Remember, love does not restrict or suffocate another person, love is not controlling or
manipulative, love is Truth. If there are lies and mistrust, than it is not love. Love gives and expects
nothing in return. True love is selfless and unconditional. In all my relationships there were
problems... But even when every single one of them went wrong, I found out that I learned so
much, and thanks to those mistakes I became who I am today. I became more mellow, experienced
and just because there were heart breaks throughout my existence, that did not stop me from being
kind, generous and keep believing in the good inside my heart. My heart break experiences taught
me compassion and acceptance; they taught me the very fragile nature of human beings and their
beauty with all their flaws. Love allows us to grow and expand beyond the limits of what we know.
But the love from an guardian angel is by far the most exquisite. It is there, it is constant, ever
flowing. It is their very nature, they can't help it. No matter how many stupid annoying things I say
or do, he is still there, overflowing with love and compassion, always willing to offer comfort and
help. I wonder for how many life times we have known each other, but I know he knows me inside
out. And still, he sees my light and beauty even when I cannot see none of those in myself (hey,
even I have bad and very depressed days aswell). He doesn't care what I look like, if I am drunk, if
I talk too much or swear, kick and scream ! His love is there, unchanged. How can I not love him
back, how can I not feel impressed and overwhelmed at times or even confused ? Yes, angels are
different from humans because they never lost the ability to see others inside out, they never lived
in a physical world where all seems to be separate. Angels know that we are all part of the same
family, a very big family. Even you, are part of this family.
So yesterday I was just reading something interesting and very thought provoking. We live in a
world in which we have the illusion that we are all separate. So, the fact that no one "cares" about anybody but themselves is fruit of living in an illusory world. All and everything is energy, all and
everything is alive and has its own vibration. Plants are energy, people are energy, oceans are
energy, the Earth itself is energy, stars and galaxies are energy. Even a rock has its own energy.
Angels are perceived by some as bright energy spheres and so do people and animals. God / Source
is energy and everything in the Universe is energy. Intentions, thoughts and will power set those
energies in motion.
Now comes the amazing part. If all and everything is energy, we could only experience life fully
on earth and have free will and free choice because there are polarities (good bad, cold hot, etc).
So, that means that negative entities serve a purpose, they do have a job in the world, and in many
cases, the greater good of a soul comes out of experiencing both sides. Sometimes as a life lesson
(this is the reason why we are here, to learn! ), we need to experience negativity and difficulty to
achieve realisation / enlightment. In some cases, nasty diseases or traumatic accidents and events
could not be avoided by Archangels or even God because the souls' contract included going
through those events. To intercede and stop those events from happening would be trampling the
soul's free will. So, it is kinda strange to say this, but negative entities play a fundamental role in
this dimension, and sometimes because of them, souls can experience a wide range of
events and can evolve. Souls can break the negative vicious circle of karma by paying back with
love and forgiveness instead of hatred and fear. Negative entities being also energy, are also part of
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the great Universal family soup in which we all are, so I dare to say that we are all nothing else but
just a big family. How freaking amazing is that ? If tomorrow you get out in the morning for a walk
and start seeing everything and everyone around you as family: trees, people, foxes, insects, the
planet, the rivers, negative entities, angels and archangels, galaxies... Wow ! This is mad, we are
nothing else but energy balls floating. So that means that all there is, IS ENERGY! God / Source is
energy, so WE ARE ALL ONE.
Don't worry, it also took me a while to accept and see my own guardian angel as a family member,
even though they have never lived as humans, to still consider them and love them as a very large
family. I bet my guardian is smiling.
This is what I interpret: He (angel), will always love you and protect you. Even though no one will
see you as part of the unity/ family/ oneness, he will always see you as someone worth protecting.
He recognizes and acknowledges your uniqueness. His protection and love for you goes beyond
family ties, in other words, although you are different, to him he does not make a difference
because his love and protection are yours, all yours. So, you are a rare gem stone, and he has an eye
for very precious and rare gem stones. He shall keep you, although you are still in a raw state, he
will watch the rare gem stone being polished throughout time and space. You see, it is very
impressive because, diamonds and gemstones are quite rough and have got very little shine and
obvious beauty when they are first extracted from the mine. But you see, angels spot potential and
uniqueness from miles away. He knows and can see the final product, he knows and can see what
this beautiful diamond / gem stone is gonna look like once is cut in a certain way, polished and
perfected. It actually is a fascinating job. Diamonds have got to be cut in a certain way (usually
very complex 3D geometric shapes ) so that when light shines on them, they spark very brilliantly.
