21.0 Questions I am asked
The first question that comes to most peoples mind when I tell them of my conversion is “are you sure it was not just the LSD , Is it really true, did Jesus really speak to you or was it just the effects of LSD”.
To which I would now reply, “If it was just the effects of LSD then OK it was a remarkable experience but that was all and I don’t have to take any more notice of it. However:
1 It was real to me. I was so convinced that it changed my life over night. Of course I questioned it from time to time as I was the only one being effected and I had every thing to gain or loos by following Jesus. It depends upon the way y o u look at it. We know also Satan tempted Jesus in this way. How ever for 15 years I remained certain of its reality.
Yes of course it was true it really happened and my subsequent experience has been confirmed by the Word of God - the Bible and by believers and non believers.
2 God is well able to speak to people in dreams or on drugs.
3 God is able to speak to people wherever they are and in whatever state of mind or being they are in. God would not be God if he could not do so. It is my wish that God will speak to you through my (Testimony) i.e. writing about my experience.
4 I fell into serious doubts 15 years later and questioned every aspect of my own experience. I fell into depression and temptation and went through agony of soul and body for a period of 3 years. I finally concluded God did not exist and my experience was all in the mind.
This led me to reason of course any one’s life would be radically changed if they believed the gospel because it is so rational and sensible. It promises eternal life the forgiveness of sins and a relationship with God. It is bound to effect anyone who takes it seriously. I thought however the gospel might not be true and if it isn’t then it doesn’t matter what you believe or do.
I proved it does matter what you believe because look at me when I acted in unbelief5 I forsook God and the truth I had received and believed. Turning to many sinful ways too shameful to speak of.
6 God in his mercy drew me back in repentance and faith and I turned my back and the many hurtful ways I had got involved in.
7 I argue that God in his wisdom has allowed all these things to happen to me, both the good and evil , to bring me to the point of testifying to the truth of the goodness and mercy of God. It is my pleasure to do so. It is now as natural for me to glorify God as it is for a bird to sing.
May 12 th 1999.