretend haven’t you met me before you ever knew me?

I’ve been waiting for you all my life it so maybe and you’ve let me down with such a disgracefulness please, baby won’t you come home to me if I let you be free without regretfulness?

Baby, please don’t argue

I am not here to fight

I’m spending time with you

even if you are in fright

You’ve been under such stress

and I can’t seem to calm you down my life isn’t around your messiness and for this, I’m giving you a frown Wherever your life takes you

I’ll be there with a smile on my face please don’t make me leave too

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HOPEFULLY, YOU’LL FIND SOMEONE TO LOVE YOU

ooh, girl, I wanna put you in your place Such a fucking mess aren’tcha girl?

and you’ve been living in the destruction of what life meant for you to go and hurl awe what a beautiful girl in her perfection Hopefully, you’ll find someone to love you and that someone will be waiting with roses in hand and a smile on his face mesmerized by it too for it is him to become a perfect guy to withstand But it’s very upsetting that you don’t love me anymore and all I’ve done for you in the past is completely faded it’s been awhile my friend you and I aren’t looking to score because sadly you’ve been completely mistreated So sorry that I must go and leave you be I’m stuck in the past and I must let you go so I’m not here to be such the person so lovely I’ve got to say goodbye and it’s sad to even for you 317

I’ve Cried

Listen to me (as there’s a drumroll in the background) there’s nothing I can’t hear

I can’t trust myself nearly

and I’ve been living in my own fear Hear me now (sounds of gunshots go off) you’re my enemy

fear me as guns blow

and now you’re deadly

I’ve cried aloud to hear you once more and it’s saddening to my eyes

for that, I must go and say goodbye dear (I left to go someplace else)

no matter how worse you’ve do lies You’ve cried when I left you all alone (sounds of people weeping)

and I can’t become the man I have to be I’ve cried and I am a creation of my own you and I have been living in my world so madly I’ve seen you crying on the day I left please tell me how can that be?

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I’VE CRIED

I’m in woe and shock as I shot myself in the chest (there are gunshots blasted)

Oh, dear can’t you see?

Blame me for leaving you so much

I’ve cried when I can’t be here

you’ve seen my weakened side of righteous and I must leave once more (I walked out the door) Asking why haven’t you’ve seemed to care?

and you aren’t the type of person I’ve known it’s scaring me that you don’t have such a fear when I’ve been leaving you at your bedside at home Deary, I need you more than you’ll ever need me and my deep sadness has me thinking suicidal (I try to pick up a knife and slit my throat but couldn’t) I’ve cried at my own misery

because I belong in a casket and you at my funeral Sadly this is the end and I can’t go on anymore and you’re leaving me with no choice but I’ve cried when I’ve seen you like this before please don’t make me listen to this crazed voice (I took my life after I had no choice but to do it) 319

Without a Girl

Here I am stuck without a girl

and she doesn’t love me anymore

she’s been delightful

and I am ashamed of being her lover I’ve been missing too much lately and this bitter coldness I hold within myself is making me regret myself too suddenly and nobody is gonna care about my life Hmm let me say this once

“I’m a poor boy from a poor family.”

I’m without a girl without a chance and she’ll never ever even date me

“Let’s become friends instead”

she said as shook her head no to my love

“Oh shit this isn’t all in my head because I’ve got nothing to stay above”

But we couldn’t date each other

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oh why bother?

and I’ve got knots in my stomach

“So we’re definitely friends right?”

I asked with such disgrace

“We’re friends instead I don’t wanna fight”

she answered with a bitter taste

“We’ve been good at dating too well”

she said to me as she looked the other way

“Well well then I can’t even begin to tell”

I replied as I had nothing other to say Well this girl and I have been together but I’m stuck without a girl to hold upon we’ve known each other…

well, I don’t want to bore you going on and on Sadly this girl took another chance with a guy she’d rather be with him than with me at all this guy was muscular and beefy oh how hard he tried well then this is goodbye, my lover, as I’m without a girl 321

My Superhero

As I looked at the skylight in the distance I saw the figure of a man with superpowers his name is Falconite and he’s the resistance oh he’s my superhero, I’m jealous of his powers Underneath his exterior withheld a strong man a brave, kindhearted and a man with such handsomeness he’s been a superhero of mine since I was once nine when I’ve read about him in the newspaper of awesomeness Falconite a truly powerful kind of guy and he’s a superhero that’s tough-hearted his roughness is his gloriousness how hard to try and he’s been with me since I had to be deported Oh my superhero is strong

my superhero is worth it

his superpowers couldn’t do any wrong wherefore he’s superbly united

Falconite is truly glorious

his powers couldn’t harm anyone

but someone messed with his superpowers making him fight the good men

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His powers aren’t of his own

and Falconite wasn’t good

he’s been never himself he’s ever known making him flee and become ruined Oh, where’s my superhero?

how can’t he fight the bad?

please come back, my hero

if you don’t everyone, they will be sad As he flew away from his town

he wondered who messed with him

the person is pure evil and he’s won making Falconite feel like he’s weakened Please Falconite we really need you wherefore bad has overtaken the good Without him, I don’t have my superhero and I wouldn’t understand who’s bad Without a superhero to protect me I am vulnerable to the bad who he’s been fighting and my superhero won’t be defeated that easily Because every fable has a good ending The guy who messed with Falconite was nicknamed “The Menace”

this guy wasn’t right

and I didn’t appreciate his appearance There was an antidote to fix my superhero and to get it I had to walk a fairly poor land wherefore I had to do it for my favorite hero before the evildoing gets out of hand 323

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The land wasn’t too far from where I was and I got the antidote very quickly and then Falconite was stronger because his goodness was back to him like a recovery So The Menace was put to an end

and my superhero was back to fighting the bad wherefore his powers were restored again and his fable is back to normal and that was the end 324

Dear Mommy

Dear Mommy, I am writing you this letter hoping that someday you’ll get it and read I am dying and on the edge of a serial killer and I believe he’ll kill me before it’ll be said Please Mommy I really need you to rescue me but I hope you’ll get this letter and I love you so you’re my only hope I need an Obi-Wan Kenobi hehe, that’s just a little Star Wars joke for you Mommy, you’re my superhero if I’m saved by you and please don’t hesitate to put this killer in jail because I’m only seven and kidnapped by who?

a name that I won’t matter because I’ll be his kill Perdy, please Mommy I need you as my only hope and my daddy is nowhere to be seen in the picture Mommy I really need you so desperately it’s not a joke and I’ll be dead before I reach eight or worse even older Due to this guy’s lack of killing little children like me, he’s not the type of serial killer who kills cereal and milk 325

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I am still alive and I am not going down that too easily well I am not here to poke fun and laugh at this silly joke Please, Mommy, I am desperately needing a Star Wars Jedi and that’s not me joking seriously I am in love with Star Wars but I really truly need my mommy

because this serial killer loves to make us see the scars C’mon with the seriousness already what’s up with this guy?

cruelly I am nearest to my fate and I am about to die tonight he’s not the serial killer because he’s wearing a dirty disguise I may be seven-years-old and I was saved by this guy’s fight And now that was the end of this story about my kidnapping I was saved by the guy but who was he?

well he turned out to be my daddy and I wasn’t all that starving now that I was saved I could live my life peacefully 326

Baby Please (Can You Feel My Pain?) I’m stuck here on repeat

while my baby is enjoying herself can you feel my pain baby?

all I need in life is you baby girl You’ve been saddening to my eyes

oh baby, please

can you feel my pain girl?

overdosages of pain meds

You’re the one baby, please

I need you more than life itself

pardon me, missy

but aren’t you looking for another chance?