Also, many diamonds have got their little impurities within them, so when they are cut and
polished, their impurities have got to be removed so that the light can shine on them without
obstacles interfering / blocking the light rays.
But hey... Here comes the fascinating bit... are you ready ?
A diamond, no matter how well polished and refined, can only shine when light hits it. A diamond
does not possess a light of its own. A diamond possess great, enormous potential and value non the
less, but... would you get a diamond or even bother looking at them if you lived in a pitch black
world ? Of course not !
I dare to say (I do not know for sure, this is just me and my personal theory), that over time, you
will shine your angel's light on others. It is not your angel who polishes you, refines you and cuts
you, it will be Life and its difficulties and lessons that will play that part. But do not worry,
remember your Guardian Angel will always see your beauty and full potential. His light will
always shine on you. By "light" I mean, his love, his protection, his care, his undivided attention, his guidance, his peace, his wisdom and knowledge and much more. He will always hold his
beautiful gem stone in his hands, always. Let's think about this for a minute: let's see Archangels as
a ray of light that comes from the Source. That is in fact the best way I can compare Archangels to,
they are individual rays of light, each one is very unique, they all originate from the same exact
place (God), but their vibration, colour and properties are unique. Just the same
way you get many types of light (UV Light, Infrared, black lights, Xrays, gamma rays... etc), you
get many different and very unique Archangels. When an Archangel is given the job to protect and
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guide, usually, they will do their best to watch over those gemstone and keep one eye on them.
What happens over time ?
So, Archangels watch over other angels, right ? They project their "beam of light" on other angels, and by projecting it, that light gets filtered. What I am trying to illustrate is, that all of us have the
"light" from our Creator shining on us and through us uninterruptedly, that “light” is filtered by our angels throughout our entire existence, although we might not be aware of it or completely dismiss
/ ignore it.
Perhaps, angels wish to project an increasing amount of less filtered light once that gemstone (us)
has been polished to a certain level. The more polished and refined a gemstone is, the more it will
project and amplify the light that is projected onto it. This gemstone will spread, shine and scatter
this ray of light (from Source - Archangel - Guardian Angel ) onto other gemstones (people),
causing them to “awaken”. Does that make sense ? It is like, once a beam of light shines on a
beautiful diamond, that single beam of light, after crossing the diamond's walls, spreads and
showers onto others like a colourful and sparkling rain. And yes, all of us ARE PRECIOUS GEM
STONES ! No exceptions ! Even the beggar and drug addict down the road ARE GEM STONES
TOO! The true life purpose of every single human being on Earth is to manifest the light of the
Creator – this is what they call – “Heaven on Earth”. When other people see your light shining
through, they get a sense of what is it like to be the walking portrait of love, compassion, kindness
manifested onto the physical world. Through the fully polished and refined diamond without a
single trace of “impurities” left in it, other gemstones (people) will witness the full manifestation of
the light of the Creator, they will see and experience this in the presence of a fully refined polished
“diamond” (this description would apply to someone that manifests the full Christ consciousness,
without any ego/negativity left. This is not reserved for “special people”, all of us hold the
potential to manifest the Christ consciousness without exceptions, but most of us are sleep walking
in the dream of separation).
I sometimes am sitting here in front of the keyboard writing down these thoughts and somehow it
fascinates me, I wonder sometimes why are these thoughts coming to my mind...
Sometimes I feel like... we are in a big kindergarten, and in fact, we are all just kids. No matter
how physically old we may appear, our souls are like little kids. Somehow I feel like Angels are
like the babysitters and nannies looking after us, and guiding, allowing us to make our mistakes
and falls, and lovingly comforting and helping. But many of us have turned into rebellious bullies
that refuse their help even when they offer it
(remember, we have free will, they will not interfere with it! ). Hey, every kindergarten has its
bullies !! But this only gets even more interesting when looked from this perspective. I actually
dare to think that Angels are the real teachers. Without them, we would just be F*CKED !
Evolving and moving forward, to have a perception of life and purpose actually involves and
requires their assistance. To reach spiritual enlightment certainly involves their assistance. How
strange that most of us are sleep walking spiritually. How sad that most of us do not even bother
believing in the soul, angels and many other things. No wonder we are so blocked, no wonder we
are so stuck in this vicious circle pattern of not giving a damn about anybody because of our
deceitful way of thinking - thinking that we are all separate, when in fact, we are one, we are all
one. How sad and offensive that we see angels as pink and fluffy decorative amulets that we only
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remember
in Christmas... when we are decorating the Christmas trees !!!
