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Chapter Seven: A Personal Favour

ERICIA SITS IN her study, slouching lazily over her desk full of

thick books on Politics. Every day, on a usual basis, Ericia spends

approximately six hours studying –no less, sometimes more. Her

father never teaches her anything –and if he claims to be teaching

her, it’s in the worst method possible.

Ericia rubs her forehead in frustration. As far as she’s seen, none

of the things she’s learnt in these books have been applied to the

practicality of ruling a kingdom –at least from the way she’s seen

her father do it. She groans loudly, free to do that in her own

environment. She shakes her head, gluing her eyes to the page in

the book before her again and forcing herself to re-read a

paragraph she’d already read so many times and still can’t seem to

grasp. Ericia can’t imagine what it must be like to be a student out

in the kingdom, but even at twenty, she could imagine the

struggle of those who aren’t royal or rich enough to buy books or

learn in ways other than reading. She could imagine university

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students being frustrated, secondary school students struggling,

even the primary school students having their fill.

Perhaps one of the things she could do to improve the education

system would be provide some sort of support as the Princess

through an initiative. Perhaps she could begin an outreach or a

campaign.

Having her mind wander again, she shakes her head. She

wouldn’t be able to do such a thing –her father won’t let her.

But perhaps having the Prince of Lystotia and the Prince of Phillimont

here would soften his mind towards the idea... she thinks. She shakes

her head again, staring down at the paragraph.

Rowan, she remembers saying. Do you love me?

She shuts the textbook and grinds her teeth, immediately

regretting the decision afterwards.

I’d be lying if I said yes, Ericia... he had told her... but I’m in the

process of learning to, and that means I don’t want anyone else getting in

the way of us. You’re mine –and only mine.

“You’re mine,” she says to herself, lowly, “and only mine.”

Something about the way he said it irks her.

This process of learning to love one another, she decides, is

foolish and comical. To love is not a skill to be acquired. You

simply love and are loved. Through flaws, through mistakes and

conflicts, through good times and bad times, you still love. All the

experiences add up –but the love is still there. Love is always

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there from the beginning, sometimes it just takes a while to find

it. If the love was never there, you’d know. If someone is

different from the beginning, you’d know. You’d always know

how someone makes you feel –even if that feeling is not what it’s

meant to be from the very beginning. That person is just different,

and they always will be. Humans are intelligent enough to have

that instinct.

But why do I feel... she wonders... like I’ve never felt that love

towards him?

Do I love him as a friend? She asks herself. She pauses, knowing

the answer too obviously.

Sure, Ericia knows that she’s engaged to Prince Rowan. They’re

to be married one day, but has she ever felt anything towards him?

During the four times they’ve ever been together in their lifetime,

how much could she have felt? All she knew was that one day

she’d have to marry this Prince. All she knew was that she did not

have the freedom to choose who she wanted to marry one day. All

she knew was that someday, her husband would be the future king

of Lystotia, and her children would be the heirs to an allied pair of

kingdoms.

Thinking about all of it now, Ericia realises she’s never fallen in

love. She’s never felt those chills –the chills you’re supposed to

get when you’re afraid to touch someone for the first time –like in

those romantic novels he often liked to read. She’s never allowed

someone to kiss her. She’s never allowed a man to overstep his

boundaries –unless it’s her father or Prince Rowan, and she isn’t

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too keen on allowing the Prince to do such things, but does she

have a choice?

Can she be as open with Prince Rowan as she wants to be? Can

she say how she really feels? Can she do the things she truly wants

to do?

She remembers once testing those waters –the time she had

woken up to find him fencing early in the morning.

Her father doesn’t know that she’s been practicing the defensive

arts, but she’s been trying to improve herself in them. She hasn’t

been able to do much because of the physical pain and strain of

abuse on her body, but she tries anyway, deciding that if the

defensive arts involve the least of pain, then when she doesn’t

have to deal with such torture –when the pain is gone –when the

throbbing stops and the healing starts, she won’t feel anything

when fighting. She won’t feel anything at all. She’ll be numb

towards it. She’ll be numb, and she’ll be professional –a master in

the arts.

Prince Rowan hadn’t seemed to mention such details to her

father –otherwise Ericia knows her father would whip her into the

morning again. He’d chain her to the wall backwards, so that

she’d face the stone and not see what he’d be attaching to the

leather whip, and then she’d feel the first lash –the second –the

third –and before she knows it she’s forgotten how many she’s

gotten because she can’t keep up. The sun will then rise, a new

day will begin, and her father will go about his business as usual.