Easily I get distracted

but I can’t get you off my mind

I’ll be the man I used to be

when you expect me to do it

Pardon my excuses baby

but I really am a nobody without ya 327

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I can’t seem to get over you

because it’s saddening to my eyes Preciousness

Can’t I be without thee?

just can’t stay here

and sit there pouting?

Suddenly she has committed suicide and I’m here at her funeral crying baby please can you feel my pain?

over and over she is my darling oh boy Thus a young sweetheart

and nobody can treat her badly

but baby, please

can you feel my pain?

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Ghetto’s Valley

She likes it when she gets wasted all night long but there’s a flaw in her pretty little schemes pretty sweetheart, you’re in Ghetto’s Valley and there’s no such thing as an escape It’s nothing to be scared about

the gangsters in this valley aren’t gonna getcha but I forewarn you all to watch your backs because of the other gangsters in this valley will be deadly The pretty young thing she really is but sadly her schemes are gonna fail to forbid herself to be forewarned but she’s not the smartest

Well, then you should be scared out of your pants but don’t schemes be such a dramatical thing?

open your mouths and let the moths fly in so you’re being eaten alive from the inside out But don’t be too scared

while the moths fly into your esophagus 329

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well you aren’t the brightest then so don’t be grossed out by the moths In Ghetto’s Valley, the weird gets even weirder while you should be afraid of anything it involves such a drama queen, aren’t you?

and you must be going insane from creepy insanity Well, pretty thing

what do you think of Ghetto’s Valley?

you must be going bonkers then

while the valley’s gangsters kill you nearly to your death You all should be afraid of Ghetto’s Valley because of these creeps in there will getcha so don’t trust this truth for real because it’s only just a poetical story 330

Beautiful to Me

She’s beautiful to me

no matter what you’ll say about her there’s nobody that will say it

but to me, she is too beautiful

So don’t stop thinking of her

and the way she really is in life I can’t get her off my mind

and it’s driving me crazy

Over the years she and I met

on the day I had her to myself

and she doesn’t want me troubled

because of her, I am thrown out

I am not the type of person

who will let this happen to me

but I am not going to argue

but to her, I am just a weakling

Looks can be deceiving to her

and the way she shines in the light ooh ah she is the one for me

and I am the one for her for life 331

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Am I just too crazy to say I love her?

but am I just insane for our true love?

looking for our time in life

where we can live happily ever after She is the one for me

and I’m the one for her

It’s driving me to the brink of insane but its well worth it

But my friends this is the end

she is beautiful to me all the time and I can’t seem to love her

it’s up to her to see my truest self 332

Ephraim Gladstone Once there was a boy of five years of age he lived with his parents at a house on top of a hill never would he dare break his parent’s rules for it would be such a very harsh punishment He was forewarned by the other kid’s parents but it wasn’t the pain inflicted by the mean kids it was the problems that involved in his young life his name was Ephraim and he lived on top of a hill It was troubling for Ephraim and his family forewarning them to never return to their house that’s no way to scare them because it was insane because they didn’t listen to their neighbors Well welcome to his worst nightmare then and to speak of it was troubling to himself by the way, he was saddened by the troubles he wanted the troubles to go away and never return Over and over and over again was his nightmares displeasing to him and his family wasn’t the reason 333

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you won’t like the way it happened at the house but why wouldn’t they just move you might ask?

They didn’t want to move out of their house but they weren’t too worried it wasn’t far worse never should they return to their place of solitude displeased by their lack of scariness and troubles 334

About Her Smile (Makes Me Feel Good)

There’s just something about her smile and the way she walks all about her own way haven’t you seen it before?

and she’s the perfect girl for anyone She makes me feel good all the time sometimes when I am down she’s my sunshine and I can’t seem to wrap myself around her beauty say pretty girl don’t you wanna chill?

I can’t seem to be a beggar nor a chooser but she’s the one for me I can just feel it just like an angel and her smile is gleaming I’m truly blessed when I get to see her smile She definitely makes me feel good when I see her and that smile oh Lord Ooh la la she’s the perfect girl for me always got you girl on my mind all day How can’t you seem to be amazed?

I’m tripping head-over-heels when she smiles pleasing to me and she makes me feel good 335

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I just wanna marry her when I see her so beautifully Hey, girl don’t you understand me at all?

when I ain’t asleep and you’re awake at night oh boy she’s the perfect kinda girl for anybody whenever I can’t sleep and I become so restless It’s up to her if she wants me at all because I can’t stay asleep when I’m thinking of her there’s something about her smile whenever she shines with such a pure beauty I can’t seem to wrap my head around her and she can’t seem to notice that I’m in love she’s the perfect kinda girl for me oh well then I guess there are other fishes in the sea 336

Leaving Me Again It’s been so unpredictable when I see her but there’s nobody that’ll believe me you’ve been such a disbeliever

whenever you’re here it’s pure insanity Now she’s such a bother to me

but she’s stuck leaving me again

and I can’t get her to shew away

I’m not going to sit here my friend You’ve been such a darling lately displeased with her and she’s a hater and I can’t be with you such pretty now you’ve been missing me so whatever But you’re stuck with me like glue and I am sorry to say this is the end of course, you need me more than I do Now you’re an enemy it’s not like I pretend Such a boredom you’ve been with me and you’re so very sick and so very tired 337

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looks like I need this to become a finale it’s becoming stressful and I’m getting so fired So whatever I don’t want you to go it’s been rough lately and I’m disrespected wherever you land I just want you to know that you’re leaving the guy you’ve expected 338

Please Come Back Home (I’m Stuck Here Loving You)

It seems like I’m not affectionate Straight off liquor and champagne Baby, I need you back home safely Please I need you here loving me

I’m stuck here loving you

And nothing will please it too

No reason why you left me alone?

Hey I’m a guy and I need you home Please, why can’t I make you see?

Nobody’s perfect that’s how it has to be I’m stuck on my knees and begging What’s with the cruelty in messaging?

Happiness turns to straight sadness And I’ll never seem to find gladness It’s like a broken picture on the ground Fires starting up as you’re nowhere to be found We are meant to be baby please come back home Nothing will please your ego and I beg you some 339

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You’re my first thing in the morning And I can’t help but keep on singing Just can’t seem to please you sometimes And you treat me like I’m bad at times Goodness gracious you’re my heavenly angel But it seems like I’m beating you up like pure evil Please come back home baby I need you But I’m stuck here loving you trust me I do Maybe we’ve started off as bad people at times But I ain’t that type of person who does schemes If we’re nothing I’ll be dead off the ground And I ain’t messing around spread it town to town I ain’t gonna lie right to your beautiful face angel And I’m never going to become your dark devil Haven’t we been throughout our ups and downs?

