He was in the lab again in an ugly flannel. Very authoritative all the time now.
I said the prayer. And I was about to have a heart attack cause HE was reading my heart. First HE said HE wanted to take me then. While I was saying the prayer, I was thinking other things. I said, I’ll have strength. God says, “You have ME.”
Then I was thinking all the bad stuff about me and not feeling worthy, you know. Then God was looking at me up and down like, so I started to feel worried. I was thinking this “expletive-the devil”. Then I was like, I’m not gonna give up.
HE said to me, my strength makes HIM want to challenge me. I was scared God wanted to fight me. Now my teeth are chattering and I feel a little faint. I don’t have no strength. I don’t know what happened.
The devil is trying to trick me. He’s trying to trick me. I remember God’s voice in the kitchen and it comforts me. He’s trying to make me forget.
Haven’t had a drink since Joshua.
Double dong? Isolation
The trail of everything leads to God. Paper comes from trees that were made by who? God. Eggs come from chickens who were made by who? God. If there’s enough on earth for everyone, why are people starving? Who told us to sell what we can’t create?