Tabios....
Everything in my life seems to be falling into place. A lot has happen in these 2 weeks. For one Angel and I have really gotten to know each other much better. There are still things I don’t know about her but I am sure that with time I'll find out. The things that I do know about her only makes me want her more it’s been torture having her so close to me and not being able to touch her. Especially when she finds something funny and she laughs. Her laugh can light up any dark place or even when she is sad. Her eyes turn into the lightest blue when they fill with tears. I still haven’t seen her cry and it’s not like I want to either.
Some days she is all happy like she has no worries in her life but other times her mood is off. I’ve gotten to know her so well that I can tell when there is something wrong with her even when she doesn't show it. Moments like that are the ones that draw me in to her even more. I wish I knew what makes her feel like that but she hasn’t open up to me yet. Thankfully she is all better now from the accident and the good news is that she has no scaring thanks to Hope. She really knows what she is doing. I think she has come around about me since we see each other more often now. I’ve been going over there every day since the accident.
Like I said everything is falling into place, everything with the club seems to be going great too. The business with Alex turned out perfect. We both got what we wanted with no problems so we decided to keep doing business together. I still don’t trust him but hey you don’t have to like someone in order to do business with them. Everything is going perfect to perfect if you ask me. I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop.
"Sup bro," Josh says as he walks into my room "haven't seen you around lately where you've been?". I reached for my leather jacket "I know I’ve been busy I am actually on my way out". I have a meeting with a very hungry woman. I lost a bet to her yesterday so it’s my turn to bring pizza. She really loves her pizza she can eat up to 4 slices. I don’t know where she puts it all to be hones I love to watch her eat. She is such a messy eater. "Really where too?" he lies on my bed with his hands behind his head. "To see Angel" I reached for my cologne. Even though I just shower I still like to smell fresh.
"You've been spending a lot of time over there lately," he says. I take one last look in the mirror. "And your point is" I ask. I know what he is trying to do. He is trying to get information out of me. "Fine have you fucked her yet?" He asks straight up. I knew that is what he wanted to know. Josh and I talk about everything including the women we've been with but I have a feeling that if something was to happen with Angel I wouldn’t share it. I lean on the wall "No were just friends". Even saying that out loud doesn’t sound right.
Josh look at me and out of nowhere bust out laughing "She friend zone you? The infamous Tabios?". I have to admit I’ve never been in the friend zone not even when I was a teenager. I've always been the one friend zoning people. "No wonder you’re up her ass it’s because you can't have her" he adds. I have to admit at first I thought the same thing but now that I really know her I know it's not that. "It's more than that" I tell him. He stops laughing and sits up "don’t tell me your in lo.." he gags like he is going to throw up "in lov-" he scrunch his face up in disgust “you know what I am trying to say".
"He'll no" I quickly jump to defend myself. I am not in lo... whatever that is. I am not.” I repeat. "Oh thank God my brother I thought I was going to have to check you in to the ‘All you can fuck pussy facility’" he looks at me with all humor gone "so what is it?". Damn I don't even know how to explain what I am feeling. "Honestly I don’t fucking know bro" I run my hand through my hair. "I know what you need," he quickly stands up "pussy lots of pussy".
I don’t want to tell him that I am not interested because I don’t want him to think I am in lo.. you know what I mean. If I am being honest I haven’t been with any one since the night I fucked Tatiana and I am still feeling like a total ass because of it. "Sure but later I have something to do right now" I grab my keys. I am already late. "Fine see you and your blue balls later" he walks out the door.
I stopped by the pizza place before going to Angel’s house. That woman doesn't play when it comes down to her pizza. "Thank you so much for coming," I hear her says as I climb the steps. I wonder who she is talking to as I turn the corner to her apartment I see her and Thing hugging. She is wearing a white tank top and booty shorts. I feel all my blood go to my head. What the fuck is he doing here? And why the fuck does he has his arms around her? He gives her a kiss on the forehead "See you later". No the fuck he isn't. I rush toward them as I clear my throat. Angel jumps as I startle her. She turns around "Hey you got pizza" she smiles. I look at Thing and then back at her. She reaches for the pizza "See you later Chase". No the fuck she’s not. Thing gives her quick smile and walks pass me. I grill at him ready to tear his fucking head off. Angel walks into her apartment and I follow furious.
“I got to admit I thought you were going to forget about the pizza" she says as she reaches for the plates. "What the fuck was he doing here?" I ask. She turns around to look at me "Excuse me?". She looks surprise that I would even ask her that question. "What the fuck was he doing here?" I repeat myself. She throws the paper plates on the kitchen counter "Are you fucking serious right now?".