The answer is yes and I’ve hung myself off the grounds So thank you very much, baby, you’ve killed me And it’s approximately quarter to three So thank you very much, baby, you’ve killed me 340

Celebrating

What an accomplishment I should be celebrating let it be known in history that this is my 300th poem I am so thankful for the fans that stuck with me praise God that I’ve accomplished the goal of my 300th I am so proud of myself for the accomplishment to the fans who stuck with me when I decided to quit I’m blessed by you as my fans now I am celebrating how can’t I’ve done it without any of my fans?

Thankfully I am able to push onward and celebrate over the course of my life from 2015 to the current day I am blessed by Jesus and God to accomplish my 300th poem thanks to all of you that I had when I post my poetry online I am celebrating and being thankful for you guys no matter how hard it is to come up with a title I’ve always pushed through and had my storylines for now, I’ve done it in my history I’ve made my 300th poem I am glorifying you guys as my dedicated poetry fans thanks to you all I’ve made such a glorious history 341

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whenever I look back at this poem I will be celebrating how can’t I have done this with you all?

So thank you all very much I have made historic times this isn’t just a story nor a poem it is me just thank you all for now, I am so blessed and so dedicated to moving onward and become the world’s best poet that ever have had lived From now on I will be reaching the 400th poem goal so don’t wait on reading more and more of my poems I am so thankful to everyone who will read all of these however, I will be looking forward to celebrating my 400th 342

Looks Can Be Deceiving Ooh the way she looks at me with such disgrace and I can’t believe her when she deceives me I’m not the type of person who will lose the race while my girl is leaving me for another guy It’s been too much while she looks like she’s leaving her sense of style and lack of taste ugh! her looks can be deceiving

and I can’t believe in her it’s such a disgrace I couldn’t believe her

and the way she isn’t

I’m not a disbeliever

but I’m not proud of it

Pleasing her sense of style

to going around swinging

and I’m making it worthwhile

she’s what I’m believing

Her looks can be deceiving

while she talks all that trash

I am so not gonna be disbelieving while I am not gonna thrash

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The younger the better I guess

pretty girls all around me

I better hit ‘em up as my guest

that’s how its gonna be

Wow I am without my woman

and the way she’s leaving me alone I can’t believe her I need to move on and become the man I have to be on my own I’m blessed by God to be alive on Earth so I can’t believe her when she lies of course, she’s been this way since birth no matter how hard she tries

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Dreamlandia 4: Welcome to Your Worst Nightmare

You must be daydreaming

because you should be sleeping

welcome back to Dreamlandia

and the dreams will get to ya

Dreamlandia will leave you scarred and thrashed about until you’re scared Sooner or later it’ll get you screaming because you should be so frightening Clearly, it is your fate

as you’re far too late

welcome to your worst nightmare

while Dreamlandia will give a scare How can’t you believe in it?

my word it is scary to dream of it Dreamlandia will scar you alive

and there’s nowhere to hide

Welcome to the land of disbelieving where it’ll scare you a bit to be frightening so don’t dream of your worst nightmares 345

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because of Dreamlandia kills all who dares Don’t welcome yourself to it believe me it’ll leave you scarred and so very bloody Dreamlandia is where the children all die what don’t you believe me? I don’t even lie So sit back on the couch and snooze because the blood you have will ooze just listen to what I’m saying about this because you aren’t going to believe as it is Cautiously wait for the nightmares it’ll have you aren’t going to believe in what it won’t save because Dreamlandia is a ghoulish town of fright so believe me when you sleep snuggly in the night I want you all to be afraid of such a thing because there’s a lot at stake at terrorizing so don’t wait for Dreamlandia to kill anyone those left alive are the luckiest it has known No one should be alive when it isn’t through although Dreamlandia won’t even kill you because the land won’t be afraid of anybody so sleep if you dare and pray it won’t be deadly So this isn’t the end of Dreamlandia’s stories and those who are afraid of it shouldn’t worries because the land of death won’t be out to get you my word what has Dreamlandia gotten itself into?

Please don’t worry about this land of all deathbed there’s no such thing as Dreamlandia it’s all pretend you won’t be afraid of it too long because it’s not real 346

DREAMLANDIA 4: WELCOME TO YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE

so you aren’t going to be too afraid to hurl your meal?

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Dreamlandia 5: It’s Only Just a Dream After all, you’re in the dream of your lives wherefore Dreamlandia has nowhere to hide but it’s only just a dream and you’re afraid so be scared of it and it’ll leave you scarred Please don’t let Dreamlandia fool you anyway because it’s never going to let you walk away I won’t lie to you all Dreamlandia isn’t that scary pursue your dreams and follow are of your starry Dreamlandia is just a dream after all so don’t let Dreamlandia be such a fool I am not scaring you as I am warning you just look at your dreams and it’ll lead too Of course, it’s going to be scary to anybody I won’t let it get you or I won’t let it be scary troubling to you enough and it’s Dreamlandia so won’t you just see that its amazing to ya?

Haven’t you dreamed before?

you slept in the bed or the floor I can’t let it fool you all in reality because you’re daydreaming really 348

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Dreamlandia isn’t all that hoopla are you getting too worried aren’t ya?

let’s not be afraid of it at any costs I don’t want your stomach in knots Seems like you aren’t too afraid of it lately I can’t seem to scare you I guess it’s not too scary so let’s not seem to care about this it’s pathetic Lord have mercy on me I don’t seem to regret it Am I not scaring you am I or isn’t just not pretend?

looks like Dreamlandia isn’t doing as it should tend please don’t be afraid of it it’ll never be that scary so don’t trouble yourselves and pretend it’s in reality What a pathetic excuse for the lack of scaring because Dreamlandia isn’t for the ones believing so don’t worry yourselves and it’s only just a dream oh well whatever then Dreamlandia isn’t what it may seem Welcome yourselves to your dreams or nightmares because you’ve been disbelieving it what it’ll scares never should you be too afraid of what it may do over the course of Dreamlandia, it’s failed too many so We all know that Dreamlandia is just pretend right?

so now you know that it’s not real so sleep well tonight never should we be too afraid to know about its failure do yourselves all a favor and don’t let it get any scarier Let’s not seem to let it be nothing but a failed attempt so I am never saying Dreamlandia isn’t what as it should please don’t say that it scared you because that’s pathetic just don’t seem to care and you won’t even to worry about it 349

