“She doesn’t want to see you,” Dane guarded the door. He was massive, a giant compared to me but if I really wanted to I could get passed him. “What do you mean she doesn’t want to see me?” I folded my arms across my chest; too stubborn to leave without an explanation. “She’s ordered me not to let you in,” he told me. “Oh…well…fine, whatever,” I left. I was trying not to show it but my feelings were really hurt. Why didn’t she want to see me? Did she hate me for leaving her? Of course she hates me. I’m so stupid. Did I really believe rescuing her would make everything better? I cursed myself for a good while until retreating to the sky where the adrenaline rush would wipe my worries away. I threw my armor to the wind and spread my arms out wide. I closed my eyes and just flew. The altitude made the air harshly cold but I didn’t mind. Before I could fly I used to skateboard to clear my thoughts. This was much better. I loved the way the wind pressed against my cheeks and how I knew I was in total control of my life. I could free fall to my heart’s content or glide along lazily. Flying brought me solitude, freedom, control; it wafted away my worries and cooled my temper but today was different…today it wasn’t working. I let Fugin’s words seep through me, “Being bad feels so good…you hate people…you can be yourself around me.” Be myself? I didn’t know who that was, “You are the most beautiful person I have ever met,” echoed the memory of Ulrica’s seductive voice. I shook my head, what does she know? She’s a murderer what could her standards of a good person be? Then I remembered Adam defending me. Telling Fugin I was nothing like him. Instantly the thought of Adam flashed me back to him cradling Ulrica with such tender care. He came all the way to Fugin’s palace just to rescue her, and he was so angry when we all got our memory back and realized she had been left. “Do you think Ulrica would go out with me?” he once asked me. He must really like her. Why did I even care? I sighed heavily then threw myself to the sky till I could no longer breathe, then fell back to Earth.
The hallway was dark and Adam blended into the shadows easily, but he wasn’t surprised when Dane called out to him. “Can’t hide from me ninja boy,” he told him. “I wasn’t trying to,” said Adam. Dane moved away from the door so Adam could go in to see Ulrica.
The door creaked open and Ulrica peered up lazily. When she saw that it was Adam a pearly white grin with wolfish fangs encompassed her face, “Hey there sexy,” she greeted. Adam’s face flushed in embarrassment, “Cut the crap,” said Adam, pulling up a chair. She merely laughed at him, “Alright,” she said cocking her head to the side in fake confusion. “I know you only flirt with me to make Emma jealous,” said Adam. “Isn’t that why you do it?” her smile conniving. Adam pulled up a seat beside Ulrica’s bed and took in the sight of her. Most of her torture wounds had healed. Adam sat there in deep thought. How someone could endure so much pain unnerved him. Tears began to trickle down his cheeks, “I’m glad you’re safe,” he blubbered. “I heard you had gone soft. I didn’t think it was to this extent,” replied Ulrica. “It’s just a few scratches don’t worry about it.” Adam had gone over and over in his head about what he would say to her but nothing seemed to be coming out. “What is it?” Ulrica broke the silence and she was all serious now. “I hate to ask this of you, especially after what you’ve been through…” Ulrica cut him off,” Don’t pity me boy I am perfectly fine so wipe that look off your face and out with it. I can handle anything you throw at me,” her eyes were fierce. Adam took a deep breath, “I have to go away for awhile, but while I’m gone can you look after Emma for me?” he pleaded. “If you leave you’ll break her heart…she loves you,” said Ulrica, there was a touch of bitterness in her voice that Ulrica was unable to hide. “Yes, but the question is…is she in love with me?” replied Adam. Ulrica’s face turned to anger, “Does it matter? She needs you,” she told him. Adam shook his head, “She needs someone who doesn’t exist anymore. I have to go find that person,” said Adam, chin in his hands in deep thought. “Why can’t you learn to control your emotions here?” asked Ulrica. Adam stood in frustration his anger already getting the better of him, “Don’t you understand! Emma is my emotions. She’s…she’s everything and if I can’t control myself then how is she supposed to rely on me?” His voice broke, Adam clenched his fists and Ulrica watched as the scales along his skin slowly disappeared. Ulrica stood ignoring the pain in her leg as she walked over to Adam and hugged him harder than she had ever hugged a human before. “I understand,” she whispered in his ear. “Ulrica I need you to take care of her while I’m gone. She acts tough but…she needs you,” said Adam. Ulrica shook her head and laughed at Adam, “After seeing me like this,” she indicated her scars, “That is all she is going to remember now.” Adam looked at her like she was an idiot. “Do you even realize what you did?” asked Adam. Ulrica stayed silent. “You went through the most severe torture Emma has ever seen and didn’t break. That is what she sees,” Adam told her. Ulrica just sat there surprised by his outburst. “I’ll keep her safe,” she told him. Adam nodded then left as silently as he had appeared.