She would have to pretend nothing had happened again.

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This thought sends a chill up Ericia’s spine. She would have to

pretend. Pretend. She despises the word so.

She thinks about the night she’d fallen down the stairs, injuring

her ankle. Prince Henry was the only one who had ever helped

her.

Ever.

Ericia had never taken such a fall in her life. She had never

allowed herself to appear weak in front of others. As a child,

perhaps falling and bruising a knee was an issue, but as she grew

up and learnt about the harshness of her reality, Ericia learnt to be

careful –even in the presence of her best friend.

Ericia stares down at her healing ankle and thinks about the way

Prince Henry carries about himself. She had argued with him the

other day, unable to hold her tongue to the further thoughts in her

mind. Since that day in the garden, Prince Henry hasn’t spoken to

her. He hasn’t acknowledged her. He hasn’t even crossed her

path. She’s seen him in the distance, but he never turned in her

direction –he never noticed she was there, and so she turned

away, going about her business.

I wasn’t asking.

Sit.

Next time... watch where you’re walking.

If you are an heir, truly, then act like one.

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Ericia could hear his low, soothing, commanding, yet somehow

gentle voice in her head. It makes her blood go hot. Her face goes

red. She slams her hand down on the desk and groans again. “Act

like one,” she says to herself. “Act like one.

***

Gaya, the closest maid to the Queen, straps her leather sack to

her back and heads out. It’s her day off, and she’s on her way to

the Hyre Village in Aeriston to meet with the Callie family before

running some errands for herself.

Exiting the second floor and reaching the first, she passes the

royal physician.

“Gaya,” he whispers, hurrying over, careful not to draw

attention to their little conversation.

The workers of the palace have learnt to get along –of course

some will have closer bonds with others.

“Seth,” she says, smiling as she turns to him. “Lovely to see

you.”

“Gaya, I must speak with you privately,” he says, his tone stern

and his expression more on the sombre side.

“I’m on my way to Hyre Village. It’s my day off, would you

like to join me?”

“I can’t leave the palace –at any time a trainee of the armies

might need me, but may I speak with you briefly?”

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Gaya and Seth walk out into the open at the entrance road to the

palace.

Seth clears his throat and smiles, hoping to defeat the purpose of

others watching out of suspicion. “I believe you now, Gaya,” he

says. “I’ve seen the proof for myself.”

“You...” Gaya blinks, surprised, “What did you see?”

Seth laughs, but his expression quickly becomes pitiful and

sorrowful as he stares directly at Gaya once more. “A few days ago

Princess Ericia awoke to a twisted ankle, claiming to have fallen

down a flight of stairs and injure herself. She said she didn’t know

it was that bad.”

“And I’m supposing Avie was the one who called you,” she

says, knowingly.

“Your daughter,” Seth says, “does she know?”

Gaya exhales sharply, giving him a knowing look. “I won’t tell

her if it meant I’d die.”

“If she so much as says the wrong thing, Gaya, she’ll be the one

executed. Remember what happened to Marie.”

“I know, Seth,” Gaya says, annoyed. “But I cannot provoke

more of her curiosity. Just let Avie be. Ericia seems to know she

cannot tell Avie everything, and Avie knows her place in the

presence of Royals. Let it be, Seth.”

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“Ericia is victim to it, isn’t she,” Seth says, his face

expressionless.

There’s a pause, and Gaya frowns as she stares up at her friend.

“You know as well as I do that we cannot say anything about this.

This is abuse towards the Queen and the Princess. Who can we

claim such things to? The King? He’ll have us killed before the sun

is down. Again, look what happened to Marie. She knew about

the abuse towards the Queen. I’m the one picking up the pieces

for her family on behalf of the Queen.”

“Oh, Queen Olivia,” Seth mutters, “How gracious that woman

is.”

“Who knows,” Gaya says, overwhelmed with sadness, “what

King Charles might do if he finds out she’s the one behind the

Callie family’s survival...”

“Something has to be done, dearest Gaya,” Seth says. “We’re

talking about an abusive king,” he says, lowly.

“We cannot do anything much to change the situation from our

positions,” Gaya says. “if God has it so, then let it be. Such people

don’t live forever.”