Quincy Revers

Let’s dive deep down into the depths of this boy’s story while he was sleeping in the night while laying in his bed this boy was none other than Quincy Revers a boy of purity his mom and dad wanted him to become a worker in their shed Welcome to all who wants to know the story of Quincy a boy none other than eleven years of age and he’s special every living person in this boy’s life wanted him so plenty so they wanted him because the family wanted a commercial Because of the family’s business and the hot summer day it was a bit too hot and uncomfortable to work along the shed as Quincy wanted a drink to cool off instead he walked away he wasn’t allowed to work off the hot air he went to bed instead Quincy wasn’t going to work unless the shed had fans he wanted to be cooled off and not die of heat stroke so the family bought fans and the shed was cool as the oceans that left the family cooled off and a tad bit too broke All day they worked while they were broke and cooled off there weren’t any breaks between now and until it was lunch 350

QUINCY REVERS

welcome to Quincy Revers’ life while they had worked enough bringing to a point of exhaustion and the heat was barely much The family worked until the brink of collapsing and the heat was unbearable as the summer tends to be working in the family was a tad bit embarrassing for Quincy needed to get out of there and play freely Let’s not forget about our friend Quincy as he worked during the hot summer days, he wanted to play with the kids but his family didn’t want that he thought it was berserk so the day comes to an end, Quincy has learned consequences 351

Sometimes This Is How I Feel When I’m going from happy to sad sometimes I feel like I’m under pressure

but this is sometimes how I feel at times but will I ever find my pleasure?

Sometimes I feel brokenhearted whenever I feel sad but I won’t be ashamed of what sometimes I do feel my world isn’t what it used to be and I am disrespected how can’t you feel this way like I do sometimes it is real This is how I feel at certain times of my sad eternity but will I ever be glad again whenever I am feeling down?

I have to become a beggar and a sinner for the worse of me and I’ve got nothing to be ashamed of when I am around But sometimes this is how I feel but I don’t like it during my sad life, I feel like committing to the rope becoming unaware of how I feel like a piece of shit but will I ever find God’s forgiveness of what I hope?

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Needed You There (When It Hurts the Most)

I’m still waiting

I’m still debating

I’m still regretting

I’m still forgetting

You’ve been such a sweetie

I’ve seen you fading away

please don’t leave me

I needed you so very dearly

When it hurts the most

I regret the pain I’ve dished out pleasing you isn’t my regret

oh dear I need you it’s a must

There’s no such thing as the past whenever I needed her it never last my baby girl is leaving in the dust that’s what I’m dreading the most I needed you there for me

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my baby girl is leaving at three

I’ve been regretting her misery

it upsets me that she’s going away I am living with such a regret

though when it hurts the most

I can’t take back what we’ve fought just like her daddy so rough to get When I needed you there dearly

I have been upsetting her lately

so she’s leaving tonight you see?

I can’t get her back she’s my baby Pleasing her was the most fun

and it’s sad to see her on the run when I’m in pain I’ve been down

she’s leaving me it has to be done I needed you there baby so much

it’s never like she’s been in a rush my words they have to be hushed

like my pain is coming out like a gush Haven’t you missed me like I do you?

please don’t leave me what did I do?

sadly we have got to be split into two my baby is gone now it cannot be true 354

Dreamlandia 6: Finally Your Nightmares Are Over

As Dreamlandia comes to an end now it’s over well you can wake now that it is not such a terror there’s no such thing as Dreamlandia it’s all fake so don’t take this story seriously it’s not your fate It won’t drive you insane will it because it’s not real don’t be afraid of Dreamlandia it’s not like you feel so why don’t you just pretend that it won’t haunt you?

and wouldn’t you be afraid to even if this story isn’t true?

Is it not like this is your fate or is it really?

because Dreamlandia will leave all bloody so I am warning you that it is really out there please believe me oh see what you will dare My world of Dreamlandia isn’t going insane because it’s never looking so very often plain so don’t treat this with such disrespectfully because like I’ve said before it’ll leave all deadly Dreamlandia is a scary place to be at night won’t you believe me even if it’s not a fright?

such drama it is real and there is not a thing 355

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because Dreamlandia isn’t there for believing Oh Lord, what has it become in such a reality?

so please believe in its reality because it’s deathly never don’t trust in itself because it’s not that true how dare you judge this even if it’s not aimed at you Those who don’t believe in Dreamlandia will perish because it’s eternal hell where it’ll leave all so devilish you aren’t going to believe me when it becomes truth just like those who don’t believe in it while its so rough Please don’t you believe me when I’m telling those of it?

while you don’t, believe me, I can’t say this is so beloved over the course of its life, it has become such a deadly force oh you’ll see it’ll leave all married couples in a saddened divorce

So don’t believe me then and you’ll be the one dead of course, it’s been such a stretched truth of what’s said abort yourselves will you can and leave your homes never to look back at the miseries it even becomes How about the nightmares coming to an end finally?

to those left standing while Dreamlandia couldn’t be so don’t look back at this story it’s so very dramatic and don’t treat it with disrespect and it won’t be tragic While you’re sleeping Dreamlandia will get to you even if you don’t believe in it as we all should so do when you look back at this story as it comes to an end so don’t be harsh about this story and it won’t be sent The message to me is very clear and Dreamlandia is over please don’t be afraid of Dreamlandia it’s so fake than ever 356

DREAMLANDIA 6: FINALLY YOUR NIGHTMARES ARE OVER

Dreamlandia isn’t what it should be as it’s not a true story so please don’t yourselves a favor and pretend it’s not reality 357

Starry Skies

Her love’s like the night sky

so beautiful

all I need to ask is why

are you regretful?

I am never looking back

when she’s such beauty

I ain’t here attack

and become her enemy

Her eyes shine like starry skies

and that smile oh boy

she doesn’t even have to try

it’s just that easy

Of course, I’m in love with her

and she’s the one for me

I am saying I’m so a believer

such as she’s does it easily

I saw her just standing there

while she shines with a gleam

oh I swear

she’s the one for me as it may seem 358

STARRY SKIES

Her smile is like starry skies

pure beauty full of pretty

and that smile is such alike

she’s the one for me really

Starry skies are what’s romantic

and she’s the prettiest

I’ll never seem to forget it

when I’m the one to regret it

The way she walks is perfect

and the way she’s got a chance

I say I’ll never forget her respect while I am forgetting my romance

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Blaming Myself

There I go again

nobody to break even

when I am stuck here

Blaming myself you hear?

I can’t believe in my mistakes

and God won’t save my breaks

I am nothing without her smile

I’m blaming myself for my will

and it’s nothing I can control

she’s perfection and she’s cool

As she’s blaming myself

and I can’t control herself

and it’s becoming bloody

as I’m in my fucking misery

she’s just like her father

oh, why do I even bother?

I can’t control her actions

as she’s got quite attractions

here I go again blaming myself

and I can’t go on with her worth

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BLAMING MYSELF

I can’t be free without warning

and I am the cause of her beating and she can’t go on and I can’t either oh, why do I even try to be with her?

I must go hang myself then

and no I can’t be the one to pretend please, can’t you see my sins, Lord?