I try to follow my hearts voice, but it is my choice. And yes, I have plenty of help and assistance.
But I can no longer deny that my path is not sleep walking 24/7 for 365 days a year. I know in my
heart and soul that I was put here for a very good reason. I know in my heart and soul that the gifts
I possess, my open mind, the beautiful warmth and peace I feel in my heart and the comfort that
strangers look from me in random times in my life were not a coincidence. It is not possible that I
am here for the first time. I know in my gut I have been here probably many times before. So, I
have been here and been polished and refined like a little gem stone. I sometimes shine the light
that is projected and sprinkle it on others (I do not always succeed). But I still have a long road
ahead of me. My own refinement, cutting and polishing is not done yet ... it does not matter, it has
been a beautiful experience non the less. I am glad and feel privileged to
be here among you. Life for me is only starting to make sense now. In the past 6 months everything
I went through in this life time is starting to make perfect sense. It has been perfectly orchestrated.
And like Marlin Monroe said in one of her all time Hollywood classics - Diamonds Are Forever !
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I MADE IT, YOU CAN TOO!
I was abused as a young girl. I went through humiliation and bulling in school. I had some bad
relationships and been out there with some odd people. I turned into a loner for many years and
was seeking what was the meaning of being alive. I just did not fit in. But I tried very hard to stay
true and honest to my heart, my inner guidance. My heart has always saved me. When I thought I
was worthless my heart told me to look within and see my beauty. When I thought I was all wrong
for this world, my heart told me to be strong and believe in my dreams. When I lost my hope, my
heart showed me the beauty of the world around me. One day, when I was crying my heart told me:
"You have got everything to be happy." - at first, I ignored it. Then came a time when I decided to believe that I deserved better. So I followed my heart. When I followed my heart, my life started to
change, change a lot ! I can barely recognize the teen I was and the woman I am now. Now I smile,
I have hope and dreams, and yes, I am still a kid at heart, but after so many years of blindness and
despise towards myself, after so many years of letting people trample me, use me and discart me,
after so many years of despising people, I decided to quit being the victim and take control of my
life.
Do not ever underestimate the power of your will. Your will is the most powerful force. If you
desire death and destruction, death and destruction will come your way. But I ask you to silence
your mind and all random thoughts, just quiet the mind. When you do so, ask your heart: what do
you dearly wish more than anything ? I bet your heart will whisper - "love, peace and healing".
You cannot find love outside of you, no one will ever value you or respect you if you have got no
self love and self respect for your own self ! Love yourself dearly with all your might, learn to see
your beauty (inner and outer beauty).
When you value yourself and think of yourself as deserving of respect and see yourself as a highly
intelligent and valuable human being, you will take sh!t from no one, no one will trample you
because you will not allow it, because your heart will shout:
"I deserve to live, I deserve better because I am a valuable and very special human being! No one
else in the whole world is like me BECAUSE I AM UNIQUE !!"
You may think: "if I can't find love outside of myself, then love doesn't exist and is a
figment of my imagination."
Well, I found love inside of myself after many years of rape, beating, screaming and bulling, I am
still here, I survived it all because I found love within my own heart. If love was a figment of my
imagination, I should had disappeared from the map 20 years ago. Even animals know love, and
they are animals! Like I said to you, hush your mind and listen to your heart.
Do you know what do I do now ? Now I look back at those years of pain and misery and I thank
my aggressors and bullies, now I am grateful to them. Now I found the courage to look at them and
feel compassion for them, now I forgive them, but only now I have the courage and understanding
to look back and do not feel hatred for those people. Now I look at my aggressors and I want to
thank them, because of them, I am who I am today. I became a stronger person, wise and willing to
help others who are going through the horrific things I went through when I was a young kid.
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Because of my life experience, I now can help others and help them understand and overcome their
pain. If love and self respect did not exist, I would not be here today. I am here today, and I stand
tall and strong because of what I went through. I am the living proof that love and hope exist, I am
the living proof that we have free will, and that our will power is tremendously powerful. Believe
in your heart's voice and you will survive. Believe in your suicidal thoughts, and you won't make it.
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SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF THE SAME GOD
I feel kinda sad, because the toughest thing in life is to be a victim of other people's cruelty and still find in your heart the strength to forgive those who have done us wrong.
There is so much bitterness and resentment after so many years of discrimination and verbal abuse.
I sometimes think we have become used to the idea that we should only forgive when the offender
apologises... ?! Really ??
