Angel....
“What the hell just happen?” Hope asks as soon as Tabios was out the door. That’s the same damn question I am asking myself. I have no idea what the fuck just happen. “Did I just cock block him” she opens the box of pizza. I walk over to the kitchen counter to take a seat before my knees give up. My legs are still shaking. “Spill woman” she says. I lift my head to look at her “I have no idea”.
She puts her pizza down “What do you mean?”. I reach over for a slice a pizza for myself. “It all started when he saw Chase here. He got so furious,” I try thinking where everything went wrong “he ask me what he was doing here and I told him that Chase was my friend just like he was and that was where everything went to hell”. Hope looks at me with her eyebrow rise “You and I both know that you guys are not just friends”. Why does every one keep saying that? “Yes we are,” I correct her.
“Angel be honest with me, what are you feelings for Tabios?” she ask. I honestly don’t know. He makes me feel things I’ve never felt before. Whenever he is around he makes my stomach turn like if I was in some roller coaster. I can be myself around him. He makes me tell him things that I would never tell anyone else. Whenever he is around he makes me feel safe. Whenever he isn’t around I feel emptiness in my chest like something is missing. “Oh shit,” I mumble under my breath.
“Exactly,” Hope nods her head “the truth is that you guys were never friends”. How the hell did this happen? I’ve tried my best to fight this but it ended up happening anyways. “This is bad very bad” I chant. This is going to end up bad for me. I can feel it. No, I can’t give in to whatever this is. I need to protect myself. “No this can be a good thing honey,” Hope tries to calm me down. “No, we both know that’s not true” I say. She out of all people should know that. “Angel,” she reaches for my hand. I pull my hand away from her “I need to go get ready for work”. I hop off the stool and walk to the room. I don’t feel like talking about this right now with Hope. I need time to think this over myself.
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It feels great to be back at work. I was driving myself crazy being at home doing nothing. I am not the type of girl that stays at home. “Angel,” Ashley runs around the bar to hug me “why didn’t you tell me you were coming into work?” It feels so strange to have people that actually care about me. “I wanted to surprise you” I hug her back. Ashley has really been there for me these couple of days. She came over to keep me company whenever I was alone. She even introduces me to her daughter Aubrey. She is the cutest little 3 year old ever. She looks just like Ashley. “How’s Aubrey?” I ask as I take a seat at the bar.
“She is doing well she keeps asking me when we are going to Angel’s house” Ashley smiles. Ashley is a great mother I can tell just the way her eyes shine as she talks about her. “Well next time ya come over we can go for some ice cream” I say. Ashley smiles “It’s a date”. She walks back around the bar to start restocking it. I am so thankful I have Chase in my life. He has really help me out with the bar this whole time.
I left him in charge of everything. “Hey there,” Chase walks in with a box full of bottles “you’re here early”. I was supposed to be here at 6 but I had to get out the house to stop driving myself crazy. “Yeah I thought you could use a hand” I lie. Chase walks over to me “What happen?” he asks concern. Damn it. I am officially ruined. My poker face has no power. “Long story I rather not even think about it” I answer. Chase nods his head and gives me a one arm hug “You’ll be okay”. I sure as hell hope he is right.