I am sinful without your consent Lord over my dead body and I’m the killer no, I am not killing myself for a thriller I was blinded to see her love

she couldn’t see the Lord above

and that’s sinful in the eyes of the Lord now she’s going to hell because of the Lord I am not pretending this isn’t in reality because the Lord will leave you bloody swearing I couldn’t believe it with my eyes and she’s been deceitful with her own lies that’s troubling and sinful to me and God God’s angels won’t be pleased for this she’ll rot 361

Excuses

The way she acted towards me

is bad and I have got to say

that she’s crazy

when she’s near misery

They are just excuses

and she’s the missus

when I can’t kaboom this

she nearly misses

Can’t you see the drugs?

when she’s the one that tucks

officer please don’t do this

so she’s arrested for abuses

She’s nearly too crazy

and she’s treating me abusively

and I can you please forgive me?

I am moving on without you freely I can’t seem to lose her

and I really seem to be the loser 362

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like she’s becoming the abuser

I’m beaten down like she’s the victor Nobody deprives me of this

and I’m tired of her many excuses I’ve seen her become aggressive

and I am not sitting here in forgiveness Nobody tries harder than me

I’m worth all her excuses as she

tries to break away and be free

she’s nobody’s girl it’s desperately Help me Lord I need your grace

I serve your grace Lord its peace over her excuses, it’s troubled late nothing will keep us apart at least I am letting her go it’s sad to see she’s too heartbroken it’s so badly just tough as nails just like her daddy so I can’t see her heart broken in reality 363

Right My Wrongs

As I overlook my past mistakes,

Pleasing I tried to correct my wrongs.

But sadly I was overwhelmed by failure, And you’ve piled on with my defeat.

You haven’t obtained much help lately, And I can’t seem to get unstuck.

You’re the prettiest and my angel, Grasping why I abandoned her alone.

Displeasing memories of her,

I’m not the one to judge.

Never will I overlook my wrongs,

Because she’s the illegal one.

But sadly she’s instantly forgotten, Alongside her father’s father.

She’s not the one to be judged,

When I knew she was ecstatic.

I can’t seem to infuriate her out of my head, And I’m not the one who’s always wrong.

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RIGHT MY WRONGS

But my misery represents joyfulness to her schemes, And I can’t believe she’s forgotten instantly.

Every memory I used to have,

Is gone in a fire that she caused.

My photos are now burnt up,

And she’s so overjoyed I’m depressed.

Straight away it’s my time to right my wrongs, And to say goodbye until the following time.

Right away abandoned her alone, and she’s forgotten, And the memories I’ve had with her are gone.

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With Beauty Like That With beauty like that

You don’t need her

With beauty like that

You can’t see her

She’s a girl that’s pretty

There’s nobody like her

I can’t believe her plenty

But she’s no way a sinner

Reasoning with a killer

To barbecuing in outdoors

She’s no way a disbeliever

But I can’t stay indoors

With beauty like that

You can’t believe her

With beauty like that

I am one hell of a sinner

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We’ve Been Judged ( Just Like the Rest of Them)

You’re such a loser

nobody’s gonna love you

we’ve been judged yes sir

and there’s nothing we gonna do

I’ve been there before

yep I was in your shoes

there’s nobody that’ll care

just don’t commit suicide like fools My world isn’t that perfect

we’ve been judged just like the rest of them your life’s just a wreck

and you just go bonkers go dumb

I am not here to step on bullying just to say there’s nothing to my shame I am a kiddo just like the rest deciding and the decision isn’t coming out the same Well, my friends, there’s just nothing I can do we’ve been judged just like the rest of them you’ve been wronged and you’ve been ridiculed because we’ve been judged and ain’t that a shame?

We all been troubled in our past lives 367

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and it’s just ain’t the same outcomes I’ve seen my good and my bad sides and my decision isn’t what it does I feel slumped Overdoing my part on my shames

pleading with myself just to feel bad in the end well, my friends, life isn’t what it seems and slowly will you put down the knife my friend?

Because you don’t want to commit suicide it’s never a road to take and I’ve been there before c’mon don’t kill yourself your pain should subside you aren’t the one to slit your neck please don’t go there Happily, I see your weaknesses as your strengths you aren’t going to be unhappy for the rest of your life go on now and please can you put down the knives?

somebody won’t be happy if I witnessed your death I will dedicate my life to put you first before anyone else you’ve been judged and it’s never a good thing to witness pleading with you to not slit your throat having a bloody mess we’ve been judged just like the rest of them it’s never gladness 368

Home Isn’t a Home Anymore As I look back at the tortured past That I held within my life

I am unforgiven by God by being devious.

Up there he’s looking down and frowning And God isn’t too pleased with.

The angels who are with him

Look down and I don’t see halos

too many clouds in the sky

And not enough beauty in the world.

Damn life’s too short

And I ain’t been forgiving myself for this But the Lord himself

Isn’t too pleased with the way I act.

I am like “God why don’t you forgive me?”

And he’s like “Damn boy why should I?”

I don’t appreciate my life to know.

That God and the Lord are pleased I say a home isn’t a home anymore And I just can’t explain it all the time.

God is looking at me with a frowny face 369

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And I am looking at him frowning upon me God said, “Jesus won’t forgive your sins for that boy And he’s never dying to prove that to you.”

I am bending down on one knee and asking God.

“I want to be a Christian but I just don’t know how But you’ve forgiven me plenty of times before.”

Sadly the Lord himself won’t be dying any time soon And I am unforgiven for the life I deserved.

“God, please can you see I am a sinner who isn’t Trying to begin a new life sin-free?” I told God God responded back, “You better be a sin-free guy Because we as the ones in Heaven should forgive You for that sin you’ve committed.”

And I said, “What do you mean God?”

He said, “Tsk boy. You’ve killed your baby sister And left her body down by the riverbed to rot.”

I’m like “Damn God. Can’t you let that bullshit go?”

And he said “Aww hell naw!”

God and I weren’t much of in a talking mood since And he’s been frowning upon me for the time being.

“Well then God. You sit there and sulk.” I said to him And he’s like “Your home isn’t a home anymore.”

And I said, “Why is that God?”

He simply replied, “Because you’re a murderer and who shall not be in the home without your baby sister.”

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Those Years You Can’t Get Back Welcome to my world yet again

you’ve been unwelcomed my friend

it’s been such a long time

and you’re sadly wronged the same I can’t believe you anymore

and I ain’t the one looking to score it’s those years you can’t get back and your heart is saddened blood sack Lord don’t let me go back to my ways and please undo my sins back in the days you’ve seen me broken down and crying but what sickened tortured life I’ve been living and it’s never my fault?

sadly you’re not acting like an adult as young as a little child

it’s like stealing from a baby so wild Am I never getting back those days?

and it’s you who are crazy anyways those years you can’t get back

as my memory fades to the black

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and it’s never up to you at all, is it?

it’s you my friend who’s putting me in shit over the course of those years

and I can’t seem to choke back the tears please don’t try me and I am not playing I can’t seem to ruin your days as I’m hardly trying To please I am not here to make Y’all sad for me and you’ve been here for those years so badly I couldn’t take it anymore

and I’m suicidal and a killer

I feel such like a loser

and trouble is not a kidder

looks like I am unbelievable

you’ve never understood me at all pleading with you like saddened heart sack for it is those years, you can’t get back 372