“Gaya,” Seth says, frustrated, “We’re taking two bends –one

into a marriage and one into an alliance with what will be this

nation’s largest, strongest army. Not to mention we’ve all heard

the rumours of the war to come. With a ruler like him, with the

audacity to pretend as though nothing is wrong in the presence of

others and have his family silent as such, what will happen?” Seth

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says, shaking his head. “He could very well decide to become a

part of the warring side, as well, the way I see it.”

“That’s ridiculous,” Gaya says, suddenly. “Don’t speak such

ideas into being.” Even now, however, Gaya knows that

everything Seth has said could be true.

“I will not have this nation fall apart,” Seth says, “if it means

losing my life.”

“Seth,” Gaya says, gently, “we both love this nation. We love

our Queen and our Princess, our fellow people and our families,

but how much do you truly think we can do to stop what’s to

come? We’re mere palace servants. Yes, even you as the Royal

Physician.” Gaya checks her watch, seeing that she’s late. “I really

must leave. I’ll be late and may not get all of my errands done

today.” She begins walking away, saying, “Don’t get involved. The

truth will reveal itself in due time.”

Seth watches her leave.

I have to do something, he says to himself, even if it means the end of

my life.

***

Prince Henry stands in the heat of the open field, supervising the

trainees. His mind is far off as he stares out, rather obliviously, at

some of the struggling men.

I have no business, he had told her, interacting freely with another

man’s betrothed.

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He can’t seem to get the questions she had asked him out of his

head.

Am I just a man’s Betrothed?

Do I not have what it must entail to be simply human?

Must I be treated like I am less than worthy?

Even of something as sacred as friendship?

What, must I cross no social boundaries?

Is this the prejudice I must face as a woman?

I, too, am an Heir, Your Highness.

Then act like one, he had said to her.

Henry smiles, absentmindedly; amused by her outspokenness

towards him. Up close, Ericia’s eyes were the most mesmerising

of all things clear and blue. Up close her blonde curls didn’t sway

with the wind, they bounced with personality. Up close, Ericia

isn’t the person she pretends to be –he could see the real her –up

close...

Prince Henry is genuinely glad, thinking it over, that Ericia isn’t

truly the way she carries herself most times. Though he was

honest in his opinion towards her needing to be more outspoken

where she needs to be as an Heir, he’s glad that she’s not the way

she appears to be most days.

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A pair of hasty footsteps approaches the smiling prince, and by

the time the person approaches him, he’s too late to snap out of it.

“Henry,” Rowan says, Henry looking towards him, his smile

fading. “King Charles has organised a meeting for the commanders

of the Phillimont and Vynierian army, as well as you and me.”

“When’s it to start?” Prince Henry asks.

“After lunch, two o’clock, in the King’s study.”

“I’ll be there,” Prince Henry says.

Rowan nods gently towards him and leaves. Prince Henry

almost wants to punch himself in the face.

Right, he remembers. She’s engaged... to him.

***

Rowan lifts the weight off his chest and brings it back down again.

The palace gym is heated at noon, but he has no intention of

leaving until he feels better.

He replays the image of Henry smiling in his mind again. Yes,

Rowan knows he must have been seeing correctly again. Henry

smiled after speaking with Ericia, and he smiled in the courtyard,

as he was approached. His mind was far away. Where could it have

been?

Was he thinking of the Princess?

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Rowan hadn’t ever seen Prince Henry as amused even

throughout their many interactions as ‘friends’. It had appeared

perhaps a few times in Lystotia. But the memory of what

happened back then makes Rowan’s blood boil.

Rowan lifts the weight off of him again. He sits up, pouring a

bottle of water over himself.

He stands in the shower for a long time, getting out and

stepping out into the sun to dry his hair.

He spots Ericia, roaming with Avie by her side, laughing softly

over something he didn’t hear. He smiles, walking over to her.

“Hello, lovely lady,” he says, bowing to the princess with a grin

on his face. “What are you up to today?”

“Rowan,” she says, her eyes gleaming, “I’m just having a break

from my study. I’ll be back up there in about ten minutes. Really

needed the fresh air, though.”

“There’s something I needed to talk to you about,” Rowan

says, “May I?”

“Please do,” she says.

Rowan stands beside her, Avie falling behind the pair and

trailing loosely.

“Do you remember when I first got here?” he asks her.

“How could I forget?”

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“Do you remember when you said that you wouldn’t mind

staying at Lystotia with me?” he asks.

“I do,” says Ericia, though internally, she’s regretting having

ever said such a thing.

