And with the flipping and prying me for answers - this sucka will try to expose you. Lord told me to stop talking to him. Is this sucka trying to get to know me for the set up? He goes from nasty and insulting most times to trying to be my friend, tells me I can’t tell people what to believe, shut up talking to God, trying to initiate sex, ask me a thousand questions, adds scenarios so my brain can take off and he can manipulate my thinking and God has to redirect me, wants to know why I can’t be an independent thinker, why do I seek guidance from God on everything, threatens violence, asks you a question which your brain automatically reworks against your will - to try and expose you to God who knows you or to play out his little fantasies.
God gives me breaks from this joker though. This muthasucka thinks he’s the sheriff. Talking about I don’t deserve to see all that glory when his weirdo can’t even repent.
Then I sit up and feel bad about an insecurity. O boy, she’s not going to church on Easter! That’s me. I go to church once or twice a year, but God and the Lord are in my head ALL DAY. Now I’m feeling guilty? Why? Because of him? Girl bye.
And let’s not forget the bad girl image. I’m watching my UFC Fight Night. Girls are fighting. Yay! They’re on the ground on their sides – kinda spooning like. One girl has the other in a headlock choking her out.
Why am I seeing the girl that’s getting choked crying and struggling – tough girl – to no avail because the demon is choking her while screwing her?
See the thing about it is this, that girl getting screwed followed the demon, but now she wants out – mind you, tough girl – and thinks there’s no help for her. But she still has repentance – you can see it in her face. So if the demon is trying to force me, who is protected by God, to not speak to God – if the demon is trying to make me feel guilty, what is he doing to that girl? So how many girls sit up all night afraid of this sucka? And he is terrible, despicably perverted, would rape and murder me, leave me lying in my own filth, disrespectful, has 1000 faces. Will try to coax you, offer you things.
God says he’s misery.
He will use your own guilt against you. He will try to fool you - in any way that you can be fooled or tricked, he will do it. Got me walking around saying “I’m talking to the God of Abraham” cause this sucka will sit on a throne and try to fool me.
God was talking. HE said, “Give them a little intuition, a little inquisitiveness…”
Because I wonder how HE made everything. So my dumb butt gone ask, “Are we assembled like by parts? Like is there a part labeled Curiosity - Mild, Medium, High?
So I’m editing a book and I’m thinking, “Man, I gotta get outta here and go see my mom.”
This sucka gone say in the demon movie voice (I’m not making this stuff up) “Did I tell you, you could go see your mom?”
Who the hell he think he talking to? But that’s my fault though. The Lord been telling me all day to stop talking to him, but I’m like a child – the sucka provokes me and I retort.