Displeased

Barely look at me then you asshole fuck off with your prevailing attitude if you’re displeased

in that case, it’s precisely the divine madness an active disease I can’t begin instantly making her happy and I am precisely at no proper time at this point to be precisely

it looks fierce as she’s unbelievable and I am not to graciously please her troubles I’m so fucking over her unhappiness and she’s intentionally causing me so much distress I haven’t followed a sufficient clue what it carefully takes and her rare beauty was undoubtedly my past mistakes Displeasing me with her typically looks and sadly I am instantly surrounded by boobs that really isn’t madly beautiful and I say gently they are so plentiful Don’t be unhappy with all my pleads 373

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and I am precisely the motherfucker with social needs indeed, my complex world isn’t such a mess she’s at ease in her red and white polka-dotted dress Displeased by my specific action, in creative common are properly?

well, that’s fucking great when she isn’t graciously pleased with my lasting memories while she’s joyfully celebrating my unspeakable miseries Hearty cheers to that fucking whore and I instantly got more lovely ladies to score such a disrespect for that bitch

oh well, she’s intentionally causing me in stitches Over the necessary course of those successful years I’ve undoubtedly in with her I am in fears while she’s parading my private miseries then it’s enough my bad this in common isn’t memorable victories

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Fearfully Distant As it is you who are crazy deep

in the life, you cannot even keep I ain’t here to keep you anymore

and I am not a guy who’ll care

Looks like it’s instantly an eternal shame to be precisely you and I ain’t at this point to typically bore the possible death phew

I am never above you and never below embrace to eternal hell my dear friend, and it’s at ease a few Effectively, you aren’t at this point to genuinely appreciate me then

and this bitch gimme some hearty bread at likely ten a.m.

oh, we aren’t the same then this mere instant rightly, I can’t deal with being fearfully distant You’ve seemed at ease to be singing like you’re properly tuned and well it’s all sad-like when you justly regard me dude there’s typically nobody to charm me, and it’s terrible too we’re never getting back together with this hoe 375

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What a skanky bitch she is naturally what a skanky whore I’ve seen here with her mutual friends fiercely criticizing me, so I fear

welcome to those being fearfully distant at all times you’re precisely the bitch who I seem instant to sincerely like to use in my rhymes

Pleading with you like I undoubtedly remain a beggar on his kneecaps

proficiently, there isn’t anybody gently slaps a bitch without them cops

innocent pleasure’s rightfully all mine when Y’all are so fearfully distant

welcome to the complex world of severe knocks and I’m instantly chosen king intended

So this fucking story comes to an end and there she is foolish and I’m like “fuck dat bitch” and she doesn’t like it, it’s so traumatic

looks like the bitch indeed likes to sleep with some scumbag and who allegedly has sex with her and many babies come right after that

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Only You’ve Seen Me Cry Well, my friend, I’ve seemed to be crying and you’ve seen me faced with my defying I couldn’t seem to reach out to your hand while I’m crying you don’t see me pretend Awfulness and sadness are what I feel and the painfulness is just too real there’s nobody who’ll love me today and tomorrow seems just too far away Baby please me with your happiness because I’m troubled and so distressed well it seems like you don’t love me then and nobody cares that I’m crying in the den These long days it seems like you don’t care and the advice I’ve been given is death what I swore she’s never there to comfort me I feel desperate welcoming her other friend to laugh I’m in discomfort That’s no way to treat your best friend like he’s a scumbag and hanging then where there’s nobody to seem to care I am distressed and hung off the floor 377

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

Looks like you don’t care if I ever die when do I see your friends laughing why?

well it’s you that’s only you’ve seen me cry a long while has rolled by I want to go die 378

If Life Was Meant to Be This Way If life was meant to be this way

we all had a chance to become the president so what? I have to swear to say

that I’d be the one to represent

You’ve seen me at my bitter end

and I’m breaking down and crying

over my death will be a gift to be sent where nobody will see me dying

While I’ve seen you at your worst and broken down and cried a lot

you’ve been my true friend it hurts when I see you whining I try to forget Weaknesses become a distress

when there are knives involved

such a bloody mess

and there’s no mystery solved

If life was meant to be this way

we all had a chance to become billionaires while our “women” are home taking care of babies and cooking and cleaning to see snobby people who won’t care 379

THE THINGS WE DON’T UNDERSTAND

What a disgraceful taste left in our mouths and this “life” isn’t what I seem to call it watch out for flying cars in our futures because technology is becoming more and more advanced We all owe our lives to our sacrificing parents breaking their backs to give their offspring a good life raising them from children to well-mannered adults while they still strive to give us a good life day to the night If life was meant to be this way

we all had a chance to say what we wanted to forget what we’ve learned in school each day and to become a nobody who’s becoming zombified 380

Pull the Trigger (While You Watched Me Die)

Attention deficit isn’t what it seems to be and I’ve seen you happy to watch me die go on then pull the trigger and I’ll be bloody so you can be satisfied as you watch me cry Such a fucking disgrace and a nuisance you’ve seen me at my worst and I’m broken down until I bled out you’ve been disrespected in my presence and I can’t become a man that’ll see his children grown What the fuck ever dude

you’re a criminal who’s committing crimes and I just witnessed your gratitude in seeing me bled out several times I am never to become a man, am I?

well I’m used to seeing you happy then we’ve become enemies in your eyes and I shout, beg and plead to live again Just don’t want me to be satisfied wherefore it is you who is the enemy pleasing yourself as I beg mercified 381

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and there’s Heaven’s Gates for me Where’s the life I wanted anyway?

and I’m crying just to be alive this time where you pull the trigger and blast away and wherefore it’s while you watched me die You’ve watched me dying as I bled out and I am never to be found again

there are too many bullets lodged in my throat and I’m dead by the clock struck ten Pleading and begging won’t do my mercy as I look up into the Heavens as I’m bleeding you’ve been a real asshole when I’m needy oh well then pull the trigger so you can watch me dying The life I used to have is gone

and now I’m at Heaven’s Gates with God and the angels wherefore the person who killed me all along turned out to be a person who’s mentally unstable 382

My Superhero 2: Falconite vs.