“I plan on asking the King for such permission. There will be a

meeting at two, this afternoon.”

“Oh,” Ericia says, startled by the idea but containing her panic

within. “You’re... sure?”

“I believe –or rather, I hope that I’ve bonded with your people

here, though I still think I haven’t done enough, but I think I

would feel much more comfortable back home in Lystotia. I’m

planning on having you meet my people there as well. I haven’t

entirely sorted out the plan, but I’m hoping that after discussing

this with your father, we can work out the details,” he says.

Ericia and Rowan continue to walk, and as Ericia listens to

Rowan’s ideas, she’s becoming more frantic inside.

“It would be great exposure for me,” Ericia says. “I’ll have to

become familiar with the people, places and things of Lystotia

eventually.” She laughs, trying not to sound nervous.

“I do hope it all goes well,” he says.

“Fingers crossed,” Ericia says, “You should get going. The

meeting will begin before you’re finished getting ready.”

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Rowan laughs, rushing off and leaving Avie and Ericia to

themselves.

Ericia waits until he’s disappeared into the palace. “Avie,” she

says, smiling a closed-mouth smile to her best friend, “Let’s go

into the garden.”

“Sure, Eri,” Avie says.

Ericia and Avie walk into the palace garden, Ericia moving

stiffly. When she gets to the bench, she looks out at the city of

Vynier, fear and frustration bubbling inside of her. Suddenly, she

finds herself gasping for air, wheezing, holding her chest and

collapsing onto the concrete bench.

“Ericia,” Avie says, her eyes going wide, “Are you okay? I’m

calling the docto-”

“-Don’t!” Ericia says, “Don’t call... anyone.”

Avie sits beside her, rubbing her back and watching her in

worry.

“I’ll be fine in a moment,” Ericia says.

When she catches her breath and calms down, she stares out at

the city, placing a hand over her heart to feel the rapid beat.

“Sooo...” Avie begins, clearing her throat, “I’m guessing you

don’t want to go to Lystotia?”

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Ericia’s eyes almost well up with tears. She turns to her friend.

“Avie,” she says, lowly –so softly that it’s almost impossible to

hear her. “What would you do if you were in my position?”

“I don’t know what you mean, Ericia,” Avie says, watching

Ericia’s tears fall.

“There’s a lot,” the Princess tells her, “that you don’t know.”

“Don’t you love him?” Avie asks.

Ericia lets out a pitiful laugh. “I should,” she says, staring at a

confused Avie, “Shouldn’t I?”

“But do you?” Avie asks, again.

Ericia huffs out a breath, rubbing the palms of her hands over

her long dress where her knees would be.

“No,” she says, her eyes staring at the pebbles on the ground. “I

don’t.”

***

At quarter to two in the afternoon, Ericia and Avie are on the

ground floor, discussing with an interior decorator the preference

which the princess would have between purple and green for the

accent colours of the curtains. Ericia could not return to an

attitude of study and so she wanted to cheer herself up by helping

out the palace staff.

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“I think the green would be a refreshing colour since we

haven’t seen it around here as much for a while,” Ericia says,

smiling.

The interior decorator, standing on a ladder near the window,

looks behind the Princess, her face suddenly going neutral. “Your

Highness,” she says, coming down from the ladder and standing

properly to bow.

Ericia looks behind her to find Prince Henry walking towards

her.

“Prince Henry,” she says, “What an interesting surprise. Henry

halts, close enough to the princess that she could see the glossy

reflection of the window behind her in his blue eyes. “I didn’t

expect you to approach like this.”

“Good afternoon, madam,” Prince Henry says to the interior

decorator, nodding slightly. He turns to Avie, “And to you as

well.”

“Oh G-Good afternoon, Your Highness,” Avie says, bowing

sloppily.

Ericia almost wants to laugh at her friend’s nervousness.

“Princess Ericia, if I may ask you a favour,” he says, turning to

her.

“Of course, how may I be of assistance?” she asks.

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“Will you accompany me to the King’s Study? I need to be

there in five,” he says.

“Well then,” Ericia says, “We’d better get going.”

With that, Ericia and Prince Henry walk away from the interior

decorator and Avie. Ericia glances across to the Prince beside her,

stifling a laugh. “Perhaps I should ‘argue’ with you more often,

Your Highness. Only then do things seem to work out.”

“Oh don’t be so modest, Princess, if I were asking this favour