“What is it, visitor day?” asked Ulrica as Carmen entered the room shortly after Adam left. “I just have a few questions Wolvina,” said Carmen. “Shoot,” said Ulrica lying comfortably on the bed as relaxed as a puppy ready to nap. “First of all how are you feeling?” asked Carmen. Ulrica groaned, “I feel annoyed that people keep asking me that,” she pouted. Carmen laughed, “Alright now I need to know what you told Fugin,” she said bluntly. Ulrica narrowed her eyes, “I didn’t say a word.” “Nothing about Emma?” probed Carmen. Ulrica merely stared. “Alright,” nodded Carmen, “You know I had to ask,” she started to turn and leave but stopped. “I may not trust you…but I know you care for Emma and that’s enough for me to know your telling the truth,” Carmen left her with those short words.
I had been flying for what felt like hours but honestly I had no idea how long I had been up there only that I really had to pee. I was hunting down a bathroom when I saw a troop of Reciliux soldiers heading towards the medical wing.
“Ulrica,” I whispered and before I knew it I was racing towards her room.
When I got there Dane stood in my way, “Let me pass,” I told him. He gave me a dirty look but moved aside slamming the door shut behind me. “Emma,” Ulrica sat up surprised to see me and a little nervous. “The Reciliux are coming to arrest you we have to get you out of here,” I told her. She sat back down and shook her head. “I’m not going anywhere,” she told me. “What? Why?” I shook my head in disbelief, “It doesn’t matter. I won’t let them take you!” I declared. Ulrica just sat there looking at me. I wondered what she was thinking. “Did you really kill all those people?” I asked hesitantly. She merely nodded. “I know you’re a good person, Ulrica. I don’t care about any of that,” I told her and I realized it was true. It didn’t matter what she had done in the past Ulrica was my friend. She merely shook her head again and took my hand. “A bad person who does good things doesn’t make a good person,” said Ulrica. I want you to be proud of me Emma I’m doing this for you, Ulrica thought to herself but wouldn’t dare let her true feelings be known. The Reciliux entered the room and Ulrica put her hands out ready for the hand cuffs.
It was like a dream. I saw the soldiers march in. I saw them clamp handcuffs onto Ulrica’s small wrists. I saw her walk out without a fight, and I saw myself just standing there letting them take her away from me. I leaned against the wall trying to process everything that had happened over these past few days and found myself amazed at what just a few days could bring. “Hey,” said Adam, coming up beside me. “Hey,” I said back. It took me a minute to realize Adam was just standing there staring at me. “What are you looking at?” I retorted. “I just wanted to let you know that I’m leaving,” he told me. “Ok, see you later,” I replied. I heard Adam sigh in frustration, “I’m leaving, and I don’t know when I will be back,” he said again. “Will you bring me back a mountain dew? I’m kind of thirsty,” I asked him. Adam grabbed my shoulders, “Emma look at me,” he demanded. “I’m not coming back,” he said flatly. I stared at him dumbly. “Wha? Why? Huh?” I couldn’t make out an actual word only incoherent sentences escaped my lips. “Please don’t look at me like that,” Adam turned away. “You…you’re leaving me?” There was hurt in my voice as I held back tears. “Yes,” he told me. “Why?” I asked but before he could answer I said, “No, you can’t.” Adam turned his face away from me, “I’m going to train, try and get my emotions back under control, but I will be back in time for the tournament ok,” he started to walk away but I grabbed him. “Adam,” I said. “Emma do you like me better like this or the way I was before? I feel so… free, but if that means I’m a loose cannon then I can’t stay this way.” It was true Adam’s emotions were so raw nowadays I wasn’t sure how to react to him anymore. “I don’t know Adam. I feel like I can’t read you anymore,” I told him honestly. Adam looked at me as if I had just kicked him, “You don’t have to read me anymore Emma. I’m an open book now!
He smiled, “It’s weird because I feel great…but awful at the same time. I know I can’t stay this way. I’ve lost all control over myself, I can feel it…like something is broken inside me or an internal lock has been released.” “So stay here and train with us,” I urged. I saw no reason why he had to go gallivanting off without supervision. What if he turned all scaly again? He was just a Hulk bomb waiting to happen. “Do you love me?” Adam asked me. The question was so out of the blue I couldn’t respond.
“I tend to think a lot about the kind of man I am…and the kind of man I want to be,” Adam was facing the exit I could see his dark silhouette in the hallway light perfectly. I wanted to reassure him. Tell him everything would be ok but I didn’t. Instead I watched him walk away.