Thunderwave

There’s some trouble for Falconite yet again and this time the city is under attack by the Thuderwave wherefore Falconite was a man of superpowers when he sought out to defeat the Thunderwave if it meant his grave Wherefore the Thunderwave use his electric powers for evil and Falconite wanted this powers to be extinguished goodly enough Falconite had some sort of plan to defeat the evil

because it might cause him his life and he won’t be defeated Thunderwave wanted to terrorize my city and the people in it he wanted them to suffer but Falconite wanted Thunderwave defeated badly so it might cause the city to be electrocuted by thunder The power of Thunderwave could drain electricity but Falconite wasn’t going to give up on Thunderwave because this power wasn’t too powerful thankfully so it meant that Falconite could put evil away and save We all know my superhero Falconite from last time a man like no other with his goodness and handsomeness 383

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welcome to the continuing story of my hero Falconite so he could defeat the crime and keep my city from evilness Well Falconite takes on Thunderwave and that’s part two the story of Falconite continues to develop into its story so sit back and relax because this superhero story won’t bore you

it’s quite thrilling and its ending to this story will go down in history

Falconite sought to defeat Thunderwave at any or all costs no matter what it took to defeat him before it’ll be too late Thunderwave wasn’t a good villain he was quite the poorest so Falconite took this weakness to his advantage of Thunderwave

the city I was in was being drained of its electricity quickly and Falconite had to enact quickly before the city was drained so Falconite wasn’t going to become a bad superhero practically

therefore he went to Thunderwave then stops him from being insane

My city was under attack by Thunderwave and this had to be stopped

thus this powerful superhero Falconite wanted to save my city’s power

because of Thunderwave’s draining, it was becoming clear to be robbed

so Falconite wanted some butt kicked and he and Thunderwave fought over

this was pleasing to Thunderwave’s eyes when Falconite tried fighting him

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with the electric powers of Thunderwave, it was a weakness for Falconite

therefore Thunderwave had the advantage over Falconite since this time

and Falconite had fought with all of his strength but gave up a good fight

But Falconite thought of a better plan to defeat Thunderwave’s evilness

so there was a battle to the death for Falconite and he wasn’t going down

pleasuring himself Thunderwave’s powers weren’t to his own advantages

so Falconite became powerful and resisted Thunderwave’s electricity drain

this city became such an electric drain since Thunderwave took down power

just like that, it was such a snap and Falconite had taken down Thunderwave

but it cost Falconite his life and he had to become a superhero to die with honor

and Falconite’s funeral was arranged and Thunderwave was finally in his grave

Sadly Falconite’s honor will be forever in my heart and memory since this day

and I’m sad and crying over my superhero had to die with such a great honor

so I won’t be that upset because there’ll be a new superhero to save my city

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greatness and self-power

please don’t be sad by Falconite’s death because he’ll be in our hearts and memories

he’s been a superhero to defend my city with such a greatness and heroism

so I won’t be forgetting about Falconite as he’s in two of my poetical stories

please don’t you worry about Falconite he’s in a better place now in heaven

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Wrapped Up (Send Me Far Away) They said once that they hated me but I can’t believe in their lies I am not here to please you

and you can’t trust me when I am drunk It’s sadder than taking candy from a baby and looking at it a different angle subsides there’s just too many troubled youths I try to not think about the body in my trunk Just don’t react to what’s in the past I am not here to please you distressfully and they say I can’t live in Pittsburgh but I get wrapped up and sent for the airport Please send me far away I can’t relax I never seem to get why you laughed at the misery I am not here to please you and it’s getting rough so please wrap me up and send me and abort There’s abortion in this lady’s future and her baby isn’t being in her life overdosages of meds in her system it’s getting very bloody and gruesome 387

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Please get me away from here

and there’s nothing to getcha right we’re from two different planets alien scum where’s the spaceship that you came from?

Purposely you laughed at my miseries so please get me wrapped up and send me far away overdoing my side of choking her out we all know you ain’t gonna win

I can’t think about my happiness

and there’s nothing you can do for me mysteriously it’s upsetting that I am choking her throat and it’s unpleasant like it’s always been So wrap me up and send me far away and don’t look back at the past mistakes we’ve been there before trust won’t save us opening the package that I was sent in Well I can’t forgive your brokenness it’s scary pleasing her without looking back at the stakes I’ve become a monster who’s becoming a loss and I can’t blame anybody who wants to sin 388

Saluting the Unknown Soldier At the brisk of dawn, there was a soldier that carried a sword and a musket gun but the soldier didn’t have a rank or a name and that led him to be a man of mysteriousness Just as the wartime was about to engage a cry for help was in the distance over the mountaintop was a girl of thirteen she was about to be burned at the stake The soldier rode on horseback quickly and he heehawed through the darkness to save this girl without her getting burned it was an act of bravery for it was his duties Above the battleground was darkness and it was raining as the gunfire flew it wasn’t a pleasant scene as he rode help was on his mind and he was bloodthirsty The girl screamed and her body was tied up and surrounding her was a ring a fire 389

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as the battle began the rain grew harder and harder but the rain suddenly stopped and the soldier came Over the battleground was a sunbeam of glee as the battle stopped and the men gathered trouble wasn’t going to stop the solider somehow his horse gave out halfway and ate hay Then the soldier ran to the mountaintop to save her but he was surrounded by men who tried shooting him but they didn’t seem to puncture him as it went through so the men surrendered and the girl was saved And this girl wanted to thank him for being her hero though it wasn’t an act of bravery because he vanished so the girl stopped and saluted him for his saving but the soldier wasn’t there to smile for her saluting She thought the soldier wasn’t there like he was a ghost because he was vanishing as the battleground vanished so the girl was saluting the unknown soldier respectfully the soldier and the battleground wasn’t seen ever again 390

The McGruders: Rosie’s Wedding Day Has Come

It has been now two more years and Rosie is twenty And she has been living with Charlie in Memphis But now their wedding day has come and Rosie’s happy And Charlie plans their wedding in Rosie’s likeness Rosie has been going to college with Charlie every day So now it has been so long since Rosie has been young But she’s a grown up and has been planning accordingly Now Charlie is a grownup too and he’s where they belong This has been a day and a wish that has become true And Charlie and Rosie’s wedding must be a reality Now that the planning is over they are stuck like glue Having Rosie at the altar with Charlie and Rosie’s family Now, do you Charles Patrick McGruder take Rosabell?

And do you Rosabell Marie McGruder take Charles?

They both agreed and they kissed couldn’t they tell?

Both of them were married and it was a great success 391

The McGruders II: A Honeymoon They’ll Never Forget

Now that Rosie is happily married to Charlie They have to go on their lovely honeymoon It’s been a while since Rosie was a little girly So they go to Hawaii for their special occasion They are happy together and they visit Hawaii And the surf, the sand, and the sun was perfect It’s their special occasion and it’s so very sunny Flying to Hawaii on a plane it’s been a long flight At last, they reached Hawaii and was greeted Everyone said “Aloha” and it was such goodness With big smiles on their faces, Hawaii was perfect There’s nothing greater than the Hawaiian Islands Rosie and Charlie both so happy to be in Hawaii As it is the Aloha State where the surf and sun are Just as the sun went down and the night was calmly Both Rosie and Charlie flew back home in the dark 392

Hospitalized

As I look down an dark alleyway

the darkness is surrounding me

I can’t believe the crimes committed and they leave us all hospitalized as a young child you wandered about and your parents saved you from doubt well it looks like the crimes get stronger displeasing to all who want to still linger nonviolence is what I preach

all it takes is a bullet in your head to teach saddening who all that cry at your funeral but they don’t come to your room in the hospital never looking back at the past mistakes they committed to becoming a parent who really pushed you to the limit haven’t we’ve seen those dying or those who are poor?

don’t judge the poor for they will one day be a millionaire must we be proud of what our parents want us to become?

