Angel...
I had forgotten how busy it gets on a Saturday night. Everyone was happy to see me well almost everyone. Dutchess wasn’t as happy but I could care less. I decided to be out on the floor helping instead of being in my office driving myself insane. “Well would you look who just walked in” Ashley nods towards the door. I look over my shoulder and the first person I see walking in is Tabios. My heart rate accelerates as my stomach begins to feel queasy. I wasn’t expecting seeing him today. His eyes meet mines and my breath gets caught inside of my throat.
I hate the fact that he is mad at me. I just want everything to go back to normal. I give him a smile but he turns to look the other way. I feel a pain in my chest as he walks away. I guess he is still mad at me for earlier. Well fuck him I am not going to be kissing his ass. I turn back around ignoring his presence two can play that game. “What was that about?” Ashley asks as she serves a drink. “I don't know and I don’t care" I answer. She gives me a small smile and hands me the drinks. "Thanks" I smile as I walk to the table.
“Hey Nikki, can you take that table in the corner for me please" I ask. There is no way I am going to be their waitress tonight. "Sure thing boss" she smiles as she makes her way to his table. I walk back to the bar. Even tho I am trying my best not to pay him no mind I still feel his eyes on me. I know he is watching my every move I feel it. "Hey," Chase bumps my shoulder with his "I am guessing things didn't go well with dick head over there".
I shake my head "Nope". I guess it's that noticeable that something is going on. "Is it because of me?" Chase asks with concern in his voice. I don’t want him to think he did anything wrong because he didn't. This has nothing to do with him. "Because if that is the case I'll go over there right now and set him straight" he turns to walk towards him. "No," I reach for his arm to stop him from going "it's not your fault". He gives me a small smile "you know if you would have given a chance it would have been much easier".
I can't help but to laugh "I highly doubt that". I know he is playing around we’ve been through this already and we both agree that we were better off as friends. Good friends. He brings me into him for a hug "If you need me to kick his ass I will". I would like nothing better for him to get his ass kick for being a dick but I don't want Chase to get into trouble over it. "Nah, it's fine let's get back to work" I pat him on his chest. He nods his head and walks away. I feel Tabios eyes on me but no matter how bad I want to turn to see him. I won’t.
As the night went by I tried my best not to look at him. I focus on doing my job and keeping myself busy. I take a seat at the bar and order a bottle of water. "Fancy seeing you here" someone says from beside me. I turn and find Crash "I work here remember" I say sarcastically. He nods his head as he smirk "Oh yeah that's right I am glad to see you recover from your accident". Of course he would know about that. I still feel like a complete dumb ass. He looks at me from head to toe as if he is trying to get me naked.
I am wearing a cute little white dress. I’m starting to feel uncomfortable having him this close. He is acting very strange "Thanks" I force myself to smile. "You know if you want to give it another try I can teach you how to ride the right way" he says. The first thing that comes to my head is the way Tabios hands were on my body as he was trying to teach me how to ride. I can't picture someone else teaching me. "No thank you" I shut him down. "Fine the offer stands if you change your mind" he tries brushing my hair with his finger but I move out his way. "Wow there girl" he chuckles. "I am not a fucking dog" I hiss. He chuckles as he nods his head “I get it now”. What the hell is he talking about?
He walks away before I can even ask him. I turn in my seat to follow him and that's when my eyes find Tabios. He is looking at me like he is ready to come over here a spank me. What the hell is his problem? I watch as Candyy slowly sits on his lap. She leans into him and licks his neck. I feel the urge to go over there and punch both of them in their fucking face. His eyes drop to my hands that are ball up into fist on my side. The side of his mouth lifts up into a smirk. He thinks this is funny.
He wraps his arm around Candyy’s back and positions her right on his cock. He is doing that on purpose he knows I am watching. I want to look away so fucking bad but I can't. I feel like he is challenging me. He reaches for her bra and unzips it; Candyy tits go flying right in his face. I don’t know how much more I can take. This is the fucking reason why I didn't want to be his friend. I knew this was going to happen. I knew that at the end I was going to be the one that came out hurt. Candyy leans back giving me a perfect view of Tabios. Even though in the inside I am fucking furious I won't give him the satisfaction of knowing that. I lift my water bottle up and cheer him on.
It takes everything inside of me to turn around in my seat but I do it anyways. "Are you alright?" Ashley asks. I feel tears in the back of my eyes but I refuse to cry. "Peachy" I respond. I need to get out of here. I feel like the club is getting smaller by the second. From the corner of my eye I see Candyy walking to the back room with Tabios. My chest tightens up and it's getting harder for me to breath. I lift my head to look at him, his eyes find mines. His eyes are begging for me to go over there and say something but I won’t. I can't even if I am dying in the inside to do so. We are just friends. This is for the best. I know it and he knows it. Than why does it fucking feel like my heart is getting ripped out of my fucking chest? I turn back around to the bar. I can't be here.
I reach for my purse "Can you tell Chase to close up I am not feeling well". Ashley nods her head "You're in pain?” I give her a small nod "You have no idea". I grab my keys and walk away. I need to get out of here before I do something I will regret. I don’t know where I am going. I don’t want to go back home because that would mean I’ll be alone with my thoughts and that’s the last thing I need right now. I need to be around people. I need to lose control have fun forget about everything and everyone. I know just the place.
I pull up to Sync. This is the perfect place. I can drunk and forget about everything. Pulse Hope is here she can drive me back home if I get to drunk. I walk straight to the bar. "Angel!" Hope yells as she sees me. "Hey love" I lean over the bar to give her a kiss on the cheek. She looks down at her watch and frowns "What are you doing here? It's only 12.” I really don’t feel like going into detail right now. "Tell you later. Right now what I need is a double shot of patron" I sit. She smiles and reaches for the good stuff "Here it’s on the house". I take the shot and enjoy the burning sensation as it goes down my throat.
"Another one" I order. Hope tries to stop me from drinking but I stop her before she can say something "not a word Hope, please". She presses her lips together and serves me my drink. I am going to drink until I forget everything and feel nothing.