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CHAPTER 9

It had been a perpetual struggle for him.

His overriding sense of redundancy would present the advocacy for the futility of any exercise

first up. Mayank was advised by many not to smother initiatives by his penchant for „over

thinking?. „Do it and then regret is always better than regret not doing anything...most wonders

of the world are accidental and almost all geniuses are first exercise towards stupidity?, a wellwisher

had told him once.

Mayank never believed in such pep talk. He knew it well that humanity had to face the dire

consequences of hundreds of accidents before one of them could click as a wonder. The world

bore the brunt of loads of stupidity before a miniscule portion of it could stand the test of a

genius. One needs to be sure which was the larger evil; thoughtful inaction or un-thoughtful

action. He would admit that his preference for former was born out of the fact that he was living

in a world where over activity was destroying more than it was creating.

Creativity should ideally be fueled by reason and not necessarily by necessity. The contemporary

age of necessity-driven creativity and activity had designed many geniuses which actually

deserved the rightful nomenclature of stupidity. He believed in thoughtful inaction because of

two simple reasons. First was his adherence to the conservation of energy theory which he had

learnt to put to smart use from his favorite cricketer. It said, „when the ball is new in the morning

session of the game, the bowler is fresh and full of energy and the morning humidity helps the

ball to swing both ways; the opening batsman should keep a low profile and conserve his

energies in saving his wicket, leaving the ball watching his off stump and avoiding flashy

strokes. The batsman would surely have his time when the ball would turn old, the bright Sun

would soak away the moisture and the bowler would tire?. Genius was not always in confronting

the risks one up but in understanding and managing them well. Patience is a smart wife of a

genius. Secondly, he knew it quite well that if one is not sure of the ends, however bright and

noble the means be; it cannot be a justification for initiative. Good intentions ending up as bad

inevitable and consequent regrets made poor history. Individual regrets get washed away by an

innocuous sorry but the overall toll on the body of society is long lasting.

The meeting of the owner with the chief minister had gone well and as it was planned to be. A

happy Boss had asked Mayank to mail him all issues which he believed were important for the

betterment of the newspaper and the company?s performance; or what he had in his heart. He had

his flight the same day but he promised he would come next week and will discuss in detail all

those issues which Mayank would mention in his mail.

The sense of futility of the exercise had consumed the whole evening and he could not write a

single line as part of his mail to the owner. He slept the whole night allowing his sense of being

to drift away. This was his usual practice to arrive at an objective and unattached mindset before

launching on a new initiative. He woke up at 4 in the morning; swallowed a waft of morning

breeze filling his lungs and assuring him of a sense of well-being. For him, being positive and

being bereft of negativity had different meaning. The whole previous evening he felt the unease

and could not write a word but the morning brought him the positivity which eluded him earlier.

He could find touch with his objectivity. He had begun to see things in its largest possible

perspective. One after one, thoughts came drifting in as he sat near the window, looking at the

eastern horizon, where the Sun had heralded its ascent, beaming a radiant orange color in the sky

just above where earth kissed the sky --

„We have drifted too far... so far that the vision of rational objectivity is blurred… truth?s

reasonable veracity looks like well beyond average human?s sensory perceptions. Trust of human

mind and soul too has its limits... mind and soul just cannot build trust around an idea or object

which has lost its chastity and elemental originality way back in human evolution till date.

Acquired knowledge, intuitive awareness and transcendental realism, all are bound to be

expressed through a very restrictive pool of human-created words, in order to be relocated from

one being to another. Words however are the failed media of intention-transference of humanity.

Words are at best the most mediocre mode of human communication and at worst the first

qualifier benchmark for humans to rise above animalism. Human languages anyway are not the

first preference of individual self but a secondary compulsion of collective being and social

living. The intellectual contradiction of the universe is that the capacity of human mind is

currently amenable only for “known” realm whereas the most important intellectual acquisitions

fall in the realms of “Unknown and Unknowable” – the former is still to be understood but can

be known on a future date and later is to be realized but cannot be known.

„If human intellectual acquisitions and perceptional properties are attempted to be shared or

bequeathed to others and especially the generation-next, one has to work his or her way around

and circumvent this quintessential paradox of contemporary human wisdom.

This can happen to

a good extent… words can be a reasonably sound media and can carry a lot of true sense if one

simple assumption is fulfilled. In contemporary state of affairs of humanity, one thing is for sure

– you cannot teach anyone but anyone can learn! You can speak a lot but cannot be sure how

little or what the other has actually listened. Human communication has a precarious absurdity.

Transmission is no guarantee of equal reception and what finally lands at the end of reception

may not always be what was transmitted. If someone is willing and has the necessary mental

level, he or she can understand even with the help of the restrictive words from the human

inventory. Even silence speaks better than thousand words. A good soul had said, “If a husband

and wife are in best of communication, they will mostly be silent. More they talk, less they

communicate”. All languages, other than what human mouth speaks, communicate better and

breed less strife and negativity.?

Mayank smiled at his own tragedy. He was presented with an opportunity to communicate with a

person who needed to understand him and his words in their true sense but Mayank knew he did

not have anything favorable. What one has to say to other is like an aircraft and it has to land in

the mind of the person for whom it is meant to be understood. The safe landing depends not only

on pilot but also on the runway on the ground. If the plane is not provided with good runway

facilities, the plane may never land or it would crashland.

He could not resist the sense of history creeping in his mind. He chuckled at the thought that

when he would grow old and would have no strength and engagement left but to savor the

reminiscence of his past life, he would only laugh at what would then certainly look like a huge

stupidity. But he did not let his sense of history get control of him. He allowed the thoughts to

come in --

„We must first understand what our capacity is as human beings to perceive and receive things.

How can we say how this world is, what is the cosmic truth if we do not ascertain what our

capacities are for understanding things. You can only understand what your sensory faculties

allow you to and what your mind can process. Geniuses of the world admit that human brain is

still not good enough to understand the larger questions of life and the cosmos. Though, the vast

areas of human brain and its overall functioning are still to be understood, still, it can be safely

accepted; human mind basically operates through images that it gathers through the most potent

of human sensory faculty called eyes. That is why; it is an old human wisdom to believe as true

only that which the eyes see. Mind is still evolving… it facilitates many functions for humans

but what it seems to do is unleash a self-operative image-mixing as well as image interpolation

and extrapolation…! There does not seem any rule and order for such image-mixing; rather it

may depend on which particular image becomes lead input and which others become secondary

and tertiary ones. This almost free-hand image-mixing of mind keeps most humans in a state of

confused realism.

„It can also be believed that human brain is essentially status quoist.

This status quoism emanates

out of the instinctive urge of human brain to preserve the body. Status quoism is a preservatory

instinct. But the five senses incessantly feed the brain with new images and are truly the carriers

of change. Naturally, the brain responds to them but it has the tendency to settle for a template

with fixed spaces for different images, depending upon weight and importance assigned by the

five senses, past antecedents and ambient culture. However, this process is not very simple and a

human brain needs lots of leisure and time space in a stable environment to create a template

after screening the inputs subjectively. Unfortunately, life has been so fast, leisure has become so

rare and social milieu is so instable and wildly competitive that brain is in a continuous flux.

Therefore, contemporary humans see lots of transitional templates which mind has not fully

processed and stabilized as an objective template suitable for status quoism. What people call

“wisdom” is essentially a well-processed template which brain marks as final for preserving

(status quoist mode). What five senses feed to the brain constantly is just information. The

partially-processed templates of human brain consisting mostly of information only and that too

the contradictory ones, is the trouble of the contemporary generations.

Human brain needs lots of

leisure and by denying it to the brain; we have complicated things for us and the world we live

in. The lack of leisure and stability has hit hard the very instinctive urge of preservation as the

human brain gradually starts producing templates full of images of annihilation rather than

preservation. The contemporary brain is probably creating such immature templates which send

confused or wrong signals to the body, undermining its own judgment of well-being and

preservation. Modern era has witnessed a major surge in accident related deaths, suicides and

long-term annihilative lifestyle diseases and anomalies that lead to unnatural deaths. Mental

problems and psychosomatic troubles are on the rise. For preservation and good growth human

brain needs to create good and stable templates and store them. These templates human brain

starts storing from an early age of 4-5. These first set of templates create a “benchmark” within

human brain which are usually created within 12-14 years of human existence. These first set of

templates in entirety form human conscience. Many people like to call it the “heart” or the

“soul”. To most humans, the heart and mind are two different perceptory faculties. They seem to

exist separately. Most people believe there is a soul within that is separate from human mind and

it is detachable from human body. This soul or what most people perceive as a human

consciousness above the body limits is this first set of “fully-processed templates” which works

as a benchmark for all future template making and that?s why looks like existing separate from

brain.?

Mayank essentially was a man of his first conscience. He understood the social problems of

being in a perpetual state of a 12-yeal old mind but he firmly believed his social personality as a

12-year old served him best. At least, it saved him of series of hypocrisy which he believed was

the primary sin of humanity. He understood the risk of being labeled an emotional fool, an

impractical person and worst as a self-styled martyr but he had the brave heart to rise above the

criticism and adhere to his first conscience which so far had fetched him not much success in

traditional sense of the term but immense satisfaction. He had decided quite early in his life that

he would love to go to the grave with his hard-earned satisfaction and with a 12-year old

conscience, whatever be his actual age. He had seen many people die before his eyes and had

drawn confidence from the fact that all of them, who died at a ripe age, left for heaven as a 12-year old. He had naturally concluded that something, humans start and end with must be the

superior intelligence. Innocence was what humans started and ended their lives with. Innocence

naturally was the superior intelligence and he opted to remain with it, knowing very well that this

superior intelligence was not profitable by societal definition; often painful but very satisfying.

The communication between Mayank and the owner was a difficult one. His preference always

was innocence of his first conscience but for the owner, innocence meant a great shortcoming

and a definite burden for business. The templates of brains of the two were diametrically

opposed. Naturally, a resultant gap created a huge breach of trust. Making a bridge of true and

meaningful communication was very difficult. But, the communication had to happen. The

challenge was not in making it a fruitful one (it was a non-starter even as an idea) but was in

making it less catastrophic. He knew the owner was habituated to seeing any request or proposal

of initiative in business terms; to be valued with an eye towards profitability of the enterprise.

The ROI (return of investment) syndrome had become a typical trait of most corporate

personalities. He would be reluctant to accept changes which would mean taking risks to attain

something not directly linked with profitability in the short run.

He remembered; the sales head had told him after his resignation, „It is easy for you to risk your

rupees 25 k job but very difficult for the Boss to risk his 250 crore empire for changes that you

want him to accept?. The sales head had told him clearly, „So far as the boy stands first in his

school exams, the parents are least bothered where he spends his nights?.

He clearly hinted that

as the newspaper was still in good profit, the owner would be least inclined to initiate any

changes. Only crisis makes justification for changes. He had listened carefully to what sales head

told him and even appreciated his viewpoint on the disposition of the owners. He even accepted

it to be a reality with the Boss.

He was now past his first dilemma and had entered a stage where the conflict was not about

whether to say or not as he had decided to say irrespective of what fruitfulness it promised. The

argument now was to decide what to say. There were lots of issues with media overall and print

media in particular about which he would have loved to talk with the Boss.

But he had good

understanding of the fact that attention span of successful and big people was very short and if he

loaded the Boss with too many problems, he would certainly believe that Mayank was a

frustrated and insecure guy seeking undue attention and importance. The challenge was to pick

up selected issues which could actually hit the interest zone of the Boss.

He also had to keep an

eye on the personality of the owner to ascertain which style of communication would serve his

purpose.

Mayank thought, he would be most pleased and the owner would have been best served if he

could talk primarily about media in the cosmic and spiritual sense. If the Boss could understand

the root issue, he would be spared of the trouble, time and energy to explain the trunk, branches

and leaves. He believed; media needed to be understood in the broadest possible sense. The

cosmos is the media; the life itself is the most potent media. The energy, which runs the cosmos,

is a media. A media is never an end unto itself; it is just a means. Means empowers, it facilitates,

and works as a catalyst for attainment of ends but it cannot be end in itself. And, that?s why; all

good media must have two prerequisites; purity and purpose. The chief trouble with

contemporary media is the chaos and confusion about the two. There is a tendency to get

confused over what is typically associated with media - the objectivity! He had seen enough

misuse of objectivity both in life and media he worked in. He had always been very categorical

that objectivity is never the best practical benchmark for quality and utility. Objectivity, in its

purest sense is near impossible. And if true objectivity is taken into consideration, it often lands

things in a state of non-belief. The ideal benchmark, he believed was purity and purpose.

Each human life is also a media and to understand the purity and purpose of media, one should

also understand life. In human life also, there is complete chaos and confusion about role and

purpose. The defining line between ends and means is blurred and confusion rules supreme when

it comes to deciding things with utmost objectivity.

It seemed to Mayank; the very intrinsic urge of every living cell for self-preservation along with

this perceptional reality about a soul as something detachable from perishable body has created

the templates of hell, heaven, other life and even moksha. Cosmic evolution is a huge

astrophysical event-chain and one single human life is such a petty particle of this chain that it

hardly matters. However, the primeval instinct of aping each other has now created a potent

force and humans in a collective state of things are in a strong position to at least affect their own

petty environment in the world called earth which in itself is like a small particle in the

immensely colossal cosmic system.

If viewed on the basis of complete objectivity; it is essentially a cosmic duty and real purpose of

life for each human body to pass on the gene to the coming generation which is more evolved

and better endowed (not necessarily the Darwinian way) than what one received from the past

generation so that the cosmic evolution is powered positively. This process of healthy gene

transference itself presupposes all goodness of humanity like, social peace and harmony, healthy

family system, personal trust and care, good life & living with sufficient leisure, social

equanimity, sound education, collective living, etc. The word “gene transference” as every

human?s “cosmic duty” and “purpose of life” sounds quite pedantic and too mechanical to be

acceptable but then, objectively the truth looks like only this one. This objectivity however is so

beautifully wrapped in a series of sensually appetizing follies, which revealed souls have called

“Maya” that most average people would accept this as purpose of life. If we say to a young man

that his purpose of life is transfer his best gene to next generation he would term it abject

madness. But tell him that the real purpose of life is to attain social peace and harmony, healthy

family system, personal trust and care, good life & living with sufficient leisure, social

equanimity, sound education, collective living, etc; he would be impressed and accept it. Many

others will gladly accept moksha as the purpose of life. Objectivity is for evolved souls but

average people do not and cannot see things with such high objectivity. For them, it is better that

things are interpreted in terms of purity and purpose. That is why, it is said, „all objectivities are

not practically sensible and all subjectivities are not ultimately bad?.

Unfortunately, both for humanity and media; there is always a huge confusion about means and

ends. Mayank remembered, a great writer had once said in one of his stories, „most people spend

half their lives preparing for life...?. It was a real tragedy that even today, three fourth of

humanity on earth spend their whole life fighting for survival. Of the rest of a quarter, majority

waste their lives either stacking resources for good life or indulging in resourcefulness and

abundance. The media has similar fate; either struggling for survival or indulging in insurance of

abundance. Mayank was part of a media which had no issues of survival. His newspaper group

was a large empire; the venture was sitting pretty on a profitability position and had a long

secure future. Its marketing instincts and team were both perfectly geared up for any corporate

struggle to keep notching up higher profitability benchmarks every year.

The media in India

anyway was having a good time as literacy and purchasing power were growing much higher

than the population growth rate. The overall economy parameters were all in reasonably good

health and there was no panic, some cautions apart. This, Mayank felt was the right time for

media, especially his own newspaper to think of the purity and purpose.

He did not think changes were always risky. Even if it were, many media houses had enough

resource to take the risks but they were not taking it because of lack of knowledge and not

because of the reluctance to take risks. The content of all media needed to be reviewed in the

light of the new purpose which a vast set of changes had brought forward.

Most media

leaderships and owners actually did not truly understand the changes that pervaded India and

therefore he felt there were little initiatives taken in right direction.

The trouble, as he visualized, with most in media was truly representative of the average

person?s psyche. People in general are mostly reactive to situations and not proactive and this

was since ages. Civilizations that excelled depended on proactive thinking.

The proactive

thinking, which necessitates beforehand initiatives, involves risks.

Proactiveness usually emerges

when there is a calculated risk taking to attain an end which may not seem a probable reality in

present but a highly possible yes in near or distant future. Reaction on the other hand creates

initiatives mostly for handling current crisis to check damage to a contemporary position.

Reaction is for retaining what is there but proactiveness is for attaining which should ideally be

there.

Any big leap forward of humanity impacts every human life in some way or other. Nations, civil

societies, families and individuals get affected but how and how much depends on lot of factors.

Mayank had known, through his knowledge of history that all major developments in the world

had three things in common. First, most of these developments were very good- intentioned and

originated out of the long struggle or deep pain of humanity to make the world a better place to

live. Second, it is a real curse that only a small group of people initiated actions over good ideas

but they seldom penetrated and reached to the mass levels. Mayank being a man from media had

learnt a hard lesson that all goodness started with a minority voice and needed support from all

possible media to reach the masses to ascertain authentication from the majority. He regretted

that most goodness in the past had either got a bad media or no media. The

„no media? was not as

perilous as the „bad media?. He learnt the sad reality that in the long history of civilized nations

and civil society, the media of their times failed to rise up to occasion and chiefly because the

leaders of media were themselves very poorly knowledgeable and aware. The end result was low

or unfocused people participation to support the goodness. The third and important thing was the

natural corollary of the second. As the goodness could not assure involvement and participation

of the majority, a small group of unscrupulous people very cleverly entered the scene as

middlemen and usurped the benefits in connivance with the authorities entrusted with the task of

delivery of the goodness. Here too, he felt, historically, media failed in its role to preempt and

prevent such unwanted usurpation. Rather, in most cases, media and its leaders proved hand in

glove with the pilferage mechanism and enjoyed undue heavens.

He realized the importance of two prerequisites for the success of any goodness that was initiated

for general well-being of humanity. First and foremost was a very aware and proactive media

and secondly, a well-oiled regulatory mechanism for fast and steady penetration and reach to the

masses as well as the insurance that goodness reached in the right and avowed shape and size.

Human ingenuity for pilferage was instinctive; it cannot be completely done away with. It has

been said hundreds of years back by a wise man, „nobody can understand and check when a fish

drinks water while swimming in water?. Self is an undeniable reality and selfishness is also very

natural. It comes out of the genetically designed urge for self-preservation of any living cell. The

nobility of human selfishness is however a social product. The fear or care for social approval

and reprimand decides the intensity of inclination of selfishness to indulge in ingenuity of

pilferage. The basic fear is the fear of majority and the only potent check on human ingenuity.

Human beings are social creatures by nature and what they really dread is not hell or law of the

land but complete isolation from the society. That is why; the only successful insurance for

success of any goodness is the acceptance of majority. Corruption could not be successfully

checked in most nations as our society in general not only approved of it, rather also encouraged

it. We made the rich our icons eulogizing how he pilfered the w