judging our every move before the dusk to the crack of dawn it must be insanity to have our parents who will beat us never to learn right from wrong when we do bad stuff lessons to be taught in school on where to get knowledge and to seek in diplomas from the colleges we get from it 393

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nobody cares in the criminals who get jail time for crimes youngbloods and crips should be in jail for being so lame I’m not going to seek those who feel bad for me but I ain’t gonna be the one who died for my crime please don’t seek to be hospitalized for dumb shit worst of all we blame ourselves for doing dumb shit I ain’t here for the sympathy that you give but put that sadness to gladness and live wherefore we don’t shoot ourselves for being bullied and so we don’t hang ourselves and leave those deceived 394

Women Can Do Anything a Man Can’t They just don’t understand what women can do I say that women are better than what man can’t it’s insanity when women can’t be the president and to those who are misogynist, I say fuck them the women will one day rule the world and win too nobody can’t see that in the future don’t represent so I can’t be the one who won’t become a misogynist it couldn’t become a better victory voting for the women so don’t do that shit and say men are powerful before you get yourselves into a war zone if it takes you to bleed while you seem to not care then Y’all don’t seem to believe in my heroism nobody’s going to believe in you it’s disrespectful you’ve seemed not to care what women will become so don’t see the future then and women will overbear happiness is what women will one day overcome I say proudly women can do anything a man can’t neither will you oversee the women being victorious haven’t you seem like you just aren’t ready for this?

and the women will be one day the leader of us all won’t you just see the women overruling is a saint?

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no you motherfucker you ain’t ready to be blameless so won’t you see the bright future women presidential?

the bright future of women won’t ever subside and women will overrule this country someday haven’t you noticed about what I’m trying to say?

but you won’t care so I’m just wasting my breath somehow men just hate women favoring one side it’s a goddamn shame that women don’t have a say men don’t understand that women are presidentially the men are leaving me here just in such a disbelief 396

So Thankful

I’m so thankful for my family

for the family that loves me

I can’t thank them enough

because they are so tough

My family is the greatest

they love me I’m so blessed

I am never seeking greatness

they always love me I am a witness Please, won’t you be so thankful?

and won’t you seek to be truthful?

the families that you’ve got today supporting you every step of the way I can’t seem to lose faith in their goodness and for that God, I get so many of their blesses Oh Lord I needed them when I’m depressed and I needed them like they needed forgiveness and I am not here to praise those families but go on with yourselves and love them oh yes I’m not the one who doesn’t seem to understand but I’m not the jury and you’re not the one at the stand so stop pretending that you don’t love your mommies and stop pretending that you don’t love your daddies 397

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Oh Lord I needed you when I’m in doubt and my family is the one who helped me out when I’m depressed or in suffering to be so thankful that my family isn’t boring Looks like my family love me I’m so thankful because I’m a witness and I’m so very tearful maybe it’s because my family loves me unconditionally and maybe I love them more than they can ever love me Please, Lord, don’t let my family leave this earth without being blessed with my son or daughter at birth becoming the one kid to grow up and love this world we live in when doing bad they need the Lord’s greatness when they sin I can’t blame my birth mother or birth father for what they did I was raised by wonderful parents who love each of their kid because my parents struggled to raise snotty-nosed brats to young adults that love the world with each of our differences

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Dusty Hanneschmucker I’m not here to be a lost cause

nor am I here to become an immigrant but with D. Trump in office

it’s a hard case without his approval I am Dusty Hanneschmucker

a guy that came from Germany

but I am not a real player

and D. Trump is my enemy

Don’t criticize D. Trump you say?

but I don’t give a fuck about you you’ve been such a pain today

and it’s nothing like you ever knew D. Trump in office for 2020

hehe I think that is terrible

but without a presidente

America would be burned to rubble Well from Germany to American soil it wasn’t my intentions to face D. Trump but he’s such a bully and an imbecile but it’s fuck D. Trump he should be bumped 399

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Well I’m Dusty Hanneschmucker

a man with hatred for our president and America should in 2020 reconsider if we went another war with D. Trump I’ve seen the cruelty that D. Trump has caused and the “Freedom” that America has is imaginary pleasing to D. Trump’s eyes and it’s a holocaust and a war that we can’t imagine to seek a victory Just take it from a man named Dusty from Germany but we’ve seen D. Trump’s actions that ruined our country the Americans don’t believe me when it’s becoming 2020

the votes that Trump gets will demolish Americans easily 400

Two Drunks and Crack Cocaine: A Party We Shall Never Forget

As I am welcomed back to the house that I was at before I couldn’t relax with all of the drunks and that crack cocaine As it was a party we shall never forget like it was our last Until the break of dawn, we partied and I was offered too much It couldn’t have been worse than these two drunks Who kept partying while drinking while others did their crack Pleasing themselves while the partying continued And I couldn’t escape the two drunks who also did crack cocaine

Like I’ve mentioned to them before I am not a drinker

Nor am I a cocaine addict

They were ashamed of me

Because I shewed away from the booze and crack But I didn’t give a fuck about their shamefulness And I’m not here to party with drunks nor cocaine addicts This time the party was three times a violent And the police came as they were called as a complaint They needed the party to be shut down immediately 401

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Or everybody would be facing some jail time And thus as the party died down

And no dope was snorted by anybody or the two drunks Thus the two drunks became sobered up With nowhere to hide from the police As I still wasn’t arrested by the police But still, I was charged with some hefty fine Penalizing me this time for being near the possession of cocaine

With this time a wad of about two hundred grand So don’t badger me about how I got that money Nah bruh I ain’t the one who’s gonna tell ya But somehow the truth still is I was still a hustler But I still failed to deal with the pressure of repercussion Somehow I ought to be still a smooth criminal Yeah of course just like the Michael Jackson song And I still failed to seek out dope dealing Yep because crack cocaine isn’t my thing Sobering up from the party

The two drunks snorted more of their cocaine Had to be rushed to the hospital and died of dope Because it was a party we shall never forget 402

Spare Change Ma’am? 2: The Story of a Very Poor Woman

Once there was a very poor woman, As she needed to get off these streets.

She has always wished this for a reason, Spare change ma’am? It’s all she pleads.

The lady she asked had no change, And she begged and pleaded for any.

Thus the lady felt bad and had nothing, I’ll just take anything ma’am I’m sorry.

The woman was desperate and needy, And she was hoping to get off the ground.

So she begged for any money so badly, Thus she was so poor she kept being robbed.

As she went and asked another man, He wanted to help her he’s very nice.

Giving her five hundred as all he can, She’s thankful as she kept it as a prize.

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Book Description

“The Things We Don’t Understand” is a poetry book that encapsulates the complexities and mysteries of life, as seen through the lens of Steven Bowman’s creative mind. Featuring his poems from 2017 and 2018, this collection delves deep into the human experience, exploring the beauty and strangeness that often go hand-in-hand. From love and loss to the search for meaning and purpose, these poems offer a heartfelt and poignant reflection on the things that shape and define us as individuals.

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Self-Publishing Date The Things We Don’t Understand was self-published originally on April 4th, 2023.

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