Angel.....
I’ve been in such a crappy mood since this morning. I am still pissed off about the little discussion I had with Hope. I appreciate her worrying about me I really do but I am just not used to having people in my business. I’ve always handle everything on my own since I can remember. I am not used to telling people my problems or asking for help. “Hey boss,” Chase walks in. I am behind the bar stocking the bottles. “Hey Chase” I say over my shoulder. I didn’t even hear him come in. “You know that is my job right?” he ask. I shrug my shoulders “Yeah I know but since I got here earlier than you I thought I could do it” I reached for the last bottle. I turn to face him.
He is seating across the bar with a smile from ear to ear. “You look nice today”. I laughed under my breath. I left the house with no makeup. I am wearing a white regular tee with denim shorts. I am dressed like if I was going for a walk in the park instead of work. “Okay what’s wrong?” he asks. How does he know something is wrong? We haven’t known each other long enough for him to know something is going on. “What are you talking about?” I ask with a smile. Hopefully he falls for it. I reach for a towel to start cleaning the bar. “I can tell something is wrong because when I complemented you on your outfit you didn't roll your eyes at me or smile like you always do” he says. Well I guess everyone can read me like a damn open book today.
I really need to start working on my walls again. “Nothing is wrong with me I am just tired that’s all” I scrub the table hard trying to leave it spotless. Maybe Hope has a point about the cleaning. “Mmmm,” he hums pissing me off. Why does everyone want to know how I am feeling today? Who the fuck cares?! I am fucking great. “If you need someone to talk to you can come to me I promise I know how to keep a secret” he says.
“Secret?” Tabios walks in with his leather jacket looking sexier than ever. Look at him walking in here like he owns the damn place. Where the hell was he yesterday when everyone was going crazy? You know what who cares. I don’t even want him here in the first place. “You two have secrets? What kind?” he walks towards us never looking away from me. Obviously the question is for me. “Well if we tell you than it wouldn’t be a secret no more would it?” Chase answers. A nerve on Tabios jaw jumps as his hands turns into fist on his side. I am no in the mood to be fucking dealing with whatever the fuck this is.
“You know what, I am leaving ya two love birds so ya can deal with ya problems” I throw the towel on the bar and walk away. I slam my office door and walk to my chair. I don’t think I can work today like this. I can’t stop thinking about Manic. Every time I have a nightmare the next day I feel like shit all over again it’s a never ending story. My door opens and Tabios walks in. “I need to be alone” I tell him as I turn in my seat. He is the last person that I want to see. “Problems in paradise?” he asks. I turn my chair around “What the fuck are you talking about?” I say furious. Who the hell does he think he is coming in here accusing me of God knows what.
“You and that Thing” he says with disgust. Not this again. You know what I have more important things to deal with right now. I stand and reached for my keys “Think whatever the fuck you want to think”. I walk pass him avoiding touching him. “Chase can you handle the club tonight?” I ask. He looks at me. I can tell that he wants to ask me what’s going on but honestly I don’t even know where to start. “Sure hope you feel better” he smiles as I walk out.
I walk to my car and unlock my door I need to get away from everyone. “Wow wow wow,” Tabios shuts my car door from behind me. “What the fuck?” I turn to look at him. If he doesn’t let me leave I am going to end up taking my anger out on him. “What the hell is up your ass?” he asks. I throw my head up to look at the sky and laugh out of frustration. “Why does everyone in the fucking world seems to care about me today?”. Where the hell were they when I was growing up? When I needed someone to save me from my mother when she came home drunk? When I would go all day without eating because my mother was out drinking our food money? Or when my mom brought random men to our house and I had to hide in the closet the whole night with one eye open?
“There feel better?” he asks. I glare at him. I want to kill him right now but I am not really mad at him. Okay maybe I am for not staying last night but that’s not a good reason to kill him. “No” I answer truthfully. He stares me right in the eyes and I feel the urge to look away. He makes me feel so vulnerable. I want to open up to him and tell him everything but why should I? “Come I have an idea” he grabs my arm and drags me. “Where are we going?” I ask as I follow him. I should be fighting him and getting in my car. “Here” he stops in front of his bike. I look at him confuse. “Here?” What the hell I don’t want to be here that’s the reason I was leaving in the first place.
He snatches my car keys away from me and hands me his keys. “You want to learn how to ride a bike? Let’s do it” he smiles. What? I look at the keys in my hand and back to him. He can’t be serious. He wants me to ride his bike. I don’t even know how to ride a bicycle let alone a motorcycle. That information is for me to know only. I never even own a bike growing up. “I am not in the mood to be playing around” I roll my eyes and hand his keys over to him.
“I am not kidding you want to learn how to ride a bike than I’ll teach you” he says. “But I don’t even know how to ride a bicycle” I say a little too loud. He barks out in laughter and I feel my cheeks turning red. Damn I wasn’t supposed to say that out loud. How embarrassing. “Come here it’s easy” he pulls me in to him. “Get on the bike” he orders. I decided not to fight him on this because if I am being honest with myself I am dying to ride. I follow his instruction and he sits behind me. I feel a cold shiver run up my back having him this close to me. His cologne invades my nostril. I close my eyes and smell him in. He smells like old spice and if I am not wrong whiskey. I should know what whiskey smells like.
“Okay start the bike,” he growls in my ear. I fight the urge to flinch away from him. I don’t want him to know how much he affects me. I turn the key and the bike roars to life. Just the simple sound of the motor makes adrenalin run through my body. “Okay now plant your feet firmly on the side” his hands slide down my sides ever so slowly caressing my thighs. I feel a tingle running up my thighs. I try squeezing my thighs together for some relief. Damn am I really getting turned on right now? “Okay,” he whispers into my ear “the right handle is to get this baby moving and the left one is the break” his ruff hands go over mines. My palms are sweating. I can feel his hot breath on the side of my neck tickling me. I wonder if he knows what he is doing to me. I tighten my hold on the handle and we both fly back. “Wow there easy” he grabs on the breaks.
“Sorry I was just excited” I apologize. I was a little too excited if you ask me. “Excited or arouse?” he ask. I turn my head to the side to see him smirking. Oh, he knew exactly what he was doing asshole! Our faces are so close to each other that if I lick my lips I’ll lick his too. I look down at his lips and then back at his eyes. “Riding a bike does that to people” he shrugs his shoulder like a little kid. I turn my head and bite down on my lip trying not to smile. I am not in the mood to smile today. “Alrighty then,” he takes over the handles
“I’ll take it from here and once you’re ready to go by yourself I’ll let you”. He starts the bike and my body relaxes into his like if it was meant to be there all along. The wind hitting my face feels so great. I feel like I can finally breathe again. I remember why I want to buy a bike it makes me feel free like I belong to the rode. It makes me forget everything that is haunts me. “Now it’s your turn he stops the bike and climbs off.
“Where are you going?” I ask panicking. I can’t do this all by myself is he crazy? I wasn’t even paying attention when he was talking. I don’t even know how to ride a bike let alone a damn motorcycle. “How are you going to learn if I am the one driving?” he asks making a good point. “Don’t worry I’ll be right here I won’t let go until you tell me too” he promise. I look into his hazel eyes and see that he is saying the truth. I nod my head. “Here” he hands me his helmet “safety first”. Unlike last time I don’t fight him on this one. I reach for the helmet with shaky hands.
“Okay now place your hands on the handles and slowly very slowly turn the handle” he orders. I turn the handle just a little and the bike moves forwards. I squeal out of excitement. “Good just like that” he is holding on to the bike as he walks right beside me. “Now to make a turn all you have to do is turn the handles to the side but be careful if you move it to fast you might lose your balance”. I turn the handle and the bike turns. “That’s it” he coos. I can’t help but to smile this is so much fun. I feel like a total bad ass. “You think you can do this on your own?” he asks.
“Hell yeah” I say a little too eagerly. I think I got this in the bag. He chuckles “Fine just keep your balance and no speed”. I nod my head eager to ride by myself. He lets go of me. At first I have trouble trying to balance the bike but once I have it down I enjoy the ride. My heart is beating so fast I feel it in my throat. “You’re doing fine” I hear him say behind me. I don’t want to turn because I am afraid I’ll crash into something so I am just going to keep straight. I can’t believe I am doing this! I am actually riding a bike. If riding it makes me feel alive actually driving it takes me to a different level. I feel like I am flying. I feel like nothing and no one can catch up to me.
I don’t know what makes me think about Manic but I do. His face pops up in my head like a bad dream I can’t shake. I need to get away from him and his memory. I press on the handle and the bike goes faster. “Slow down” Tabios yells. I don’t want to slow down I don’t want him to catch up to me. I want to feel free like I am invincible so I turn the handle even more. The wind makes the bike wiggle causing me to lose my balance. I panic and start moving the handles to the right and then to the left. Oh fuck I am going to die. “Hold on Angel, don’t panic” Tabios yells. Too late for that I think to myself. Next thing I know I am hitting the ground.