I cross my arms in front of my chest "I am fucking serious". She crosses her arms in front of her chest mimicking me "Chase is my friend and he is allow to come visit me just like you". Even when she says it out loud it doesn’t sound right to me. I feel like she just slapped me in the face. I walk around the counter to come face to face with her. "He is just like me? He comes to watch movies with you every night? You lay your head on his shoulder when your eyes get heavy? He tucks you into bed whenever you fall asleep on him? Does he kiss you goodnight every night before he leaves? You've told him everything you've told me? You told him about the shitty mom you have? Or did you tell him about the asshole of a good for nothing father that left you even before you were born? He knows all of that?”
She looks up at me with complete shock written on her face. She wasn’t expecting me to go off on her like that. She takes a few steps backwards trying to put some space between us but I follow her. “Or have you told him shit I don’t know yet. For instant where were you for the past 2 years? Or why you won’t let anyone close enough to know the real you? Or how about what happen to you before you got here? What are you running from? Have you told him the meaning of your tattoo? Or did you tell him who thee fuck marked you?” I ask pisses off. She looks up at me with tears in her eyes "Tabios stop". She tries walking around me but I pin her to the wall.
"Answer me" I bark causing her to flinch. She looks into my eyes "No". I feel relief knowing that she has only shared those moments with me. "Why not if he is just your friend like I am?" I ask. I know I am pushing it but I need to hear it from her. I can't be the only one that is feeling whatever this is. I know she feels it too. I see it in her eyes when she looks at me. I feel how her body shivers whenever I am this close to her, how hard her nipples get when I talk this close to her skin. "I can't do this" she tries pushing me away but I pin her arms above her head. I press my knee in between her thighs and lean into her "I'll answer for you'" . Her chest is rising like it does every time we’re this close "because you know we're not just friends".
"Let go off me" she whisper. I shake my head "Not until you tell me that you feel whatever this is between us. That you're dying as much as I am to fucking kiss me. That you want me inside of you like the first night we've met". She inhales as she rolls her eyes "I don’t know what you're talking about we are just friends". I know she is lying her eyes tells me. I shake my head "Why do you make everything so complicated?". I lean into her it is taking everything inside of me not to fucking kiss her. She holds her breath "I know you're dying for me to kiss you and I know that you want me to fuck you. I bet you right now if I dip my finger inside of your pussy you'll be fucking wet because you want me as much as I want you but I won’t do anything until you tell me too,"
Her eyes meet mines as she tries to press her thighs together. Fuck why did I just say that? I am dying to kiss her to touch her body, to fuck her. "I am home bitches" the front door opens and Hope walks in "Holly shit," she says as she walks into the kitchen "I am out bitches". I let go of Angel’s arms "Stay I was just leaving anyways, we are done here. Right?" I ask Angel. I hope she says no and tells me what she really wants. She nods her head "Right". I run my hand through my hair trying to keep myself calm. "See you around bud" I tilt my chin upwards and walk out "bye Hope".
The whole drive back to the club all I can think about is what went down with Angel. I can't believe I told her everything I did. I just fucked everything up. We were supposed to be just friends and I fucked it up confessing everything. I lost it when I saw her with Thing. I can’t do this anymore I can’t keep lying to myself or to her. She knows what I want and if she wants the same thing she’ll come looking for me if not then I guess I'll have to move on.
As soon as I walk in I head straight to the bar. I need a shot or two to calm me the fuck down. "You’re back early" Josh says. I take the shot and serve me another one "Let's not even talk about it". That's the last thing I want to do right now. I still don’t know what the fuck went down. "Fine by me I am just glad your back just in time to get this shit started" he smiles. I look around the club but none of the guys are here. What kind of party is this? "They’re all outside waiting for us" Josh answers my question. "Waiting for us?" I turn to look at him. I am confuse we always throw our parties in the club. "Yeah in honor of your blue balls we are going to,” he drums his hand on the bar table “That's right my friend you guessed it we’re going to Blue Balls" he says with humor.
Great just what I fucking need right now a reminder of her. I serve myself another shot “To a long as fucking night" I cheer. "Here here" Josh joins in. He has no idea what I am talking about. Fuck it why not go out and have fun with my brothers maybe I’ll get lucky and get my dick lick since I haven’t been getting any these couple of days. Beside like Angle said we are just fucking friends so I shouldn’t feel bad if anything happens. I am fucking Tabios for crying out loud I have bitches begging me to fuck them not the other way around.