If a burglar takes my money and jewellery, why should I wait for him to apologise to me in order
to forgive him ? We were taught that hatred should be paid back with hatred and revenge. We think
that “justice” is done in court rooms… we have long forgotten the true meaning of justice.
To quote from the “Peaceful Warrior” film:
“The ones who are hardest to love are usually the ones who need it the most. I read once
somewhere a statement by a serial killer : The only cure for crime is love; All else is just more
crime. Buddha could have said that”
This breaks my heart, why aren't we being taught in school as small children to understand and
forgive each other and accept our uniqueness and colour / religious differences, why are we all
playing the game:
" - If you do not apologise to me first, I ain't forgiving you. If you are different, I shall hate you."
My sister was a Catholic nun for 8 years, and even while she was at convent for those 8 painful
years, she was hated and despised by the other nuns simply because she thinks differently, she saw
that what they taught and what they did were two completely different things! Yesterday I called
home and my dad and sister live under the same roof, they can't stand each other, it is like a battle
field all the time. I feel very sad, they are still throwing at each other pathetic arguments about
things that happened 15 years ago! For what ? Aren't we all one spirit, one soul, one mind, one
body, one with God, one with all and everything ?? Why keep living in this illusion of being
different, separate, detached from each other, this "rat race" philosophy that we have to be better, fitter and stronger than A, B or C individuals ? So, are we reducing Life to some sort of pathetic
"competition"? But what exactly are we all competing for ? Aren't we all gonna shed
away these physical bodies in a few earth years anyway ? Aren't we all the daughters and sons of
the same God ? We are just old souls wearing flesh, we have all been in this world many times
before.
I am only now starting to realize the wonderful "Teacher" I have:
Some time ago, I was in work when the first client appears and the first personal question he asks
when he meets me is " - Where are you from?"
I asked him:
" - Is that really relevant?" and he replied:
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" - Of course, it is very important to me!"
So I refused to tell him my nationality and he left the shop!
So, let’s put it this way - if I had the flu and got in the ER in Hospital, should I tell the nurse and
doctors to f*ck off if I do not like their nationality ? If tomorrow I am dying and the only
compatible liver donor available is from a black and gay person, shall I turn it down ? What the
heck!!
I know in my heart that God is a wonderful teacher, He was shows us He loves everyone the same
way, He has no favourites, it was the equivalent of telling me loud and clear:
“ - Do not judge people for their colour, nationality, preferences or ideas, you are one with all of
them, love them as you love yourself, for when you cause harm to another person, you are only
causing harm to your own self, but when you love one another you are celebrating and praising
Creation and the Creator Himself.”
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HOPE IS AROUND THE CORNER…
Dear all,
Yesterday I was walking to work, and as my spirituality grow and as I learn to trust my gut/heart
and learn new things along the way, I have started to look at things on a different light.
I live in a big city, but not just any concrete jungle, it is also a busy capital! As I was strolling
along one of the many bridges over the city canals, I was thinking:
" - I am amazed by the fact that so many things I thought to be fake and human imagination are
actually true (animals that have feelings and extraordinary intelligence, the American Indian's
knowledge of Mother Nature, the Yogis and their immense and honourable wisdom, the awareness
of the presence of God in all and everything and how close He is if only we pay attention, the
presence of angels willing to help and assist us throughout our human existence, etc). I am amazed
at the fact that for so many years I had locked myself living in a world of fantasy created by myself
to be able to cope with my darkness and misery in life. I am amazed at how the things that I have
learned in the last 3 months are very real things and how sad it is that I have ignored them or
dismissed them as fantasy or imagination. I am so glad that I am slowly starting to acknowledge all
these wonderful and very real things".
And just as I was preparing to cross the road, something in me told me to look to my right side and
there I saw a gigantic poster on a building with the words:
"About Time" - and as I finished reading these words, I did burst into nearly uncontrollable
laughter and thought to myself:
" - Yeah... You are probably right! It is ABOUT TIME to get out of the spiritual closet..."
A few minutes later, while rock music was blasting out of my MP3 player, for some reason, in the
greyness of the tall buildings of this jungle against the dullness of the grey sky and the noise of the
mad traffic on my left hand side, I looked at my right side, for no particular reason, I noticed a
stunningly beautiful, yet so simple wild weed with a fragile bright pink flower growing on the busy
pathway. Yet, for some reason I could just not dismiss the mental image that that beautiful wild
flower left imprinted in my mind, it was growing against the lifeless dull grey. Then later that day
it came to me, the thought hit me like a brick:
" - A message of hope. There is still hope." - and now I am in a state of deep thinking wandering, submerged in the following thought: